miss a useless name

15.

At six o'clock in the evening, Yu Yan stepped on the bus home with his schoolbag on his back.

This line passes through the urban area, and during the evening rush hour on weekends, there are many people in the car.Yu Yan huddled his shoulders and squeezed into the crowd, swaying and bumping with the car, his white sneakers were stained with a few black footprints.

He gripped the armrest tightly, his palm sticky.It was stuffy and hot, and the sweat soaked the hair on the temples and slid down the back of the spine.

Yu Yan's face was reddish, he was afraid of the heat, and he couldn't breathe even more at this moment.

He began to miss the empty carriage when he arrived. He and Cheng Shen sat side by side in the back row, sharing the two ends of the same earphone, listening to the same song, and blowing the wind from the same sky.At that time, it felt like time passed so fast, and now every minute and every second is extremely difficult to bear.

There were obviously two people when they came, but now Yu Yan is the only one left. He doesn't want to classify this feeling as loneliness, but he really feels lonely.

Yu Yan felt that he seemed to be too clinging to Cheng Shen recently.

Get off at the station, Yu Yan goes to the intersection to pick up the car.

The lonely bicycle leaned against the side of the road, wondering if Cheng Shen thought of himself when he was walking.

Finally at home, Yu Yanre peeled off a layer of skin, went to take a shower without eating, and felt breathless after washing.

For dinner, Lin Qiuhua made four dishes and one soup. The family is very good at spicy food, so they put chili in every dish.

Yu Yan picks up vegetables with chopsticks, the spicy taste seeps into the wound and feels a tingling pain, and misses Cheng Shen not letting him put spicy food at noon, so he loses his appetite immediately.

Yu Yan put away the dinner a few times, went back to the house and closed the door, he took the watermelon cream and sprayed it into the opening of his mouth.After spraying, he fell down on the bed as if he had no bones, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

Later, Lin Qiuhua came to give Yu Yan some fruit.She never knocked on the door when she entered Yu Yan's room, and Yu Yan jumped up from the bed in a fright.

Lin Qiuhua frowned: "Did you go to bed so early?"

Yu Yan put on his slippers, took the fruit plate and Lin Qiuhua's cell phone at the same time.

"Your brother Zhou Fang will take the college entrance examination next week. Give him a call, wish him success in the exam, and invite him to come over to play at home after the exam."

"Oh." Yu Yan paused: "Why don't you call after the exam, I'm afraid of disturbing my brother's study."

Lin Qiuhua said: "Uncle Zhou asked you to fight now."

Yu Yan couldn't hide, and obediently stamped the number to call.

Zhou Fang is his elder brother who is two years older, and he will take the college entrance examination this year.Zhou Fang's parents and Yu Yan's parents were college classmates. They had a good relationship back then, and they have been in touch since graduation. The two families even bought a house and went downstairs.

Zhou Fang's mother, Zheng Tong, was pregnant first and gave birth to a fat boy.Parents in that era liked to make child marriages, and they agreed that when Lin Qiuhua gave birth to a daughter and married them, the two families would get closer.

Unexpectedly, after Zheng Tong's second child was born, that is, Zhou Fang, Lin Qiuhua gave birth to Yu Yan one step later.Both of them are with handles, so Baby Kiss will be put aside for the time being.

Yu Yan was born prematurely and was physically weak when he was a child. Although Zhou Fang is only two years older than him, he is a very qualified elder brother. Yu Yan once became his little follower.

That year when Yu Yan was 12 years old, Zhou Fang's father, Zhou Shuhuai, abandoned his official position and went into business, and his family went northward, and he never returned to Nancheng for so many years.

When Zhou Fang had just left, Yu Yan cried every day at home, holding his fucking hand and asking for brother Zhou Fang.Lin Qiuhua never comforted the child, so he made a long-distance call and asked Zhou Fang to comfort him.

Children are always innocent.Zhou Fang promised to go back to Nancheng to play with Yu Yan during the winter and summer vacations, and later said that he would definitely come back during the New Year.After one or two years, two or three years, Yu Yan didn't wait for anyone, and gradually realized that it was just polite words, just to appease him.

Yu Yan was no longer persistent, and later even resisted Zhou Fang's phone call.

The phone rang and was picked up: "Hello?"

They haven't been in touch for a long time, and the last time they had a conversation with each other hadn't reached the period of changing their voices, so they were very strange when they heard it at this moment.

Zhou Fang quickly understood: "Is it Xiaoyan?"

Yu Yan blinked slowly, and replied, "Brother Zhou Fang."

Zhou Fang was probably very happy, and pleasantly greeted him, but Yu Yan was always indifferent, as if he couldn't arouse his interest.He said jerkyly as if he had completed the task: "Brother, I heard that you are about to take the college entrance examination, and my mother asked me to invite you to come to Nancheng after the examination."

I said this many times when I was a child, and there were more direct ones.But it also failed many times, Yu Yan didn't expect Zhou Fang to really come back.He grew up, and he naturally understood the polite and alienated greetings from adults.

Zhou Fang agreed without hesitation like he did when he was a child. After finishing speaking, he thought that he missed too many appointments and lost credibility with Yu Yan, so he emphasized his tone: "You wait for me, I will definitely come back this time."

Yu Yan twitched the corner of his mouth and gave a perfunctory smile.

After the call, Yu Yan returned the phone to Lin Qiuhua.

"Why are you unhappy?" Lin Qiuhua seldom paid attention to his son's emotions: "Didn't you like to call Zhou Fang before?"

Yu Yan forked a sliced ​​mango and said solemnly, "I've grown up."

Lin Qiuhua exhorted: "Uncle Zhou and Aunt Zheng are old friends with my parents. Their family has developed very well in Beicheng and opened a company. It was because Zhou Fang was in high school and time was tight. I will definitely come back after the exam this time. Read it. When the time comes, you all have a good time to catch up on the old days, brother, study well, remember to ask for advice if you don’t understand.”

Yu Yan didn't take it seriously at all: "Got it."

Lin Qiuhua didn't say any more, and got up to leave.Yu Yan tasted the sweetness of the mango, and wanted to share it with Cheng Shen: "Mom, this mango is delicious, can you cut some for me and take it to school on Monday?"

Lin Qiuhua agreed.

On Monday morning, she put the cut mangoes into glass lunch boxes and wrapped them in small cloth.

That bag belonged to Yu Wen, and it was specially used for picnics for primary school students, with a cartoon pattern of Chibi Maruko drawn on it, looking naive and childish.

Yu Yan carried his schoolbag and changed his shoes at the door, when the phone in his pocket vibrated suddenly.He opened it and took a look, Cheng Shen sent him a text message: "My mother sent me off this morning, don't wait."

Yu Yanchu stood in a daze at the door, staring at the line of words, not knowing how to react.Knowing Cheng Shen for a month, except for weekends, windy, rainy, injured and cold, they always went to and from school together.

Lin Qiuhua came over with a bag in his hand: "What a fool, I'll give you a mango."

Yu Yan caught it slowly, the glass lunch box was a bit heavy, he hurriedly put the phone back into his pocket.

Riding to the intersection, Yu Yan knew it was impossible but still had selfish intentions. Seeing the open space, Cheng Shen was always waiting for him here, and finally believed that he was the only one left today.

Taking out his mobile phone, Yu Yan returned after 10 minutes: "Okay, be careful on the road."

Seeing the box of mangoes after returning home, a disappointment that was deeper than loneliness welled up in my heart.

However, this emotion dissipated a lot after seeing the honor roll. Yu Yan didn't boast too much, and just happened to be fifth in the grade.

He proved himself to Lin Qiuhua, not only that, but also cleared Cheng Shen's name.Thinking of the reward Cheng Shen promised on Saturday, even though he said he didn't want anything, Yu Yan wanted to tell Cheng Shen that he also wanted to thank him for his advice.

In the class, Yu Yan took out his mobile phone and sent Cheng Shen a text message: "I really got into the top five!"

Hit send and it's full of excitement.

He waited, hoping for a reply.And this box of mangoes, all of which must be given to Cheng Shen.

5 minute passed, 10 minutes passed.

Yu Yan checked the phone after reciting a unit of words, but there was no reply.

Maybe Cheng Shen was concentrating on memorizing, Yu Yan thought, and memorized another composition.Early reading, the first math class.Yu Yan took the phone secretly, the screen was blank, and there was still no reply.

It shouldn't be, didn't Cheng Shen bring his mobile phone?

Yu Yan became anxious, and gradually became a little absent-minded.

Yu Xiaofeng at the same table elbowed him to signal the teacher to look this way, Yu Yan quickly put it away.

After an unknown number of minutes, the phone buzzed in the drawer.

Yu Yan's eyes lit up, and he took out his phone almost immediately.

The moment I saw the screen, I was disappointed. It was a spam message from 10086.

Yu Yan bit his pen tip, his thoughts were stagnant, his expression was blank, his heart was up and down and he couldn't get it right.

After the big break, Yu Yan followed the crowd downstairs, looking around, wondering if he could see Cheng Shen.When we met, he wanted to confirm that Cheng Shen didn't deliberately not reply to the message, but he didn't see it, or he didn't bring his mobile phone.

But Yu Yan's hope was once again in vain. He didn't see Cheng Shen, but at the corner of the stairs, he saw a reply sent 5 minutes ago.

In the text message, Cheng Shen didn't explain why he replied so late, but just said indifferently: "Yeah."

In the huge playground, everyone stands in their own position.Yu Yan's whole body was numb, his back was stiff, and he felt that he was being stared at by pairs of eyes.

His mind went blank for a rare moment, how excited he was when he sent that text message in the morning, and how bewildered he was at this moment.

Since meeting him, he has met Cheng Shen many times, enthusiastic, confident, and mischievous, and he has never been so indifferent even when fighting hard.

Yu Yan couldn't help thinking, did he do something wrong to make Cheng Shen angry?They were still joking and going to the library to study together on the weekend. Cheng Shen was worried about the wound on the corner of his mouth and checked it carefully.

Back in the classroom, Yu Yan was lost in thought while holding his phone.The SMS interface stays on the last reply, one is cold and the other is hot, the contrast is very strong.

Suddenly, another message came in.

Yu Yan shook his fingers, and it was still Cheng Shen who clicked on it: "Recently, something happened at home, so I won't go back with you."

With a "boom", Yu Yan heard his heart beating violently.

He didn't reply any more, put his mobile phone into his schoolbag as if to cover his ears and steal the bell, took out the exercise booklet and started to study the questions intently.

Yu Yan seldom used such force, the fingers holding the pen were so hard that they turned white, and almost every word he wrote was burned into the back of the paper.

"Yu Yan..." Yu Xiaofeng called him in a low voice: "Yu Yan!"

Yu Yan turned his head suddenly, his face was pale and ugly at that moment.

Yu Xiaofeng froze for a moment, then asked a little nervously: "Are you uncomfortable? Why are you pushing so hard, the table is shaking."

Yu Yan let go of his hand as if being hit by an electric shock.

The teacher was reading the text on the podium, and the fountain pen turned around and stopped on the table.

From the sudden departure on Saturday, to the empty intersection in the morning, to the cold reply after that, to the final knowing blow.

Yu Yan is not really dull, he can figure it out by following the traces.

Cheng Shen was alienating him.

They haven't known each other for a long time, just a month.Without such deep memories and devotion, the shallow feelings can be blown away like a gust of wind.

Perhaps in Cheng Shen's heart, he is not even considered a friend, but at best a companion along the way.Maybe Cheng Shen is annoyed, he doesn't want to point out his foolish problems, and doesn't want to worry about whether he can eat or not, and feels that it is cleaner to go home alone.

Yu Yan looked calm, but his ears were "buzzing".What the teacher said on stage, he couldn't pay attention to a single word.

Cheng Shen avoided him with such a lame and clumsy reason. It was because he stuck too tightly like a plaster that people hated him.

Yu Yan has never made any friends and doesn't know how to maintain a relationship.I thought this friendship could last forever, but I didn't expect it to be just Nankey Yimeng, which came and went faster.His character was originally restrained, and he began to show his true nature when he was familiar with him. With Cheng Shen's obvious avoidance, it was impossible for Yu Yan to get along with him.

The get out of class bell rang, and the monitor brought the monthly examination papers of other subjects and distributed them.

He personally presented Yu Yan's physics test paper, and praised: "Yu Yan, you got 98 in the physics test this time, and you are the first in our class. I just checked it in the office, and Cheng Shen is also 98. You two really have a tacit understanding."

Yu Yan took the test paper indifferently, his heart was empty, no matter how good the grade was, it would be boring.

Yu Xiaofeng came over to share the joy: "Yu Yan, you are so amazing." After speaking, he was a little emotional: "The third year of high school is about to take the college entrance examination, and when they leave, we will be the oldest in the attached high school."

Yu Yan looked out the window, at the beginning of June, the scenery was infinitely beautiful.It's not that he didn't think that in the future, when he grew up in his third year of high school and university, Yu Yan would pretend to be affectionate and include Cheng Shen in his future life, privately thinking that they would be able to accompany each other for a long, long time.

Yu Yan really cherished it, but at this moment he backed down, wondering whether Cheng Shen would no longer want to be friends with him.

As soon as this thought moved, a sour and bitter feeling surged in his throat, much bitterer than that bottle of watermelon cream.

Yu Yan raised his head to look at the teacher, taking notes from time to time.His favorite history class, but he has no interest in listening to it.The notebook given to Cheng Shen has already been brought to school, fearing that it will be discovered by Lin Qiuhua again.Yu Yan opened the notebook, the notebook was almost finished, and this semester was coming to an end, the knowledge that should be memorized was laid out on the paper, which seemed to announce the end of this friendship that started with borrowing notes.

Yu Yan has a beginning and an end, and he must do what he promises to others.He concentrated and concentrated on finishing the last point.

When the bell rang for the end of get out of class, Yu Xiaofeng saw that Yu Yan hadn't moved, and asked, "Yu Yan, don't you want to eat?"

Yu Yan's pen tip didn't stop, and his long eyelashes raised halfway to read the words on the book: "Well, you go first, I'll wait for a while."

After a while, the crowd cleared, and only Yu Yan was left in the classroom.

He was so tired that he dropped his pen and leaned on the table.Pressing his face against the paper, he smelled the fragrance of wet ink.Yu Yan's eyes were rarely empty, his appetite had completely disappeared, and he couldn't even lift up his strength.

He was afraid, afraid that he would meet Cheng Shen on the road, and he didn't know whether to say hello or what expression to make.

Such evasion, even dinner was also saved.

After the evening self-study ended, Yu Yan sat in the classroom for an extra half an hour.

Until Uncle Zhang came up to lock the door with the key, saw it, and asked in surprise, "Boy, are you still going home?"

Yu Yan packed his schoolbag slowly, and replied, "Let's go now."

When it rained that time, Uncle Zhang kindly lent them an umbrella. Later, Cheng Shen returned a [-]% new one from home, and he excused that he lost the old umbrella on a rainy night, so Uncle Zhang reluctantly took it.

Seeing Yu Yan going downstairs alone, Uncle Zhang locked the door and followed behind and asked, "Why are you alone today, that kid surnamed Cheng?"

Yu Yan became dumb, and the voice-activated lights lit up with his footsteps, reflecting an embarrassed and embarrassing face.

"He..." Yu Yan said, "He left beforehand."

The uncle didn't ask any more questions, and went all the way to the carport, where the place was full during the day, only Yu Yan's car was left at the moment.

He stepped on the seat, like a swallow that lost its tail, and walked away in a daze.

Uncle Zhang slowed him down a few steps. When he passed the car shed, he scanned it with a flashlight and saw a car parked in a dark corner.

"Master, what are you doing?" Cheng Shen came from nowhere, with a playful voice, as if he was playing.

Uncle Zhang was startled by him, and waved his flashlight angrily: "Stinky boy, where did you jump out!" After finishing speaking, he thought of what Yu Yan said just now: "Hey, didn't the kid who was with you say you left first?" , I didn’t see you when I went upstairs and locked the door?”

Cheng Shen got on the bike and smiled unnaturally: "I'm going to the bathroom, what time is it, you should take a rest."

Cheng Shen left in a hurry, and Uncle Zhang stood there for a minute, trying to figure it out.

The two boys probably had a quarrel, it's awkward!

The author has something to say:

Cheng Shen had a good heart, and saw that Uncle Zhang's umbrella was too broken, so he tricked him into losing it, so he gave him his own.