miss a useless name

16.

On June [-]th, the third-year students left the school, and the attached middle school suddenly became much empty, and even the people who went to the cafeteria to grab food were not active.

The head teacher, Yan Jing, has been talking on the podium for 10 minutes, nothing more than pouring some chicken soup for the soul of these prospective high school students.In fact, there are not many people who listen carefully. The students in the experimental class are racing against time. If they have time to listen to the unnutritious chicken soup, it is better to do a few more math problems.

Yu Yan tugged Yu Xiaofeng's sleeve under the table, and pushed him a notebook by the way: "Xiaofeng, please help me give this to Cheng Shen after class."

Yu Xiaofeng sat with him, seeing that Yu Yan was writing in this notebook when he had time, and he was not ashamed to ask. At this time, he was full of curiosity: "What kind of notebook is this?"

Yu Yan didn't hide it either: "Historical Notes."

"Ah?" Yu Xiaofeng's curiosity dropped by half: "Why are you writing this?"

Yu Yan paused, and replied, "For Cheng Shen."

Yu Yan's expression became very strange at that moment, as if he was enduring some kind of emotion.Yu Xiaofeng didn't ask further, took the notebook and put it on the corner of the table. After thinking about it, he wondered, "Why didn't you give it to him yourself?"

Yu Yan had no choice: "I'm in a hurry to go to the toilet."

So it was explained like this.

After class, Yu Xiaofeng ran errands for Yu Yan and came back a few minutes later: "Cheng Shen said thank you."

Yu Yan didn't respond, just nodded his head lightly and continued to brush up the questions.

Cheng Shen had to rely on other people's mouths even to thank him, and after that text message, Yu Yan didn't reply.These days, Yu Yan hides from morning exercises if he can, the cafeteria has to wait until no one goes there, rushes to school early, and locks the door of the classroom after school.He didn't know if Cheng Shen was hiding from him like this, but he didn't want to make people think that he was chewing gum that couldn't be torn off.

But more thoughts linger in the late night that no one knows, Yu Yan stares at the ceiling without any sleepiness, repeats the details of getting along again and again, hoping to find the crux of the matter through memory.The resentment that was suppressed in his heart always rose from the ground at that time. Yu Yan had never fought for anything since he was so old, but he was anxious every time he thought of Cheng Shen.

The first period in the afternoon is physical education class, and the final assessment is approaching, so other teachers can't occupy it anymore.It was only when Yu Yan walked to the playground that he remembered that Cheng Shen's class was also a physical education class.

Yu Yan was a little flustered, he walked across the track with his head slightly down, and walked to the team in his class.After standing still, he realized that his palms were covered with sweat. He wiped the hem of his school uniform lightly, and then he heard the girls in the class whispering in front of him: "Hey, look, Cheng Shen is tying his shoelaces over there."

"Wow, really, he's so handsome! Now I have a headache from reading every day, so I just point to this physical education class to see Cheng Shen's recovery."

"Who is not? I used to meet him in morning exercises. I guess the master will have to review at the end of the semester. I won't come out during the big break. I also want to stay in the classroom..."

"Come on, you have to have someone's grades before you can enjoy this privilege with the teacher..."

Yu Yan was nailed to the spot, shrinking behind others like a shadow that cannot see the light.Not daring to raise his head, his lowered eyes glanced at the hem of his white socks.

"Oh my god!" There was a sudden commotion in the front row: "Is Cheng Shen looking this way! Is he looking at me? He is looking at me!"

Yu Yan raised his throat in one breath.

At this moment, the squad leader appeared out of nowhere, and interrupted them without any emotional intelligence: "Wake up, the only person Cheng Shen knows in our class is Yu Yan, and if he wants to see it, he is also looking at Yu Yan, what are you doing!"

Shushuashua suddenly turned around in front of him, Yu Yan noticed it, and waved his hands awkwardly: "No, no, it's you guys who are looking at you."

He raised his eyes, and in his peripheral vision, he seemed to catch a glimpse of Cheng Shen's turning around.

The girls thought it was very reasonable, there is no way to let the girl not look at the boy, so they joined forces to criticize the monitor.

The bell rang, and the physical education teacher flicked the stopwatch to announce the final exam for this class. The form was one thousand five hundred for boys and eight hundred for girls.

There was a burst of wailing, but the teacher ruthlessly dismissed it, and ordered the whole class to jog for two laps first.

The experimental class lined up in two rows and stepped onto the runway in an orderly manner.

Li Yi's class was preparing for the runway, and Yu Yan was on the outside, clenching his fists cautiously, with a calm expression on his face, but his heart was beating like a drum.

He pursed his lips, one round was four hundred, two rounds was eight hundred, he had to walk in front of Cheng Shen twice.

Yu Yan didn't look sideways, his running posture was upright and upright, like a standing green pine tree, regardless of the wind from east to west, no one could blow him to Cheng Shen's side.

After two laps, Yu Yan seemed to have shed a layer of water, his cheeks flushed with heat, and his temples were already wet with sweat.

Next came the preparatory activities. The students in the experimental class stretched their muscles and bones following the whistle.It was [-]:[-] in the afternoon, and the sun was a bit vicious on the top of the head. The sun was so harsh that everyone couldn't open their eyes.

Finally finished, the teacher began to group.The experimental class was divided into four teams, with two groups of male and female students. In order to reflect the priority of women, girls came first, and Yu Yan was in the third group.

While waiting, Yu Yan sat on the side of the runway with his classmates.With his legs crossed, he grabbed a bunch of green grass and pinched it piece by piece with his fingertips.The grass juice was bright green, soaked into the clean fingers, and he kept moving as if he didn't realize it, as if once he stopped his hand, there would be thousands of thoughts rushing towards him.

Yu Xiaofeng glanced at him, feeling strange: "Yu Yan, are you alright?"

Yu Yan turned his face blankly: "Huh?"

"Your face is so red, are you hot?"

Yu Yan was indeed a little breathless: "A little bit, the sun is really bright today."

Yu Xiaofeng was not at ease, and touched his arm: "The arm is quite cold, you won't suffer from heat stroke, right?"

Yu Yan raised the corner of his mouth and laughed at him: "Why, it's only the beginning of June."

That's true, Yu Xiaofeng nodded, remembering that Yu Yan is usually afraid of heat and boredom, probably because he did too much preparation just now.

One thousand and five would run nearly four laps, Yu Yan bent down to tie his shoelaces again, and when he stood up, he felt his lower abdomen convulse.He frowned almost imperceptibly, and the flush on his face receded visibly to the naked eye.

As soon as the whistle blew, the boys in the third group officially started running.

The competitive one rushed to the front early in the morning, and the calm and unhurried followed behind.

Yu Yan falls in the middle and lower reaches, he is good at long-distance running, maybe because of his personality, he can always be stable in this respect.No matter how fast others run, he maintains his own speed. In the later stage, when others are exhausted, he starts to overtake with strength, and the results are often good.

But this time something seems different.

After running around, Yu Yan pressed his hand on the left lower abdomen.

The first class of management will start the exam next week. In order to prepare the students, the teacher arranged a warm-up earlier: all the students ran ten laps around the playground.

Yu Yan gritted his teeth, cold sweat oozed from his forehead.The tingling came from the stomach, and there was a faint tendency to aggravate it.At this point, I have already figured it out, he is not suffering from heatstroke, it is probably gastroenteritis.

During this period of time, in order to avoid Cheng Shen, Yu Yan almost dawdled until the canteen was about to close before going to eat.At that point, the good dishes had already been sold out, and the remaining ones were either too oily or too bland, and most of them had cooled down because they had been left for too long.

An iron stomach can't stand such a mess, not to mention his body has always been delicate.

After the second lap, Yu Yan's legs began to weaken, his speed dropped, and he had already retreated to the end.

The body was sweating non-stop, hot sweat and cold sweat can no longer be distinguished, only the stomach cramps intensified.

Yu Yan wondered in his heart whether he could still finish the race.What's more, this embarrassed look cannot be seen by anyone, whether it is the classmates in the class or the one who is avoiding him.He doesn't like to be the center of attention, and sometimes even fears stares, whether it's good or bad, whether it's expectations, pride, admiration, jealousy, or concern, the scrutiny from the outside world makes him feel guilty and flustered.

Yu Yan slowly took in a breath, and then let it out a little bit in line with his footsteps.The hand pressing on the stomach was so hard that it turned white, and such a deep breath didn't seem to help at all.

Steeply, a shadow slanted from the side.

A team ran past, boys, girls, and some familiar faces.

Yu Yan's eyelids twitched, realizing that it was Cheng Shen's classmate.

He looked down at his dangling shoelaces.Heart attack and stomach attack together, Yu Yan knew that Cheng Shen was going to rub shoulders with him.They haven't seen each other for nearly a week. The last time they met Ding Jian in the teacher's office, the latter exchanged pleasantries with Yu Yan, jokingly talking about not seeing him and Cheng Shen go home together for several days.

Yu Yan hastily said a few perfunctory words, and left as if fleeing.

The footsteps became heavier, Yu Yan turned his face inward, he was embarrassed and embarrassed, waiting for an unrelated ending.

But he was wrong, guessed wrong.

The large army has already run away, and some people stay by his side.Their steps are the same, the frequency is the same, and even the sweat is evaporated by the same inch of air.

"Yu Yan," Cheng Shen looked at the almost transparent neck under the sun, showing concern: "What's wrong with you?"

The wrinkles between Yu Yan's eyebrows suddenly deepened, and he turned his face back, but he didn't look at the person next to him.He ran slowly, panting softly, not showing weakness or making a sound, and silently erected a row of stubborn thorns on his back.

He didn't seem to hear Cheng Shen's voice, and the drooping eyelashes spread out a piece of Qingdai at the end of his eyes.

"Yu Yan," Cheng Shen said emphatically, "Don't run away!"

When he got close, he could clearly see Yu Yan's pale and colorless face, the fine sweat on his forehead, and the fingers that were almost pinched into his lower abdomen.He regretted it, felt distressed, and sneered at the self who used evasion to see the truth clearly.

Without a response, Cheng Shen knew that he had hurt Yu Yan's heart.

"Yu Yan!"

He finally saw the tenacity in this well-mannered body, and he also understood Yu Yan's persistence in gritting his teeth and touching the sharp protective shell behind him, which belonged to the unyielding self-esteem of a young man.

Cheng Shen grabbed Yu Yan's wrist, as calm and firm as when he carried himself on his back that day, and pulled him onto his back.

"I'll take you to the hospital."

Cheng Shen supported Yu Yan's legs, feeling that the weight on his body was as light as duckweed.

Yu Yan lost all his strength in an instant, and the pain he endured became more and more severe.He leaned on Cheng Shen's shoulders, the sweat on his face wet the fabric underneath, and his hands hung down from his neck weakly.

"Cheng Shen," Yu Yan's painful voice trembled, but he insisted on saying what he said from the bottom of his heart: "If you don't want to be friends with me, just tell me, I won't pester you."

He was not reconciled, didn't understand, felt wronged and hesitated by Cheng Shen's sudden departure, now he mustered up the courage to fight for face, want to have a good time, and also expressed his attitude.

Cheng Shen froze suddenly.

Cheng Shen explained the situation to the teacher behind Yu Yan's back. The physical education teacher saw that Yu Yan's face was pale, his hands and feet were weak, and he was sweating from fright. He hurriedly asked Cheng Shen to take him to the hospital.

In the taxi, Yu Yan hugged his stomach and leaned against the corner of the window, frowning, sweating, and closing his eyes in discomfort.But he remained silent, his shoulder blades tensed.The warm light enveloped him, but failed to warm him up. Yu Yan was like a lone goose strayed from the flock, and also like an isolated island in the depths of the ocean.

Cheng Shen moved over cheekily, and took out a tissue to wipe Yu Yan's sweat.

Yu Yan trembled like a pinprick, opened his eyes, held the piece of paper, and expressed his gratitude in a distant and indifferent way.

Recalling the beginning of the acquaintance, Yu Yan was jerky and polite, and he couldn't be so cold and calm to strangers.

Cheng Shen took advantage of the danger, knowing that Yu Yan was powerless to resist, but wanted to argue with him.

Cheng Shen snatched the paper back without any effort, and pressed the thin and soft paper on his pale face, carefully wiping away his sweat.After wiping off his sweat, he made further progress, wrapped his arms around Yu Yan's shoulders and pulled him into his arms, and reached out to touch his stomach with great fanfare: "Where does it hurt? Here?"

Yu Yan backed away, resisting Cheng Shen's hospitality.After a few seconds, he was caught again, and pressed firmly: "Okay, don't move around, we will be there soon."

The hot palm rubbed against the stomach, Yu Yan couldn't push it away, he was angry and anxious, his eyes were filled with a layer of water color, like sake boiled on a low fire, strong and pure.

He didn't understand what Cheng Shen meant now. He was the one who wanted to be friends, and he was the one who wanted to stay away. Now that he was unwell, he was the one who came back to look for him.

Yu Yan was scared, Cheng Shen was like a time bomb in his eyes.He didn't want to be a toy to relieve boredom while studying, or a dispensable condiment in the boring high school life.

The car stopped at the entrance of the emergency department, Yu Yan just pushed open the door with difficulty, Cheng Shen had already come around to pick him up.

The man stretched out his hand towards him, Yu Yan refused to accept it, he leaned on the car door and stretched out a foot, just as he landed, there was a crazy stabbing pain in his stomach, which almost made him lose his strength and fall to the ground.

Cheng Shen held him steady, and when he saw how weak he looked, he simply grabbed him and hugged him.

Now he could see it clearly, but within a week, Yu Yan had lost a lot of weight.

Yu Yan leaned on him limply, no longer struggling.

Cheng Shen felt guilty and blamed himself, feeling that he was too much of an asshole.

After sending Yu Yan to the emergency room, Cheng Shen went to go through various formalities in a strange manner, but while queuing up, he received a call from the head teacher to inquire about the situation.He reported the address of the hospital and asked the teacher to inform Yu Yan's parents.After hanging up, Cheng Shen became anxious, afraid that Yu Yan would panic when he checked alone.

When he went back after paying the fee, the doctor's side was over, and the nurse was putting needles on the back of Yu Yan's hand.

Cheng Shen asked, "Doctor, how is he?"

The doctor waved his hand as usual: "Acute gastroenteritis, drink water first. You guys, don't be greedy for cold because of your youth. It's not really hot today, so eat less ice cream."

After explaining, Cheng Shen went to get the medicine again, fearing that Yu Yan's stomach would feel uncomfortable and cold, so he bought a hot water bottle at the door.

There were so many people in the emergency room, Yu Yan sat there silently, his lonely figure seemed out of place.

Cheng Shen sat beside him, shaking the hot water bottle against Yu Yan's stomach through his clothes: "Hold it comfortably."

Yu Yan still had a stomachache, but it was more tolerable than before.Holding the hot water bottle, his cold palms quickly turned red, and he raised his eyes slightly to see that Cheng Shen was sweating profusely, as if he was the one who had just run a thousand and five thousand.

"You didn't bring your mobile phone, did you? The teacher has already called your parents, and they will be there later." Cheng Shen took out the medicine and explained one by one: "This is three times a day, one tablet each time, this is two times a day, each time Two tablets. Remember to take it on an empty stomach, about half an hour before meals."

After speaking, he wiped his sweat and put the medicine on the table next to him.

"How do you feel now?" Cheng Shen looked at Yu Yan's face, and then squatted down to look at his hands carrying water. Those thin hands seemed to be broken by a needle.

Yu Yan's sluggish eyeballs rolled, the pain faded away, and even the mood calmed down.He suddenly wanted to understand that he shouldn't be so unwilling. When making friends, he needs to value each other, but being alone is enough for alienation.It's just a personal choice, just like "differences do not conspire with each other", no one has done anything wrong.

He replied: "It's much better." He glanced at the time again: "You go back to class, and I will pay you back the medical expenses and taxi fare tomorrow."

Cheng Shen still squatted in front of Yu Yan, raised his head, and watched him from bottom to top: "No hurry, I'll leave when your parents come."

Yu Yan was tired after tossing around, tiredness was written on his face, and his expression was also faint.He didn't argue, and it was difficult to speak up in his current state, let alone drive away Cheng Shen.

"Thirsty, I'll buy you a drink."

"No need." Yu Yan held him with his hot hand, "I feel like vomiting."

The heat on his arm quickly burned into his heart, Cheng Shen paused: "Then let me talk to you."

Yu Yan lowered his hands and let down his broken hair, shaking his head, "You don't have to do this."

Being rejected three times in one minute, Cheng Shen knew that he had to explain something to Yu Yan.

"Yu Yan," he owed the other party an apology, "I'm sorry."

Yu Yan turned his face away, unconsciously holding his palm.

Cheng Shen was afraid that he would be stuck with a needle, so he held him up to protect him, and explained palely: "I don't want to be friends with you."

Precisely because he thought, he thought so much that he thought more, fearing that Yu Yan would be frightened.

Cheng Shen didn't defend himself: "It's my fault."

Yu Yan didn't want to hear this, so he took his hand away: "Stop talking."

The palm is empty, and the temperature disappears.

Cheng Shen knew that Yu Yan couldn't understand himself, just like he couldn't understand why Dudu was moved by Yu Yan in such a big world.He spent a week calming down, hoping that he could distinguish between friendship and other things, but the longer the time, the more he couldn't control himself, thinking about Yu Yan, wanting to see Yu Yan, even if he didn't speak, he would be satisfied just riding his bike all the way home quietly .

After living for 17 years, Cheng Shen felt panic and anxiety for the first time.He was stimulated, possessed, until the searing pain overwhelmed the panic that accompanied it, and he realized that he could not escape.

Cheng Shen stood up on his knees, and took out a small box the size of a palm from his trouser pocket.He kept it on his body all the time, thinking that whenever he saw Yu Yan, he would give it to him, or go directly to find him in class, but he hesitated repeatedly until today.

"This," Cheng Shen put the things into Yu Yan's hands, "I promised you."

Yu Yan was slightly taken aback.

It was Cheng Shen who promised himself that he would be rewarded if he entered the top five in the grade.

The door of the emergency room was pushed open, and Lin Qiuhua appeared with a handbag and high heels, walking calmly.

She saw Yu Yan at a glance, met and asked, and called a doctor to confirm the situation. The whole process was calm and calm.Turning to Cheng Shen, he heard that he sent Yu Yan to the hospital, thanked him politely, and returned the medical expenses to Cheng Shen on the spot.

Yu Yan's mother is here, and it is inconvenient for Cheng Shen to stay for a long time, so he told Yu Yan: "Take good care of your health, rest at home on weekends, and I will wait for you at the intersection on Monday morning."

He left after speaking, without giving Yu Yan a chance to fight back.

When someone was going out, Lin Qiuhua looked away from the boy's leaving back, and asked straight to the point: "Is he the number one in your school's grade?"

Yu Yan nodded.

"You go to the library with him too?"

Yu Yan nodded again.

"What is your name?"

Yu Yan hesitated for half a second before replying, "Cheng Shen."

Lin Qiuhua said lightly: "Well, it seems that you have a good relationship, learn more from them."

Yu Yan didn't say anything, Lin Qiuhua's series of reactions were all expected.

He looked down at the box that Cheng Shen had stuffed over, and fiddled with it lightly with his fingers. The square velvet box, navy blue, with a circle of dark patterns on the bottom, looked exquisite and elegant.

Yu Yan's heart skipped a beat, why is it so like the box where someone puts a wedding proposal ring?

He opened it suspiciously, wondering what kind of gourd Cheng Shen was selling.

Suddenly, Yu Yan's eyes burst into surprise light——

A fan-shaped bookmark made of pure gold and hollowed out lies inside, with the pattern of a crane riding on the waves.

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Cheng Shen has been able to coax people since he was a child