The Queen of the Prairie and I

Strong enemies are everywhere, pressing every step of the way, and black clouds are pressing down on the city to destroy it.

It is said that Zhuonatia's army has finally broken through the blockade of Guangjianchuan, but it has to face the army of rebels from the north.The rebel king who came from the source of the Three Rivers was led by the veterans of the old camp of Bugude. Many people in the army were unwilling to fight with their relatives in their hometown, even if Zhuonatia was the same, even if the rebel king rose up and killed Her mother, Empress Dowager Enlun.Moreover, the veteran army of the old battalion was the backbone of Cuckoo back then, and he knew how to fight with Dronatia and her army. In Dronatia's view, this was the biggest reason why they could not fight against the enemy in the north.But if you don't choose a breakout point, the northern rebel king's army, the eastern king's Zhan army, the southern Wen Liangyu's army, and the western Lianhuacheng army may all come into contact with Zhuonati's army first, and if they meet, it will become a fierce battle Being entangled, and then the remaining three parties all came, the army became a turtle in the urn, being swallowed alive by 19 wolves and tigers, and there was no place to die.

Dronatia chose to take the risk, and she would have a big fight with the generals every time she held a council meeting, because the generals did not support her risky plan very much.Zhuonatia's plan is very simple, that is to give up continuing to enter the desert from Guangjianchuan and then enter Mobei to consume the enemy on the vast grassland, but to go south to the Yinshan Mountains to divide the troops into highlands, relying on the mountains that are easy to defend and difficult to attack, and defeat Wenliang first Jade Offensive.

"Our army's supplies are getting less and less. If we can enter Mobei, it's the best strategy to defend against the enemy with sports while nomadic. Why go south to Yinshan to face Wen Liangyu head-on?" The generals were very puzzled.

"I think it's Da Lu's army that scares you out of your souls, right? Everyone understands the simple truth of going to Mobei, even small soldiers and horsemen. Will Lu Jun not guess it? The enemy's vanguard in the north is a traitor. Wang, who was originally from Bugude, will naturally understand our way of marching troops. When we arrive in Mobei, we will be in the middle of Wang Zhan's arms. It is like falling into the trap set by Wang Zhan, and the whole army will only be wiped out. If we take risks, we will go south If we do not follow common sense to send troops, it will make Wen Liangyu unprepared, and give them a blow. Once Wen Liangyu breaks, Monan will be relieved. With Monan's foundation, Wang Zhan's back road will be cut off, and he will be shocked and break. Dalu's 15 Northern Expeditionary Army was completely annihilated. Whether Lianhua City or the rebellion against the king is just a crow gathering bones, without a tiger, it can only scatter like birds and beasts. This is to break Wen Liangyu first, then Wangzhan, and die. And the battle method of life. Even if you don’t understand this, you must go to Mobei, where we have no other way but to die.”

"Wen Liangyu was born as a bandit. If he is proficient in mountain and valley warfare, wouldn't we be caught in a trap?"

"Then Wang Zhan is still General Zhengyi. He has dealt with us grassland people all his life. In terms of proficiency, isn't he more proficient in plain and grassland warfare? Compared with him, what is there to be afraid of a mountain bandit in Shandong? She is sure in the cottage. The fight is defensive rather than offensive, and Wang Zhanlai is probably not as proficient as Wang Zhanlai when it comes to attacking fortifications in the mountains, otherwise why did Wang Zhan capture her and make her his concubine in the end?"

"but--"

"Stop talking, you've been arguing with me all day, and your head hurts, Li Ningsheng, return the bill with me."

She said, and I got up and helped her up.Although I have been kneeling for a whole day and my legs are sore and numb, and why do you, who is not two years older than me, ask me to help you every time.Thinking that Zhuonatia is still relatively reserved in front of the public, I am not as confused as before.After all, she doesn't want to call me Sheng'er in front of others, let alone let others hear me call her Tia.

As soon as we arrived in the tent, Dronatia wanted to rest, and I sat aside, instead of getting dressed together as before and getting into bed together.

"Did you know I have scars?" I asked, and Donatia just shook her head in her underwear.

"I was taken away by the Bod people as a slave since I was a child, and then sold everywhere. Sometimes I was a daughter of a little nobleman who had no children. It was more comfortable at that time, and sometimes I was sold as a needleworker. Embroidery or dressing up, I used to be a young lady at any rate in the Danning Mansion. Of course I couldn’t do or learn that kind of work, and I would be beaten and scolded by the nuns. The most ruthless time was in my I pricked my waist with an awl. At that time, I was in pain and frightened. I was afraid that I would die from this injury. The nurse continued to beat and scold me to keep me quiet. I endured the whole day with a hole in my waist, and at night The blood flowed down to the bottom of the skirt, but the nanny who was in charge of life saw me and thought it was the first time I came, and she was bleeding all over, so she beat and scolded me again. The scar is still on my face On the back, it's just a small spot, but it left a deep impression on me, because that's the first time I understood that being a servant, being a slave, no one will care about your truth, no one will care How are you doing, because there is no reason to speak with slaves."

"Can I... have a look?" asked Dronatia, seeming a little embarrassed.

I didn't answer, I just turned my back and picked up my clothes, and then felt the cold touch on my back.

"There are many other scars too. Some are small scars that were cut when fleeing, and some were branded on certain parts by some tribes with strange customs. As long as you see the scars, you will think of the past. What happened back then When you are alive, death is like life, which one is not a fatal doom, but when you get over and look at the little scars left behind, it becomes a trivial matter that you can only make yourself laugh."

"You used to wear dancer clothes, why didn't I notice the scars on your waist?" She asked, but it seemed to be asking herself.

"Although the dancer's dress shows her waist, it can just cover these scars. Tia has been sleeping with me for almost a year. She has neither seen my body nor touched me. Of course she doesn't know about it. It's over." I put down my clothes and abruptly separated Donatia's hand. "I want to tell the truth, no matter how much you want to monopolize me and treat me as Li Yisheng, I am not the kind of person you imagined. I have been a tent slave for ten years. I have seen it in the past ten years. What you have experienced is unimaginable for a high-ranking queen like you. The last man who saw my body was the son of the Baishan Tribe. He looked at my scattered small scars, just shook his head and said The sentence 'Sure enough, you can only see it from a distance, you can't play with it, it's really unsightly', it seems that it is quite different from the flawless ketone body he imagined."

"You mocked me." She was a little annoyed, but not angry.

"I don't, Tia, I'm very happy to have someone who can call each other baby names, sleep together every night, and be inseparable. But don't you know very well in your heart, what kind of person I, Li Ningsheng, may be, what have you done to me, right What did my friend do. So you keep a distance from me, you watch from a distance, you refuse to play, you let me comfort you, but you can't understand you deeply, and you refuse to understand me deeply. I want a close friend, But this friend refuses."

"Then what do you want, Sheng'er." Zhuonatia asked, but Sheng'er's words were a bit blunt.

"I tell you this because I can't bear it. I can't bear to be a heartless bystander like this. I have been inseparable from you for almost a year. I haven't worked or done anything during this year. Dressing you up, that's why I know Shan Ying, Fu Kou, and the Empress Dowager Enlun and Li Yisheng, whom I have never met, how much weight and status they occupy in your life, so that I can treat you every day The crying at night is empathetic, and it hurts my heart for you to be sleepless and silent all night after hearing the bad news. It’s been almost a year, even if you sleep with a big cool stone every day, you should cover the heat. You let me continue to be a Keep a distance, conscientious spiritual pillow, I can't do it anymore. I also have a heart, a liver, and my own feelings, I used to hate you, hate you, but now I don't hate you, and I don't hate you so much, you still Keep a distance from me and don't allow me to go. I am in the Bugud tribe. I am not the master, the servant is not the servant, and the slave is not a decent person. I can take it, I can't take it anymore." I originally thought that these words would make me calmer, but I didn't expect that every sentence and every word was like pulling out a wide box from my heart, and it hurt every time. unbearable.

"Have the generals looked for you?" After waiting for a long time, they finally heard Zhuonatia's words.She is really smart, and this kind of thing is still not enough for her.

"General White Wolf even knelt down to me. It happened this morning. They are a group of big men, with snot and tears, begging me not to pester you anymore. Fuko asked me to serve you as much as possible, and the generals asked me I don't want to pester you. I only know now that Fuko is doting on you, doting on you, everything is for your comfort, and you are happy. The generals are more worried about the state and whether you, the queen, are competent. I know and I can see that you are obsessed with this game between me and you, Shenger and Tia and you can't extricate yourself. The more tense the war becomes, the more you dive in here to escape reality. Zhuo Queen Natia, the first time I heard this name came from a Bugud patrol soldier. They were very proud to say that all the land from the source of the Three Rivers to Jinshan belonged to Queen Dronatia, and she was invincible. I was completely shocked by these words, the attitude of self-confidence and admiration, and the white eagle flag fluttering in the wind, and I also felt deeply inferior. Everyone is a woman, and I am just a man handing it down without any The plaything of privacy and shame, there are women like me who can take all the endless grasslands, mountains and rivers, men and women under my command, when I first saw you, I was moved by your pure and noble appearance, I thought it was the most dazzling thing at the time. Only now did I realize that the oil stains on my body have actually stained this noble white eagle, making her addicted to this meaningless game."

"Sheng'er, do you know that I was hiding my surprise the first time I saw you, because you look so much like Sister Yisheng, and when I heard your name, I felt tears It’s coming down soon, because the name Li Ningsheng is so similar to Li Yisheng. I blinded that Anzu man’s eyes because I was afraid that she would take you away, because the Anzu people would do anything to snatch a woman. You said I keep a distance from you, I am afraid that I will hurt you, the things behind me will hurt you, you know me and know a lot of my stories. I wanted to not tell you a word, Li Yisheng, Father, there are many things, many, many things, I don’t want to tell you. Because when I see you, I will think of sister Yisheng, and when I see you, I will think of those promises and wishes when I was a child. Looking at you Only then can I see myself when I was a child, see my previous visions, and truly realize that I have abandoned my own wishes and visions over the years, and I can no longer get too close to the real and beautiful things. Now you Look, there are only tragedies and partings happening around me, don’t you understand?” Dronatia was moved a lot by my straightforward words, and she rarely said a lot, and said what was in her heart.For the first time in such a long time, I felt that Donatia was actively approaching me so close.

"Then can't you just let me go? If I go, you won't have these troubles, you can concentrate on what you should do, and I can be a free man, and your generals will I cried and knelt down to a tent slave." My throat was sore, and I also felt my voice was out of tune, my eyes became moist, and the picture in front of me became blurred.

"I know, you are so kind to me suddenly tonight, just to talk about this matter, you should have a good chat with me when you make a plan, and then provoke me or have a dispute, it will hurt my heart and make me rush You went right." Donatia's tone became more and more stiff, and her eyes became red and swollen.

"I really can't hide anything from you. You are worthy of the White Eagle Queen who uses soldiers like a god." I laughed, the more I laughed, the more I felt a sore throat, as if my whole body was about to sob, and my whole face couldn't be controlled.

"Of course it's the best. I've thought about it too. A tyrant like me who kills my father, my teacher, usurps the throne and fights everywhere has no reason to keep you by my side. It's good for you and me." She walked in front of me , wearing only the lining but smiling. "Don't be a slave anymore. Li Ningsheng who has been a slave for ten years, Li Ningsheng from Danning Mansion, the Bode people—the prairie tribe ruined your youth for ten years. I will make up for it now and give it back to you. From today on, don't be a slave." Become a slave, become a human being, become a human being, and become a free person who loves as much as you want and hates as much as you want. From then on, the mountains, rivers and seas are all journeys you haven’t arrived, and Danning Mansion is the home waiting for your return.”

She continued to smile, but I couldn't see the tears on my face.

"Go and see the places Sister Yisheng mentioned, the noisy ports, the small bridges over the flowing water, the beautiful women on the boat, the long rivers with hundreds of miles of fields in the sunset, and thousands of miles of people transported by water. You can go and see those things that I may not see in this life. After ten years of separation, Zhongyuan is waiting for you to go back, and Li Ningsheng is going home." She still smiled and said, as if she was sincerely happy for me to regain my freedom.

I don't know what I'm thinking, but when she said something, a blurry picture appeared in my mind, and those words echoed all the time.

"Let's go, before I change my mind, come and prepare the horse!" Her tone became more and more uncontrollable, as if she was breaking a dike, she kept pushing me out of the yurt, and closed the door.

The servants prepared horses and dry rations and dried meat.After getting my gear ready, I galloped out of the Bugud camp with a sign in the middle of the night.

I don't know why, the series of things like leaving the Cuckood camp didn't take me too much time and energy.Maybe it's because I didn't think about anything at all during that time, didn't think about anything at all.Only the scene just now is still echoing.

Should I go to see the eldest sister?Or go back to the Central Plains?Should I be a free Anzu or a vagrant returning home?

I don't know why, when my eldest sister said that I am no longer a slave, I can't remember the longing for freedom, the desire and touch of becoming a human being, even the words of the eldest sister and the appearance at that time.What was clearly there a few hours ago has been diluted now.

Because all that's left there is the image of Dronatia pushing me out of the yurt, the moment she says "stop being a slave."

Why is it so simple, I still can't figure it out, but I may already understand it in my heart.

But whether I understand or not, whether it is true or not is not important now, I have been galloping on horseback at night with the moonlight, getting farther and farther away from Dronatia.

At this time, there is no moonlight, the grass rolls like ocean waves, and there is no sound of insects or horseshoes.There is no such vast campfire as the starlight falling into the earth in the distant Bugude Camp.Only in the endless darkness, the distance between Dronatia, who fell down and cried in the yurt, and me, who was galloping on horseback, became farther and farther away.

I don't know when I stopped seeing the moonlight shining on the faint road in front of me.Instead, he fell on the horse's mane and cried hoarsely.But even the cry of people, submerged in the darkness, submerged in the grassland.