won't your conscience ache

When Lin Pei walked out of the cinema, he accidentally saw a person at the automatic ticket office.

The scene was somewhat familiar.

Lynch looked back at him.

It was cold in the hall, Lin Pei walked towards him, untied the scarf and wrapped it around Lin Si's neck, and tied a knot for him. "Why are you here?" He straightened his scarf and looked at Lin Si's face. The lights in the theater were dark and cool, and Lin Si's dark eyes were very beautiful under this light.

Lynch reached out to touch his face.

Lin Pei felt that he really liked Lin Si. He moved closer and smelled the smell of Lin Si. It was hard to say the word "brother". He gently brushed Lin Si's hair and called him in a low voice, " Lance." He put an arm around Lance.

The scene was a bit ambiguous. Although it was a midnight show, it was still Christmas. There were still many people in a theater of this size, with footsteps coming and going, and children running on the ground.Lin Pei did it on purpose, he wanted to see Lin Si's embarrassing appearance on this occasion, but he failed, Lin Si looked unchanged.Feeling bored, he raised his hand and rubbed the ends of Lin Si's hair carefully.

"Why are you here?" he asked.

"The meeting is over, come and see you."

"Is it cold?"

"not cold."

"Why is it so boring to listen to you?" Lin Pei smiled, "How long have you been here?"

Lin Si didn't speak, but looked at the smile on Lin Pei's face.

There is a vending machine selling transparent candies next door, and there are children in elk costumes queuing up to buy candies. The movie and the opera started at the same time, and a group of children rushed to the infield. Lin Pei took out two coins from his pocket and put them in A few crystal candies fell out of the vending machine, and Lin Pei reached out to catch them.

Lin Pei unwrapped the candy, "Want to watch a movie?" He didn't believe that Lin Si was standing at the ticket vending machine just to serve as a backdrop.

Lin Si looked at him and nodded, "Yeah."

"What do you want to see?"

"It will be all right."

"What does it mean? Then don't read it," Lin Pei looked at him leisurely, as if feeling disappointed, "Go back."

Lin Si subconsciously stretched out his hand and grabbed Lin Pei, who was walking straight away, but he didn't let go. Lin Pei looked back at him, Lin Si suddenly didn't know what to say, he never knew how to deal with this situation In this situation, until Lin Pei turned around and hugged him against the wall.

Lin Pei looked at him for a long time, and finally couldn't hold back his laughter. He lowered his head and kissed Lin Si. He liked Lin Si so much that he felt incredible, and cursed softly, "Fool ’” He hugged Lins tightly.

The next moment, Lin Si felt his lips freeze, and a candy approached his mouth.

"Merry Christmas, General."

Lin Si looked at him, a little unresponsive, and Lin Pei was amused by that, "Eat, are you afraid I'll be poisoned?" He fed Lin Si the peeled candy bit by bit, and looked at his face with his eyes. It was the audience who kept coming in. He thought that Lin Si would blush, but Lin Si swallowed the candy and stared at him with a pair of dark eyes, as if he could see through his mind.

The next moment, Lin Si reached out to embrace him, bowed his head and kissed him.

Lin Pei's pupils dilated instantly, and the sweet taste permeated between his lips and teeth. He almost didn't bounce up, brushed and stretched out his hand to push Lin Si.

"Happy holidays." Lin Si lowered his head and kissed Lin Pei's forehead, "I love you."

Lin Pei froze there for a long time without recovering, his face suddenly turned red.

Lin Pei, who was teased for a while, couldn't believe it. It took him a long time to come back to his senses. He stared at Lin Si for a while, and dragged Lin Si to watch a Lunar New Year movie.He didn't make things difficult for Lin Si any more. Lin Pei really could look at whatever he wanted, so Lin Pei left after grabbing two tickets.

The noise in the broadcast hall was far more lively than the horror movie theater next door.

Lin Si didn't watch movies much, instead he kept watching Lin Pei. Under the light, Lin Pei's face was very delicate, and his blue eyes looked very gentle.

On the way out, the Midnight Theater staff gave everyone a plush red Santa hat.

Children wearing big red Santa hats ran past him and Lin Si, and two of them almost ran into Lin Si. Lin Pei subconsciously grabbed Lin Si's arm. When he looked up and saw Lin Si looking at him, he squinted He rolled his eyes and dragged him out.He liked to hold Lin Si very much. When he held people in his hands, he felt an inexplicable sense of security. Walking on the street, even his future became clear.

There is no snow in Don Quixote all year round, except for Christmas. The weather has cooled down. From zero o'clock, the snow is falling, and the sky is lighter and brighter than usual.The engineers who designed Don Quixote had the clumsy romanticism unique to science and engineering scientists. The falling snow was thick and big, like small white clouds, and the children all over the street were screaming crazily.

This is an annual event, and the children of the empire only see snow like this once a year.

Lin Pei turned around and wrapped the scarf tightly around Lin Si, holding his hand and walking aimlessly in the heavy snow. He really enjoyed this peaceful time very much.The colorful Christmas tree is easily reminiscent of fairy tales. Children gather around the tree and listen to Santa Claus telling stories. This reminds him of himself in his childhood and Lin Si as a teenager. The screen appears.

That scene was completely different from his past memories, from colors to sounds so vivid, he could almost hear the squeak of shoes on the old attic floor.

He was in the small attic with the young Lin Si, and he fled from Lin Si's grasp in a jiffy, flipped onto the bed and hid under Lin Si's quilt, and the young Lin Si directly lifted a corner of the quilt and looked at him.

"come out."

"elder brother……"

"Don't call me brother."

"Brother, brother, brother," the child opened his mouth wide and took a deep breath, "brother, brother, cluck, cluck, cluck, cluck, cluck, cluck, cluck, cluck, cluck, cluck, cluck, cluck, cluck, cluck." The child laughed and rolled over under the quilt, covering his head and shaking non-stop.

The young Lin Si who was so frightened took two steps back: "..."

It was a scene that Lin Pei had forgotten so long ago, it was suddenly revealed, and it was still brand new.Lin Pei's footsteps paused, as if nothing had happened, he pulled Lin Si who looked up at the snow slightly, and continued to walk forward.

Early the next morning.

Sawyer went to the office with the financial statement, and just knocked on the door, he realized that something was wrong inside, it was a strong intuition.The door opened, and he saw Lin Pei unhurriedly let go of Lin Si, and looked back at him.

Lin Si looked at the frozen Sawyer, "Come in."

Sawyer put down the report and didn't say a word of nonsense. After leaving the office, he looked back and Lin Pei followed him at some point.

"Master?"

Lin Pei sized him up for a while, "Sir, I want to ask you something."

The green-haired adjutant rang the alarm and broke out in a cold sweat.

The two sat down in the lounge area downstairs.

Sawyer: "Master, I have a lot of things to do, so please speak up."

Lin Pei: "I want to do memory implant surgery, I hope you will cooperate with me, sir."

Sawyer paused for two or three seconds, "What?"

"I want to have a memory implant." Lin Pei repeated, and as if by magic, he took out a document and placed it in front of Sawyer, "I need to remember him."

"Master, it's not necessary, the risk of surgery is very high." Suoya stared at Lin Pei for a while, "The general will not agree."

Lin Pei thought for a while, "Something appeared in my mind."

"what?"

"Some things in the past." Lin Pei pondered for a while, and whispered: "Maybe it's my own imagination. I have suffered from severe hypochondria. In short, something appeared in my mind. Instead of suspecting that I am schizophrenic, it is better Try therapy."

"Surgery is risky."

Lin Pei thought for a while, then whispered: "I want to remember him."

Sawyer was silent for a long time, and finally said: "Master, the reality may not be what you imagined. You think that you and the general are brother brothers, and blood is thicker than water. Maybe it's not true. The past between you and the general is not what you imagined. It’s so beautiful in the movie, as the general said, it’s not important if you don’t remember the past.”

Lin Pei looked at Suoya and paused, "You said that Lin Si and I are not brothers?"

Sawyer suddenly didn't speak.

Lin Pei's expression was subtle, and he came to his senses again, "Where did he get his stepmother? Wait a minute, is that my real mother?"

"……Yes."

"So where's Lince's mother? Passed away?"

This issue has not been mentioned for many years. Sawyer suddenly fell silent when he saw Lin Si who was walking behind Lin Pei.

Lin Pei suddenly realized that his train of thought had strayed, and he pulled it back, "Let's not talk about this first, let's talk about memory transplant surgery. I still plan to do the surgery. The risk is relatively high, and I know it in my heart, but I think I can try it."

Lin Pei looked at Sawyer and said, "I need the memory chip in Lin Si's hand."

Sawyer's cold sweat had already come down, and he poured a cup of tea for Lin Pei.

Lin Pei was about to speak, when he saw Sawyer pouring water in a strange way, he suddenly thought of something, and looked back slowly.Lins was looking at him.Lin Pei frowned slightly.

Sawyer: "..."

In the room, Lin Si and Lin Pei were sitting face to face, not talking to each other.

It is impossible for Lin Si to quarrel with Lin Pei. The most rigid relationship with Lin Pei in his life was nothing more than when he was a teenager. Even at that time, he was not willing to say a serious word to Lin Pei.Lin Pei has suffered a lot, suffered a lot of injuries, and his mental damage is so severe that he still relies on medication. Now he is more conniving towards Lin Pei than before, and it is even less likely that he will say anything serious.

The two stalemate for a while.

Lin Si said, "Sit down first."

Lin Pei didn't sit down, he put his hands on the chair, looked down at him, and suddenly called out, "Brother."

Lin Si suddenly lost his voice.

Lin Pei actually laughed, he didn't look nervous at all, he stretched out his hand to grab Lin Si's hand, and clenched it tighter.Lin Si didn't speak from the beginning to the end.

After a stalemate for more than half a month, Lin Si finally let go, not because of Lin Pei's tossing, but Lin Pei's psychiatrist communicated with him. The psychiatrist said that Lin Pei's mental state has not been very good these two days .

Rings made appointments with several doctors.

After the discussion, several old doctors still felt that the risk was extremely high. Lin Pei listened seriously, and Lin Si glanced at him, not knowing what to say.

When several old doctors explained the serious consequences to Lin Pei, Lin Pei asked, "If you don't do memory transplant surgery, can you do hypnosis?"

The old doctor stopped, "What do you mean?"

"My psychiatrist gave me a book about the subconscious mind. What I thought was, can the subconscious mind be induced and stimulated on the memory chip screen to achieve the effect of reorganizing memory in hypnosis?" Lin Pei read it. Yanlin Si, "This is definitely lower than the risk of memory implants."

"It is theoretically feasible, but in practice it is very difficult to operate. First, this kind of hypnosis is slow to take effect, and can only induce the recovery of a small piece of vague memory at a time. This means that multiple hypnosis must be performed. In view of your current mental state, we do not It does not support you to perform a large number of hypnotic induction treatments in a short period of time; secondly, your physical condition is relatively complicated, and danger may occur during hypnosis, which requires a high professional quality of doctors."

"It is not necessary to pursue short-term effects. Long-term treatment is possible, and treatment is given every three months or half a year. As for the doctor, I will cooperate with the treatment and let him be familiar with my situation."

A group of doctors discussed for a while and looked at Lin Pei, "So far, hypnosis induction is only a secondary auxiliary method in the field of memory restoration. There is no precedent for relying on hypnosis alone to restore memory."

"So far, no one has survived more than 200 duplication operations. Human potential is endless, and brain development is still the focus of research. No one knows where the limit of the human brain is." Lin Pei looked at it all the time. Lin Si who did not speak, "All the people who had undergone memory duplication operations more than [-] times before died, but I am still alive. There must be a reason. The mechanism and form of memory in the mind have always remained in the superficial stage in the academic world. The next treatment may be the breakthrough."

Lynch said nothing.

A group of doctors have been shocked since the first time they heard that someone died after flashing their memories more than 200 times. They just dared not say it in front of Lin Si. In fact, everyone wants to study this special case.Now that Lin Pei directly pointed it out, the group of people suddenly became a little excited, and the voice of discussion became louder.

However, Lin Si didn't respond. Lin Pei thought for a while, and felt that the demands on Lin Si should not be too high. It would be unrealistic to expect him to be elated.

Three months later, the final plan came out.

The risk assessment is very low, but the effect is also relatively slow. Lin Si's requirement is to reduce the risk as much as possible, so when the plan came to Lin Pei, he found that the treatment time had been extended to 20 years.

It will take him 20 years to recover all his memories.This still far exceeded his expectations.

The old doctor told Lin Pei that the plan is just a plan, and the data on it are just theoretical data, and it doesn't take so long to actually operate it.

Lin Pei asked how long it would take the world, and the other party replied: 18 years should be about the same.

Lin Pei: "..." In 18 years, everything he remembered could be naturally forgotten a second time.

Lin Pei had a discussion with the old doctor, and the other party resolutely rejected his rude and bold demands. It was clear that he had been dealt with, and he would not let go of his death.

Lin Si looked at Lin Pei who was bargaining with a group of doctors without saying a word, and finally smiled lightly. He was not in a hurry, after all, the rest of his life was so long, and he could take his time with Lin Pei.On the other hand, new memories are filled in, and old memories disappear bit by bit. This is a natural law. It is the greatest instinct of human beings to remove the old and welcome the new. Life is therefore endless, even if Lin Pei really doesn’t remember it. Now, the new memories will eventually fill up the old ones, making up for all the shortcomings neatly.

Lin Si's requirements are really low, as long as Lin Pei lives well.

Lin Pei signed the consent form. Before signing, he stared at the "20 years" for ten seconds, and finally signed it.The moment he finished signing, he suddenly looked up at Lin Si.

His past and his present seem to be separated by a watershed. From that moment on, all peaks and mountains are flat, and all rivers return to the sea.

The author has something to say:

I originally planned to end it directly, but after watching it for a long time, I found it a bit abrupt... I decided to integrate the plot of the episode into the original text and then open another episode... Take your time..._(:зゝ∠)_

After that, there was basically no big ups and downs.

Everyday Mental Patient Hair Candy

1. I will meet Ji Ya again, the future little female commander who is still studying is very handsome now, and she still wears the shoulder badge that Lin Pei gave her.

2. Will interact more with the Lin family. For example, Lin Pei promised Lin Pei that he would pretend to be Lin Xuesheng to hold a parent-teacher meeting for Lin Pei... and then he really went..._(:зゝ∠)_

3. Drinking and chatting with He He, and then pretending to be stupid all the time when old friends get together.