if i could love you

Jiangcheng is to the north, and the temperature is much lower than other places.The thinly dressed Jiaoer felt the deep coolness in the air as soon as he got off the plane, and couldn't help shivering.

Li Li was wearing a loose white shirt, a pair of black slacks, and was holding a blue denim jacket in his hand.I don't know if it's because of filming or something, but Li Li looks thinner than before, his complexion is not very good, and his eyes and eyebrows are full of fatigue.She pulled her thick long hair into a low bun, just like when she met her on the first day of school.

"Are you tired?" Li Li's voice was a little hoarse, and he didn't sound energetic.

Jiaoer shook his head and said, "It's okay."

Li Li handed her the denim jacket in his hand and said, "Put it on, it's a bit cold outside."

Jiaoer nodded again, and took the coat.There was a lot of traffic at the airport, and even though Jiaoer covered her face tightly, she was still afraid of being recognized.She followed Li Li forward and backward, and the two of them were silent all the way.

After leaving the airport, Li Li hailed a taxi and gave the driver a name that was very confusing.

"How do you go to such a remote place?" The driver master spoke a dialect unique to Jiangcheng.

"There are jobs over there." Li Li explained.

"Is it filming over there?" The driver looked very talkative.

Before Li Li could answer, the driver continued, "I saw that you were right there. There is always a filming crew over there, and I saw that the two pretty girls like you are actors."

After hearing this, Jiaoer immediately touched the mask covering her face, and turned her face to the car window unnaturally.

"You're wrong. We're not actors, we're stage managers." Li Li smiled and explained with a slanted mouth.

"Huh?" The driver snorted in astonishment.

Even though he and Li Li were still arguing awkwardly, Jiao Er still couldn't help laughing.She was thankful that the mask covered her expression.

"Have you ever seen an actor who is so careless? He doesn't wear masks or sunglasses." Li Li continued.

"Then she..."

Before the driver finished speaking, Li Li interrupted, "She has a cold."

Li Li glanced at Jiao Er while talking.Jiao Er remembered the time when she accompanied Li Li to sing in Verlaine last winter.At that time, Li Li also lied to the driver who asked her.It has been half a year in a flash, time flies so fast!

The journey was long, and the talkative driver almost chatted with Li Li all the way.Jiao Er was a little bit fortunate, if he met a taciturn person, wouldn't it be embarrassing for the three of them to not say a word all the way?

After getting off the taxi, he had to walk for a while to reach the hotel where Li Li was staying.It is a very ordinary hotel, and the accommodation conditions are not very good.It's okay to stay for a day or two, but it's hard for Jiaoer to imagine that Li Li has lived here for nearly a month.

"Let's make do with it. The conditions here are not very good." Li Li probably saw through Jiao Er's thoughts.

Jiao Er unnaturally concealed, "I didn't say anything."

Li Li smiled and asked again, "Do you want some water?"

Jiaoer nodded. When she was on the plane before, she was so nervous that she couldn't even drink water.After walking all this way, she was really thirsty.

"I'll get it for you, wait for a while. You take off the mask, don't wear it in the room." Li Li stood up and poured water for Jiaoer as he spoke.

Jiao Er obediently took off the mask, but still sat on the sofa cautiously.

After a while, Jiaoer heard an urgent knock on the door.

"Tuk! Tuk! Tuk!"

"coming!"

Li Li was talking, handed the cup full of water to Jiao Er, and ran to open the door.

"I made red bean and glutinous rice porridge for you today!"

Jiaoer heard the crisp female voice outside, and felt a little familiar.

"Thank you."

"Aren't you asking me to come in and sit down?"

Before Li Li could speak, Jiaoer saw a girl with fair appearance and special temperament come in.It's the girl from Weibo!

Jiaoer couldn't help but clenched the corner of the denim jacket, and her teeth lightly pressed against her lower lip.

"Are there any guests?"

The girl was very familiar with herself, or she was very familiar with this place, and she sat on the sofa opposite Jiaoer as soon as she entered the door.Before Li Li opened his mouth to introduce, he stretched out his hand to Jiao Er and said, "Hello. I'm Sheng Yan!"

Probably because of the low light, or because Jiaoer kept her head down, this girl named Sheng Yan didn't realize that it was Wen Jiaoer sitting opposite her.

Jiao Er lowered her head, hesitating whether to respond or not, how to respond.

"Oh! She..."

"Hello! I'm Wen Jiao'er!" Jiao'er took a step ahead of Li Li, raised her head and smiled, and held Sheng Yan's hand at the same time.

Sheng Yan was obviously taken aback, and when she spoke again, her voice raised a few decibels, "Wow! You are Wen Jiaoer!"

She couldn't help but use some strength to hold Jiaoer's hand.

Jiao Er was a little bit pained, and pulled back calmly, nodded and smiled and said, "Mm. It's me."

"The louder your voice is, the whole hotel will hear it!" Li Li said with some reproach, and then sat down intimately beside Jiao Er.

Jiao Er glanced at Li Li, and then "inadvertently" moved to the side.

After listening to Li Li's words, Sheng Yan stuck out her tongue, looking playful and cute.Then she asked, "How did you two meet?"

The corners of Jiaoer's mouth curled up, but there was no smile in his eyes, "We are classmates and roommates."

"Wow! I live in the same dormitory with a big star!" Sheng Yan patted Li Li's shoulder affectionately while speaking.

Jiao Er kept this behavior in his eyes, but his expression was not displeased, "What kind of star is not a star? Everyone is an actor."

Sheng Yan pointed to her nose in shock and said, "How do you know I'm an actor?"

At this moment, Jiao Er turned her head to look at Li Li, and then said, "I logged into Li Li's Weibo account before and saw that she followed you. So I know."

When Li Li heard this, he couldn't help but look at Jiao Er in surprise.You know, even though she and Li Li are lovers, they have never exchanged any social account passwords.So Jiao Er never logged into Li Li's Weibo at all.

Jiaoer was not at all afraid, and met Li Li's eyes and asked, "Right? Li Li."

When she spoke, there was a faint smile on the corner of her mouth.

Li Li froze for a moment, nodded and said nothing.

Sheng Yan also obviously froze after hearing this, and Jiaoer could feel that her eyes stopped on him for a long time.

"You two have such a good relationship!" When Sheng Yan said this, she didn't look at Jiao Er, but kept looking at Li Li.

Jiaoer felt that her spine, which had been straight all the time, was a little sore. She changed a comfortable position and leaned on the sofa, and said casually, "Roommate! We slept on the same bed before!"

Jiao'er frowned when Li Li listened to her words.There is a feeling of revenge in my heart

"She always has nightmares at night and wakes up scared, so sometimes we will sleep in the same bed." Li Li explained from the side, her tone sounded the same as usual.

"Wouldn't it be crowded if two people slept on a single bed?" Sheng Yan lowered her eyes, clasped her hands on her knees, and looked a little at a loss.

"It's okay! Every time Li Li hugs me", Jiao Er paused for a while, and really appreciated the ever-changing expression on Sheng Yan's face, and then continued, "Girls, don't you always have a good relationship? Tired and crooked? Are you right, Sheng Yan?"

"I... I'm still making porridge in my room, so I'll go back first." Sheng Yan didn't continue what Jiao Er said, but got up to say goodbye.

"Are you leaving now? Let's talk for a while!" Jiao Er blinked her almond eyes, and there was a smile on the corner of her mouth.

"No. Let's talk again when we have time!"

"Is this the red bean glutinous rice porridge you cooked?" Jiao Er pointed to a transparent lunch box on the table and said.

Sheng Yan nodded, but said nothing.

"Hey! Li Li doesn't like sweets the most. It's hard for you to bring them back to her." Jiao Er said with a look of guilt.

"Really?" Sheng Yan looked at Li Li, there was something indescribable in her eyes.Li Li may not understand it, but Jiaoer can understand it.Didn't she look at Li Li like this during those years of unseen secret love?So pitiful, so humble, like a stray kitten waiting to be adopted on the street in the cold winter.

But this stray kitten found the wrong person.

Li Li nodded, avoiding looking at Sheng Yan.

"Then I'll take it back." Sheng Yan said as she was about to pick up the lunch box.

Jiao Er quickly pressed Sheng Yan's hand that was going to get the lunch box, her almond eyes were full of smiles, "Give it to me, okay? I especially like sweet things. Thank you, Sheng Yan."

When Jiao Er spoke, the ending trembled slightly, no one could refuse that kind of sweet coquettishness.

Sheng Yan nodded and withdrew her hand.

Jiao Er watched Sheng Yan walk out of Li Li's room, and the moment the door was gently closed, she couldn't help but soften.She held down her trembling arm and couldn't help but let out a long sigh of relief.She didn't know where her courage and temper came from, probably because of her possessive desire for Li Li!

"what on earth do you want?"

Li Li sat on the sofa that Sheng Yan was sitting on before, when his eyes looked at Jiao Er again, their color changed completely.

"What do I think, haven't you seen it all?" Jiaoer tilted her head and said casually.

"Are you really not afraid that she will see our relationship?" Li Li's face was full of anger.

Jiao Er looked at Li Li and smiled wryly, but refused to say a word.Isn't Jiaoer blatantly declaring her sovereignty over Li Li?What can she be afraid of?Or is Li Li afraid?

Seeing that she didn't speak, Li Li asked again, "Is this what you said 'have a good chat'?"

There was a hint of sarcasm in Li Li's tone.

"Someone is cooking porridge for you, shouldn't I have a chat with the porridge cook first?" Jiao Er raised his eyebrows, his eyes were piercing.

"Is that why you don't trust me?" Li Li said after a pause, "Or do you think I'm this kind of person?"

"How do you trust me with your behavior? You go to like her secretly taking pictures of you on Weibo; she actually answered my call to you! How do you ask me to trust you?" Jiaoer asked Li Li word by word.

"She loves me, do I pretend I didn't see anything. Do you even have to restrict normal social interaction? It's just a like, if you really mind that much, then you should think about me, don't privately Going on a date with a male star alone!" Li Li stood up at this moment, frowning tightly and said.

"I'm dating a male celebrity? Do you believe in that kind of meaningless secret filming? I've already clarified it on the Internet!" Jiaoer was already exhausted when he spoke.

"Who are you clarifying to on the Internet? What I want is not the clarification from the big star Wen Jiaoer, but from my girlfriend." Li Li said with a wry smile, "You won't even give me a call Hit, whether my girlfriend is dating a male star or not, I have to find out from the Internet. Do you really care about me?"

"I called! I called you as soon as possible. But why is Sheng Yan answering the phone? Shouldn't your mobile phone be kept with you?" Jiao'er's voice suddenly increased.After she finished speaking, her body trembled uncontrollably.

After listening to Jiaoer's words, Li Li didn't speak for a while.It's just that when those eyes looked at Jiao'er again, they were already red.Jiao Er turned her head away from Li Li's eyes, but her heart ached.When Li Li spoke again, Jiaoer realized that their relationship was irretrievable.

"Okay, then I'll tell you why she answered the phone. Because I had a high fever that day, and I was in a daze. I was in the hospital for an infusion!"

"I didn't dare to tell you when I had a high fever in the hospital, because I was afraid that you would worry about me. It doesn't matter how you look at me, but do you know how I felt when I saw a picture of you being taken on the Internet? My whole body was hot because of the high fever. , only the heart is cold."

"I've been filming here for so long, have you ever seriously asked me how I'm doing? How are you doing? Even if it's just a sentence? Have you ever asked? Every time I take the initiative to call you, you know Do I feel so uncomfortable listening to your impatient tone?"

After Jiaoer listened to Li Li's words quietly, her heart became cold inch by inch.It was as if a lemon had been stuffed in her throat, so sour that she couldn't even say a word.Or don't know where to start.She suddenly felt very tired, and the feeling of powerlessness came again.Really bad.

When Jiaoer opened his mouth again, he realized that he was choked up.She paused before saying that.

"Let's separate!"

"What did you say?"

"I said... let's break up!"

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emmmmm, you may not enjoy reading this chapter.