The Queen of the Prairie and I

to whom It May Concern.

It has been a month since I returned to Danning Mansion. Although the old house has been seized and then occupied, my second brother still arranged a good place for me.Here, when you open the window, you can see the waterfront river passing by outside, as well as the endless boats on the river.After returning to Danning Mansion after ten years, he could no longer recognize the appearance of Danning Mansion.Maybe it's because my memories revolve around the former Li Mansion's old house, but now it's another compound.

It's going to be winter, but not long ago, I saw the scenery of red leaves accompanied by fine snow. Even the old housekeeper said that this scene is rare in Danning Mansion, and it is a wonderful sight.They may not have seen in Monan, the peach blossoms just opened but covered with a layer of early spring snow.It may be because of staying in the grassland for too long, the life in Danning Mansion is really at a loss, and even the clothes feel awkward.

The fine snow in late autumn can only be seen at night, but it disappears in water during the day.That touch of white that is quietly put on always reminds me of you, the way you want to monopolize others but dare not take a closer look.Indeed, as I once said to you, looking back on the past always makes people smile.The battle outside the Great Wall is going on, I don't know how your plan is going, you won't just lose to Wang Zhan like this.

Speaking of Wang Zhan, I think of an interesting story An Xiche told me.The two tribes that took me away back then were Baishan and Bode. She said that you killed Bode back then, did you avenge my captivity?Now that I think about it, it might be true.My second brother told me that when the Bode Army wanted to extort a sum of money from my father, and my father prepared a ransom, the then General Wang Zhan ordered the prohibition of paying the ransom to the Bode people, which resulted in me being taken outside the Great Wall.My second brother's subordinates told me about the anti-poetry case five years ago, Wang Zhan asked the emperor to read a book, saying that my father wrote anti-poems from the previous dynasty with a brush on the wall of the Oriole Building.Looking at it this way, is Wang Zhan my enemy?Why all my enemies become enemies with you is really puzzling.

Every time I want to write to you, I always stop at those three words.

to whom It May Concern.

I don't know how to send a letter to you, who is an enemy chieftain, and I don't know how to start it.

I originally hated you to the bone, wishing to see your family ruined, your country ruined and your army defeated, in a miserable state.So I really saw your family ruined, but I couldn't be happy, and I didn't feel any relief when I saw that you were going to be defeated step by step.

Now that I understand it, I just imposed all my ten years of suffering on your head, and regarded you as the chief culprit for the grievances I have suffered in these years.Why are you guilty? That is too unfair.

You can use me as a substitute for Li Yisheng, or you can use me as a slave to comfort yourself.Now that I think about it carefully, in the past ten years, besides eldest sister, you are the only person who has really treated me well.At that time, I was just a slave, and you were the queen of a party. You could use a whip to scatter all my crooked thoughts and souls that I didn’t want to fight. That was the most reasonable result, but you were willing to listen to my complaints and let me threaten you I lose my temper with you, and I am willing to listen to my words and correct my attitude towards me.You are the dumbest tribal leader I have ever seen, and the dumbest queen.You clearly created an image of a rebellious, almost ruthless white eagle, why did you show me your real face without any worries?Why would you bring out the most vulnerable parts of yourself, the deepest hidden feelings, and share them with me?It seems to me that you are being stupid for doing this, and it caused the lofty White Eagle Queen in my heart to collapse step by step, and the last thing I remember is only a timid and sentimental little girl who dared not even face her true feelings .

I have been with you for nearly a year, and I always feel that being with you is like being with a tiger, and I also feel that you are moody.Thinking about it now, you directly took off your armor and crown to me, and directly regarded me as the closest person.This year, you will give me whatever I want. If I am unhappy, you are even willing to beg in a low voice. This is not a queen and a slave, this is a slave and a queen.

Li Yisheng gave you the highest ideal, and there may be others, many people have instilled many things in you, so that you have to carry forward with heavy burdens.So I turned you into a stupid girl, a stupid girl who would be mad at you even if you loved your sister so much.He doesn't eat the fireworks of the world, or he doesn't know the fireworks of the world. If he wants a close companion, he roughly pulls her to his side, and directly reveals all his secrets and truths to her.

You are such a stupid girl, why did you meet me?If you meet someone who is willing to lie to you, there won’t be a day when you let me go crying, right?

The more I think about it, the harder it is to let go.

But I don't want to say that I can't live without you. Now that I have returned to my hometown, I am satisfied after waking up from a dream for ten years.I hope you, as a passer-by in my life, can also do well for yourself.

The old butler knocked on the door and asked me to put down my pen and ink, as well as the white paper.

He was so happy that I thought something good was going on.

"Girl, you will be happy to hear the good news from the Nine Sides."

He said so, with a smile and anticipation on his face.

"There is a civil turmoil in the bandit army. The bandit chief Zhuonatia escaped with hundreds of horsemen and was captured alive by General Wen Liangyu!"

He continued, looking at me expectantly, he should expect a gratified smile to appear on my face.

But his look of anticipation turned incomprehensible.

Because my blood was cold at that moment, and I was visibly trembling even when I exhaled and inhaled.