For the love of the white moonlight

20

At the end of March, Dong Xiao received a letter from Song Jingwen.The letter wasn't too long, most of what Song Jingwen wrote were words of encouragement, Dong Xiao wasn't sure if the man had seen the poem he had hidden.

But even if he is not sure, this letter can be regarded as comfort after all. Dong Xiao carefully put away the letter and locked it in a drawer.

This was 2009, at the end of February, he returned to school after the play was finished, and most of the roommates had a play appointment, so he was the only one left in the dormitory.

In March, an urban drama started filming in this city. Through the introduction of the assistant director of the previous one, Dong knew a small supporting role with few scenes.

Talking to the group and taking time to attend classes, Dong Xiao lived a busy and lonely life.In addition, he is still a bit confused. From last winter to now, he has learned a lot from the two opportunities to practice in front of the camera. According to preliminary understanding, his acting talent is indeed not high.

Mr. Song who is far away in the sky, and the uncertain future, these are Dong Xiao's most accurate memories of this slightly melancholy spring.

But he is optimistic by nature, and his melancholy has no chance to be deep.

At the end of this spring, he met Bai Yan.

In fact, before that, Dong Xiao knew about this junior who was one level higher than him.There is no other reason, Bai Yan's mother is a well-known gold broker in the circle, this kind of alumni with their own resources is envied by everyone in school.

Dong Xiao was about the same height as Bai Yan, and also had a similar build. He used to walk around school with his roommates, and was misidentified twice.

The roommate said sourly at the time: "It's really different for people. You say, you are not much different from that kid in appearance. Why should he not worry about his future? You have to look at people's faces for those inconspicuous little characters."

Dong Xiao smiled and said nothing. A person's origin is not something he can decide. There is no point in complaining about himself.

And, is Bai Yan really not much different from him?does not exist.His major is not top-notch, but a teacher who is acquainted with him once said that Bai Yan has solid basic skills and aura, and his qualifications are almost unmatched among recent students.

With excellent qualifications and good contacts, Bai Yan seemed to be a winner in life, but at the end of January this year, Bai's mother died suddenly in a car accident, and Bai Yan fell into the clouds.

Therefore, the words of those bitter and troublesome people are even worse. A classmate of Dongxiao said: "Tsk, if you don't have a good backer, you will be gone. It's really bad luck."

Half is a pity, half is gloating, how cold the world is.

One weekend late at night, Dong Xiao "picked up" Bai Yan in the corridor outside the dormitory. He came out of the laundry room with the washed sheets, and happened to see Bai Yan jumping out of the window.

His heart skipped a beat, and he hurriedly pulled him back, "Don't jump, this height can break your legs."

Bai Yan said impatiently: "If you don't go out, you won't have a place to sleep."

Dong Xiao understood that this was being excluded in the dormitory.

While making friends with Bai Yan, he dragged him into the house. Anyway, there was no one else in the dormitory except him, so taking Bai Yan in for a night was a piece of cake.

This world may always be disappointing, but you should always try your best to make the location within your sight beautiful.

Bai Yan is usually cold and aloof, and doesn't like to talk to people very much.

But after being dragged into the dormitory by him that night, the circles of his eyes turned red.

The flowers in the greenhouse couldn't adapt to the coldness of people for a while, Dong Xiao knew it.So regardless of whether it's suitable or not, he comforted Bai Yan with his fatherless situation.

Bai Yan later invited him to dinner again, they came and went, they became friends.Dong Xiao doesn't seem to be so lonely anymore. People are animals that need companionship. While some people comfort others, they can also obtain satisfaction and strength from it. His life seems to have always been like this.

People are divided into groups. This is really true. It is not unreasonable for Dong Xiao to like his new friend from the bottom of his heart.

After getting along with Bai Yan for a period of time, he went to watch his performance on the set, and pointed out that his personality was too strong during the performance, and his performance of the villain was too superficial.

It's not a pleasant experience for a junior to teach a senior to act, but Bai Yan is like this. He has experienced the world and the world, and he doesn't have the slightest hypocrisy and tact when facing acquaintances.

To put it bluntly, everyone is a competitor in the future. There are not many children like Bai Yan who can speak sincerely. Dong Xiao cherishes this friend very much.

Early summer is here again.

Dong Xiao followed Bai Yan to a dinner with Bai Yan's friends, and at the dinner, he met Pei Zhi.In a room full of dandies, Pei Zhi is the only one who looks up to him, and Pei Zhi refers to Bai Yan as brother.

At first, Dong Xiao thought that these two were brothers who grew up together, but halfway through the meal, he finally realized something was wrong, Bai Yan and Pei Zhi were too awkward.

From the moment Bai Yan took his seat, the tall and burly Pei Zhi hung his arms on Bai Yan's shoulders like a boneless one, and was very polite to Dong Xiao, but kept catching him asking questions.

"How long have you known my brother?"

Dong Xiao glanced at Bai Yan, "Less than half a year."

Pei Zhi held the cup, "My brother doesn't have many friends, his friends are my friends, come on, let's go together."

Well, I really care about his existence.

But Bai Yan was always cold, as if he didn't want to look at Pei Zhi more.

However, when Pei Zhi got up to go to the bathroom, he kept watching Pei Zhi's back disappear.

Bai Yan's unhappiness lasted until the end of dinner.

Just after ten o'clock, a few young masters clamored to find a place to renew the stall, and Pei Zhi responded carelessly, "It's easy to say, the old place, I'll be the host."

Bai Yan's face became more and more ugly, and Dong Xiao finally confirmed that Bai Yan didn't seem to like to make trouble with this group of people.

Sure enough, after leaving the restaurant, Bai Yan dragged him to the side of the road, "Let's go first."

Dong Xiao asked: "You don't need to say hello to them."

Bai Yan frowned even tighter, but didn't answer.

This is obviously something to do, Dong Xiao and Bai Yan walked around the alley together, and in a blink of an eye, they came to another road. After a while, they entered a soy milk shop. They sat down. Bai Yan's cell phone kept ringing, but he didn't answer it. Simply turn off the phone.

It was the first time Dong Xiao saw Bai Yan losing his temper when he was cold.

He asked straight to the point: "Are you and Pei Zhi a couple?"

Perhaps because of the sudden exposure of his sexuality, Bai Yan was a little embarrassed in astonishment, "I..."

Dong Xiao smiled: "Don't be afraid, I am too."

Bai Yan opened his eyes even wider, looking at him seriously.

Dong Xiao thought about it carefully, he was too warm to Bai Yan, and talking about it now would inevitably cause people to misunderstand, so he said: "Don't think about it, I have someone I like."

He said seriously: "The person I like stands at a very high place, and I have to work very hard to let him see me. And Pei Zhi is by your side, how lucky you are. It can be seen that he cares about you very much."

This is the first time Dong Xiao has confided his admiration for Song Jingwen to others. Maybe this feeling came at a bad time, but he felt relieved immediately.

It was as if he had found a foothold for this erratic love. He liked Mr. Song. This fact finally left an imprint on another person's mind.

21

In May, Song Jingwen received a second letter from Dong Xiao.

The two pages are full of eloquence and are full of trivial daily things. Dong Xiao's prose is unpretentious, but the youthful campus life of the big boy is vividly written on the paper, and Song Jingwen enjoys reading it.

This kind of letter may have the meaning of reporting good news rather than bad news. Dong Xiao mentioned in the letter that everything is fine in the new crew and he made new friends at school.

Song Jingwen thought to himself, with Dong Xiao's personality, it seems that it is easy to make friends wherever he goes, which is really likable.

Song Jingwen himself has few close friends, but he accepts it calmly.Human heart is the most elusive thing in this world. Standing in his position, it is more reliable to maintain close and distant relations with others with benefits.

In July, for a small dinner, Song Jingwen went to the appointment.There was also an elder who was a businessman. The elder's family's business had encountered troubles recently. Although they were not in a state of despair, they were bleeding a lot. Meeting them felt like a solid backer.

The elder brought his nephew, a handsome and well-bred young man.The old man enthusiastically introduced this person to Song Jingwen, saying with certainty that his nephew had long admired Song Jingwen's name and adored Song Jingwen very much.

Song Jingwen laughed it off and declined to comment.

After the dinner, the young man avoided the crowd and asked him: "I heard that you like Dong Qichang's paintings. I just got a copy. I wonder if I have the honor to invite you to taste it."

Song Jingwen said lightly: "The rumors may be wrong, I don't have such a good taste."

Tasting paintings is a pretense, but self-recommended pillow mats are the real thing.

If it were a year ago, this kind of meat delivered to his mouth was well presented, and Song Jingwen might not have stopped eating it, but now, he only finds it tasteless.

The spring breeze is not as good as you.

Back home, Song Zhang was still up.

Song Jingwen looked at his son's homework and asked, "Have you contacted brother Dong Xiao recently?"

Song Zhang shook his head, "No."

The child does not communicate with Dong Xiao very often, about once a month or so, Song Jingwen generally understands.

He said, "Why don't you call him now?"

Song Zhang looked at the watch on the table and said hesitantly, "It's already 09:30, the time is not suitable."

Song Jingwen said: "Occasionally he can go out of the way once in a while, he must have not rested yet."

Song Zhang's expression became more and more suspicious, but he still picked up the phone, found out Dong Xiao's phone number, and dialed it.

The phone was connected, and Song Zhang greeted Dong Xiao, looking very happy.

Song Jingwen stood on the side with her chest in her arms, silently looking out of the window, the garden under the night was quiet and quiet, with the evening breeze blowing on her face, it was very pleasant.

One minute later, Song Zhang said into the microphone: "My father has something to tell you, just wait a moment."

Song Jingwen was slightly taken aback, although this is the truth, can the child stop speaking so thoroughly?

He took the phone, walked to the balcony by himself, and closed the glass door smoothly.

It was the first time he talked with Dong Xiao when we parted in the early winter of last year. Song Jingwen felt a little subtle, and asked, "How are you doing?"

On the phone, Dong Xiao's voice didn't sound so real, as if a little cramped, "It's okay, how about you?"

Song Jingwen's heart that was lingering in the air seemed to come to fruition in an instant, he hummed, "That's it. Are you still in school this summer vacation?"

A few days ago, Song Jingwen learned that in August, he was going to S City for a business trip.

If Dong Xiao is free, they should at least meet once. He has figured out some things, so it's better to talk face to face.He could actually tell Dong Xiao about his itinerary through Song Zhang, but it was not appropriate; in terms of age, he was older than Dong Xiao, and taking the initiative was the attitude he should have.

He thought he could get what he wanted, but Dong Xiao was silent for a few seconds, "Not here. I have accepted a new play, and I have to leave for the Northeast next month, and I won't be back until the end of September. Do you have anything to do?"

Song Jingwen was stunned for a few seconds, and almost asked Dong Xiao to push the trick.

But this is not advisable. He should at least have basic respect for Dong Xiao's career, so Song Jingwen said, "It's not in a hurry."

Dong Xiao smiled, "It's not as good as this. At the end of September, after the show is finished, I'll come over to see you and Song Zhang."

22

In the summer of 2009, Dong Xiao encountered many things.

He joined the group as a supporting role. Unfortunately, he was bumped into by the assistant of the leading actor Gu Yi at the assistant director's place. The assistant looked at him for a long time and whispered to the assistant director. How about Brother Yi being a stand-in? Let’s be clear first, Brother Gu Yi’s original stand-ins have all left, and now is the time when there is a shortage of people, you are convenient for people, and naturally there is nothing wrong with you.”

It is self-evident what the result will be if you refuse to be convenient with others, Dong Xiao smiled, "Okay."

Under the eaves, he had to bow his head. He cherished every opportunity to perform.

Therefore, on the day of Gu Yi's fitting, he was also called to the studio.

He arrived early, hadn't seen Gu Yi after waiting for half an hour, and the owner's outfit hadn't been finalized yet, so the stylist naturally couldn't take care of him, Dong Xiao waited boringly, and walked around downstairs by himself.

A shiny luxury car stopped in front of the building, Gu Yi was late but did not enter the building in a hurry, but chatted with the people sitting in the car through the window.

Dong Xiao stood not far away with a bottle of water, and glanced over inadvertently, only to find a pair of eyes in the car looking in his direction.

Gu Yi also followed the man's line of sight and glanced at him.

As the luxury car left, Gu Yi walked slowly towards the stairwell, glanced at him arrogantly, and asked his assistant, "Who is this?"

The assistant said, "This is the new substitute for you."

Gu Yi smiled disdainfully, "Really?"

The reputation of this Shidi is hard to describe in a single word. It is said that he is an expert in bullying newcomers with big names.Dong Xiao originally thought that he would avoid conflicts if he kept out of the way, but a month later, Gu Yi joined the crew after the first day of filming, beckoned him to him, and asked, "Do you know who was in the car that day?" ?”

Dong Xiao didn't want to know at all, but Gu Yi still wanted to let him know.

Gu Yi was even worse than Dong Xiao himself imagined. He bluntly said that the man was not young, he only loved men, and he fell in love with Dong Xiao.

Dong Xiao naturally knows what kind of atmosphere the entertainment industry is like.There are pornographic media in the circle, and he knows it well, but he didn't expect to bump into a living one this time.

What Gu Yi meant was that Dong Xiao would have no worries about his future if he got close to that person.

Dong Xiao was frightened and angry, and said with a smile: "Thank you for your kindness, I am not very motivated, and I don't have such a big heart."

After he finished speaking, he said goodbye and made a gesture to leave.

"Stop," Gu Yi called to stop him.

He turned his head, and the cold water poured over his head and face. Gu Yi took the empty glass and cursed with a smile: "Shame on your face."

Face is something you have to earn yourself.Dong Xiao didn't want to head-on against this kind of ignorant stuff.

He wiped his face, turned around and left, raised his head, but was stunned.

Standing not far away, Bai Yan clearly saw what was going on here, threw away the towel in his hand, and rushed towards Gu Yi with a horrifyingly cold expression.

Dong Xiao stepped forward to meet him, grabbed Bai Yan's arm, "Go, ignore him."

Bai Yan looks cold, but in fact he has a violent temper, this disturbance will definitely be a big deal in the future.

He dragged Bai Yan to the edge of the forest outside the scene.

Bai Yan's face flushed with anger, "He splashed you with water! Why did he splash you with water?"

Such a friend is really rare. Bai Yan grew up in a greenhouse and cultivated a heart that is not stained with dust. This cleanliness still refuses to fall after falling into the clouds.The prosperity of the world is all for profit, and the hustle and bustle of the world is for profit, but Bai Yan is willing to stand up for a friend like him who can't give much benefit.

Dong Xiao roughly explained the whole story, and said with relief: "You also know what kind of reputation he has. He will kill himself if he does many injustices. Naturally, he will die one day, so there is no need to dirty your hands."

Looking at Bai Yan's young and handsome face, he confessed seriously: "He is not a good person, and you should stay away from him in the future."

Bai Yan asked back: "I don't want to get my hands dirty, who will take care of him?"

Dong Xiao patted Bai Yan on the shoulder: "It is not advisable to use violence to control violence. We can only give away his head for nothing if we fight with him now. Think about the people behind you." .”

Yes, Bai Yan played the role of the third male in the play, borrowing the contacts left by his mother.Dong Xiao also heard that the one who put Bai Yan into the group was the first-line male star that Ms. Bai had brought before.

As the saying goes, people take tea to cool down, if Bai Yan makes trouble on the set this time, the contacts left by his mother are very likely to be destroyed.

It is impossible for Bai Yan not to know such a truth, but after hearing Dong Xiao's explanation, although he did not speak again, his expression was still confused and not angry, as if he was still dissatisfied with the temporary compromise at this moment.

Living in this turbid world, Dong Xiao is very fortunate to have such a friend.

After such a fuss, Gu Yi's thoughts of pimping hadn't stopped. A few days later in the evening, Dong Xiao met Gu Yi near his residence. Gu Yi gave him a drunken glance, and said arrogantly, "Come with me."

Beating someone can only hurt the flesh, so it's not worth it. If there is evidence of Gu Yi pimping, it will be different. Dong Xiao obediently followed behind Gu Yi, silently took out his phone, and pressed record.

Sure enough, Gu Yi's words this time were even worse, saying that he was worthless, that Bai Yan's junior was already the third male, and his senior was still doing odd jobs on the set, so he didn't feel uncomfortable mixing with Bai Yan.

This is a provocative method, of course, the purpose is to make him submit, obediently trade his body for resources, Dong Xiao's attitude of refusing is still firm, after a few rounds, Gu Yi became impatient and began to threaten him, "Wait, the one who likes it, just There is nothing out of reach.”

This is not the most arrogant, Gu Yi was very drunk, when he said this, he took out something from the bottom of the cabinet next to him, and enjoyed it by himself.

Dong Xiao was quite shocked, and at the same time, he was a little regretful. If he made a video of the current scene, Gu Yi's mess would be over.

Gu Yi waved him away, and he had to leave the room.

But what was surprising was that before he had taken a few steps, Bai Yan suddenly jumped out and grabbed him, holding a mobile phone in his hand.

Bai Yan dragged him all the way to the edge of the woods, and said in a low voice: "He took drugs, I took pictures of him, from outside the window."

Dong Xiao was overjoyed, "Let me see."

Although separated by the window, Bai Yan took a very clear picture of Gu Yi's ugliness as an addict.

Bai Yan said: "I'll call the police tomorrow, don't stop me this time."

This is a big right and wrong, of course we can't keep silent because of self-preservation, Dong Xiao said: "Let's go together tomorrow morning, please don't let others see this video."

Dong Xiao has the habit of getting up early and doing morning exercises.

Early the next morning, before dawn, he washed and dressed as usual, and went out by himself to trot towards the forest path.

An aunt in the orphanage once said to him, Dong Xiao, you are generous, kind, and likable, and your life will not be too bad in the future.

It seems to be the same thing.

But life is like a long road full of thorns, and it seems that it is never certain what kind of abyss will be ahead after overcoming the thorns and thorns.

23

In March 2009, on the night of his father-in-law's birthday, Song Jingwen's brother-in-law said such a nonsensical remark to his sister's portrait in the study after getting drunk.

He said: "Jingwen, there are rumors outside that you, father and son of the Song family, beat your wife hard. If I had known about this, I would not have married my sister to you."

This sounded really stupid, but my brother-in-law and Miss Xu had a good relationship when they were young, and my sister's unexpected death was deeply painful, and I couldn't let it go for many years. Song Jingwen was considerate of this brotherhood and kept silent.

The brother-in-law asked indistinctly: "Isn't it? Your mother left early, and later, the woman who made your father think about it, didn't she also go at the beginning of this year?"

Song Jingwen was not very happy after hearing this, but my brother-in-law was right about these things about Mr. Song.

Song Jingwen's mother, the original wife, was also married to Mr. Song, and died of illness when her son was nine years old.

After the old man was widowed, he was not in a hurry to remarry, and there was no shortage of women around him. The one who made the old man tempted to remarry was named Gan Tang.

When Song Jingwen was 12 years old, at a dinner party, Gan Tang was brought in front of Mr. Song by an elder.

Gan Tang was only eighteen that year, a down-and-out young lady who lost her father at a young age, and was dragged by her mother to shuttle between the rich and powerful all day long, just like a courtesan.

The old man was old enough to be her father, but he still took her in, and Gan Tang became one of the old man Song's mistresses.

Mistress, not girlfriend.Song Jingwen watched coldly, indifferent. Gan Tang would not be the first plaything of the old man, nor would he be the last.

Goodbye Gantang, two years later, Song Jingwen followed the old man to the northeast.

About those days, all kinds of delicacies were supplemented too much. When returning to the villa at noon one day, Song Jingwen heard the old man tell the secretary to ask Gan Tang to come over.

Let Gan Tang come over, and Gan Tang has to fly over to serve the bed, this is the life of a plaything.When night fell, Gan Tang arrived, but the old man's room already had another woman sent by someone else.

Gan Tang put away his luggage and went downstairs, and ate alone in the restaurant, neither embarrassed nor embarrassed.

Song Jingwen was watching TV in the living room at that time, and didn't pay much attention to a woman who had only met once.

But the old man's secretary went downstairs and was immediately stopped by Gan Tang.

Song Jingwen heard Gan Tang carefully say to the secretary: "Can you ask Mr. Song for me? If he doesn't need me, I'll go back. I have an exam tomorrow afternoon."

Only then did Song Jingwen realize that this woman was not much older than him, she was still a student, and a student of a prestigious school.But the old man never cared about his personal affairs, not to mention that Gan Tang was only doing his duty as a plaything.

Four years of time flew by, and in a blink of an eye, it was the sixth year of Gan Tang's mistress career.

Song Jingwen heard Gan Tang's name more and more from other people's mouths, and his uncle reminded him to pay attention, insinuating that in the past two years, Mr. Song had scattered all the flowers and plants, and only Gan Tang was left by his side.

His uncle said: "This woman is unambiguous. She has been following your father all these years, and she has used her contacts to seek business. The business is quite big. It is hard to guarantee that she does not have greater ambitions."

Song Jingwen didn't take it seriously, his uncle had always been modest, with shallow eyelids, and he only liked to stare at his nepotism and talk about things.

Even if the old man really married Gan Tang and had another child, so what?

At the beginning of autumn of that year, the old man brought Gan Tang home.

Song Jingwen didn't know how ambitious Gantang was, but he could feel that the woman was living in that mansion with anxiety.

During the Mid-Autumn Festival, the old man invited the relatives of the Yue family over for a meal. Only then did Song Jingwen realize that his father really had plans to continue.

But that night, when Song Jingwen went back to her room, she heard quarrels and women's cries coming from the old man's room.

The door opened, and the old man was furious: "Get out!"

Gan Tang ran out with red eyes, passed Song Jingwen, went downstairs, went out, staggered all the way, but couldn't wait, did not look back from beginning to end.

Also, who can always be a plaything without dignity, not every beginning is worthy of a happy ending.

Gan Tang was freed by that rolling word, walked quickly, and finally escaped.

Many years later, at a reception in S City, Song Jingwen saw her again. She was married and her husband was about the same age as her, and he was considered talented.

At the beginning of 2009, Song Jingwen went back to the old house, and the nanny told him that the old man was in the study, and he seemed to be in a bad mood.

He pushed the door open and entered the room, the room was not turned on, and the old man sat alone by the window.

The father may not know that it was he who entered the room, and sighed in a low voice, "Back then she thought I was too much older than her, who would have thought that she would have left earlier than me."

Song Jingwen learned that Gan Tang was dead.

There are so many unpredictable things in this world.

The old man's age may not be Gantang's biggest concern, Song Jingwen actually wants to know, if such a result had been expected earlier, whether the old man would have had a better start many years ago.

Yes, there are too many unpredictable things in this world.

His brother-in-law's drunken talk may be absurd, but, Song Jingwen thought to himself, he has indeed followed the old man's old path, the situation is good, and he walked out of a regrettable situation abruptly.

He and Dong Xiao made an appointment at the end of September.

At the end of September this year, neither Dong Xiao's letter nor anyone came.

At the end of September, he never waited for it.