My deskmate makes me unwilling to study

It doesn't seem like a big deal.

It seems that it is no big deal to say this sentence.

In the bedroom, only the lamp on the desk was on, illuminating the narrow area, and all the rest of the furnishings were sunk in shadows, with only outlines visible.

Wen Xiao curled up on the bed, showing a pale side face, and a thin black T-shirt covering her body, revealing only a little curvature of the back of the cervical spine.Every joint seemed to have been filled with cement, and it was so sinking that it was difficult to lift a finger, and it seemed that he was lying alone in the ice and snow, frozen stiff and numb.

The eyes were dry and painful, but the lacrimal glands were closed, and no tear could flow out. With the frequency of breathing, the stomach began to throb violently. Wen Xiao subconsciously folded his bent legs until he arched his back to the extreme Stretch to pain.

The flat sheet was wrinkled because of his movements, Wen Xiao stared at the window with his eyes open, forgetting to even blink.

His heart was cold, and he held the handle of the knife with his own hands, gouged out something, and it was empty.

The pain and emptiness made him trembling uncontrollably, and he instinctively put his left hand on his lips, bit his knuckles between his teeth, and bit down hard.

The wound that had just stopped bleeding was pierced by teeth again, and blood gushed out, but he lost the pain sensation due to numbness.At this moment, Wen Xiao finally sobbed.

Entering June, the weather in Mingnan has been very good, the sun is shining, and the whole city is brightened up.

When Wen Xiao came out of the room, grandma was wearing a peacock blue embroidered cheongsam and had just finished watering the flowers.

"It's still early. There are eight-treasure porridge and purple sweet potato steamed buns in the pot. Eat before leaving?" Grandma frowned after only one glance, "Why do you look so pale? Are you uncomfortable?"

"Suddenly last night...stomach pain." Wen Xiao's voice was hoarse like a bad cold, he walked to the kitchen, brought breakfast to the dining table, pulled out the chair and sat down, lost in thought again.

Grandma reminded: "You didn't take the chopsticks and the porridge spoon."

Wen Xiao looked like a machine with a malfunctioning system, and slowly got up after a few seconds.

He noticed the broken wound on Wen Xiao's lower lip, and the extra scar on his left knuckles - it wasn't there before entering the room yesterday, it didn't look like it was hurt by any utensil, but it looked like... biting it with his own teeth.

I don't know how ruthless and how much strength was used to get such a serious injury, almost to the bone.

Grandma followed Wen Xiao's movements with her eyes, and her lips moved. Seeing him clinging to the porcelain spoon and slowly drinking the porridge, she thought that the child had always been restrained and could bear it, but he had bitten such a wound. She didn't have the heart to ask what happened right away. , just said: "Xiaoxiao, what's the matter, if you want, you can talk to grandma."

Wen Xiao didn't look up, but just gave a low "hmm".

After breakfast, there was already a commotion outside the window, and the sound of cars and people gradually rose.Wen Xiao supported the door frame and changed into white sneakers, put his hand on the metal doorknob, pressed down once, but failed to open.After pausing for a few seconds, he pushed again, and the door opened.

Seeing that he was about to go out, grandma quickly called him back: "Xiaoxiao, you forgot your schoolbag."

Turning around, she took out the black schoolbag, zipped it up and handed it to Wen Xiao. Grandma was concerned: "Why do you seem to have lost your soul?"

Hanging up the schoolbag on one shoulder, Wen Xiao denied, "It's nothing, I just didn't sleep well last night." His bloodless lips were tightened, and he lowered his eyes and said, "I'm going to school."

At the school gate, Cheng Xiaoning was already in place.He wore a striped shirt with a tight belt and his hands behind his back, still full of air.

"Think you can get away with wearing a dress that looks like your school uniform? Are you deceiving your conscience or my eyes? Clothes without the logo of Mingnan High School have no soul!"

"How many times have I said that it's okay to love learning, but don't read books when you walk! Do you think you are Erlang God with three eyes?"

"Smell Xiao!"

Wen Xiao turned around slowly, and saw Zhao Yiyang waving at him and Shangguan Yu next to him.

The three walked to the classroom together.

Zhao Yiyang greeted people he knew along the road, and complained: "Is it two or three o'clock last night? I suspect that lack of sleep every day will cause me to grow short! If I can't break through 185 in the future, I will send a pennant to the school !"

Shangguan Yu: "Write 'unscrupulous school, ruin my height'?"

Zhao Yiyang patted Shangguan Yu on the shoulder and laughed loudly: "Hahaha Your Majesty is really quick-witted and talented! This can be written down, but I still don't hope that one day I can use it!"

He turned to Wen Xiao again: "What's the cut under your lip? Is this place very painful? And did you stay up late last night? Your complexion turned so bad, like a serious illness. Old Xu is still right For example, 'study is important, but the body is also important!'”

After speaking, he found that Wen Xiao was walking mechanically, his attention wandered somewhere, as if shielding the surroundings, what he just said was not heard by the person involved at all.

Zhao Yiyang was half a step behind, and asked Shangguan Yu: "What's wrong with Wen Xiao? Could it be that my voice was too low just now?"

"You have a loud voice." Shangguan Yu adjusted his glasses, "The boss may be thinking about a question with a difficulty factor of five stars."

Zhao Yiyang nodded: "It makes sense!"

In the last row of the classroom, the chair was pulled away, and the eyes fell on the empty desks and chairs aside, Wen Xiao's hand on the back of the chair suddenly tightened.

He suddenly remembered the first time he saw Chi Ye in the classroom, when he just woke up, opened a can of Sprite to wake up, and asked, "Why are you here?"

But now, he subconsciously thought——

why are you not here

It would be great if it was in...

I’m not sure if it’s because the college entrance examination just ended. The learning atmosphere in the class is at an all-time high. Xu Guangqi quietly stood at the back door to check on the post after early self-study, and found that no one in the class was reading comics and chatting on mobile phones. He couldn’t help but look up for a while. Class card, make sure you are in the right place.

After returning from class exercises, Zhao Yiyang was unfolding the chemistry paper to ask Wen Xiao questions, when Xu Rui rushed in from the door, as if his clothes were on fire: "Something happened! Something happened!"

Zhao Yiyang plucked his ears: "Academic committee, is the earth going to blow up or next year's college entrance examination will be brought forward? I'll give you the microphone, and you can tell me clearly."

Where the few people didn't notice, the tip of Wen Xiao's pen was pressed against the paper, and he didn't move for a while.

Xu Rui was so anxious that he couldn't breathe. He looked around and found that no one was paying attention, so he lowered his voice, "It's Brother Chi! Brother Chi has come to school!"

Seeing that his expression was wrong, Zhao Yiyang raised his heart, and quickly asked, "And then?" Shangguan Yu also put down his pen and turned to look over.

Xu Rui pressed his chest: "I'm going to ask Lao Xu for questions after finishing the exercises between classes. I saw Brother Chi standing next to Lao Xu's desk at the door of the office. It seems that he wants to talk about suspending school!"

Zhao Yiyang stood up fiercely: "Damn, it's really a fucking big deal! Let's go!"

Xu Rui didn't understand: "Where are you going?"

"Go to the office to eavesdrop! Aren't you going?"

"Of course!" Xu Rui caught up, "Wait, they're not in the office now, they're going to the chat room!"

Next to each office in the attached middle school is a conversation room, which is used to allow teachers and students to relax and talk, and to protect the privacy of students by the way, but it has not been used much.Later, I don’t know which teacher put a pillow in it, and since then it has become a treasured place for teachers who don’t go home at noon for their lunch break.

At the door of the conversation room, Xu Guangqi opened the door with the key, and Chi Ye stood behind, subconsciously looking towards the position of Li Yiban.

There are still a few minutes left for class, Wen Xiao should be brushing up on the questions now.If he is really sleepy, he will lie down and sleep for 5 minutes, with most of his face hidden in the crook of his arms, only his white and soft ears and obvious hair twirling are exposed.

If someone disturbed him to sleep, he would show eyes like cold stars, filled with impatience.But he rarely gets angry, and reason is always stronger than emotion.If you pat him on the back from the side, or reach out to help him cover his ears, he will be like a little animal that has been soothed, closing his eyes and falling asleep again.

The thorns on the body are so soft that it makes the palm of the hand itch when touched.

Since last night, Chi Ye's heart has been filled with wind, and the emptiness is like a wasteland, without boundaries or fulcrums.

After closing the door of the conversation room, Xu Guangqi looked at Chi Ye carefully, "I lost weight again."

Ikeno was wearing a blue and white school uniform, and it was rare for him to pull the zipper to the standard height.He replied: "Maybe I'm growing taller."

Xu Guangqi saw that his expression was gloomy, with visible tiredness between his brows and some other emotions that he couldn't understand. Compared with the high-spirited high school freshman, he had changed a lot.After he calmed down, he asked, "Just now in the office, you said you wanted to talk about suspending school, right?"

"Yes." Ikeno stood up, restrained all his carelessness, and said with a serious expression, "Teacher, I decided to take a year off from school."

At this moment, his youth full of struggle, unwillingness and bitterness ended abruptly and silently in a place that no one knew about.

Xu Guangqi did not answer immediately.He thought for a few seconds: "I remember you told me firmly a few days ago that you would not stop studying. Why did you change your mind so quickly?"

Ikeno stood where he was, and a small window in the conversation room let in sunlight, and there were still branches shaking and birds chirping outside.Before his eyes floated the figure standing by the window last night and seeing it from a distance, with a bitter taste on his tongue, he replied hoarsely, "Because someone showed me the way."

He told me to go forward, to the light ahead, not to stumble, not to stop.

The school bell rings.

Chi Ye couldn't help thinking again, Wen Xiao should start listening to the class now.

Wen Xiao is very picky about his lectures, he only listens to what he doesn't understand and what is easy to make mistakes. As a result, he may only listen for a few minutes in a whole class, and spend the rest of the time doing questions according to his own plan.

He likes to turn the pen when doing the questions. His fingers are slender and beautiful, and he is very flexible when turning the pen.A few questions in a row are very simple, and he will lack interest, like an emotionless question brushing machine. Once he encounters a difficult problem, the speed of the pen rotation will be significantly accelerated.

Suddenly, the last sentence of the phone call last night echoed in my ears.

In an instant, Chi Ye's breathing suddenly tightened, and his body subconsciously leaned forward a little, even with stomach cramping pain.

Mingming, Mingming's favorite mood has not changed at all, but they are defeated by life and fate.

Wen Xiao...he couldn't bear to let him speak even about parting.

It is not necessary to ask clearly who the guide is, but observing Chi Ye's expression, Xu Guangqi probably has a guess in his heart.He asked him again: "How do you plan to arrange this year when you are out of school?"

After regaining consciousness, Ikeno stared at a certain point in the air: "Make money, do your best to make a lot of money, can support the medical expenses my mother needs, and can afford to find someone who can take my sister to and from school when I'm not around, The expenses of those who take care of her food and clothing. In this way, I can concentrate on preparing for the college entrance examination."

Xu Guangqi's eyes were sore.

Fate is never fair, and often even full of malice.

Facing this young man whose facial features gradually faded, he didn't know what to say or what to persuade.

Chi Ye felt that his feet were empty and he couldn't step on the ground. He barely gathered his scattered attention, straightened his back, and bowed solemnly to Xu Guangqi.

"Thank you for your trust and tolerance over the past two years."

Xu Guangqi's eyes were reddened: "I don't need to thank you, the teacher has never been of any help, I can only watch you work hard, the teacher can't afford this thank you... You have not been easy every day, you have done what you can The best, you take care of your mother, take care of your sister, and take care of yourself, it is too difficult to survive until now."

Ike Ye stood up straight again, and the corners of his mouth gradually put on the usual casual smile, "The only regret is that when I come back to study in the third year of high school, the head teacher will not be you. At that time, I will be the first in the city in the college entrance examination, and the cheap one will show up halfway The teacher in charge of the class used it to brag about it."

The turbulent emotions were temporarily interrupted, Xu Guangqi stared at Chi Ye, his eyes were still red: "Do you believe it or not? I took the graduation class twice in a row? I will be your head teacher! And, what is your [-]th grade?" reason?"

"There's no reason." Chi Ye replied indifferently, "Instead of watching myself take one hundred and fourteen, one hundred and three, one hundred and two, one hundred, ninety, eighty, seventy, sixty, it's better to directly Exam [-]." He looked away, his voice lowered once, "It's the worst case scenario, the dignity I left for myself."

Xu Guangqi understood - Chi Ye had been prepared for the worst from the very beginning.He too was afraid and worried.

The young man's pride, as bright as the sun, would rather break it with his own hands than be crushed and crushed into the mud by the malice of fate.

Chi Ye has always been the proudest boy.

Before leaving, Xu Guangqi's eyes were sour when he saw Chi Ye put his hand on the doorknob: "Although this school uniform is not good-looking, don't throw it away. You will have to wear it again in a year."

Chi Ye didn't look back, but only replied: "Okay."

The door of the conversation room opened.

Zhao Yiyang, Shangguan Yu, and Xu Rui stood close to each other against the wall, looking into Shang Chiye's eyes, they wanted to say too much, but they seemed to be dumb.

Chi Ye glanced at the three of them one by one, and wanted to say that you should help take care of Wen Xiao, he doesn't know anyone else, and he has a quiet and introverted personality who doesn't like to talk.

But when the words came to his lips, he swallowed them back abruptly.

He himself didn't take good care of Wen Xiao.

When Chi Ye reached the stairs, Xu Guangqi quickly chased him out from the office, stuffed a note into Chi Ye's hand, and then turned around to remind the three Zhao Yiyang who were standing blankly at the door of the conversation room: "How long has the class bell been ringing? What are you doing standing here? Hurry up and go back to class..."

Ike Ye stood on the edge of the steps, lowered his head, and unfolded the uneven edge of the note. The handwriting on it was messy and scribbled, obviously written in a hurry just now——

"Even if fate makes things difficult for you, don't lose that handful of youthful blood in your heart."