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I lifted the quilt and sat on the edge of the bed, reached out and pinched my nose, and said helplessly, "I don't guess."

"..." Qiu Shui changed the subject after being silent for a moment, "Did you see the spider I took for you?"

I hmmed.

Qiu Shui added calmly: "What a big spider."

There was a faintly funny innocence in his tone, which made me laugh: "Are you a boy still afraid of spiders?"

Qiu Shui asked me calmly, "Can't boys be afraid of spiders?"

This sentence is very reasonable, I have no reason to refute, so I changed the subject: "Ask the front desk of the hotel to change your room."

Qiu Shui was not as nervous and cramped as we met through the phone, and asked me in a choked voice: "What if there are spiders in another room?"

His choking made me a little unexpected, because the habit of meeting people all day today made me feel that he is a shy kid who meets strangers, and I forgot that this person is a cool guy, or a guy who met for the first time. The little liar who got my phone number from time to time.

I sat on the edge of the bed and asked him patiently: "Then shall I change a hotel for you?"

He also patiently continued to ask me: "Will there be no spiders in another room?"

His continuous rhetorical questions made me a little laugh: "Then what should I do, can I change you to a five-star hotel, Qiushui?"

"..." He was silent for a while, then told me, "I can't afford it."

"Then what are you going to do?" I stood up from the bed, walked slowly to the door of my bedroom, and asked, "You can't just ask questions without providing any solutions."

I opened the bedroom door, and Yan Lan was curled up on the living room sofa playing ps4, with a cigarette in his mouth, he was stunned when he saw me open the door, I reached out and lit the cigarette in his mouth, Yan Lan put the cigarette from his mouth begging for mercy I took it out and put it in the ashtray. He asked me silently, "Where are we going?"

I ignored him and walked to the door to get the shoes. Just when I thought Qiushui didn't want to talk and wanted to ask him where he was now, I heard him ask me very clearly: "I can provide a solution." use it?"

I changed my shoes, opened the door and went out: "Qiu Shui, if you speak so eloquently in front of me, you wouldn't make me walk back and forth several times like this."

"..." There was no more words.

When I was waiting for the elevator, I asked him: "Have you checked out? Where are you now? I'll pick you up."

At this moment, Qiu Shui rested from the eloquent energy just now, and slowly let out an "um" from his nasal cavity.

I stared at the number going up in the elevator and asked him, "Wait for me in the lobby at the entrance of the hotel."

Qiu Shui said, "I'm at the gate of the community."

He made me dumbfounded, his actions and words were too illogical and inappropriate, which made me a little inappropriate, I stared at the number of the elevator going up seriously, and said to myself in an incongruous way-if the elevator ten Nine floors, without any pause in the middle, then...

So--

I asked Qiu Shui: "Do you know what it means that you want to sleep in my house?"

I've given him a lot of time and chances, I'm not a saint, no one doesn't like a young body.

Qiu Shui asked me again and again: "What does it mean?"

This sentence sounds more like a provocation to my ears now.

The elevator arrived at my floor unimpeded, and then opened, and there was no one in it. Strictly speaking, after ten o'clock is not too late. Sometimes I work overtime and go home after one o'clock, and I will have a drink in this building. The young man who had drunk entered the elevator cheerfully. Ten o'clock was just the time to go out for a walk and watch a movie after dinner.

I walked into the elevator, pressed the first floor, and said to the other end of the phone: "Okay, wait for me there." After I finished speaking, I hung up the phone, and the elevator door slowly closed, turning off the lights in my corridor.

**

I walked unhurriedly in my community, and the mild night air in the community was surrounded by a very faint aroma, if there was any, it was difficult to distinguish what kind of smell it was.

After I walked slowly to the gate of the community, I saw Qiushui standing in front of the gate of the community with a backpack on his back, and the lights were still on in the security booth. I walked over and waved to Qiushui who was looking down at his shoes: "Qiu Shui."

He raised his head to look at me, and I could feel his tense emotions that would be pulled and built up as soon as he saw me, and that feeling was even more obvious in such a quiet night, his feet were not on the ground. He moved freely, lowered his head slightly and looked at his shoes for a while, then raised his head to look at me again.

I waved to him: "Come."

He walked a few steps in my direction, and the security guard at the security booth laughed when he saw me: "So it's someone you know. This kid stood at the door for a long time, and he didn't say who he was looking for."

I said to him, "Well, my brother."

The security guard opened the gate of the community and teased: "Not very talkative."

I hummed and thanked him, Qiu Shui walked in slowly, I took a step forward, and reached out to support his schoolbag: "Is it heavy, do you want me to carry it for you?"

Qiu Shui shook his head.

I hummed, and led him slowly towards my apartment building. He still liked to follow me half an arm's distance behind me without saying a word. After walking for a while, I looked back at him: "Go faster." ."I said.

He looked up at me, and after a while he took a big step and stood beside me, I couldn't help teasing: "That's good."

As soon as the voice fell, I caught a glimpse of the child next to me and gave me a blank look.

I now feel like an employee of a special human observation center, always being inexplicably amused by my subjects. I looked at the lights on the unit building with a funny smile and told him: "I saw you staring at me."

Qiu Shui retorted with a muffled voice, "I didn't."

I said oh, and after thinking about it, I asked: "Tomorrow Yan Lan will return to Yongkang, will you go back with him?"

He directly refused: "No."

I let out a slow oh, and led him into the unit building. While waiting for the elevator, I asked again: "You don't live in the hotel?"

He answered me calmly: "Don't stop."

The elevator arrived quickly. After opening the door, I entered the elevator. He walked in, stretched out his hand with his back to me, pressed the number nineteen, and then pressed the button to close the door. After the elevator door closed, he stared at the row of buttons very seriously. looking at those numbers.

I was very bored and asked the question I have asked countless times: "Do you know what it means to sleep in my house?"

Qiushui didn't turn his head to stare at the number in front of him, and replied calmly, "I don't know."

I laughed with a muffled voice, amused: "Didn't you say that you are not a child?"

Qiu Shui didn't speak. After the elevator reached the nineteenth floor, Qiu Shui stepped up and walked out first. I followed him until he stood at the door of my house, staring at the combination lock of my door. I stood behind him: "Why, you Want the code for my door?"

Qiu Shui looked back at me, and I could feel him puffing his face a little irritably, and said to me in a muffled voice, "I don't want it."

I feel that I may indeed be more like a weird person molesting a half-grown child. I am a little distressed about this, but I feel that it is fun because of this kind of boring thing.

I crossed Qiushui and stood at the door of my house, ready to enter the home password. Qiushui's eyes were fixed on my fingers. With my eyes wide open, I looked at him amusedly: "Don't you really know what this means?" I continued to ask unhurriedly, "Although you are not full yet, it's time to be serious about yourself." The age of responsible behavior."

Hearing this, his shoulders receded slightly, but half of his body was leaning against the wall, and he couldn't retreat anywhere. His eyes, which he didn't seem to open very much, stared like a kitten. I could see myself in there through his pupils.

I knew it was a man who acted illogically and without propriety, which made me lose some propriety, but this level is still within my acceptable range, just like the little bit of innocuous drunkenness I brought after drinking in the past.

Qiu Shui's chin twirled on my fingertips for a moment, he escaped from the shackles of my fingers without thinking, I couldn't help but winked at him and smiled, then raised the thumb pinching his chin and gently wiped it After passing his lips, his lips were moist, and they were pursed suddenly after my thumb brushed them. His brows were slightly frowned, as if he wanted to blurt out a lot of words, but his mouth was still tightly pursed. Neither said it.

I asked him again unhurriedly: "Do you want to go back to the hotel? I'll pay you, and you can stay for a few days."

Qiu Shui raised his eyes to look at me, he seemed to be a little annoyed by me, after a while he gritted his teeth and blurted out: "No!"

I groaned briefly, then withdrew my own hand.

Qiu Shui tilted his head back violently until the back of his head was pressed against the wall, and then I saw his chest heaving more and more, as if he had gone through a [-]-meter race, and even his breathing became short of breath.

I glanced at him.

Qiu Shui's hand clutched the schoolbag strap on his shoulder, his eyes were red.

I looked at him: "Are you angry?"

He tried to look at me with wide eyes, very stubborn: "I didn't."

I turned to look at him: "Are you sad?"

He looked at me and refuted me barbedly: "Why?"

I leaned closer to him, raised my hand from the back of his neck to cover the back of his head, then lowered my head and kissed him gently on the lips.

His lips were a little cold, but still soft, and his body against the wall was slightly stiff. Out of the corner of my eyes, I could see him grabbing the strap of his backpack with such strength that the pink flesh under his fingernails turned white layer by layer. I just touched his lips briefly, without any lust in it, and then we separated very simply. I withdrew my hand, took a step back, and looked at him: "Then do you know now?"