miss a useless name

37.

The news about Yu Yan's abuse has been suppressed for the time being, and a small number of doubts are still there, but it has not caused a storm.

The scene of the signing event was generally quite stable, but a few people asked Yu Yan if he had a girlfriend.When hearing this question for the first time, Yu Yan was obviously stunned for a moment, and then replied friendly: "Personal question, thank you for your concern."

When the word got out, the fans felt that it was the default.But writers are not celebrities, and readers pay more attention to Yu Yan's good looks. Many people began to criticize, don't bring the fan circle to the Internet circle. Teacher Nan Yan is very low-key, and he is 28 years old. Is it normal to fall in love and get married?

There is also an interesting thing, several entertainment companies probably read the rumors on the Internet, thought that Yu Yan was good-looking and popular, and they offered him an olive branch, invited him to participate in TV shows, and even asked him if he was willing to change.

Yu Yan declined all of them.

After going back and forth several times, the signing meeting was halfway through, and Yu Yan arrived in the mountain city of Chongqing one evening.

During this period of time, he did not sleep well, suffered from insomnia at night, stayed up half the night and fell asleep for a while, and all he had were nightmares, and every day he woke up his pajamas were soaked in cold sweat.Feeling confused on the plane, Yu Yan continued to take a nap by the window in the car to the hotel.

An Ning and Xuan Xuan whispered next to each other: "I haven't been to Chongqing for a long time, shall we have hot pot tonight?"

Propaganda readily agrees.

An Ning turned her head to look at Yu Yan: "Teacher Yu seems very tired, I don't know if you will come with us."

The publicity said: "If you have to sign so many papers every day, you will be tired. I guess Mr. Yu fell asleep when he arrived at the hotel. He has always been a non-human being, and he seldom eats with us."

Sure enough, after arriving at the hotel, Yu Yan plunged into the room: "I'm sleepy, you guys go and eat, bring me hot and sour noodles when An Ning comes back."

It seems that the hot pot in the mountain city can no longer whet Yu Yan's appetite.

Yu Yan hurriedly took a shower and went to bed. He was very tired and sleepy. He was mentally exhausted after traveling to several cities and restless nights, but he still couldn't fall asleep after closing his eyes for a long time.

The feeling was driving him crazy, and the constant insomnia made him even more impatient.Yu Yan got up to light a cigarette, and gradually lost his mind while hesitating.In front of people, he can talk and laugh.After being a queen, he is sullen and depressed, neither human nor ghost.

A cigarette was finished quickly, and Yu Yan was full of the smell of tobacco. He covered his cheeks with his hands, and his head drooped heavily, revealing his protruding neck bone.When I close my eyes, some unsightly images can always pop up, all of which come from my own imagination, one frame after another, seamlessly connected like a movie, completely uncontrollable.

He wanted to press pause and exit, and the more he wanted to turn off the image, the clearer it would be.Occasionally, there are auditory hallucinations, panting, and flirting sounds, which seem to be right next to my ears, and I can even hear the sound of sweat dripping on the skin clearly.

Yu Yan feels like a fool who can't do anything, immersed in the pain he created every day, useless, successful and failed, he feels that he has nothing.

The smoke cleared, Yu Yan had been leaning on the bed for an unknown amount of time, when suddenly someone rang the bell outside.

He wasn't asleep at all, guessing that An Ning came back from eating hot pot, put on a loose gray sweater over his T-shirt and hurried to open the door.

The entrance of a high-end hotel is very long, Yu Yan turned on the light on the top, a warm halo fell on his shoulders, the door opened, and the eyes were deep black.

Yu Yan froze in place suddenly, his eyes widened slightly, feeling that the other party was carrying a gust of wind from the mountain city.

In the corridor across the door, Cheng Shen was pushing a small business suitcase, and looked at him with raised eyebrows in a dark suit: "Don't invite me in?"

"You..." Yu Yan looked at Cheng Shen in disbelief, and sweat broke out in the palm of the hand holding the doorknob: "How could you..."

Cheng Shen felt that when Yu Yan came to his senses, he might have to stay in the corridor for a while longer.So he took a step forward, grabbed Yu Yan's waist with one hand and lifted him off the ground, and pushed in with the other hand, the suitcase rolled in lightly.

Yu Yan was caught off guard by someone who picked him up, exclaimed in a low voice and hugged Cheng Shen's neck, and then the hotel's thick door closed behind him, and he was put down, forced to approach him, and pushed against the door for inspection.

Yu Yan was blank, his head was muddy.

Why is Cheng Shen here?What is he doing here?When did you come?

However, before he could ask, Cheng Shen turned his head and sniffed lightly behind his ear, the emotion in his eyes suddenly became deep and depressed, his eyes were sharp, and he affirmed: "You smoke."

Yu Yan looked at him anxiously, his back pressed tightly against the door, his wet palms tried to grab something at a loss, but in vain left a water stain on the door: "I..."

Yu Yan felt that his mouth was dry, his throat was filled with the choking smell of smoke, and even his voice became hoarse.He is like a sinner who has been found guilty of bad deeds, waiting for the ruthless trial in a panic.

Cheng Shen's tall figure divided the part of the doorway into the darkness. He looked down at Yu Yan. After a week apart, the man's face became thinner, his chin became sharper, and his collarbone sank in. There is no more meat in the waist.He was haggard, gloomy, with bright red bloodshot eyes, and an irresolvable gloom wrapped in cigarettes.

Yu Yan didn't expect Cheng Shen to appear suddenly, otherwise he wouldn't touch cigarettes if he was killed.He was afraid that Cheng Shen would be disappointed, that Cheng Shen would see that he was not doing well every day, and that Cheng Shen would say "Since it is so painful, why not forget it".

But Cheng Shen didn't, he didn't even let Yu Yan continue, he just lowered his head and bit his nicotine-stained lips.

"I'm in Chongqing on a business trip," Cheng Shen said softly, his breath unsteady.He didn't mean it that way, they haven't seen each other for a week, although Yu Yan seems to be in good spirits during the video call every night, but he can't rest assured that he wants to meet a real person.As a result, he was stabbed in the heart after seeing the person, and his worries were not superfluous, as the person had been perfunctory all along.The deliberate estrangement before parting was interrupted by the anger at the moment, and he still pretended to be calm and composed: "Didn't you say you missed me last night?"

Yu Yan grabbed the collar of Cheng Shen's suit, and raised his head in a daze to accept his lingering kiss.He thought that Cheng Shen would ask the teacher about the crime, but unexpectedly, he forgot about it after asking a question.

The high-end suit fell to the ground, and Yu Yan was carried towards the big bed by Cheng Shen.He trembled, watching Cheng Shen tear off his tie in fear, his handsome face was full of restrained indifference and wildness, staring at Yu Yan like a falcon.

Yu Yan recalled a nightmare a few days ago, Cheng Shen in the dream looked like this, with coldness and toughness, controlling him from top to bottom.He felt scared, violated, even insulted, and pushed him away fiercely a second before entering.

The dream and reality coincided inconceivably, Yu Yan hid back in horror, and was pulled back by Cheng Shen's ankle.Tears welled up in his eyes, he beat Cheng Shen's chest and murmured "No".

There was a distinct pain in Cheng Shen's eyes, and he said coldly, "I can't."

Yu Yan failed to push him away like in the dream.

Cheng Shen's shoulders twitched, and he couldn't help letting out a sigh when he was enveloped by the heat.

After that rough time, he never touched Yu Yan again.

After being caught in a scandal, he dared not touch Yu Yan again.

But now, he could not refuse.If he can't cure the other party, then pull him to perish together.

Yu Yan's face was covered with tears, he felt that he was broken from the inside, he was stained by other people's smell, touched, stained, dragged into the dirty mud and couldn't break free.

He heard Cheng Shen say, "Since you say you miss me, you should be mentally prepared."

Then he gave up, and there was nothing wrong with being dark.

Cheng Shen found a cigarette and a lighter on the bedside table, and he bit one into his mouth. The moment he lit it, his soul seemed to tremble.Taking a greedy breath, he found Yu Yan's wet lips in the darkness, and passed over without a trace left.

He asked cruelly, "Is it comfortable?"

Yu Yan was suddenly poked at the most vulnerable nerve in his body, and he grabbed Cheng Shen's chest forcefully.From bearing to enjoying, he responded enthusiastically, until all his sanity and dignity were swallowed by magma.

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Cheng Shen loosened his bathrobe and sat on the head of the bed, twirling an unlit cigarette between his fingers.

Yu Yan curled up beside him, sleeping deeply.He was so tired that he was in a mess even when he was taking a bath.Looking at Cheng Shen with blank eyes filled with malice, he couldn't resist pressing him on the cold tiles in the bathroom for another brutal act.

Cheng Shen drinks but doesn't smoke, and he doesn't smoke if anyone gives him a hand. His grandfather died of lung cancer, so he's very afraid.So he was very angry when he found out that Yu Yan was smoking for the first time, and he began to feel distressed after he finished smoking. He thought how much he was suffering from Yu Yan, and let such a good person find such a way to relieve the pressure.

Later Yu Yan quit, the process of quitting smoking was quite sweet, he bought Yu Yan a box of smoking cessation candy and put it in the office, he would eat candy when he wanted to smoke.When there were only two of them left, he would kiss him gloomily, until his head was empty and he forgot about smoking.

He was convinced that he would never let Yu Yan smoke again in his life, but when he smelled the smoke on Yu Yan's body and saw the burnt cigarette butts in the ashtray, he realized that he had lost again.

This is a kind of helpless surrender. He has to admit that the 17-year-old Cheng Shen has beaten the 27-year-old Cheng Shen fiercely.He still loves Yu Yan, but it is no longer pure, he makes mistakes, and guilt is mixed into his love.He can't tell whether he loves more now or feels guilty more. If he feels more guilty, will he one day exceed the remaining love.It was as if they were still together but no longer in love.

Yu Yan trembled in his sleep, and instinctively followed the warmth to snuggle up. He rubbed against Cheng Shen's body like a cat, murmuring the other's name unintentionally.

Cheng Shen leaned down, brushed his soft hair with his fingertips, and looked at his thin profile.He felt that Yu Yan was like a cloudy moon, thin and curved, hazy and in a trance, and he couldn't find a single star around him that could light him up, so he had to guard the deep sky alone until the dark clouds wiped out the last light. cover up.

He kissed Yu Yan's forehead, and asked suspiciously: "How much do you love me?"

The doorbell rang, and Yu Yan frowned in surprise.

Cheng Shen touched his forehead in this position, and said softly, "Go on to sleep, I'll go and have a look."

He gathered up his bathrobe and got out of bed, and as he passed the trash can, he stuffed the pods he had caught between his fingers into them.

Opening the door, Cheng Shen received a surprised face for the second time today.

An Ning's eyes were about to stare. From Cheng Shen's face, he could see the muscular chest muscles that the bathrobe couldn't hide, and the bright red nail scratches extending deep into the fabric.

An Ning's nosebleeds are about to spurt out, and I can't help but feel that those people on the Internet suspected that the wound on Yu Yan's hand was caught by someone a little ridiculous, obviously he was the one who caught him!

Cheng Shen leaned against the door frame, folded his arms around his chest, looked coldly at An Ning's unspeakable face, and asked in a bad tone, "What are you looking at?"

An Ning felt that she was offended, so she quickly covered her face with her hands, and said with a red neck, "Mr. Cheng, you have a great figure!"

Cheng Shen was impatient: "What's the matter?"

An Ning came to her senses, and stretched out the hot and sour noodles in her hand: "Teacher Yu asked me to bring hot and sour noodles!" As she spoke, she put down her hands and cast her eyes randomly into the room: "Mr. Cheng, why are you here? Where is Mr. Yu? "

Cheng Shen didn't answer, and remained in the same position: "He's asleep."

An Ning suddenly felt that the hot and sour noodles in her hand weighed a thousand catties, and she wished she could slap herself. What kind of stupid question did she ask: "Then...this..."

Cheng Shen interrupted her: "Yu Yan didn't eat tonight?"

"Ah," An Ning said like a primary school student whose homework was being checked, "Yes, Teacher Yu said he was tired and asked me to bring him a meal."

Cheng Shen narrowed his eyes and stepped into the corridor with one step, the door was ajar behind him.

An Ning was shocked: "Cheng, Mr. Cheng?"

Cheng Shen cut to the chase: "Is he eating well?"

An Ning is very confident: "Yes, I bring all the meals for Teacher Yu, and I never miss a meal."

"Didn't you watch him eat?"

"...No, Mr. Yu kept locked in the room until he went out, and didn't let me stay in it, saying that girls should avoid suspicion." An Ning rubbed her neck: "But sometimes we eat together when we are on the way, He just doesn't eat much. Teacher Yu has lost weight, I think, it should be because of the tight schedule."

Cheng Shen's shoulders and neck sank, and his face was not very good-looking.After asking, he was ready to go back, leaving An Ning with the back of his head.

"Mr. Cheng!" An Ning called out to him, "This hot and sour rice noodles?"

Cheng Shen said without turning his head, "You can have supper by yourself."

The door was gently closed in front of her, and An Ning was holding a bowl of hot and sour noodles and facing the wall, thinking about her mistakes. Her inner activities were quite rich.She didn't know if Yu Yan could stand it, anyway, she couldn't stand it.

Cheng Shen went back to his room and changed his clothes. He put on a gray sweater and sweatpants and a jacket, looking refreshed like a college student.

He took his mobile phone and wallet to go out. He has been to Chongqing many times. The hotel where Yu Yan stayed has a very good location, and the business district is just down the road.It was only after 09:30, and the night scene in the mountain city had just begun.Cheng Shen walked through the bustling crowd and found a Sichuan restaurant.

Cheng Shen has also eaten at this restaurant many times. He and Yu Yan visited Chongqing when they were in college, and they still revisit the old place after graduation. It has become a must-see restaurant for several business trips.Cheng Shen ordered a few of Yu Yan's favorite dishes, with a mix of meat and vegetables, and ordered them to be packed less spicy.Pick up the meal after more than ten minutes, and buy a cup of porridge to nourish the stomach halfway.

Back at the hotel, Cheng Shen showed his ID card to the front desk, and also hustled An Ning down, asking for another room card.

In the elevator, An Ning huddled in a corner tremblingly, seeing Cheng Shen holding up two hands of food, a little envious.Thinking of the bowl of hot and sour noodles, it was a bit shabby.She boldly said, "Mr. Cheng, why don't you just ask Mr. Yu to open the door?"

Cheng Shen felt that this girl was not good at handling things, so she ignored people coldly.After a few seconds, I remembered something and ordered: "Come to the signing site tomorrow and send me the location."

"Ah?" An Ning didn't know, so she asked, "What are you doing?"

The elevator "ding dong" reached the designated floor, and Cheng Shen walked out first: "It's none of your business, don't tell Yu Yan."

Cheng Shen swiped his card to enter the door, spread the bought rice on the table, and then went into the inner room to pick Yu Yan up from the bed: "Yu Yan, wake up."

Yu Yan was sleeping Zhengxiang, and reluctantly shoved him, and the latter held the back of his neck and bit him hard on the chin.

"Hiss—" Yu Yan opened his eyes, "It hurts."

Cheng Shen patted him on the back: "Get up and eat."

The man was already awake, and Cheng Shen left after speaking, leaving Yu Yan with 2 minutes to relax.

Yu Yan stared at Cheng Shen's back for a while, then slowly sat up.The quilt slipped from his shoulders, and he realized that he was only wearing a pair of underwear, touching his chest, Yu Yan subconsciously looked at the cigarette case beside the bed, and then felt his cheeks were hot, as if it was a bit too much.

He stretched out his hand, picked up the sweater cover that was thrown at the end of the bed.The sweater was loose enough to cover his buttocks, Yu Yan didn't wear shoes, and walked outside with bare legs.

Cheng Shen stood by the table and broke the chopsticks, opened the lid of the porridge to keep it cold.Looking back, I saw Yu Yan, the collar of the sweater was a little too big, revealing the sharp tooth marks on the upper half circle of the collarbone, and those legs, which tried to cover up the roots, but couldn't hide the scarlet marks around the ankles that he had squeezed hard.

There seemed to be some kind of emotion in his chest that was about to move, forcing Cheng Shen to put down his chopsticks, walk over in two or three steps, and hug Yu Yan with his buttocks in his arms.

The posture was the same as when he entered the door, but this time Yu Yan was much calmer, he put his arms around Cheng Shen's shoulders, let others carry him to the table, and sat down on his lap.

Cheng Shen put his arms around Yu Yan's excessively thin waist, picked up a piece of pot-packed meat and ate it by himself. After tasting the deliciousness, he turned to the person on his body and said, "I came here as soon as I got off the plane. I didn't eat at night, so eat with me." point?"

Yu Yan was exhausted and finally felt hungry.He nodded, slid his arm down half a circle, and put it back flatteringly: "I..." His lips were polished, not as light as in the evening, he muttered, and took the initiative to explain: "I'm a little insomnia, so I smoked." But he didn't confess: "I didn't smoke much, just one or two a day."

Cheng Shen didn't believe his nonsense at all, but his face was calm and calm, and he didn't show any emotion, and he didn't look like he wanted to settle accounts.

He brought white rice and porridge with fish slices, and his eyes showed Yu Yan which one to eat.

Yu Yan was full of panic, remembering that he hadn't eaten at night, he felt even more guilty, and pointed at the fish porridge with lowered eyes.

Cheng Shen handed Yu Yan a spoon, and ate the rice by himself: "Next time you can't sleep and drink milk, you should smoke less."

It was so easy to expose, Yu Yan couldn't believe it, and when he turned to drink the porridge, he saw a table of delicious dishes, and his stomach growled twice.

He bent his pretty eyebrows and confided a little truth to Cheng Shen: "Actually, I didn't eat at night. I asked An Ning to bring me hot and sour noodles. They haven't come back since they ate."

Not knowing whether those two had communicated with each other a long time ago, Cheng Shenliang stared at the back of that miserable head without saying a word.

Yu Yan drank two mouthfuls of porridge, and took the initiative to eat the crispy meat with chopsticks.The spinach in this season is very tender, fried by the shopkeeper, and he chews it in small bites.

After entering the door without even exchanging pleasantries, Yu Yan went straight to the point, and Yu Yan calmed down and asked, "Why didn't you tell me you came to Chongqing on a business trip?"

Cheng Shen said, "It was decided this morning, and I want to surprise you."

Yu Yan stuck out his tongue quietly, feeling that the surprise almost turned into shock.He asked again: "Then how long are you going to stay in Chongqing?"

"One week."

Yu Yan said, "Live here too?"

Cheng Shen shook his head: "I live in Jiangbei, and the team is there. I'll wait for you to leave before going there."

Yu Yan put down his chopsticks, leaned over affectionately, and rubbed Cheng Shen's neck: "Are you here specially to accompany me?"

"Not really," Cheng Shen rubbed his hair, "I work during the day and come to sleep at night, is that okay?"

I've done everything, there's nothing else I can't do.

Yu Yan let go of his knot for a while, and angrily poked the stubble on Cheng Shen's neck: "But I'm leaving early the morning after tomorrow."

"So hurry up, what do you want to eat tomorrow night? I have already postponed the dinner for these two days."

Yu Yan thought for a while, now that he is in Chongqing, it makes no sense not to eat hot pot.Cheng Shen had no objection, and patted Yu Yan's butt to tell him to eat quickly.

Yu Yan wiped away the haze of being alone, drank half a bowl of porridge in one go, and helped Cheng Shen eat half a bowl of rice, overeating and feeling sick to his stomach.

"Did we get home at the same time during a week's business trip?"

With a proud "huh hum", Cheng Shen told Yu Yan about the progress of the renovation of the property in Zuixinting Park: "They are moving very quickly, they have already started to paste the wallpaper, and after the furniture is ordered, they have to wait for the construction period to do it, about a month .After the completion of the overall construction, wait for another month for ventilation, and you should be able to move in before the Chinese New Year.”

Yu Yan was very happy, his eyes lit up with anticipation.This new home seemed to bring him great comfort, like the Gobi Desert in the desert, renewing his life.

It's rare that Yu Yan slept very well this night, without insomnia or nightmares, and slept very comfortably with Cheng Shen's arms around him.