if i could love you

Opening the door in May, a large expanse of sunlight floods in, and the air is filled with the breath of early summer.The sycamore tree outside Jiaoer's balcony was already lush and green.When the wind blows, it will make the sound of the tide, which often gives people the illusion of being close to the seashore.The weather is gradually getting warmer. When Li Li is in the dormitory, he often wears a loose and bulky black T-shirt. The long hem covers the shorts underneath, revealing only two long white legs.

The date of entering the group has been finalized, it will be on May [-]th.In the first few days of May, Jiao Er still attended classes at school, and used his spare time to familiarize himself with the script.So she and Li Li's daily life in the dormitory became reading books and scripts alone.Jiao Er, who was reading the script, was sometimes distracted, and the dormitory was quiet, only the sound of papers turning could be heard.This kind of subtle voice made Jiaoer feel very at ease, she guessed that "holding the hand of the son, and growing old together with the son" was nothing more than that.Two people are under the same roof, even though they are busy with their own business, but when they look up at each other, they feel a sense of security in their hearts. This is probably the best appearance of the future that Jiaoer can think of.

"What are you thinking about?" Li Li took out the script in Jiaoer's hand and continued, "You've been reading this page for 10 minutes!"

"How do you know I've been watching it for 10 minutes?" Jiao Er looked up at Li Li, with a fox-like cunning in his eyes.What she meant was, "You must have been staring at me for 10 minutes, otherwise how would you know I've been on this page for 10 minutes?"

Li Li didn't speak after hearing this, just smiled dotingly, and rubbed Jiaoer's hair again.He lowered his head and turned over Jiaoer's script.

Seeing that Li Li ignored her, Jiaoer stood up.She put her arms around Li Li's neck, and asked staggeringly, "Is the script as good as mine?"

Li Li saw his girlfriend acting like a spoiled child with the corners of her mouth drooping, her tone was like unmelted honey, and her heart throbbed.She took the hand of the script to grab Jiao Er's waist, and embraced her in her arms.

"It's definitely not as good-looking as you!" Li Li bowed his head and pinned the broken hair behind Jiao Er's ears, then kissed the corner of her mouth and said, "My girlfriend is the prettiest! I don't accept rebuttals!"

Jiaoer likes to hear Li Li calling her "girlfriend" the most. Every time she hears Li Li calling her, she will feel numb inside, as if an electric current passes through her.

Standing on tiptoe, she pressed her forehead to Li Li's, and the tip of her nose touched intimately.The breath of the two of them fell on each other's face like this.

"Li Li, do you still remember when we rehearsed for the first time?" Jiaoer took a deep breath, and the familiar scent of pine branches entered her nostrils. She continued, "At that time, you were so close to my chest. Forehead. Suddenly my heart beats."

This is the first time she mentioned to Li Li that she was attracted to her.

"Jiaojiao, so you have liked me so early!" Li Li's voice was thin and soft, like the bright moonlight outside the window at this time.

"Yeah," Jiao Er nodded, "You must have not noticed it then!"

Li Li looked a little guilty, but he was powerless to refute, so he could only nod his head.

"Because you still liked someone else at that time! How could you see me?" Jiao Er bit Li Li's chin after speaking.Naturally, she was reluctant to use force, she just rubbed the tip of her teeth lightly and opened her mouth.It felt like a newborn kitten biting its finger, the itching was greater than the pain.

"But I only like you now, and I will only like you in the future. How about it, Jiaojiao?" When Li Li was talking, the two still maintained their intimacy just now.Jiao Er could feel the sincerity and determination in Li Li's tone, and the affection and pampering in his eyes.

"En." Jiaoer nodded, and the arms around Li Li's neck tightened a bit.

Li Li couldn't help pecking Jiaoer's lips lightly, and then said, "Jiaojiao, you are so sweet!"

After hearing this, Jiaoer immediately lowered her head shyly, lying in Li Li's arms without moving, for fear that Li Li would see the blush on her face.

But Li Li opened Jiao Er lightly, and lowered his head to find her lips.A delicate kiss brushed from the forehead to the tip of the nose, and then Li Li covered Jiao Er's lips with his own.The tip of Li Li's tongue brushed Jiaoer's lips and white teeth lightly, and then he pried open her teeth, and entered to entangle Jiaoer's tongue.

Jiao Er clumsily responded to Li Li, the tip of her tongue was entangled with Li Li's, exchanging each other's breath intimately.

This kiss lasted for a long time, until Jiao Er felt that she was about to suffocate, she gently pushed Li Li twice.Only then did Li Li let her go, but Li Li's kiss did not stop.She followed Jiaoer's lips to her chin, and then to her neck. Li Li brushed her lips against Jiaoer's exposed skin, and occasionally rubbed her teeth lightly.

As if she was about to drown, Jiaoer tightly hugged Li Li's neck, letting her lead her up and down in the current.When Li Li's teeth touched the sensitive skin on Jiaoer's neck, she couldn't help but let out a soft breath.This voice seemed to encourage Li Li, she raised her head and asked Jiaoer, "Jiaojiao, can you go to bed?"

Jiaoer blushed as if she was about to bleed, then nodded and said "Yes", as thin as a mosquito.

Li Li pressed Jiaoer under him, the enthusiasm in his eyes seemed to burn Jiaoer through.Jiaoer was ashamed to look at Li Li directly, so she closed her eyes and wrapped her arms around Li Li's neck, kissing her lips.She suddenly felt a warmth on her side, and it turned out that Li Li's hand reached in from the hem of her loose clothes.She tensed up immediately, and her body tensed like a string.

Li Li felt the tension of the people below her, and her fingers lightly caressed Jiaoer's waist, which immediately caused the people below her to tremble, and her thin penis rushed out.Li Li briefly separated his lips from Jiao Er's, and then said softly, "Honey, take it easy."

Jiao Er nodded with a blushing face, still tightly clutching the corner of Li Li's clothes.

Li Li pressed his lips up again, stroking his warm fingers from the back of his waist along the spine until he encountered an obstacle.Li Li's hand stopped, she looked at Jiaoer and asked, "Is it okay?"

Jiaoer bit her lower lip, feeling the extraordinary heat of her body, she felt very uncomfortable for Li Li's sudden stop.She lowered her eyes and nodded, then said in a small voice, "You don't need to ask any more."

Li Li kissed Jiaoer's lips lightly, and then said, "Jiaojiao, you are really sweet!"

The hand covering Jiaoer's back also became restless.

But at this moment Jiao Er's cell phone rang untimely.As if waking up from a dream, Jiaoer pushed Li Li away and said, "I'll answer the phone."

Li Li sighed helplessly, lying on the bed and watching his girlfriend get out of the bed with her bare feet to get her mobile phone, she couldn't help reminding, "Honey, put on your shoes! Be careful of catching a cold!"

Jiao Er hurriedly ran out of bed, turning a deaf ear to Li Li's reminder.When she saw that the caller ID was Simon, she couldn't help but gasped, touched her chest with her hand before answering.

"Hey! Is there something wrong with calling so late?" Jiao Er bit her lower lip nervously, as if the matter between her and Li Li had been discovered.

"Is it very late now? It's only past eight o'clock!" Simon heard the extremely weak voice of Jiaoer on the other end of the phone, and couldn't help asking, "Are you asleep?"

"No!" Jiao Er clasped her fingers and said.

"Then you..." Before Simon could finish speaking, Jiaoer on the other end of the phone exclaimed, and immediately asked, "What's wrong?"

Jiaoer was concentrating on answering Simon's phone call, when suddenly there was a strange feeling under his feet.Looking down, she found that Li Li was putting on shoes for her, and she couldn't help but be surprised.

"Oh! It's okay, it's okay! I just saw a big bug, yes, a big bug." Jiao Er and Simon's explanation also became trembling.

"I have nothing else to do. I just want to remind you that I will be joining the team the day after tomorrow. We are on the flight tomorrow, you know?" Simon felt that Jiaoer was a bit weird today, but she couldn't tell what was wrong.

"Yes. I know. You are here to pick me up tomorrow, right?" Jiao Er glanced at Li Li and said again.

"Yes, I will pick you up tomorrow morning," Simon asked after a pause, "Jiaoer, are you in the dormitory now?"

"Yes, I'm here, what's the matter?" Jiaoer's mood that had just calmed down became tense again.

"It's okay, I'll just ask."

"If there is nothing else, I'll hang up first." Jiao'er wanted to end this fatal phone call immediately.

"Why do I feel that you are in such a hurry? What are you doing?" Simon didn't intend to let Jiao Er go.

"I, I'm reading the script, yes, reading the script", Jiao Er was so nervous that she wanted to rub her clothes.However, Li Li took her hand and wrapped it in his palm.

Jiaoer looked up and saw Li Li's eyes were calm and determined, and gradually felt a sense of security in his heart.

Listening to Jiaoer's answer, Simon couldn't help frowning.She knew this child too well, whenever Jiao Er was nervous or guilty, she would repeat the words twice.

"Oh. Look, remember to go to bed early." Simon still seemed to have not noticed anything, and there was no abnormality in his tone.

"Oh! Okay, you go to bed early too." Jiaoer hung up the phone in a hurry and let out a long sigh of relief.

"Who did you just say is a bug?" Li Li hugged Jiao'er into his arms from behind, and tightly locked Jiao'er's slender waist with his arms.

"I just lied casually." After answering the phone call, Jiao Er seemed to have exhausted all her strength, and said as she collapsed into Li Li's arms, "You scared me to death just now."

Li Li didn't say anything, he lowered his head and kissed Jiao Er's neck before saying, "Was it your manager just now?"

"Well," Jiao Er nodded and continued, "Simon has taken care of me for a long time, just like my own sister."

"What if she finds out about the two of us?" Li Li buried her head in the crook of Jiaoer's neck, and her breath hit Jiaoer's neck when she spoke.

"..."

"Ok?"

"..."

"If you don't want to say it, forget it." Li Li let go of the arms that tightly encircled Jiao Er.

Jiao Er immediately turned around and hugged Li Li again, she nestled in Li Li's arms and said, "It's not that I don't want to answer, I have to think about this question!"

"Then have you considered it?" Li Li's hands lightly covered Jiao'er's shoulder blades, looking so weak.

"According to the rules in the industry, artists should basically inform their managers when they are in love. Only in this way, when the relationship is exposed, they will not be caught off guard, and the public relations methods will catch up as soon as possible. In fact, Simon and my uncle both told I told them that if you fall in love, you must tell them. But..." Jiaoer paused before saying, "You and I are both girls, and this kind of same-sex relationship is even more difficult to deal with. I don't know how to deal with it yet. How to tell Simon. But if Simon asks, I will tell the truth."

After Jiao Er finished speaking, she looked up at Li Li.There was firmness in his eyes.

"Will she disagree?" Li Li's voice trembled imperceptibly.

"I don't know, but I just want to be with you." Jiao Er stretched out her hand and clasped Li Li's fingers tightly, only then did she realize that Li Li's hand was so cold at the moment.

"Jiaojiao, don't leave me!" Li Li hugged Jiaoer as hard as if he wanted to embed her in his bones.

"Li Li, I won't leave you." Jiao Er knew that Li Li remembered the sad things from the previous period, so she also hugged Li Li tightly.It seems that only in this way can she convey all her heart and feelings to the other party.

In the early summer of that year, the two girls hugged each other tightly like this.They try to use young love against a world that doesn't understand them.They are simple and passionate, and love burns their minds like a high fever.At that time, they never expected how difficult their future road would be, and once they set foot on it, it would be difficult to turn back.

After answering the phone call, Jiao Er and Li Li were in no mood to do anything anymore.So the two hugged each other and lay on the bed, chatting without saying a word.

"Li Li, if I have a chance in the future, I will accompany you to Iceland again. You must see the aurora!" Jiao Erwo said in Li Li's arms.

"Okay!" Li Li held Jiaoer's hand while speaking, and then said, "Jiaojiao, you must not break your promise!"

"I will definitely accompany you to Iceland and watch the aurora with you!" Jiao Er also held Li Li's hand back.

The author has something to say:

The scale of this chapter seems a bit big...