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My uncle was born in the 60s, three or five years younger than my mother, I don’t really remember. Compared with my mother, my uncle can be said to be a bit too gentle. After the college entrance examination resumed, he took the college entrance examination. I don’t know if it’s because of studying hard. It was because of his good mind that he got surprisingly good grades when he was studying, although at that time no one cared about studying and taking college entrance exams.He finished the math test and left the exam room a long time early. He told all his friends that the math papers were too easy. Only after the results came out did he know why he was able to hand in the papers so quickly because he only wrote the front of the papers and not the back, because he was usually in class. He hadn't taken the exam, so he didn't know that math papers had the opposite side.

Even if he wrote half of the math papers, his total score in the college entrance examination was still enough to support him to go to a junior college. After graduating from junior college, he was assigned to work in the city's traffic bureau. During the 80s, it was very popular at home to work abroad. I heard that abroad There is gold everywhere. When my uncle was young, he also wanted to go out to pan for gold. After packing up his things, he wanted to leave his job. A person of the same age went abroad together. My grandmother, who was still alive at the time, stopped my uncle with her attitude that she could not refuse. , and found a partner for my uncle in a very short period of time, my uncle was arranged to return to work in the Transportation Bureau, and married a teacher who taught in a primary school in a very short period of time.

Now life cannot be said to be unsatisfactory, at least it is the best and warmest family among the generations of the Yan family. I just don’t know if my uncle will occasionally recall that he chose another at a certain fork in his life. A possibility, another life obtained.

Anyway, I will frequently think about another possibility in my life in my life.

But contentment is the only way to be happy. I think this is indeed a wise saying.

I'm still learning about this.

**

Because I slept near the neighborhood where my uncle lived, in order to prevent Yan Lan from acting as a good younger brother and a good obedient son the next morning, he must take me to his father's house.I sat up from the bed before 09 o'clock the next morning, packed my things after washing and went downstairs to check out.I usually go to work at 30:07 in the morning, and I usually get up before 30:[-], and I have the habit of running in the morning for a long time. The fresh air in the morning is not unfamiliar to me. After I checked out from the hotel, I I walked around the park near this community with the faint water vapor in the morning. I wandered to the gate of my uncle’s community at [-]:[-]. It was probably the time to go to work. The business of the early store at the gate was good, and there were already seats It was full of people eating breakfast, and a few simple tables and chairs were set up at the entrance. I sat down at the entrance and ordered a porridge and a steamed bun with a voice, and the busy boss responded.Although there are quite a lot of people in the store, the staff in the store moved quickly. It was only [-]:[-] after I finished eating. I was about to take out my mobile phone to check out, and I called Yan Lan to inform him that I was already at the gate of his father's community. When I took it out of my pocket, I saw a message sent a few minutes ago.

——"Why haven't you added me on WeChat?"

This little friend is really interesting. I currently maintain a barely passable curiosity about him. This curiosity will not affect me for the time being, but I can't guarantee whether it will affect me in the future. I decided to put him aside for the time being. Just like when summer comes, human beings will store winter clothes. I put this little friend who temporarily made me curious into my storage box. When the time comes, and I still remember this dress, I probably I will consider what to do with this dress.

I didn't reply to his text messages, and cleared all the text messages he sent to me, and then found Yan Lan's number to call him, who probably just woke up, with a hazy voice for a long time: "Hey brother, where are you?" Well, I'm going to pick you up now."

"Haven't you woken up yet? What time do you not go to work today?" I laughed.

The over there should be completely awake: "Oh, my place of work is only 2 minutes away from my house, so it's okay to start at [-]:[-]..."

I was really amazed at this man's laziness: "Okay, you don't need to get up to pick me up, I'm already at the gate of your dad's community, see you when you come back for lunch."

"Ah, you got up too early." Yan Lan should have started brushing her teeth, and said in a vague voice, "Okay, I'll go to my dad's for lunch at noon, see you at noon."

I hung up his phone, bought some seasonal fruits and two boxes of milk at a convenience store near the community, and walked into the community according to the location Yan Lan had sent me before.

According to my uncle’s age, he should not have reached the age of retirement. I asked Yan Lan before, and he said that his father is now in the semi-retired stage. When my uncle was in his 30s, he was expected to be promoted to the director of the Transportation Bureau. He bid farewell to that position because of a little life style problem. After that, he no longer had any political or power desires. After working for so many years, he could get a monthly salary almost without going to the company. The Transportation Bureau There is no need for older people to work, it is enough to leave those things to young people who have just been admitted.

Yan Lan complained to me like this at the time. I knew he was complaining about his own work. The employees in the unit rely on the old to sell the old and push all the things to him. He should be regarded as inheriting his father's personality after thirty. He has no interest in things like promotion, as long as he can hold his game console forever.

My uncle’s community is not a new one, but the greening is pretty good. It is next to the lake, and the scenery should be pretty good if you live in a high-rise building. I managed to find Yan Lan for me by relying on the signs on each building. The building number issued, I just reached out and pressed the door control when I reached the bottom of the unit. A man came out from the corner of the stairs, holding a golden retriever in his hand. He looked at me outside the door and paused. He immediately opened the door from inside. , the big golden retriever he was holding in his hand wagged its tail obediently at me.

"Hey, why did uncle go out to walk the dog so early?" I reached out and touched the golden retriever's head.

My uncle is half-retired from work, and my aunt has probably retired. The two of them even raised a dog in their lives. It seems that they are living a happy life.

More than ten years ago, when I failed in love and was pulled into the hospital by ambulance, this uncle was the only one who accompanied the bed and signed the payment. But when I was young, I was a little rebellious, and I was not good at understanding other people’s kindness. After I failed to commit suicide, I was a little world-weary , I feel that the people around me are a bunch of ghosts and snakes, and I want to stay away from them, so I don’t give my uncle a good face, but whenever he wants to talk to me or persuade me, I always feel that he is He's mocking me, he's murdering me mentally.

Thinking about it now, I suddenly feel a little guilty. He is really kind and he is one of the few people in this world who really cares about me.Now he's older, older, and his hair is graying on the sides.After I touched the dog, I straightened up and smiled at him. He looked at me with great emotion for a long time, and then reached out and patted my shoulder twice: "I'm back, it wasn't Yan Lan who called his mother just now to say that you were near home Well, I just want to go to the vegetable market to buy some vegetables and come back."

I still had two boxes of milk and a bag of fruit in my hand: "Hey, let me go with you. I'll carry things up first?"

My uncle looked at me and blamed me: "Why don't you buy something when you come, let's put it in the security room at the entrance for a while, so as not to run up and down."

I nodded in response, and followed my uncle to the security room with my things. When I left the gate of the community, I helped him lead the dog leash. My uncle was still happy, and he didn't ask about work or feelings. He pointed to the two trees planted on the road. The sweet-scented osmanthus tree, it is said that in autumn, every home can smell the fragrance of sweet-scented osmanthus.

I nodded and laughed, and he said that when I was a child, I liked picking osmanthus flowers very much. I climbed trees to pick flowers every day, and the fragrance I picked made me sneeze.

I was very guilty and said that I didn't remember it at all.

Uncle laughed twice, and the golden retriever I was leading looked up, and was about to run forward wagging its tail.

**

At noon, when my aunt was cooking in the kitchen, she kept nagging me to go home for the Chinese New Year, saying that it was only when I went home for the Chinese New Year that it was lively.

I smiled and hummed casually, not really intending to agree in it. When my uncle saw this, he asked my aunt to talk less. Now that I am an adult, I have my own ideas. I don’t want her to come here and talk about it. My aunt will tell him Rolling his eyes, he said that he just doesn't care about things, he doesn't care about anything, and his son is so old that he doesn't have a girlfriend.

I grinned. After such a long time, the way of getting along between the two of them is still the same. My aunt is more worried about things, and my uncle is a big hearted person. Whenever my aunt worries about my uncle, I don’t care about her. Children have their own children. idea.

Yan Lan also worked in Shangmian City for a while after graduating from university. My aunt was reluctant to part with her only son and asked her to go home to take the civil service exam every day.

During that time, Yan Lan lived in my house, and the interview work was exhausted every day. His mother even called him to complain that life was difficult, and he had to distract himself from comforting his mother, watching me miserable every day and bluntly saying that life was difficult. .

Although he always called and complained that life was hard to go on, his parents' life was still going on as usual for ten years, and of course Yan Lan's life was going on as usual.He stayed in Shangmian City for a year and finally because his mother was reluctant to be so far away from her son. Another reason was that Yan Lan really couldn't bear hardships. After working for a while, he was very irritable and dissatisfied with the status quo. I was also very busy at work during that time , The laboratory pushed new products, and the evaluation was exhausted. After he finally decided to go back to his hometown, I just took time out of my busy schedule to treat him to a meal. Before I had time to send it to the station, the man left.

This was also several years ago.

**

Before twelve o'clock, the aunt who worked very quickly had already served a table full of meals on the table, and told me that there was no need to wait for Yan Lan, please be polite and let me eat first when I was hungry, but I still After being polite, he took out his mobile phone and called Yan Lan. Before the phone was dialed, the door opened.

Yan Lan, I judged him to be at least five to ten catties fatter. He entered the door with a big bottle of Coke, and said without taking off his shoes, "I have to go to work in the afternoon, and I have to drive so I won't drink with you. I'll drink some Coke, brother." .”

I slid down the information bar on my phone, and the kid whose text messages were cleared sent me several messages in one morning.

"Instant noodles in the morning." Posted at 55:[-] in the morning, and also posted a photo after eating instant noodles.

"Haha Chinese teacher's socks covered the trouser legs, and she also brought little yellow flowers, such stupid socks." The time when the text message was sent showed that it was two minutes past ten in the morning.

"Why don't you finish class? It's so annoying." This is the latest message sent 10 minutes ago.

I cleared the phone information, put the phone on the table, looked at Yan Lan who had already sat down, and couldn't help teasing: "How fat is Yan Lan?"

Yan Lan scratched her head: "Brother—!" A little angry.

My aunt also began to ramble: "Yeah, can I not gain weight if I sit still every day after eating full, and I don't look for friends, I really don't know what I'm thinking day by day."

Yan Lan became impatient: "Mom—!"

I shrugged my shoulders at Yan Lan, and the phone on the table vibrated several times—"When will you add me on WeChat?"

——“Eat chicken drumstick rice for lunch today.”

——"Why are you ignoring me?"

I covered the phone upside down, and Yan Lan sat opposite and poured herself a cup of Coke and let out a sigh of relief: "Busy at work bro? Stay here for a few days, when are you leaving?"

"Leave tonight, it's not good to ask for leave." I said.

Uncle turned to look at me: "Let's go?" He likes to drink some wine when he eats now, and he poured some Wuliangye into a transparent white wine glass. Turning to stare at me, after a while he suddenly sighed again, "I've grown so big before I knew it..."

This kind of atmosphere made me feel funny, so I smiled and immediately turned the topic to Yan Lan: "Yan Lan is also 26 seven."

My aunt immediately said, "That's right, I don't even look for friends at such an age, I know how to play games every day, and I stay at home to play games during the holidays, I really don't grow up!"

Yan Lan rolled his eyes a few times in his sockets, trying to use his eyes to condemn me for being unreasonable.

I smiled at him, trying to look as innocent as possible.

Yan Lan rolled her eyes at me.

The meal ended slowly while my aunt scolded Yan Lan.

**

After dinner, Yan Lan was going back to work in the company in the afternoon. My uncle drank too much and went back to his room and lay down on the bed to rest. He was drunk and said that he would wake him up when I was leaving. He wanted to take me to the station. While helping him to lie on the bed in the room, I answered him with a hmm, waited until I finally put him on the bed, closed the door and came out. My aunt was cleaning up the mess in the kitchen. I went to help her wipe the table, "Uncle has to drink this one or two times a day. A glass of wine?"

My aunt turned her back to me: "Yeah, I can't persuade you, and I don't care how old I am. The last time I went to the hospital to experience a little high blood pressure, I can't control my mouth!"

I took a rag and wiped the oil stains left over from the food on the table: "You ask Yan Lan to persuade him to drink less."

Aunt: "He listens to whoever says it?! Really, such an old age."

I took the dishcloth and went to the kitchen. My aunt turned around and took the dishcloth: "Oh, you don't have to worry about these things. There are grapes in the refrigerator. You can eat them after washing. I remember that you liked grapes and grapes the most when you were young."

I responded, and asked casually: "How is Yan Lan's work recently?"

The aunt mentioned that her son was upset: "He's not like that."

The tone of my aunt made me feel a little funny. Thinking of Yan Lan bombarding me on WeChat for a long time, saying that he no longer has human rights at home, I couldn't help laughing for a while.

After a while, my aunt who was washing the dishes with her back turned to me suddenly turned to look at me, and asked me hesitantly in my puzzled eyes: "You and Yan Lan have a good relationship since childhood. You tell aunt..." She paused, "Does he...does he also like men?"

"..." I was stopped by her question.

After the aunt said this, she turned her body back immediately: "I just want to know that he doesn't want to find friends at such an age and doesn't want to get married and have children. Some time ago, I asked someone to introduce someone to him, but he didn't even see him." I went to see him and lost my temper, I just thought you played so well with him, would he tell you..."

"I don't know about that." I paused, "I have to go back to work in a hurry today, otherwise I will have a good chat with him face to face. I will call him some time and have a good chat, but I don't think he is " I comforted my aunt, "Maybe I'm too young to play enough, I don't want to start a family so soon, don't worry, Yan Lan is still very sensible."

My aunt turned her back to me and continued to wash the dishes, and the voice came: "Well, he likes to cling to you, play with you, and listen to you the most since he was a child. Please persuade him."

I raised my hand habitually to check the time, and realized that the watch was given to a child when I saw that the wrist was empty. I put down my hand and took out the phone from my pocket. It was already 02:30 in the afternoon, and I thought it was time for me to say goodbye: " Aunt, I still have to catch the high-speed rail, so I’ll leave first.”

My aunt turned to look at me: "Let's go now, I'll wake up your uncle and let him see you off."

"No, no, no." I immediately refused. She hurried to the room, calling her uncle's name as she walked, telling him not to fall asleep. I took out all the money I had withdrawn from my wallet and put it in the Under the fruit plate in his living room, there are only a few thousand yuan, which is not too much, as long as you want it, if you want too much, it may make your uncle unhappy. Yan Lan's financial conditions are not bad, and there is no shortage of this money.

After depositing the money, I came out of his house, got off the elevator, and my aunt called. I answered the phone: "Oh, aunt, don't call uncle. I'm afraid I won't be able to catch up with time. I'll come back next time."

My aunt babbled a few words over there, and finally hung up the phone.

When I got out of the elevator, I put down my phone, and a few messages popped up: "I didn't eat enough at noon. I was followed by a crying face."

The next one: Can't sleep during lunch break.