if i could love you

After the show ended, Jiaoer sat in the nanny car back to the hotel without saying a word, just looking at the night view of Songcheng outside the window.She remembered the scene when she and Li Li took the last bus in Pingcheng.The night in Songcheng looks much more gorgeous than in Pingcheng, with heavy traffic and fiery trees and silver flowers.This city has been synonymous with "petty bourgeoisie" since it was recorded in history. Compared with the classical atmosphere of Pingcheng, she is another kind of nobility and elegance.

"What are you thinking about?" Simon noticed that after picking grapefruits, Jiaoer's mood was not quite right.She vaguely knew what was going on, but she wasn't sure, so she had to probe cautiously.

"Just in a daze, without thinking about anything." Jiao Er pulled back her thoughts from the aimless wandering, and braced herself to answer.

"Did you encounter unhappy people during the recording of the program today?" Simon continued to probe.

"No! I'm just tired." Jiaoer blinked her dull eyes and said with a smile.

"Then you sleep in the car for a while, and I'll call you when you arrive at the hotel." Simon comforted softly.

"Okay." Jiao Er leaned against the car window and closed her eyes after speaking.

After returning to the hotel room, Simon and his assistant helped her organize everything in the room. Simon and his assistant said, "Xiao Yang, you go back first. I'll have a few words with Jiaoer."

Seeing that they had packed up, Jiao Er was already falling asleep, but when she heard Simon's words, she looked at Simon puzzled.

"What's the matter?" Jiaoer asked Simon inexplicably after seeing the assistant left.

"It's nothing, just go to bed early, we are on the plane tomorrow morning." Simon smiled reluctantly.

"I know!" Jiaoer said, "Is there nothing else?"

"Jiaoer, don't force yourself. We can take our time, don't worry." Simon sat on the sofa, staring at the cup on the table, never looking at Jiaoer.

"Take your time? Do I still have time?" Jiao Er said with a wry smile.

"Don't put so much pressure on me. In fact, the transformation of a child star is already very difficult, and it's useless to worry. We can figure out the route first." Simon continued to comfort.She knew that this child was the kind who kept everything in his heart and said nothing with his mouth.It was because of this that she felt sorry for her.

"No matter what type you change, you have to act in an emotional scene, right?" Jiaoer understands what Simon means, and also understands that Simon didn't make it clear because he feels sorry for her.But for some reason today, she wanted to express what was in her heart.She paused and continued, "You know what? Simon, sometimes I wonder what I would do if I stopped being an actor?"

When she said this, she glanced at Simon, and Simon was about to speak, but she continued, "Simon, you listen to me today. But I have thought about it for a long time and don't know what to do, because I have been here since I was a child." I grew up in the crowd. I'm used to living in the public eye. I don't know how ordinary people should live. It scares me when I think about it, because it means that I have no other way to go. There is only one way for me When it was dark, I had to be successful. And there were so many people watching! How could I fall behind others?" Jiaoer didn't feel happy after speaking the phone call, but was even more out of breath.

"Jiaoer, you..." Simon knew that Jiaoer could hide things in his heart, but he didn't expect her to think so much.

"It's okay, I just held it in for too long, just say it out. I'll be full of energy when I wake up tomorrow." Jiaoer showed a big smile to Simon, and then continued, "Okay La! I'm going to bed. Go to bed quickly, too!"

After Jiaoer sent Simon out the door, the phone vibrated, and it was a WeChat message from Jagger.After the show, they added WeChat friends to each other.

"It's a pleasure recording a show together today."

"Me too, thank you and the two seniors for taking care of me." Jiaoer replied to him, but then sent him a message, "I have to catch a plane tomorrow, so I'll go to bed first, and you should go to bed early too."

After sending, she put the phone on the bedside, and fell on the bed.The phone vibrated again, but she stopped looking at it.Although she didn't want to admit it, she really missed Li Li.Since she was busy in Songcheng yesterday, she hardly thought of Li Li during this period.She thought it was a good start, but the reality gave her a slap in the face, and her determination collapsed in this sad night.Missing came again, what is Li Li doing now?Today is Wednesday, she should be singing in Verlaine!No, it's past eleven o'clock now, and she should have gone back to the dormitory.Will she be locked out of the dormitory building because she didn't make it back in time?Thinking of this, Jiao Er got up and wanted to get the phone, but immediately stopped herself.Just a bad night, no big deal, and when the sun comes out, it starts all over again.

Just thinking about it like this, she gradually fell asleep.

The next day, I flew back to Pingcheng from Songcheng. It was already afternoon, and a group of fans came to pick me up as usual.Jiao Er, who only showed a pair of eyes while wearing a mask, her almond eyes were bent into crescent moons when facing fans, and she habitually posed with scissors when facing the camera.In front of the public, she is still the energetic, playful and lovely sweet bean.

It was only when she got back to the nanny's car that she showed a tired look on her face.She slumped on the car seat, took out the earphones and stuffed them in her ears, without saying a word.

"Shall I take you home first?" Simon patted her on the shoulder and said.

"Didn't you say that there is a magazine cover shoot looking for me? Let's go back to the company and have a look!" Jiao Er took off an earphone while speaking.

"Are you tired?" Simon asked with concern.

"I'm not tired, I slept pretty well last night." Jiao'er tried her best to bring out the liveliness in her tone.

Simon looked at her distressedly, and nodded helplessly.

"The theme of this magazine shoot is cool girls. The magazine hopes to present another side of Jiaoer to the public. The photographer will discuss the specific shooting plan after seeing Jiaoer. What do you think?" the advertising department of the company The minister handed Simon the shooting plan.

"Look, how about it?" Simon flipped through it roughly, and handed the document to Jiaoer again.

Jiao Er just glanced at it and said, "I think it's ok, please help me agree first!"

Simon just sighed and nodded.He said to the director of the advertising department, "Let's settle this matter first! I'll take Jiaoer back first."

"Are you going back to school tonight? If you do, let Xiao Yang and the others pick you up." When they got downstairs to Jiaoer's house, Simon asked.

"No. I want to rest at home overnight. I will go to class tomorrow morning." Jiaoer replied.

"Okay, I see. Then you have a good rest at home." Simon knew that Jiaoer's current state was not suitable for saying anything, so he had to leave her alone.

"Dad, Mom, I'm back." Jiao Er shouted as she entered the door.

"I'm back. Mom made your favorite fish today. It will be ready in a while." Mom shouted in the kitchen.

Jiao Er heard her mother's voice, walked into the kitchen, saw her mother and aunt busy inside, suddenly felt sad, stepped forward and hugged her mother from behind, "Mom, why are you so kind to me?"

"You silly boy, you are my daughter!" Embarrassed by Jiao Er's words, Mother Wen could only smile and open her hand.

"Did Jiao Er miss home after going to Songcheng for a few days?" Auntie also said with a smile.

"Yeah." Jiao'er lay on her mother's shoulder, and said in a muffled voice, "But I can't eat today, I have a magazine cover shoot in a few days, and I have to lose weight."

"How fat?" Mother Wen pulled Jiaoer back to her face, looked at her carefully, and continued, "I'll eat a little today, okay?"

"Okay. I see. Then I'll eat a little bit. I'll go back to the room first, call me for dinner." Jiao Er responded, turned and entered the room.

Wen Jiaoer was lying on the bed, turned on the phone and flipped through Moments, and after a few pages, the phone vibrated.It's Li Li!

Wen Jiaoer confirmed again seriously, it was really Li Li!

"came back?"

"En." Jiaoer only sent one word, then thought for a while, and then sent another sentence, "How do you know?"

"I saw your message on Weibo."

"Yeah." After Wen Jiaoer replied, he threw the phone aside.

"Bah!" The phone vibrated again, Wen Jiaoer picked up the phone again in disbelief, and Li Li really sent her another WeChat message!

"When are you going back to school?"

"I'll go to class tomorrow morning." After Wen Jiaoer replied, a spring of happiness welled up in his heart.Even though he has decided not to like her anymore, he can't help but be happy for her initiative to greet her.Unrequited love is a one-man show, one person plays all the joys and sorrows but no one knows.

"Jiaoer, it's time to eat." My mother shouted in the living room.

"Oh, good. Understood." Jiaoer who was talking hastily put down the phone.

"This dish has less calories, so eat more." Mother Wen diligently put the dish into Jiaoer's bowl.

"I really don't want to eat, mom!" Jiaoer declined.

"Finish these dishes first, don't waste them." Mother Wen said with a frown.

"Mom~" Jiaoer said coquettishly.

"If the child doesn't want to eat, don't let her eat it. Why do you force it?" Dad Wen on the side helped.

Mother Wen glanced at Father Wen with disgust.Wen Jiaoer took the opportunity to escape back to the bedroom, still shouting, "I'm going back to the room first, I have class tomorrow!"

On the second day, Wen Jiaoer hurried back to school, and the class had already been on for half an hour.She sneaked in through the back door, saw that there were empty seats in the back row, and took advantage of the opportunity to sit in the last row.Although low-key enough, it still caused quite a commotion.The teacher on the podium had obviously noticed the source of the commotion, and frowned and said, "When students who are late come into the classroom, please keep your voice down, and don't disturb other students in class."

After hearing this, Wen Jiaoer felt that she was really wronged, and she was obviously very low-key!well!If you are late, it is your fault!Wen Jiaoer finished listening to the class awkwardly, and was about to pack up her things and leave after class.When she looked up and saw Li Li, she was startled, but she still pretended to be calm.

"What's the matter? Li Li." Wen Jiaoer asked with a smile.

"It's okay, I don't have class this afternoon, so I asked you to go back to the dormitory? If so, let's go together." Li Li looked as usual, but he couldn't see the depressed state of last week.

Wen Jiaoer obviously didn't think about this question, he was stunned for a while, and then answered, "No! I have something to do this afternoon, yes, I have something to do." When Wen Jiaoer was speaking, he pretended to lower his head to pack his bags, and dared not look up at Li Li.

"Well. Then I'll go first. Goodbye." Li Li said goodbye to her naturally.

"Goodbye." Wen Jiaoer still did not raise his head.

"I said I don't go back to the dormitory, will she mind? If she really minds, what should I do? I should have looked up and looked at her expression if I knew it. Forget it, forget it, what does it matter! You are a star, I'm already very busy! There will be more cases of not going back to the dormitory in the future. I just ask politely as a roommate, what are you really feeling?" Wen Jiaoer was full of inner drama at the moment.

The assistant looked at Jiao Er, who was sitting in the nanny's car, with a preoccupied look, and didn't dare to disturb her.She sighed silently, the child has really grown up.Two years ago, where did I see Jiaoer like this.I went to college this year, and I always have such a worried look.Really grown up!

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