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After I came out of the shower, I threw the clothes in the washing machine into the dryer. I turned around and saw that it was past two o'clock in the morning. I made my life deviate from my plan again. The dryer The sound of working at night is also very loud, the door of the guest room where Qiushui sleeps has been closed, and the kitten who was locked in the living room to sleep before is no longer in the place where I sleep, I was thinking when I turned off the light in the living room and went back to the bedroom There is a high probability that I will not be able to get up early and run in the morning tomorrow morning.I am actually not very willing to disrupt my regular living habits. Although the number of such disruptions is not too much under my intentional control, the occasional few times are enough to make me feel a little distressed, so I take my slight Anguish pushed open his bedroom door.

The desk lamp by my bedside is still on, and the projector I used to watch movies has been put away, and it is neatly placed on the table next to the computer, and the little orange cat is lying comfortably on my bed There was air-conditioning blowing on the edge of the bed, which made me frown involuntarily. Although I don't hate small animals, and I sometimes think they are lively and cute, but I don't like them enough to sleep on the same bed with them. I reached out and touched them. Touching the kitten sleeping on the bed, it turned over and exposed its belly to me when I touched it, and then made a purring sound. It turns out that the effect of being cute is good. I stretched out my hand and flicked the cat's ears lightly. The cat's ears twitched twice, and then I gave up on the idea of ​​lifting it off my bed.

On the other side of my bed, which was always empty, there was a bulging figure, Qiu Shui was lying on the edge of my bed, he was sleeping on the pillow he carried over by himself, holding the thin blanket I threw to him with his hands, With my eyes closed, I seemed to have fallen asleep quickly. I walked over to look at him, and began to recall that I should have asked Qiu Shui to go to bed before taking a bath, instead of telling him to go back to my room to sleep.

Qiu Shui hugged the blanket, I tried to call him, and he responded with a muffled voice.

Then I thought that people and children were asleep, and I, as an adult, shouldn't wake him up and let him go back to his room to sleep.The little cat and Qiushui, who were not in my plan, were lying on my bed at a time that was not in my plan. I glanced at the two creatures that were not in my plan, and felt helpless from the other side of the bed. He flipped the thin quilt onto the bed and covered himself.When he was about to turn off the lights, he glanced at Qiushui who was holding the blanket, and stretched out his hand to lift the quilt to cover him. The air conditioner in the room was turned on at 24 degrees, so it was better to sleep under the quilt at night.

I covered Qiu Shui with the quilt, turned off the lamp beside the bed, and when I lay back on the bed again, Qiu Shui let go of the thin blanket she was holding and turned into my arms. I was a little helpless: "Hey, Qiu Shui, you are pretending sleep?"

He even reprimanded me in a calm tone: "I was woken up by you."

I teased: "Are you bullying me?"

Qiu Shui chuckled a few times with a muffled voice, and then asked me: "Then are we in a relationship now?"

This question made it difficult for me to answer. I even wanted to ask Qiushui what kind of relationship is for him. It is not suitable to discuss such a question at two o'clock in the morning in the middle of the night. .”

**

Because it was more than two o'clock in the morning, I fell asleep vaguely. My biological clock and alarm clock did not wake me up smoothly the next day. I got up a little later. In order not to make myself feel very rushed, I simply gave up the morning jog in the morning. I got up unhurriedly to make coffee for myself. After washing up, I saw Qiushui squatting on the ground in pajamas to feed the cat. When I got up, I deliberately lightened my movements, thinking that the child would probably be able to sleep until early in the morning. At noon, I didn’t expect him to wake up when I turned around to get up, but he probably still didn’t get enough sleep. After feeding the cat, he stood up and raised his hand and yawned, half-opening his eyes and looking up at the wall with the clock hanging , and then almost complained: "Oh, you don't have time to run."

I took my coffee cup and watched Qiu Shui dangled into the bathroom wearing slippers. It was funny: "There is no need to say it in that gloating tone."

Qiu Shui murmured a few words with a toothbrush in his mouth. What he said was beyond my comprehension. Aside, then got up and went to the room to change the clothes needed for work,

I changed my clothes and came out. Qiu Shui had already changed into his thin T-shirt and cropped pants, and he was carrying a schoolbag on his back. Seeing this, I was a little curious: "Didn't you say that you are on vacation recently?"

Qiu Shui hummed: "Work part-time at a milk tea shop near the school."

I was changing shoes at the entrance of the main gate. Qiu Shui took out a pair of slippers from the shoe cabinet, stepped in and stepped over me to the door. I, who had been working for a long time, couldn't restrain my curiosity: "Is it okay to wear slippers?"

Qiu Shui stepped on the spot wearing slippers, and answered me frankly: "I can't see what shoes the clerk is wearing in the milk tea shop."

I changed my shoes, closed the door, walked towards the elevator, and joked, "It makes sense."

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Qiu Shui rolling his eyes secretly. After the elevator door opened, I said, "Then I'll drive you to the nearby subway entrance and you take the subway by yourself?"

Qiu Shui hummed.

The elevator moved down slowly, and stopped on the tenth floor. A person came in. I could occasionally meet someone in the elevator from the same building. I couldn’t name him, but he was a familiar face. I nodded politely at him. He also nodded slightly to me, "Going to work?"

I replied: "Yes."

As for the relationship between neighbors, I still prefer this kind of very restrained relationship that keeps a distance. Although it has been so long, I still want to say that I am tired of going out and knowing the corners so well that even the generations of my family are familiar with each other. Clear neighborhood relationships.

Although this kind of relationship is not completely bad. When I was young, because my parents worked night shifts and I forgot to take the keys, I was very grateful to the aunt who lived next door to me. The sense of propriety made me feel bad for a period of time. Before I could go far enough, I heard them twittering: "That brat in Li Zi's family, he likes that, his parents almost made him mad."

"Ah? I like men. That's not gay. Is there something wrong?"

I can fully understand that these people may not have much malice, they just gossip about things and then spread them. When I was a child, I lived in a very small house. Her husband was imprisoned for fraud, and the neighbors just spread the news of this year as gossip. There was a child in her family who was two or three years older than me. She sold the house less than half a month after the incident happened. I moved away with the child, and I don't know where I moved, but at least it is scary when I look back on it after a long time.

I can understand the desperation my mother grew violently in such an environment, and I can also understand my father yelling at me after my mother died, telling me to fuck off and never appear in front of him again, and then not long after I left He himself was angry and helpless when he left his hometown. I can even understand Qu Qiuyi's father's begging in his heart when he forced him to marry a girl, hoping that their son could walk the road that most people take.

Everyone does things for a reason. From his own point of view, he does what he thinks is correct or at least will not make a big mistake.

Of course I can understand, but understanding is one thing, and it's another thing to feel that they can't think about it and even hate it.

After that, of course, I would only like the indifferent and restrained relationship between neighbors and even friends.

**

When the elevator arrived at the basement garage on the second floor, I said goodbye to my neighbor in the same building. Qiu Shui walked behind me with a schoolbag on his back and slippers on his back: "Is the Mid-Autumn Festival holiday?" His voice sounded in the empty parking lot.

I found my own spot and said back to him, "Don't I look like a national holiday guy?"

Qiu Shui was silent for a moment. Although he didn't say anything, I could feel his complaints about me from his silence for several seconds. I was a bit similar, so I heard him ask me in a flat voice: "Then I will treat you to dinner tonight." ?"

I opened the car door and got in, turned on the lights, and waved to Qiushui inside the car, intending to let him get in the car, but he took two steps sideways and walked to my car window, standing outside the car window and staring at him seriously. I see, I was amused by him, raised my finger, and said to him: "Let you get in the car."

Qiu Shui was stunned for a moment, and it took him a while to realize that he was a little stupid. He took two steps back, slowly shifted from the front of the car to the co-pilot position, then opened the car door and sat in. After sitting down, he put the backpack behind him He took it off, put it at his feet, and then put his head down to fasten his seat belt in an orderly manner.

I started the car and asked him, "How long have you been working part-time in a milk tea shop?" I remember that I gave him a bank card before he went to report at school. Although there was not much money in it, it should be enough for him as a college student. of.

Qiu Shui pressed his head against the car window: "I found it near the school during the military training. There is a snack street opposite the school. There is a senior sister who graduated and opened a milk tea shop. I went to ask if I want to hire a part-time job. I was supposed to get the schedule for the formal class. She schedules shifts, but she said that she may be busy during the holidays these days, so let me help when I have time."

I hmmed, the car got out of the underground garage, and the eyes opened up. The sun in the summer morning was dazzling enough. Coming out of the dim parking lot, I couldn't help squinting my eyes. I continued to ask after my eyes got used to the light. Said: "Then you have to go to work during the Mid-Autumn Festival?"

Qiu Shui hummed from his nose.

I felt a little funny when I heard his obviously muffled voice: "If you don't want to go, then don't go. Anyway, you are a student and you should put your studies first."

Qiu Shui reached out and touched his earlobe, and muttered for a long time: "You are so annoying."

Although the sound is low, but the space inside the car is also small, I can still hear it very clearly, the car drove to the nearest subway entrance, and I coaxed: "Okay, I'm annoying, it's good that you don't get annoyed. "

Qiu Shui stopped talking.

I drove the car to the subway entrance, parked the car, pressed the double flash, observed the situation outside the car window for a while, and said to Qiu Shui, "Parking is not allowed here."

Qiu Shui lowered his head to unfasten his seat belt, and asked me again in a calm tone: "Where are you going to eat that night?"

I couldn't laugh or cry at the fact that Qiu Shui made a decision for me on my own, and finally raised my hand to look at my watch: "How long are you going to work in the milk tea shop?"

Qiu Shui answered me seriously: "On the first day, you should get familiar with the environment and just help out."

I hummed: "I'll be home around eight o'clock in the evening, can you get home and buy some food at that time?"

Qiu Shui stared at me twice, he pursed his lips, and replied seriously after a while: "Then I will try my best."

I stared at him for a moment. For the first time in my life, I was already looking forward to getting off work before going to the company to clock in. This is really a weird experience.

For a long time, I have reminded myself very seriously that people should live in the present, every minute and every second of the present, don’t care about the past, and don’t care about the future before it happens. Need to worry.

Qiushui actually made me look forward to things that haven't happened yet.