good night my sir

It was said to be a drink, but Huang Tang couldn't help talking freely after eating, so he drank more wine.After Cheng and Liang Zhongchun said goodbye, it was past midnight when they returned home.

He found that the light in Minglou's room was still on, thinking that he was still asleep, so he turned the doorknob lightly, wanting to tell him that he was back.

As soon as he opened the door, he saw Minglou sitting on the black leather sofa and dozing off, with a half-open book spread out on his lap.It seems that I fell asleep halfway through reading.

Ah Cheng quietly sat down on the chair beside Minglou, and silently picked up the book on his lap. It was a German novel, The Trial written by Kafka.It tells the story of Joseph, a young bank manager, who was found guilty by the court without knowing what crime he had committed. No matter how hard he tried to prove his innocence, he was finally sentenced to death in vain.

As soon as Ah Cheng put the book on the table, he felt sorry for his elder brother who always pushed himself so hard, even when he should relax at home, the books he read were also such sad themes.

He stared at Minglou's peaceful sleeping face, and suddenly remembered what Liang Zhongchun said tonight, and felt mixed feelings in his heart.

Is the coexistence of family affection and love really too idealistic?For him, maybe yes.

But it is absolutely impossible for him to piece together ideals from two different people like Liang Zhongchun, because no one else can give him anything, no matter family or love.

When he was young, family affection was a luxury for him.Unexpectedly, after entering the Ming family, the family affection they gave was so deep, especially the elder brother, who cultivated him carefully and gave him a bright future.The eldest brother is not only his relative, but also a benefactor.

In this world, there is no other person who can give him this kind of reliance from his close relatives, and can make him feel the coexistence of family affection and love, only the elder brother.

No matter what kind of woman Eldest Brother chooses to marry in the future, even though he will be jealous and reluctant, he will still take care of that "sister-in-law" carefully, because he has already decided to guard Eldest Brother for the rest of his life, no matter what his status is.

But why am I feeling so sad now?

Ah Cheng had a sore nose and felt his eye sockets were moist. He took a deep breath, trying to make himself feel more at ease.

Sensing movement beside him, Minglou slowly woke up.His eyes were slightly opened, his voice seemed a little dry, and he said, "You're back?"

"Brother, I'm back." Ah Cheng quickly organized his thoughts, pretending to be nonchalant, and said, "Why are you sleeping here? Why don't you go to bed and lie down."

"Tomorrow you will go to Suzhou on business early in the morning, and you won't see each other for three days. I want to wait for you to come back and see you before going to sleep." Minglou woke up, and the whisper of lover mode caught people off guard. "You're late, and I'm worried."

Hearing this, Ah Cheng's heart was shaken again.

Minglou smelled a faint smell of alcohol in the air, and asked, "Have you been drinking?"

"Have a few drinks and chat with Liang Zhongchun, it's so late. I'm sorry, I made my brother worry." He didn't expect that Minglou would be waiting for him at home, otherwise, he would have come back sooner.

Ming Lou looked at Ah Cheng silently, and suddenly hooked his hand around Ah Cheng's neck, and brought his lips to his.

Ah Cheng seemed to be used to such a sudden kiss from his eldest brother, and even felt full of anticipation.

He closed his eyes and eagerly responded to Minglou.

The two leaned on each other with lips and tongues, perhaps inadvertently wanting to vent their distress. Under the catalysis of alcohol, Ah Cheng kissed Minglou back with much stronger force than before, almost yearning.

How he wished that time would stay here forever, because his love for his elder brother was so unforgettable.

However, the kiss didn't last long, Ming Lou quickly pulled away, gave him a gentle smile, and said, "It's not just a drink, I think I drank a lot... Anyway, when I come back, I will drink a lot." Okay, go to bed early."

"Yes... Big brother also rest early, good night."

Ah Cheng came back to his senses, only felt his cheeks were hot, said good night to Ming Lou, and hurriedly left his room.

After closing the door, Ah Cheng stood outside Minglou's study, feeling his heart was empty, and his thoughts became disordered again.

Originally, his love for this man could be well hidden, but now after going through various sweet processes, he finds that he has fallen deeper than he imagined.

Liang Zhongchun's words still linger in his ears: "Perfection cannot exist in a person."

But for him, big brother is perfect.It's a pity that I may not be the eldest brother.

When the task of pretending to be a lover is over, the eldest brother and him will return to the original relationship. The eldest brother can easily get away, but what about me?

The boat can pass through the water without a trace, but the ripples caused by the heartbeat never stop. If the heart doesn't stop beating, how can the ripples be still?

When he knew the warmth of this man's embrace and how intoxicating his kisses were, when he returned to reality, he couldn't pretend to face him as if nothing had happened.

Ah Cheng didn't dare to think about it anymore, regarding Ming Lou's actions in the lover mode, he could only emphasize to himself again and again that everything was just a play.No matter what he does, his ending is still out of his control, just like the protagonist Joseph in "The Trial".

Thinking of Joseph, a string of words came into Ah Cheng's mind, just like seeing it on paper, in black and white.That's what the pastor in the book said: "It is not necessary to take everything he said seriously at all, it is enough to think that what he said is necessary."

Suddenly, Ah Cheng felt that he seemed to get a little comfort from it.

Yeah...he should be content.