The Queen of the Prairie and I

"If Miss Ningsheng was here, we would save the military doctor from filling her with medicine every once in a while." General Wen summoned me in the tent and asked me to take care of Dronatia.

"To be honest, General Wen, I want to leave..." I said straight away, I really didn't want to watch that miserable scene again.

"Do you know there are no jokes in the army?" Wen Liangyu saw that I didn't buy her politeness, her expression changed, and she said coldly.

"I am also a person who has been serving princes and leaders in the army all year round. I understand the truth of this."

"That is to know the law and break the law, you want to try the military law in my camp?"

"General Wen, I haven't promised you anything. Even military law is reasonable, isn't it?"

"Presumptuous." She poured her own tea all over my face.Because we had been talking for a long time, a cup of tea was already warm, but it didn't burn my face.Being so humiliated has never happened a second time after following Zhuonatia.Now that I wiped off the tea stalk sticking to my face, although my heart didn't fluctuate much, it brought back memories of the past.

"Miss Ningsheng, please don't toast and eat fine wine. Your brother is a good general. If you have a commission, you will never refuse. How can this sister be a heartless bastard?" Where are the lower insults I have heard.

"If the general wants to kill me, then kill me. My second brother and I have recognized each other, but our family is gone. There is nothing to be greedy for the world. It is better to die happily." Although it is just talking, it is true. I really hope that she will drag me out and kill me, it will be a pleasure.

"Your death has nothing to do with me, so why do you force me to die? Laugh at me, Erniang Wen." But she didn't look like she wanted to laugh to death at all, she seemed to be mad. "Forget it, it's not worth getting angry with you. Little girl, you'll be with Zhuonatia first tonight, and I'll send you back to see your second brother tomorrow. If your second brother can't talk to you, Then I don't care if you die or go back to the Danning Mansion." She said, since the compromise has come to this point, I have nothing to say, I can only nod silently.

Walking out of the big tent, I saw that the night sky was much clearer than before, and the Milky Way could be seen across the sky from the south, and the stars shivered in the cold wind.After returning to Danning Mansion, I found that the stars are clearer and the clouds are lower on the grassland. I don't know if the sky is clearer or closer to the sky.When the moonlight shines on the ground, one can see the shadow of the Yingying moon cast faintly on the ground, outlining the shape of everything in the barracks, until a bonfire was destroyed.

"Zonatia is very weak. If you want hot water tonight, you can ask the guards." Wen Liangyu said from the side.

"If General Wen can save her from torturing her for a few days, she will feel better. This is my diagnosis method, which is better than your military doctor's."

"Damn you!" she shouted, and kicked me down from behind. I had nothing to say, but stood up and patted the dirt to continue walking.

When I came to the big tent where the dungeon was, I turned around and held out my hand to Wen Liangyu: "If you want to give me anything, just give me the key to the iron cuffs, at least to make her hands feel better tonight."

"Zonatia is very skilled, aren't you afraid that someone will run away?"

"She can't even lift the iron cuffs. Where did she get the strength to escape? You also said that making her feel better tonight will help her recover, right?"

"That's not impossible, but if you change the key with one hand, I'll give you the key, and I'll cut off your right hand, okay?" She smiled disgustingly.

"It's up to you, please hurry up." I raised my outstretched right hand.Anyway, I neither work nor write, and I don't feel bad about my right hand.

Wen Liangyu drew out his saber, and the soldiers beside him panicked. "I'm afraid it's hard to explain to General Li—" Before he could finish speaking, she cut him down with a single knife.

Looking carefully, the right hand is still there, but the index finger is cut.

"What a boring little girl." Wen Liangyu said disappointedly, put away the saber, and asked the soldier to give me the key.Passed me the torch again.

Entering the dungeon for the second time, the cold air still made me shiver.After lighting the oil lamp and putting on the torch, he saw Dronatia chained to the stake again.She kept looking at me since she came in, but didn't say a word, and I looked at her too, taking out some incense ash from the package, wrapped it in a piece of cloth and tied it.

It was bleeding again, so it was impossible to leave it like this, so I stepped forward and pressed the place lightly with a gray bag, marveling in my heart that her thighs had become cold.And she struggled a little bit, blushed again, but seemed to be more comfortable, so she let out a long sigh.

"Sheng'er...why don't you go back to Danning Mansion?" She hesitated for a long time, and finally asked softly.

"I went back, but I'm not used to living here, and my family is gone."

"What's wrong with Sheng'er's family?" she asked.

"Blessed to death by the emperor." I said.

"Then Sheng...why did you come back?"

"I don't know, I'm not here to see you anyway, so don't think too much." I let go of the hand that was there, and I changed my sitting position, feeling suddenly a little unhappy in my heart.

"Ha..." She seemed to chuckle.

"What about Tia, why did you make it like this?"

"Someone rebelled..... wanted to kill me, but ran into Wen Liangyu while escaping, and it became like this." She wanted to smile bitterly, but couldn't force it out.

"I've said it a long time ago, don't go crazy, don't do things too badly, why don't you understand the stupid things I know." As I spoke, I took out the key and unlocked her hand. Putting on the iron cuffs, he put this heavy thing on the straw beside him.Donatia's arms were as white as her body, but they were deeply scarred by the iron cuffs.Then I stood up and untied her hair from the hoop so that her neck could rest.

"Since it's already like this, it doesn't make much sense to scold me again." She rubbed her wrist. "Today... I'm really sorry."

"Why are you apologizing?"

"It made you see a bad look."

"You don't look much better now."

"No, I know, I saw you today... so it's a bit too... I know you're upset... let you..." She kept talking, and seemed to be unable to find the right words She said her thoughts in simple sentences, but both of us knew exactly what she was talking about.

"Tia doesn't need to apologize. If this kind of thing needs an apology, how many times should I apologize, and you don't need to apologize." For some reason, the guilt of bullying came up again.

"I won't let you see me...don't let you touch me."

"But I see it now, don't I, it's all right for me."

"No, it's different. Wen Liangyu has done more than what you saw... She just wanted to bully me after being imprisoned for so long, just... wanted to see me suffer, see me cry... To make me hate myself..."

"I see she is so excited today. You must have done a good job before. She didn't achieve her goal at all." I put my hand on her hand to comfort her, but she pulled it away.

"I'm not that Dronatia anymore...I..." She looked away.This makes me also feel puzzled, why is she feeling so remorseful?

"If you are gentle and gentle, you will achieve your goal." I said, "I have seen a lot of people like her, how can Tia be played by such a person?"

"I'm different from you...I'm not as brave as Sheng'er...I'm actually not what you see, I—"

"I know, I know everything." I held her hand again, and she didn't escape this time. "The Dronatia I know is this Dronatia, a contradictory and lovely girl, not a godlike queen, nor a plaything under Wen Liangyu's feet."

"You..." She looked at me, suddenly enlightened.Perhaps it was the first time that Dronatia really knew that I understood her, that she didn't understand me, and for the first time felt how close I was to her, much closer than she imagined.Perhaps for the first time, she knew how stupid it was to keep a distance from me before.

"The Tia I know can cry, is timid, selfish, and stubborn. Sometimes she likes to watch others make a fool of herself. She doesn't do things lightly or seriously, and she is stupid. It can be said that she doesn't understand people's hearts at all. That's why I... ...I..." I didn't know what to say next, or couldn't say the words.Before he knew it, his face became moist again. He wanted to see her peacefully for the last time, but in the end it turned out like this.

"Yeah, you know, you all know, but I've always been so stupid, just because I was afraid that you would dislike me and try to leave me after you found out." Her voice also began to tremble, and she tried her best to keep herself normal.

"Sugi Sakura said about your past, you are a person full of secrets, but for me, the secret is just that I don't know the specific things, but I understand, I believe that is not the case, some things are definitely not what they sound, yes ?"

She may have been dyed blood red, but the white feathers are born with it, and it cannot be blood red all the time.I believe in my own feelings. Although the one-year relationship is short, it is enough for me to recognize Dronatia.She is not always that kind of complicated person, maybe her past is very complicated, but her personality is not like that.

"How do you know?" She looked away as if hiding.

"What Li Yisheng did to you, I don't know, but I'm not Li Yisheng, the things you are afraid of will not happen to me, I will not implement the things you are guarding against, and my malice will not hurt you at all. You, Tia, it's only one night, and there's only one last night left, can you tell me that I didn't recognize the wrong person?"

She looked at me, thought about it, and sighed.

"Sister Yisheng was indeed beheaded by me, but no one would believe what happened at that time."

"Go ahead." I touched her cheek.She froze for a few seconds.

Donatia slowly explained the whole story.That is something only she knows, the darkest corner of this grassland.

At that time Li Yisheng was indeed in Hutan's big tent, and it was true that he was about to give birth.But her tendons and hamstrings were cut off. As soon as Zhuonatia saw this situation, she knew that things were different from what she imagined. The Hutan people also abide by the law of the grassland, and they will not treat them like this. Other wives.

Li Yisheng is not Hutanbu's other wife.

When Sister Yi Sheng saw Zhuonatia, she said the last words to her, and the last words made Zhuonatia feel scared.

She said that she was very happy to see that Dronatia brought troops here, and if she came, it would definitely be a mutiny and usurpation of the throne, all of which were within her father's calculations.At that time, the Bugude Department served as the vanguard for Dalu, and had built a powerful army and a perfect system in the east and west. Zhuonatia was smart and knowledgeable, and he was fully qualified to enter the grassland to fight for hegemony.But they lack the drive, the initiative.So hatred is the biggest motivation.Li Yisheng's father abandoned her, she probably lured Hutanbu to take her away, and angered Hutanbu to torture herself, all of this was a conspiracy, all for this moment.All of this was carried out step by step according to her father's account before he left.

Hatred.

Li Yisheng and her father tried every means to cultivate a relationship with Zhuonatia, but they did so to cultivate hatred.

Li Yisheng said that hatred turned her from a young eagle into a bloodthirsty real eagle. From then on, Zhuonatia couldn't stop, and if she stopped, she would be smashed to pieces.If you still recognize her as Sister Yisheng, then continue to continue the great cause and don't let her down.Although he lied to Dronatia, it was for her own good.

At the last moment, Li Yisheng let Zhuonatia understand herself, she was tired of the world, tired of all living things.After that comes the part Sugi Sakura said.

Zhuonatia has always admired and deeply liked Li Yisheng.However, Li Yisheng often said that she is a young eagle, and he is a tit, and he will become her bait sooner or later.Dronatia never understood the meaning of that sentence, until that day when she saw the big tent on fire, she understood what it was like.

The person I liked has been living in hell.Neither saved her nor saw through the traps.Until finally, bite by bite, the former chick eats the chickadee that grew up with it.After that, Zhuonatia's father also said bluntly that Zhuonatia had no way out, and he chose to commit suicide, forcing his daughter to continue on the path of Shura.Bearing these charges, these notorious Dronatia can only continue to go forward.

My ten years were hell, so why not her seven years?I'm miserable, she's majestic, but deep down there's no real difference.Dronatia kept moving forward in the sea of ​​corpses and blood, living herself into an appearance she didn't know, keeping her true self in her heart, waiting for the second dawn.

That says it all, that proves it all.

"I believe, I believe."

I didn't look wrong, and I didn't admit the wrong person.Dronatia was the Dronatia I knew, and everything was ready.

"you believe?"

"I believe it." I swear. "I understand everything too, there is no need to say any more." Why did she lie to Shanying, why did she do those things.What she did in the end was what Li Yisheng never asked, and she took the sins of the father and daughter on her behalf.

Why, this kind of person, such a cute and silly girl, has to bear these things but no one can understand, and she herself can't understand.She had been calling me for help for a year, and now I finally answered.

"Then I won't say it... I should have told you earlier, right?" She smiled wryly, just like I did before, waking up from the dream and letting go.

"Tia, Tia, Dronatia. The first time I saw you, I had a premonition that my fate was about to change." The sad past is only in the past, but the feeling has not been diluted, and I will empathize with it. "It's only been together for a year, but you have washed away all my memories of the past ten years, everyone's faces, and the memories of all the good and bad feelings at every moment. After I returned to the Tanning Mansion When I see a horse, I think of you teaching me how to ride a horse. When I see a brush, I think of you chewing on the end of the brush. When I see a white dress, I think of your dazzling white robe. Tia, my Tia, you make me sleepless at night , pulled me all the way back to the grassland. Can you explain, can you tell me... tell me why? Why did it become like this, why am I in so much pain?" The more I spoke, the more excited I became, the tone was lost The way he usually talks.

"Could we not be like children... One cried and the other was brought to cry..." She wiped her nose, smiled but couldn't stop sobbing. "I hope you never come back, forget about me and the grassland, forget about everything in the north, and have those...those things that I longed for a good life. But you still came back, and I...I actually ..... from the bottom of my heart... I'm glad you're back..."

"I'm for the truth, all those truths, why did it become like this..."

"Have you found the truth yet?"

"found it"

I will leave tomorrow. After I leave, Wen Liangyu will meet Wang Zhan and hand Zhuonatia to Wang Zhan. Wang Zhan will take her back to the capital.She will then be executed by the emperor's order, and she will never be seen again.I finally understood, and I finally understood after holding her hands again.There is no truth in this world of mortals, and the world doesn't care about such things at all.

I know that the only truth is in the heart, and it has been there since birth.The question I should face is not whether it should exist, but that it is already there. Not only does it already exist, but it also reminds me of its existence every moment, knocking on my heart and tearing my soul apart.

Death or life, grassland or Central Plains, Central Plains or Tanning Mansion are all the same, for me there is no difference.

Finally, after seeing you, I really knew that I was about to lose you, and lost you forever.I finally knew that the truth was the burning heat that couldn't be hidden, the throbbing that couldn't be stopped.

"It's here, it's been here all the time, I'm just as stupid, I didn't realize it was here."

"Then I am not wrong. I was not wrong at the beginning. I have always had this premonition. I always believe that my feelings are not wrong. That's great...Sheng'er...Great." She The thin weeping marks at the corners of his eyes finally turned into bean-sized teardrops rolling down continuously.

I stretched out my hands to caress her cheeks, and wiped away her tears. She showed an unprecedentedly safe look, and covered my hands again, wanting to continue to enjoy this intoxication.

"Tia, can you, can you not mind my past, don't mind that I used to be a slave like rags, I used to hate you, I was a lurker who had ill intentions for you, I once hoped to see you defeated Time and time again, you gloated over your defeats. Accept me, take me in, and become..." At this point, the words seemed to be unable to be uttered, the declaration had reached the corner of his mouth, and all the secrets were revealed. But the words were still shy and refused to show their figure. "Be...become my...become my lover?" I could feel the heat on my cheeks, as if a transparent breath was coming out, and my heartbeat was extremely heavy. I had never felt so hot all over my body, as if Every inch of skin and every drop of blood cheered for the opening of my heart. I forced myself to look at her, not to look away because of her timidity and shyness.Only I can't turn my head away, can't escape.

"I'm a person full of secrets. I may disappoint Sheng'er and hurt Sheng'er at any time. I..." She blushed, looked away, and said other words.

"Tia...I'll take it all."

"I'm..."

"From now on, you are mine. Whether your shortcomings or secrets are mine, everything is mine, and it makes no difference to me." It is really embarrassing to say these words, but for her, no matter what, you must express your feelings. Say it: "Because as long as it belongs to Tia, it is every bit of the person I like."

She took a deep breath, opened her eyes wide, as if surprised by the words, smiled relieved again, and took my hands away from her cheeks.

"You said, I am yours, then I will be yours from now on. From now on, it is no longer just Zhuonatia, yes...it is Li Ningsheng and Zhuonatia, Li Ningsheng and Zhuonatia! Is it? Yes right?" she asked impatiently.

"Hmm... Li Ningsheng and Zhuonatia." I replied, always feeling like my face was going to be on fire.

Suddenly, I fell on my back and fell hard on the haystack.Jonatia threw herself into my arms as if attracted by me, and hugged me tightly.Caught off guard, but also expected.She hugged me so tightly, unwilling to let go an inch, as if she was afraid that I would suddenly disappear and leave at this moment.

"I used to think that running water is just running water, spring is just melting snow, slavery is just talking loudly and some physical punishment, freedom is just yearning for fantasy, but as Shenger said, everything is different, running water is the transparent silk scarf of the earth 、Spring is the gateway from ice and snow to the new world. Slavery is the imprisonment of the soul. The yearning for freedom is the unyielding nobility. As long as it is said by Sheng Er, I think it is beautiful. As long as it is beautiful, I want to love Sheng Even the night before I was arrested, I wanted to tell Sheng’er how beautiful the snow was, and when Wen Liangyu tortured me, I really wanted to tell Sheng’er how painful it was.” She said one sentence at a time, Acting coquettishly, she refused to let go of her hands.

"I won't leave"

I will stay, and I will protect Dronatia.She's not someone who should have welts on her body.

"The dungeon is so damp, is Tia cold?"

"Leng... Sheng'er, I'm so cold..." She confided unabashedly, like a lost sister who finally found her and cried and acted coquettishly.

At this moment of being close to her, it seemed that time had stood still.At this moment, I understood the meaning of the concept of eternity, as if the cruel future looming in front of us, the tragic fate of dying, the miserable situation of being defeated, captured and exterminated, no longer exists. The only real thing in the whole world is Zhuo. The existence of Natia, that cool and delicate touch.