Shelf life love

The cold potion was poured into his immobile body, and Qi Lin stared at the metal ceiling with bitter eyes.The instrument was buzzing beside his ears, and the complicated wires were connected to his head, like shovels, digging out his budding attachment to a man.

His eyes were red and filled with tears, and the tears in his right eye fell horizontally with trembling, he gritted his teeth and didn't say a word.

Three operators in protective suits walked back and forth in this pale ward, adjusting the values ​​of the instruments and checking his physiological indicators. Two cameras were facing him, and all his reactions were stored in the hard disk.

He knew that his two close relatives - Cui Yi and Qi Wenzheng were looking at him with tears in their eyes outside the ward.

Every time he finished the treatment, he would wake up from a faint, and when he opened his eyes, he could see Trey's teary eyes.

His mother trembled and said, "Linlin, it's my mother who is sorry for you, you have suffered, but can you persevere? After this course of treatment, you will definitely get better, forget about that person, and become a normal boy. No matter what So, mom will accompany you!"

This is the 13th time he has been sent to this ward. When the operator closed the door, Cui Yi was still reluctant to let go of his hand. If he could struggle, he would push Cui Yi away.

Too bad he can't.All he could do was cast a disgusted look at Cui Yi.

Ever since he was sent to this laboratory building, he had no feelings for his two close relatives.

At first, he thought that he came to Country E just to spend some time with Cui Yi, but in the first week of his arrival, that was indeed the case.

Qi Han took the time to rush to the city where they lived, and the family of four had a rare reunion and enjoyed themselves happily.After that, Qi Han went back to school, and he was brought to this ghost place.

Cui Yi is engaged in the development of medical devices, and a research laboratory of his company is conducting clinical trials of withdrawal equipment.

He—Qi Lin—a mentally healthy person, was sent to the ward by his mother and became the first batch of users of the equipment.

He couldn't see the faces of those operators, they were all wearing masks and goggles, but he could see their eyes clearly.

Numb and fanatical, as if he is a merciful savior.

Cui Yi and Qi Wenjiu booked him a total of 24 courses of treatment. The person in charge assured them that under the triple "insurance" of equipment, drugs, and psychological intervention, he would completely forget those emotions that should not appear, and become a For a normal person, the probability of developing sequelae is no more than [-]%.At the end of the session, there will be a memory replacement session where he will have no memory of his treatment.Everything that happens here will become a fictional memory.

The treatment is called "low pain", but as long as he is awake, the pain will be unbearable.

This pain is not from the body, but from the spirit.He clearly felt that they were cutting everything about Ye Zhuohan from his life.

Those memories of midsummer, late autumn, cold winter, and late spring are being covered inch by inch.

He gradually lost his memory.

Another tear fell.

He resisted with all his might, but his body couldn't resist the drugs.He suddenly wanted to take a look at the starry sky.

"Linlin, tell mom if you have any requirements." Cui Yi burst into tears, "Mom will help you."

"I..." The effect of the medicine made it difficult for him to speak, and he said slowly, "I think, look, the stars."

This was not an excessive request, Qi Wenjiu hurriedly took him to the rooftop.

The night sky is clear, but the light pollution in the city is too heavy, and there are very few stars that can be seen.

He stared at them, his heart aching like it was being crushed.

He was about to forget about Ye Zhuohan.

"Stars, stars are equal to eternity..." He looked at the starry sky and whispered: "I have something to tell you, you will remember it, right? I forgot, but you will still remember it, right?"

"Linlin, Linlin?" Qi Wenjiu asked nervously, "What are you talking about?"

He couldn't hear Qi Wenjiu's voice at all, his eyes were sore, and he continued: "One day in the future, he will know that I miss him very much, and I have always loved him. I...I don't want to forget him."

No.20 times, Qi Lin was sent to the treatment room, and Qi Lin no longer knew why he was receiving treatment.

There is a name in his mind, Ye Zhuohan, but he doesn't know what this name means.

No.20 four times, the treatment ended, the memory was sealed, and he finally became a "normal person" in Cui Yi's eyes.

"What's the matter?" Ye Yunshan has not yet graduated from university, but he is already working in Leting.He looked at Ye Zhuohan who suddenly came in front of him, full of doubts in his heart.

This half-brother had never looked for him, or even spoken to him a few words.

Half a year ago, Ye Lingzheng went abroad and told him that if Ye Zhuohan had any needs, he, the big brother, must satisfy them.

He felt that Ye Lingzheng was unnecessary.

Ye Zhuohan is also his younger brother, he will take care of Ye Zhuohan without Ye Lingzheng telling him.

It's just that his relationship with Ye Zhuohan is not as close as Ye Zhuohan and Ye Lingzheng.Ye Zhuohan was restrained, and he was not much better.

Sweat dripped down Ye Zhuohan's forehead, describing his embarrassment.

Qi Lin disappeared without even saying "goodbye" to him.

He couldn't find Qi Lin. The teacher at No. [-] Middle School said that Qi Lin immigrated with his parents.

But before he went to the capital to attend the summer camp, Qi Lin also said to wait for him to come back.

He hasn't had time to say "like" to Qi Lin.

He finally found out that he was useless, and he had no way to find anyone.Ye Lingzheng asked him to ask Ye Yunshan for something, but when he stood in front of Ye Yunshan, he couldn't even make a request.

"What happened?" Ye Yunshan asked with a frown.

He looked at Ye Yunshan for a long time, but ran away from the door.

The person he likes doesn't like him, and the person he likes leaves without saying goodbye - in this way, he can't tell others, even if this person is his brother.

In September, No. [-] Middle School officially started, and the interest classes of the Academy of Fine Arts also started.

Ye Zhuohan went to guard the intermediate class downstairs every day, but he never saw Qi Lin again.

He Panpan graduated, and his art teacher changed to another teacher, and he didn't even remember the other's name.

He locked himself in the tool shed, upside down day and night.The veil painting was torn off by him, repainted, torn off, repainted...

The teachers in the Academy of Fine Arts and No. [-] Middle School all knew about Qi Lin's going abroad, and Qi Lin seemed to have told everyone, except him.

For the first time, Qi Lin chose a classmate.The second time, Qi Lin chose his mother.For the third time, Qi Lin ignored him.

"Qi Lin..." He softly called out in a hoarse voice.

At the end of October, his birthday came.

Last year, Qi Lin coaxed him, saying that he would give him a special coming-of-age gift.

He put on the same clothes as last year, ate alone, watched a literary movie alone, and then returned to the Academy of Fine Arts.

Qi Lin broke his promise, but it doesn't matter, he can give himself a special coming-of-age gift in Qi Lin's name.

On the top floor of the old teaching building, he set up his easel and concentrated on "sketching".

He imagined Qi Lin taking off his clothes and acting as a model for him.The young man has a vigorous and graceful figure, with thin muscles, and a blanket is wrapped around his waist.

One stroke at a time, from the soul, engraved into the bone marrow.

He painted for a long time until it was dark and he had to turn on the lights.

The moment the light came on, he felt his eyes hurt and tears suddenly fell.

He squatted by the easel, looking up at the unfinished "sketch", for a moment, buried his face in his arms, and wept in a low voice.

He thought, I'm not interesting enough, I'm not good enough, I didn't get the first place in the summer camp, I can't do anything except drawing and doing competition questions, I can't even ask for help.

He thought, that's why Qi Lin left quietly without even saying "goodbye".

He thought, if I become a strong enough person, can I bring Qi Lin back?

In the fall of the following year, when he formally entered University A, Ye Zhuohan transferred from the School of Physics to another ace college of University A—Economics and Management.

Country E is not happy to celebrate the Spring Festival, but since his family has moved to Country E, Qi Han still took time out of his busy schedule to come to the Spring Festival.

The two brothers were playing one-on-one on a nearby basketball court. During a break, Qi Han suddenly asked, "Xiao Qi, do you have something on your mind?"

"Huh?" Qi Lin drank less than half a bottle of sports drink, and said indifferently: "No."

Qi Han scratched his head, "But why do I feel that you are not as lively as before?"

"Really?" Qi Lin didn't realize it, "I've always been like this."

Qi Han still felt something was wrong, "Are you uncomfortable in the new environment? Do you want to go back to China?"

Qi Lin thought about it, and it seemed that going back to China was not interesting. In the two years of high school, he was studying the key points of the city, doing problems all day long, or painting, and he couldn't breathe.On the contrary, it's easier in country E.

He has been in the language school for a period of time, mainly focusing on painting, and after a while, he will take the exam of the Art Academy.

"What's wrong with you?" He smiled and said, "Don't you want to go back to China?"

"I don't want to. I'm too busy chasing your sister-in-law!"

"Daqi, how long have you been chasing him, and when will you be able to catch him?"

"Don't talk about me." Qi Han said, "What about you? It's coming soon. Is there anyone you like?"

Qi Lin was slightly taken aback.

like?

No, there are handsome men and beautiful women from all over the world in the language school, but he is not interested in anyone, just like personality-cold.

It stands to reason that his age is just at the time when he is full of vigor, so it shouldn't be like this.

After much deliberation, it can only be attributed to the fact that he is a different kind.

"I'm the one who wants to be a great designer." He joked, "How can you be in love with your children?"

"You!" Qi Han shook his head, "Forget it, I think you haven't grown up yet."

As spring and autumn came, Qi Lin was admitted to the Academy of Art as he wished.

The university is in the city where his home is, but he doesn't know why, so he really wants to move out of home.

Cui Yi had to rent an apartment for him near the university.

He didn't go home often, and he rarely went back to have a meal, and he also felt reserved, especially when he was in contact with Cui Yi.

For this reason, he also discussed with Gu Rong, a friend he met in a bar.

"It's normal." Gu Rong said, "Who is still clinging to mom when he grows up? It's not Ma Baonan."

He smiled, "That's true."

"It's easy for you people who are engaged in art to think too much." Gu Rong said again: "It's so delicate, I can't think so much."

He thought, I not only think a lot, I also dream a lot.

Since he was in language school, he has often had nightmares. When he wakes up, he can't remember what he dreamed of. He only knows that he is struggling desperately and wants to escape.

The feeling of fear and heartache did not disappear because of waking up from the dream, so that he always broke out in cold sweat after waking up in the middle of the night.

But in the past year, the frequency of nightmares has become less and less frequent.

In the fourth year after coming to Country E, Qi Lin was 21 years old. Cui Yi and Qi Wenjiu were traveling, but they encountered a car accident on the way and both passed away.

Qi Han was deeply saddened, but he was unusually calm.

The death of his parents did not give him any mental shock, and he calmly dealt with the funeral.

For this reason, Qi Han got angry at him for the first time.He himself felt a little unbelievable - the parents who gave birth to him and raised him died, how could he be so indifferent?

He should be like Qi Han, but he didn't want to admit it. When he learned that Cui Yi and Qi Wenjiu had passed away, a strange lightness flashed in his heart.

This emotion was too short-lived and too bizarre. In retrospect, he guessed it was probably an illusion.

His parents loved him and Qi Han so much, why should he feel relaxed about their deaths?

But what gave him a headache was that after Cui Yi and Qi Wenjue passed away, the nightmare that had haunted him came back.

He had nightmares for several nights in a row, and he didn't forget all of them after waking up. He vaguely remembered two bloody people, maybe it was Cui Yi and Qi Wenjiu who had been in a car accident?

He didn't know, and he didn't want to think deeply.

Over time, nightmares appeared less often.

"Xiao Qi, your brother has broken your heart for the major events in your life!" Since marrying Qi Han, Chen Yin has also joined the army of urging marriages, "Let my sister-in-law be healthy, and we, Xiao Qi, are not lucky."

Qi Lin said with a good-tempered smile: "I'm so handsome, how can I be short of luck?"

"You're 25 years old this year, and you haven't been in a relationship yet!" Qi Han sighed, "You're going back to your country soon, brother can't care about you, you start a business by yourself, and no one will accompany you."

This topic made Qi Lin a little at a loss.

Is it his fault that he hasn't been in love?He just has no feelings for anyone.

But he still wants to get married. He wants to meet a suitable person and form a harmonious family. Maybe he doesn't need to have a passionate love, but he must stick to it.

It's too much trouble to toss back and forth.

Now is the age to work hard in his career. In a few years, when he is 30 years old, if he has no love to talk about, he will find one through blind dates.

Although he has not been in a relationship yet, he is clear about his orientation, and the person he is going on a blind date with must be a man.

The same-sex marriage bill has been passed in the country. After five years at most, he will get a certificate with a man.

"Why do you have to go back to China to start a business?" Qi Han said: "You have lived here for eight years, and all your contacts are here. There has been no network of ours in China. You want to open a studio, be a designer, I can help you here."

Qi Lin said, "Is it okay for me to be homesick? I haven't changed my nationality, and that's where my motherland is."

Having said that, Qi Lin felt a little confused in his heart.

It would be much easier to start a business in country E, and he could take care of each other with Qi Han, but he didn't know when, he had a strong desire to return to the country.

Gu Rong said with pride: "Our roots are in the motherland! Our dreams are in the motherland!"

He didn't have so many plays, he just felt for no reason that he must go back.

Just after his 25th birthday, Qi Lin dragged his suitcase, got off the international flight, and returned to his hometown after an absence of eight years.