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In the haze, Zhang Li saw a very tall figure in front of him.

His back was straight, his figure was tall and handsome, and his lines were vaguely familiar to him.

Zhang Li's heart beat violently, and he could barely figure out who that figure was.

The man turned his body sideways, and the outline of his profile was like that of a man in a cartoon, with a straight and powerful nose, a heroic jawline, and long and thick eyelashes.

This is a profile that countless people fall in love with.Zhang Li was no exception, he didn't dare to move.

Lu Huai gradually turned around completely and looked at him, "You son of a bitch, you are so courageous to run away alone."

Zhang Li muttered, "Honey, I'm sorry, I was wrong."

With a smile on his face, Lu Huai coaxed a child and said, "I know I made a mistake, so why don't you come here by yourself."

Zhang Li lowered his head and walked slowly towards the figure.Before he walked over, he was embraced by the man who took two quick steps.

A sense of solidity and happiness lingers in the whole body and mind, as if stepping on a cloud.

Suddenly, Zhang Li was shocked, where is this?Is there anyone around?

After thinking about it for a lifetime, the environment gradually became clear. Zhang Li saw a colorful chandelier, and a painting. In the painting, there were countless pairs of large and small hands, and a woman fell on the stage...

Zhang Li was startled, and pushed the person holding him away.

A confused figure fell to the ground.Then the man's face became clear again.

Lu Huai, who fell to the ground, looked at him in astonishment, as if heartbroken.

Zhang Li suddenly felt cold all over, his limbs trembled, and he opened his eyes suddenly.

a dream.

Maybe it was because he was too tired, or the mechanical sound of the plane was so hypnotic, maybe it was because the high altitude far away from the crowd felt more secure, so he fell asleep.

After a brief dream, Zhang Li was startled into fine sweat.

The considerate stewardess handed over a hot towel, "Mr. Zhang Li, do you need hot water?"

Zhang Li took it and wiped off the sweat from his forehead, waved his hand weakly at the stewardess, closed his eyes again, and put a towel on his eyelids.

The towel was warm, like the feeling of hugging Lu Huai in a dream, it was the undoubted comfort in the cold weather.However, Lu Huai really didn't want to see Lu Huai's expression in the dream again in reality.

That's the one on the heart shrine.

Zhang Li pinched the tiger's mouth hard, and his dizzy mind was awakened by the pain.

Give me some time, I'll fix myself and return it to you.

But if it can't be fixed...will you still like me?

This is a problem that gives you a splitting headache as soon as it comes up, and you can't think about it.

Zhang Li lifted off the towel, took out the script he had with him, and read it word by word.

He had read this script for several nights and selected it from hundreds of notebooks.

The hero Z is a very complicated character.He grew up in a family that pretended to be happy. His parents pretended to be loving in front of him during the day, but cold and violent at night. Z was very smart since he was a child, and he saw early on that his parents were acting in front of him.However, he has never revealed it, and even cooperated very well. He knows that once he shows a little knowledge of the truth, his parents will have no motivation to continue living, and he needs a complete family, both economically and psychologically.

As a result, the family of three performed their own plays together in the illusory bubble of happiness, maintaining a delicate balance.

However, bubbles are fragile after all, as long as a person uses improper force, they will always burst.

The boy's cleverness became the external force to break the bubble.With the continuous increase of academic pressure, every Saturday, Z will go to extra-curricular tutoring classes, and every time he returns home, he will always find that his mother is really happy, and the corners of his eyes and brows are full of smiles in that state.

The boy wants to know his mother's secret.So, on a Saturday, he skipped class from the hobby class and ran into his mother having an affair with a strange man.

The mother is so promiscuous under the strange man, and the voice is full of joy.

The boy was furious, and he left without a sound, but his heart kept roaring crazily, why I worked so hard to act with you, but you couldn't perform to the end.

Hate and irritation tore him apart.

The strange man was the first victim of his rage. A 17-year-old boy is strong enough to smash the skull of a grown man with a hammer.

The first time the criminal method was immature and rough, without any anti-reconnaissance awareness, he soon became a suspect.

However, in order to protect him, his mother lied to the police.Then, the father went to jail, but he didn't even cry out for injustice.

The bubble finally burst, completely.

But the boy hates his parents who protect him, and this hatred has been deeply buried in his soul.He didn't have normal feelings when he was an adult, and when he slept with every girlfriend, he would think of that strange man who had sex with his mother, he was rough and hostile.He doesn't trust any of his girlfriends, he doesn't love them, but he stalks and eavesdrops on them.In the constant breakup and constant communication, he finally caught a cheating girlfriend.Like a junkie who hasn't had a drug for too long, his tyranny is rekindled even more violently, and he kills his girlfriend and the man.

For the second crime, Z, who is not low in IQ, did all kinds of tricks to mislead the police, not to mention leaving no fingerprints, and no murder weapon.He extended the time to solve the case time and time again. Z is very handsome, so there is no shortage of companions.During the long investigation process, he was still falling in love and killing people.

After killing several people in a row, the police finally caught him.In court, his mother wept bitterly and took out a certificate of appraisal from a psychiatrist when he was 17 years old.

He was spared the death penalty because of schizophrenia, but his mother finally couldn't face herself and her son after the court verdict, and committed suicide.

This is a complete tragedy.

This script was originally excluded by Liu Yunfeng.Objectively speaking, there are too many scripts for an idol actor to choose, and it is impossible for him to play a schizophrenic murderer.Subjectively speaking, Liu Yunfeng actually felt that Zhang Li's acting skills could not be performed.

However, Liu Yunfeng compressed the folder containing all the scripts together when packing, so Zhang Li saw the script.

When Liu Yunfeng heard Zhang Li swearing that he wanted to play this role, he almost collapsed. He almost felt that he had been greatly stimulated and his head was flooded. He asked ten times in a row, "Are you sure?"

Zhang Li said nine times, "I'm sure."

For the last time, Zhang Li slapped a check in front of him, "Help me get this scene done, it's yours."

Liu Yunfeng was finally convinced by the string of zeros.I got on the plane with Zhang Li and went to the group in person.

Lu Huai, who had been in constant contact with Liu Yunfeng for a week, was completely terrified when he saw the script, for fear that Zhang Li would really torture himself perverted by acting in such a play when he was in a bad state of mind.He immediately called Tang Liu, almost on the spot to read the script to her from beginning to night, and asked Zhang Li what kind of mentality he was in.

Although Tang Liu is not a psychiatrist, he has also dabbled in cross-field research. After listening to it, he sighed to his son, "Let him act, give him some space. He doesn't know how to face you now." , it will be good for him to be separated for a while."

For a while, Lu Huai felt that Tang Liu, as a professional, should be right, and for a while, he felt that what if it was wrong, if they separated, they would never come back.He suppressed the desire to interfere countless times, called Tang Liu N times a day, and kept saying, Tang Liu, you better be more reliable.Tang Liu was annoyed by his phone calls, deeply felt that her son was a typical example of a daughter-in-law who is superior to a mother, and even thought him quite filial in the past.In the end, she played the style of the strong woman and blocked her son.

So after watching Zhang Lifei arrive at the film and television base, Lu Huai changed the object of harassment to Liu Yunfeng.

From the moment Liu Yunfeng opened his eyes, he would receive hundreds of WeChat messages from Lu Huai every day. In the morning, he would ask, "Is Zhang Li awake? What is he doing?"

At noon, "Is he in good condition? Does he eat regularly? Has he suffered from stomach problems?"

Then until night, "Did he sleep? What time did he go to bed? Did he suffer from insomnia?"

Liu Yunfeng couldn't bear it anymore and sent a message to Zhang Yu, "Excuse me, is your Lu Huai not working all day long? Can you give him some work quickly? Why is he asking eight hundred questions a day like a menopausal woman? Is he crazy? ?”

Zhang Yu replied mercilessly, "It's really crazy, I put off all my work, and stared at my phone every day."

Liu Yunfeng looked up to the sky and sighed, guessing that Zhang Li had dumped Lu Huai.It seems that this person said pitifully that he couldn't live without Lu Huai was purely a monster.

However, Zhang Li himself is also in an abnormal state. He devotes himself to the play, trying to figure out the expression and mentality of a schizophrenic killer all the time.He wakes up at five o'clock every day to work out, then begins to memorize his lines, puts on makeup at eight o'clock, and then keeps filming until night. During the break, he constantly discusses with the director what kind of detailed actions a schizophrenic should have.

Liu Yunfeng has never seen such a dedicated Zhang Li. He doesn't even touch his cell phone from morning to night. He wears the skin of a character from the inside to the outside. Sometimes his eyes are full of gloom, and he can see people alive. Goosebumps.

On the other side, Zhang Yu had never seen such an unreliable Lu Huai. He put aside his business and kept his mobile phone in his hands.

The two managers exchanged and felt that it would be better for these two people to harm each other together.

During the days when Zhang Li didn't contact him, Lu Huai lived like a year. For the first time, he felt that Zhang Li was really too popular, and he couldn't escape wherever he went.There are billboards at bus stops on the side of the road, advertisements on TV, and even on the shelves of convenience stores. He is everywhere.Surrounded by Zhang Li, big and small, Lu Huai suppressed the idea of ​​flying to him countless times, and saved every message he couldn't help but send in the memo.

In fact, there is nothing special, nothing more than "How are you?" "Do you miss me?"

Sometimes I can't help getting angry, and I will write, "Why can't you resist looking for me?" "You are so cruel."

After writing it down, anger was replaced by heartache, "Have you come out?" "Can you come back?"

In fact, in the dead of night, the two people who were separated by thousands of miles were spying on each other.Lu Huai even frantically registered a small account, pretending to be a fan of Zhang Li and begging for selfies in the comments every day.After Zhang Li memorized the script every night, he watched Lu Huai's new play silently.

Lu Huai felt that he had never been so useless in his life, and it seemed that all the emotional debts that others had incurred in the past had been paid back.

Fang Ruolin didn't know where she heard about Lu Huai's abnormality, she automatically transformed into a snail girl, ran to Lu Huai's house whenever she was free, rolled up her sleeves to cook without saying a word, and put the meal in Lu Huai's house after cooking. In front of her, she gave him wine, forced him to finish the meal, and accompanied him to finish the drink, and then left without saying a word.

Ever since Fang Ruolin had scolded Lu Huai once, he had lost his temper with her. He let her come and go, and when she forced him to eat, he ate and drank.

Fang Ruolin, who had witnessed Lu Huai being in a state of despair for three months, finally did her best today. She put a big coat on Lu Huai, pulled Lu Huai to the lawn in the yard, and pointed at the stars in the night sky Said, "There is such a beautiful night outside your house, and there are so many people in this world who like you. Zhang Li, that bastard, little boy, what did you do to apologize to you?"

Lu Huai shuddered, and smiled tremblingly, "Don't guess. I'm sorry for him. You are taking advantage of others' danger now, and Zhang Li will tear you apart when he comes back."

Fang Ruolin was furious, "Do you think I'm idle? If I hadn't...listened to Liu Yunfeng's gossip... I was afraid of you..."

"I'm fine. I'm a sensible person." Lu Huai coughed, and pulled Fang Ruolin into the room, "I just missed him, and I didn't dare to disturb him, so I worked my heart out."

"What happened to you guys?" Fang Ruolin let out a long breath, "It's the first time I know that two men can talk about love so well."

"I'm waiting for him." Lu Huai leaned on the sofa again decadently, and said flatly, "I'll wait as long as I want."

Fang Ruolin took out her mobile phone and took a picture of Lu Huai's dejected appearance. Before Lu Huai could respond, she sent it to Zhang Li without saying a word, and wrote, "Do you want this person? Don't give it to me."

By the time Lu Huai reacted, it was already too late.

"You..." Lu Huai snatched Fang Ruolin's phone, and was completely stunned seeing the irrevocable message.If Tang Liu saw the self in the photo, he would probably have to throw it back into the furnace for rebuilding. His beard was shaggy, his hair was curly and curled up, his face was pale, and his dark circles were heavier than national treasures.

However, he didn't have the heart to blame Fang Ruolin at the moment, and he didn't immediately clean up his heart. He stared at the phone, holding a glimmer of hope that Zhang Li would reply with two words, "I want it."

After a long time, maybe it was just as long as Lu Huai thought, Zhang Li replied,

Ruolin, you really love him, take good care of him.

Lu Huai deleted the message before Fang Ruolin saw it.He was uncontrollably angry.I was so terrified and entangled to the point of uselessness that I was just given up.

Fang Ruolin saw Lu Huai angrily calling on her mobile phone.

"If you want to break up with me, go back and say it yourself."

Fang Ruolin had never heard such an angry tone from Lu Huai, she silently shrank to the corner of the living room.

It turned out that he had done this action for nothing, and Lu Huai returned to normal the next moment, and handed her back her mobile phone.

Fang Ruolin glanced at it, but Zhang Li didn't answer at all!

So the roar just now was for the air... This is quite embarrassing.

Fang Ruolin thought silently, senior brother is crazy... Zhang Li is such a scumbag, how can he disappear without saying a word?

After Lu Huai yelled that sentence, it seemed as if he had let out the words that were buried in his heart the last thing he wanted to say.He nestled on the sofa for a while, got up, went to the kitchen, washed his face with cold water, turned his head and said to Fang Ruolin, "Don't guess. I'm fine."

Fang Ruolin sighed, "I don't mean to chase you anymore, don't worry. I just tried him for you."

Lu Huai reluctantly cooperated with a gossip face, pretending that he was a normal person, "Have a boyfriend?"

"Qiao Anzhi is chasing me, the prince of Yongjia is chasing me, and... too many, I can't remember." Fang Ruolin broke her fingers, "My next cook is worth ten bags."

Lu Huai gave her a thumbs up, "Senior brother doesn't have the money to buy you so many bags, so stop cooking."

Fang Ruolin gestured "I despise you" and smiled vaguely, "When you need my help, just tell me, I will come even if I have a boyfriend."

"Whenever you officially broke up with me, you are helping me." Lu Huai smoked a cigarette gloomily.

"Yo, it's all like this, and I still have to show my loyalty to him." Fang Ruolin sighed, and said mockingly, "Then let Sister Yu and Luo Rui write a manuscript, and when do you want me to cooperate with you?"

"Thanks." Lu Huai threw a cigarette over and touched his face, "Find someone more reliable."

"My vision is better than yours, at least I won't disappear." Fang Ruolin gave him a blank look, and didn't pick up the cigarette, "Stop smoking, I can't stand the smell of cigarettes in your house. Hey, my sister was rejected by you When I was in bed, I slept with several men, and it is better than skin care products. If you don’t try it, it will be good for your body and mind.”

Lu Huai stared at her in disbelief, Fang Ruolin pulled her bag and made a grimace, "The filming of the new movie starts tomorrow, I can't come here to be your bullshit, cheer yourself up, look like a man."

"Let's go~" Lu Huai waved his hand wearily, and threw away the cigarette in his hand, "I know."

It was nearly 12 o'clock when Fang Ruolin returned home, and when she was about to set the alarm after taking a shower, she saw a message from Zhang Li, "Ruolin, is he okay?"

Fang Ruolin laughed angrily, and replied, "Do you think he is good or not?"

Zhang Li's chest hurts because of this answer, and he feels uncomfortable as if his heart, liver, stomach, lungs and kidneys are out of position.

Fang Ruolin sent another message, "Stop torturing him. If you give him a quick break, what are you doing like this?"

Zhang Li looked at the unkind words in a daze, took out a cigarette from his arms and put it on the tip of his nose.

I don't know, he thought.

In the past, Lu Huai said, "Look, I have a cleanliness obsession. I get up before six o'clock every day. I have high demands on myself and others. If you want to live with me, you may not be able to stand me and love me soon. "

At that time, he thought, impossible, I love you no matter what you are.

Now he thinks, if I make you unbearable, is it better to separate.

However, there was no way to say those two words anyway, so I had to hide like a coward.

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