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"Brother Li, Brother Li!" Jiang Xiaoyu yelled more than a dozen times, shouting and pushing, before waking Zhang Li from the stupor state of deafness.

Zhang Li turned sideways, Jiang Xiaoyu was so frightened that he almost called 120, "Brother Li, what's wrong with you, your face was very pale just now."

"It's...it's okay, I'm drunk for a while..." Zhang Li's tongue was tied up, it was hard for him to tell a lie, but his eyes were extremely red, but he couldn't hide it.Jiang Xiaoyu said nervously, "Are you allergic to alcohol?"

Zhang Li looked at Jiang Xiaoyu's mouth opening and closing, but couldn't hear what she said clearly. He just felt that he was top-heavy, and his hands and feet didn't follow orders very well. To pour into the eyes.He closed his eyes and pressed his forehead on the table, trying to calm down.I thought to myself, why are you so useless? You told others not to believe this in the morning, but now after reading the news, you have become like this, cheap or not.

However, after a while, he began to think, how many millions, Fang Ruolin actually spent so much money on Lu Huai in public... Does Lu Huai really mean nothing to her?That kiss... What happened to that kiss... Fang Ruolin seemed to be enjoying herself... Did they just touch their lower lips?Can people spend seven figures just for on-screen couples?

When lying on the dining table, there were two pathways in Zhang Li's mind, one was filled with Lu Huai's kindness to him, no matter how he did not believe that he and Fang Ruolin really had something, the other was all about the videos and photos he had seen, And that glaring amount.The first one leads to the door of the heart, trying to soothe his beating heart, and the second one goes straight to the eyes, even if the eyelids are tightly closed, the tears can't be suppressed.

Zhang Li clenched his slightly stiff fingers into fists, and thought to himself, why are you crying all the time as a man, are you sick?People have already told you not to mind, what else do you want.Are you still going to cry, make trouble and hang yourself?How many times do you have to eat this meaningless dry vinegar?

When he persuaded himself to calm down for a long time but still couldn't return to normal, he finally realized that he was not jealous, but afraid.It turned out that for so many years, no matter how much he had achieved, he always felt that he was not worthy of that person, and he was always afraid.

Seeing Zhang Li lying on the table for a long time, Jiang Xiaoyu thought he was drunk and fell asleep, so he ran to another table and asked his assistant to help him back.Xiao Xiao pulled his boss for a long time but did not pull him up.The director on the other side who saw this scene was even more baffled. He thought that he was doing well just now when he was talking about the play. Why did he turn his head and come back drunk and didn't drink much?

Lu Huai didn't know that the person at the top of his heart had completely collapsed at this moment. He breathed a deep sigh of relief, closed his eyes and leaned on the back seat of the car, letting the fright of tonight out of his chest.

When Xiao Xiao called two male laborers to take Zhang Li back to the hotel, Zhang Li suddenly stretched out his hand and waved at him on top of his head, saying intermittently, "I...it's fine...let me hang out for a while ...Wait a minute and I'll go by myself..."

As the night approached, the staff left one after another. Xiao Xiao accompanied the boss, watching him lay on the ground for half an hour, and finally raised his head from the table.

"Boss, is the alcohol gone?"

Zhang Li smiled, but the smile was almost bleak, "Yeah. Go back to the hotel."

Xiao Xiao watched the boss walking erratically, and supported him very worriedly.Zhang Li doesn't drink heavily on weekdays, and his drinking capacity is not bad. This is the first time Xiao Xiao saw him walking with weak legs.From the dining place to the hotel room, Zhang Li was supported by Xiao Xiao with one hand, and the other hand tightly held the phone, but the phone didn't ring again.

Xiao Xiao didn't leave until he lay sprawled on the bed and saw that he was conscious and didn't seem to have any major problems.

Seeing the little assistant close the door and leave, Zhang Li sat up from the bed and stared at the conversation with Lu Huai, which was just a few sentences.I read Lu Huai's WeChat word by word several times.

However, no matter how many times I read it, it is just two simple lines, and nothing can be deduced.Lu Huai's words were simple but to the point. He cared about him and explained to him. I hope he doesn't mind.One more sentence will appear guilty, and one less sentence will appear unfeeling.

Zhang Li looked at those two lines and thought uncontrollably, is your scale always so accurate?Is it calculated?

It's like this with people, once the floodgates of cranky thoughts are opened, endless thoughts will come out.However, the deeper the love, the more unable to close the gate.It can be seen that in love, human beings are so weak.

Although there were 1 questions in his mind, Zhang Li didn't ask any more questions.I used all my energy to calm down my flustered emotions, trying to put my heart, liver, spleen, lungs and kidneys back in place.In the little space of reason he still had, Liu Yunfeng’s words were being played, “The mentality is not equal, and sooner or later the game will be over.” But since the day he was rescued by Lu Huai at the age of 17, he was doomed to be difficult to be equal. He thought silently, no If you twist yourself into another look, you will definitely lose the other party.

The strong enemy was in front of him, and he also showed him a sincere heart written in seven figures.Even half of the entertainment industry applauded for this relationship tonight.He really couldn't, and didn't dare to be willful.

I tossed and turned and couldn't sleep, but finally couldn't help but say, "Good night" in the past, it seems that saying these two words will give me a little more sense of security.

"Good night. I love you." The other party replied five words quickly.

He kissed the name of the person on the phone and said softly, "I love you too."

If Lu Huai, who was thousands of miles away, knew that this little bastard had flogged his original nature with so-called rationality many times in such a tangled and painful night on this autumn and winter chilly night, and that he would not dare to say a superfluous word willfully. I didn't say it, I'm probably going to die of distress.It's a pity he doesn't know.

Just as Zhang Li doesn't know, he has a large grassland in someone's heart where he can run wild, there is no margin, and he doesn't need to draw a safe zone for himself at all.

One didn't dare to explain more, the other didn't dare to ask more questions, both of them slept with their mobile phones on their pillows, and passed a bizarre night.

At the end of November, the north wind blew to the small southeast town. Zhang Li got up early in the morning and ran around the school playground a few times against the cold wind. His nose and eyes turned red as he wished. If there was a crying scene, he didn’t even need to prepare , you can start the show directly.

The director is so perceptive, when he saw Zhang Li who had arrived early on the set, he knew that he was depressed, so he immediately decided to change the scene and shoot the parting scene first.

A scene of parting from an unspoken love object.Jiang Xiaoyu didn't get into the mood for a long time, but was shocked by Zhang Li's performance. She thought to herself who said that his acting skills were bad. If he didn't know clearly that he was acting, she almost thought that Zhang Li had really encountered a big emotional problem. Only then can this unspeakable suffering be shown so profoundly on the face, even on the body.

The director's request for this parting scene is that the tears are still on the verge of falling, the eyes are hard to let go, and the mouth is hard to say.It's too difficult to cry or not to cry, and the scene under the eyes is also extremely difficult to be meticulous. Jiang Xiaoyu took dozens of consecutive shots and the director is still not satisfied.On the other hand, Zhang Li, this emotion has never been broken, and the photographers who took close-ups of his face with their cameras were almost infected by him.

The director called Jiang Xiaoyu aside to tell her about the play, and Xiao Xiao moved a folding chair to Zhang Li's side.Zhang Li waved his hand at him, "Standing is fine, I don't want to change my posture." Xiao Xiao heard the boss's voice hoarse, and thought, boss, how much wine did you drink last night.

Zhang Li stood silently in the wind, waiting for the director to finish talking to Jiang Xiaoyu.Jiang Xiaoyu entered the camera, looked up, and saw that his eyes were full of blood, the emotions in his eyes couldn't tell whether it was reluctance, sadness, or grievance, but it made people feel unbearable to watch for a second.Jiang Xiaoyu was terribly frightened, afraid that Zhang Li would be overdrawn, so she quickly closed her eyes and went over the skills she learned at school, and then turned out the emotions that the director had just entered into her mind.

After the scene was stopped by the director, Jiang Xiaoyu was almost exhausted. This kind of exhaustion is not at the same level as training in school.The extroversion and introversion of emotions in the play have reached a delicate balance, which is the so-called dramatic tension.At this time, Jiang Xiaoyu really understood how lucky it is to meet a famous director in the first film of her life. With her limited experience, which is almost zero, it is difficult to achieve such an effect on her own. .

After the scene was successfully filmed, the director dismissed the crowd, walked up to Zhang Li, patted him on the shoulder, and said, "What's wrong with you? We're not going to be crying all the time, you have to adjust." .”

Zhang Li said "Yes", "Thank you Director Zhang, I will try my best to adjust."

Director Zhang smiled as if he came over, "Xiaoli, as an actor, it's good to have more emotions, but when the camera is on, you are serving the plot, and your own emotions have to stand aside, you know that?"

"Hey. I know. Thank you director." Zhang Li responded, but thought in his heart, if only I could really get rid of my own feelings, I would rather become a skin, and you can pour whatever emotions you want into it. .

A really good actor is like a warrior, ready to sacrifice his bravery and fearlessness.Many comedians themselves suffer from depression, which has to be said to be a kind of cruelty inherent in this industry.When the camera comes on in front of you, you have to empty yourself into whatever the story calls for.

The camera has been removed, Zhang Li is still standing in the cold wind, letting the autumn wind sweeping the fallen leaves pour into his limbs, standing in a resolute posture to force himself to wake up.

The director watched silently, and grabbed Xiao Xiao who was about to put on his coat, telling him not to disturb.

The growth of an actor is not in the warm spring breeze that blows away the bones, but in the coldness of facing the bleakness alone, and after digesting all kinds of loneliness that cannot be treated by outsiders.