if i could love you

"To love someone may be to be generous

if only want to be loved

In the end there is no dialogue

must have your affection

equality without points

There is always happiness and distress

The ups and downs of life are to be recognized

Knowing that a person also needs patience

to go through an accident

only to understand the so-called love

years to come

let's get to know

how long forever

A few times the water flowed

we are each other special

Desperate

not serious

……

sometimes we are all lonely

Sometimes I fail and I am afraid of being eliminated

I want to find someone who understands

.......

everything is possible in life

You are the special person I want to meet"

On the stage, Li Li sang in a low voice, weeping and complaining, as if he was singing his story to everyone.

The air conditioner in the bar was fully turned on, and the hot wind was blowing on his face, but Jiao Er felt cold all over.She wanted to escape from this place, but as if she had been stabbed, she couldn't move.She looked at Li Li on the stage, as if looking at an isolated island.She stood at one end of the land, and with no boat to take her there, she could only watch as the island was enveloped in more and more mist.

"I'm not feeling well today, so I won't sing, everyone have fun." After singing a song, Li Li said suddenly, and then stepped off the stage.

Li Li, who was wrapped in black, was sitting in front of the bar. There were all kinds of wine on the table. She raised her head and poured one glass after another into her mouth.

"Li Li, are you okay? Stop drinking if you feel uncomfortable." Seeing Li Li's endless look, Wen Jiaoer couldn't help but stepped forward to persuade him.

"I'm in a particularly bad mood today, can you leave me alone?" When Li Li spoke, he was still holding a glass of wine in his hand, and the lake in his eyes became more and more chaotic.

Seeing this, Wen Jiaoer had no choice but to sit beside her, regardless of whether anyone would recognize him, and watched her pour the wine into her belly like plain water.She was sad and anxious, but there was nothing she could do.

"What's the matter, is she here?" I don't know when A Yuan sat next to Jiao Er.

"I don't know either." Jiao Er's voice came out of the mask, muffled.

A Yuan glanced at Li Li, walked to the side and said, "I hired you to sing, not to drink."

At this time, Li Li temporarily turned her eyes from the wine to A Yuan. She raised her eyelids, twitched the corners of her mouth, and said, "Boss, I'm not feeling well today, please take a leave of absence."

"It's uncomfortable to drink so much wine!" A Yuan said, frowning.

"Don't worry! I'll give you the money!" Li Li stretched out his hand and patted A Yuan's shoulder while speaking.

"Luo Nian knew what you said. The person who died was not you but me." A Yuan changed his tone and continued to persuade him earnestly.

"She's so busy, she doesn't have time to worry about me!" Li Li stared at the front and poured another glass of wine into his mouth.

A Yuan sighed lightly, and then left.

Luo Nian?Ah Yuan also knew Luo Nian?So who is Luo Nian?Is Li Li feeling sorry for Luo Nian?Jiao Er stared at Li Li, thinking wildly.

"You have a drink too!" Li Li, who noticed Jiao Er's gaze, handed her a glass of wine. Li Li was obviously drunk, his face was slightly red, and his eyes became blurred.

Jiaoer shook his head and said distressedly, "Don't drink anymore, otherwise you will be drunk."

"I'm already drunk!" Li Li smiled slightly, looking at Jiao Er dimly.

Jiaoer didn't speak, but still looked at Li Li distressedly, but there was nothing he could do.

Seeing that Jiao Er didn't answer, Li Li turned his eyes to the wine glass again, and then said slowly, "Did you know? Jiao Er, the person I like is getting married tomorrow! Getting married!"

Li Li was still muttering something, but Jiao Er couldn't hear clearly, or didn't want to hear clearly anymore.

"I called her friend to come and pick her up, and you can go together when the time comes. Otherwise, you won't be able to get her back tonight if she looks like this tonight." At this time, A Yuan went to Jiao Er and said to her.

"Is it Luo Nian?" Jiaoer asked.

"Well, yes. Do you know her?" A Yuan asked back.

"It's not acquaintance." Jiao Er said truthfully.

"Look at her first, I have some things to do." A Yuan didn't care about Jiao Er's words.

It was only later that Jiaoer found out that Luo Nian and A Yuan had been friends for a long time, and that Li Li came to Verlaine to sing was also introduced by Luo Nian. Verlaine actually had a resident band, but the band was busy at that time, so I had to ask Li Li to support it, otherwise Li Li wouldn't be able to sing until ten o'clock every day and then leave.

At this time, Li Li was already lying on the bar table, he seemed to be really drunk, and he was still muttering something.Jiao Er shook her head, not knowing what to do with her, so she had to sit by the bar and wait for Luo Nian's arrival.

After a while, a woman wearing a gray plaid coat and a khaki business suit, with long curly hair and gold-rimmed glasses came over.She half hugged Li Li and dragged her off the stool.

Seeing this, Wen Jiaoer stepped forward to stop her and said, "Hey...", as soon as he opened his mouth, the words were hijacked by that woman.

"Are you Li Li's friend?" The woman with gold-rimmed glasses was wearing high heels and looked taller than Li Li.She looked down at Wen Jiaoer slightly, with a proud expression on her face.

She has a similar temperament to Li Li, with an inviolable aloofness on her body.But Li Li looked like the kind who deliberately wrapped himself up layer by layer, and there was a sign on the border saying that he was not allowed to approach.But she is different, she seems defenseless, but a sneer will make you flinch.

"Yes. Yes." Jiao Er looked at her with only a pair of eyes exposed.

At this time, Li Li who was lying on her body suddenly regained consciousness, opened his eyes, and whispered, "Luo Nian, why are you here?"

She is Luo Nian!No wonder it looks like the person who picked up Li Li at KTV that day.

"Look at your worthless energy!" Luo Nian looked down at Li Li with disgust.

Li Li laughed and fell asleep again.

"Let's go! Take you two back to school." The woman named Luo Nian said to Jiao'er.

"Oh, good." Jiao Er obediently followed behind Luo Nian.

"I'll take them away!" said Luo Nian who met A Yuan at the door.

"Well, be careful on the way. If she doesn't feel well tomorrow, she doesn't have to come." A Yuan replied.

"She deserves it for being uncomfortable!" Luo Nian said coldly.

Luo Nian drove a gray Lexus, she opened the door and casually left Li Li in the back seat, then said to Jiao Er behind her, "Go in."

"Thank you." Jiaoer looked at Luo Nian who started the car in front of him, and said softly.

"You're welcome!" Luo Nian uttered two words coldly.

At this time, Li Li, who was sitting on the side, leaned on Jiaoer's shoulder as soon as he moved his head.The smell of alcohol covered the scent of pine branches on her body, Jiao Er froze her body and did not dare to move, listening to Li Li's deep breathing, she couldn't tell what it was like in her heart.In normal times, Jiaoer might be moved by this intimate gesture, but today she knows that the person leaning on her shoulder really has someone she likes.It turns out that the person I like really has someone I like.Thinking of this, Jiao Er's heart seemed to be trapped in a pot, steaming hot but unable to breathe.

"Well, are you Li Li's friend?" Jiao Er boldly asked.

"I am her childhood friend." Luo Nian's tone was still very cold.

"Then do you know why Li Li is unhappy today?" Jiaoer mustered up the courage to ask again.

"I know. But I have no right to tell you, it's her private business."

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked." Jiao Er felt offended when she heard this.

"You'd better not ask her." Luo Nian continued.

"I see." Jiaoer said softly.

"I won't go in, you should be able to bring Li Li back?" After arriving at Jiaoer School, Luo Nian turned his head and said to Jiaoer.The light inside the car was dim, and Jiaoer couldn't see Luo Nian's expression clearly, but Jiaoer guessed that she had no expression.

"Yes, yes. Thank you for sending us back." Jiaoer said obediently.

"If it wasn't because she didn't live up to expectations, I wouldn't make such a trip." When Luo Nian said this, his tone was finally no longer cold, but full of disgust.

Jiaoer carefully dragged Li Li out of the car, then said goodbye to Luo Nian, "Then we'll be leaving, goodbye."

"See you."

Jiaoer was about to take Li Li away, but Luo Nian called her to stop.

"Hey! Little girl. After you go back, help her wipe her face with hot water. Also, if she drinks too much, she may make trouble at night. Please take care of me. I'm sorry to trouble you." Luo Nian finished speaking before waiting for the temperature Jiao Er replied something, then retracted her head into the car.As soon as the car started, it left gracefully.

Although Li Li usually doesn't look like much meat, Wen Jiaoer now feels that she weighs a thousand catties.After all, Li Li was five centimeters taller than her, so he would naturally be heavier than her.She put one of Li Li's arms around her neck, and led Li Li to the dormitory with difficulty.If there are paparazzi or illegitimate students on campus at the moment, maybe she will be on the hot search tomorrow, and the topic is called "Wen Jiaoer hooked up with a girl late at night! The good girl in the eyes of the public, came out of the bar late at night, There is also a drunkard on her body. If this spreads, some people will say that "the human design has collapsed"! Wen Jiaoer couldn't help laughing bitterly when she said this. After meeting Li Li, her life has gradually deviated from the fixed track But she didn't know that many years later, she was completely "disintegrated" and completely said goodbye to the "good girl", but she was willing to do so.

After taking him back to the dormitory, Jiao Er gently put Li Li on the bed.Then in the bathroom, dampen the towel with hot water.

"Li Li, let me wipe your face for you." Even though Li Li has his eyes closed now, he still looks restless in sleep.Seeing her situation, Wen Jiaoer spoke to her cautiously.

As he spoke, he gently brushed away the hair on both sides of Li Li's cheeks, and then gently wiped it along his forehead with a towel.Jiaoer didn't dare to use too much force, but just wiped from the forehead to the direction of the cheek bit by bit.

Li Li suddenly let out a low sigh, and turned his head to the side reluctantly.

"Li Li, be good!" Jiao Er whispered softly, then gently straightened Li Li's head.Probably only at this moment can she have the courage to say such things to Li Li.

After wiping Li Li's face, Jiao Er found that Li Li's clothes were still on.Do you want to change her pajamas?Jiaoer was confused, if she changed, wouldn't she help her undress; if she didn't change, Li Li would definitely feel uncomfortable if she slept like this, and she drank so much wine.

"Li Li, wake up, put on your pajamas and sleep again." Wen Jiaoer called her softly

But Li Li hummed twice, and then didn't move again.Seeing this, Jiaoer could only take a deep breath, and then said, "Li Li, let me change your clothes for you!" With other thoughts, it seems that the purpose is not pure.

Jiao Er first took off Li Li's outermost coat.Then he pinched the lower end of Li Li's black sweater with his fingers, and gently lifted it up, revealing his slender waist.Wen Jiaoer's face turned hot, a little embarrassed.Usually, she and Li Li usually change clothes in the bathroom, and rarely see each other's body.Her hands were slightly slow, hesitating whether to proceed further.But I heard Li Li muttering "cold".

She had no choice but to comfort her softly, "You first raise your arms and straighten them!" Li Li, who was asleep, was very obedient and obediently straightened his arms.Jiaoer pulled up the sweater in a vigorous effort, and Li Li's upper body was exposed to the air.Wen Jiaoer looked at Li Lixue's white skin, ignored her hot cheeks, rubbed her hands vigorously, and then covered her face to keep her hands from being so cold, before going to relieve Li Li underwear.As soon as Jiao Er's fingers touched Li Li's delicate skin, she felt a slight tremor in her body.

After untying the underwear, Wen Jiaoer quickly picked up Li Li's pajamas, trying not to look at the two balls on her chest, and then quickly put on Li Li's pajamas.

It was easier for her lower body, Jiaoer took off Li Li's black woolen skirt and the black pantyhose inside, and quickly put on her pajama pants.After putting Li Li into the quilt, Jiao Er still had Li Li's long white and slender legs in her mind.

She didn't feel empty in her heart until she was lying on the bed after everything was done and she had washed herself.It was as if something that was in my heart had been taken away.She turned over, turned her back to Li Li, and faced the wall, thinking about all the things that happened tonight.Originally, she thought that she and Li Li were getting closer, but tonight made her feel that it was just an illusion.Should I give up, before I get too deep.Her life is far more than just love, she also has an acting career.If this matter is known to the public, then his acting career will really be over.Thinking of this, Wen Jiaoer bit his lower lip hard.After dawn, just give up, give up this hopeless secret love!Before anyone knows, before anyone gets hurt.

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