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Why do humans dream?

I dreamed of the migration of migratory birds across the entire Atlantic that I had never seen before, dreamed of the wind blowing from the plains of West Siberia that I never knew, dreamed of a plastic bag being blown by the wind and kept floating in mid-air.

I dreamed of a cave, where bats hung upside down on the top of the cave, and the entrance of the cave was completely covered by vines. I was like a bat that could not fly, or a half-dead mouse, lying on the place near the entrance of the cave. The still intact nose smelled the wind blowing in from outside.

I also dreamed of swamps, which engulfed me in short breaths, dreamed that my vision narrowed, and the edges were filled with layers of silvery black, and then after my brief vision recovered I caught a glimpse of a black bubble bulging up from the bottom of the swamp, it floated in front of my nose, and I could smell the subterranean stench brought by it when it came into contact with the broken air. odor.

I have had a lot of dreams, sometimes I can fly, and my wings are broken by a heavy rain; sometimes I lie on the leaves to bask in the sun, and I am sucked into my mouth by a passing frog.

Sometimes I also have sweet dreams. I dreamed that when I was two or three years old, I sneaked out from my uncle’s house and fell into a small ditch. My brother brushed away the dead branches and grass leaves on the hole, and hugged me from the ditch against the light. stand up.

"Qiu Shui, you're running around."

It is probably a prophecy, my life after I was more than ten years old has been running around in my dreams every day, being a lifeless plastic bag floating in the wind, a migratory bird with broken wings, and a precarious bird basking in the sun. ladybug.

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There are so many lives in this world that will disappear at any time, so are there any heroes in this world?Batman, Iron Man, Spiderman?

I hadn’t been to a movie theater before I was 15, and I didn’t know any superhero movies, let alone how to define a hero.

When I was 15 years old, my classmates gave me money to watch movies, and my classmates gave me money to buy Coke and popcorn. I was thinking about the logic of the story in the dark theater.

Then come to the conclusion that - heroes are used to save the world.

So silly.

This is so stupid. After watching the movie, I walked out along the crowd and asked my classmates who invited me to watch the movie: "Is it good?"

She happily replied, "It's pretty."

So she equated me with being silly.

For a long time, I felt that there were many idiots around me, from my elder brother Qu Qiuyi to my mother Yin Qiuping to my father Qu Xin, and my two older sisters, none of them were idiots.

Because there are so many idiots around, I live a little impatiently.

Impatiently, I lived until I was 17, and then I met Li Cuo on the abandoned bridge in Changkang.

I pass him, he passes me, I look at his back, I breathe the air he breathes, and I just go with the flow and think hey another idiot.

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I will not be as boring as Li Cu to analyze the countless wrong definitions in my previous life, and then use my previous wrong life experience to try to correct my current life trajectory.

He's so boring, sometimes I secretly wonder if it's because of my age?But I feel that even if I reach my 30s, it won't be like this.

I should not.

Later, I dreamed that I fell into a cave, and the bats hung upside down on the roof of the cave. The light from outside shined on the land in front of me through the gaps in the vines covering the cave entrance, and the wind carried the smell of plants and swamps. Blow to my nose.

After I woke up from the dream, I asked Li Cuo in a low voice why human beings dream.

He turned on the lamp beside the bed, recalled it for a while, and then popularized science with me like reading a textbook: "The Interpretation of Dreams says that a person's dream is a true dialogue with his own heart, a process of learning from himself, and the human subconscious."

This passage sounds more complicated than the question "Why do humans dream?" I moved under the quilt for a while before Li Cuo asked me what I dreamed in a very slow voice.

I lay quietly beside him, and whispered to him that I dreamed that Qu Qiuyi found me in the cave when I was lost when I was a child, and came to pick me up.

Li Tuo let out a muffled laugh, his arms vibrated slightly with his laughter, I don't know what he was laughing at, he put on a smiling face inexplicably every day, as if no emotion in this world could affect him Same.

I asked him why he was laughing.

He smiled and replied casually: "Just pretend that I am laughing at your brother who came all the way to save you in his dream."

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Qu Qiuyi traveled thousands of miles to save me in my dream.

The combination of these words has had for me a most absurd effect.If the dream means the subconscious of human beings, I think my brother should come all the way to scold me in the dream.

I will not correct the many wrong definitions of people in my life. I still think Qu Qiuyi is a fool. If I were Qu Qiuyi, I would hate a person and hate him to the end. No matter what happened, I would go all the way to the end.

You must frankly hate someone from beginning to end, and frankly like someone from beginning to end.

I think what Li Cu said is wrong.

Then Li Cu, who spoke incorrectly, said that my brother saved me when I was lost when I was a child, and he even told me that Qiushui had worked hard.

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When I was young, I couldn’t define the word hero. It was Li Cu who told me that my brother found me who fell in the cave when I was a child. He should be regarded as a hero who saved my life.

I started to redefine the word hero to myself.

Heroes are made to save the world.

It was Li Cuo who smiled in front of me and said "Thanks for your hard work". He didn't mean it's okay, he didn't mean to forgive you.

He said it was hard work for you, Qiu Shui.

I never tried to right anything wrong in my life because I was so sure I could never change anything.

I can't change that I saw my brother kiss someone when I was five years old, I can't change the badness in my bones and secretly told my parents who were not very close to me, I can't change my brother's death, I can't change Li Cu's past.

I have lived to my own, I have trampled on family affection, I have looked down on so-and-so's feelings, and maybe I have trampled on so-and-so's feelings.

I am not worried or afraid, I have always believed that if there is a train dedicated to me in this world, then the destination it will reach must be hell.

Everything is mine and I deserve it, and I don't care about it.

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If Li Cu hadn't leaned in front of me and said "Thanks for your hard work".

I don't work hard, I live in this world, and I should bear the consequences of my own actions, and I should live like this.

Li Cuo is so funny.

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When I was 15 years old, I watched a superhero movie in the cinema for the first time. There were a lot of people in the movie. On the first vacation after high school military training, I told others that I was bored, and then she asked me to go to the movie.There were a lot of people in the movie theater, and I could clearly hear the sound of breathing, small conversations and chewing teeth.

After watching the movie, we shared our feelings about watching the movie. She asked me if it was good, and I said it was boring.

A few years later, when I saw Li Cu, I thought that heroes save the world.

Hero to save my world.

I have no reason not to love him, even though I am Qu Qiuyi's younger brother.