miss a useless name

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At that moment, Cheng Shen who appeared without warning really made Yu Yan feel that he was worthless.

When Yu Yan raised his eyes, the surprise and joy were not clear, like a crescent moon surrounded by thin clouds, a shallow layer filled, not too much, afraid of appearing too caring, afraid of losing money when the moon is full.

And Cheng Shen's next words were like a sudden hurricane in the plains, blowing away the clouds, the light was not dazzling, but covered with gloom, sweeping away all of Yu Yan's expectations.

"I said why didn't you answer my phone call? It turns out that I have a companion." Cheng Shen said.

Yu Yan suddenly clenched his fingertips and stood up from his seat reflexively.

Under the cold white lights of the hospital, he looked like a sculpture of ice, with white steam bubbling from the tip of his nose, eyebrows and eyes.Yu Yan really wanted to ignore the sarcasm in Cheng Shen's words, so he gritted his teeth and took out his phone from his trouser pocket.

He pressed the screen and handed it to Cheng Shen's face: "It's flooded, so I can't turn it on."

Cheng Shen didn't move, just glanced sideways at the screen, it was black, and there were two figures facing each other reflected in it.

"I can't turn on the phone if I call you." Cheng Shen coldly raised the corners of his lips, his face full of disbelief: "Why didn't you say that the phone couldn't be turned on when you were looking for someone?"

"Cheng Shen!"

Zhou Fang stood up, frowned, and blocked Yu Yan behind him like a protector.There is a dark tide between them, and swords are on the verge of breaking out. They each have their own desires and desires. Like the two most ferocious lions in the forest, their feud has been formed early, and they just wait for the opportunity to bite off each other's neck fiercely. From then on, they can be free. Unscrupulous and then dominate the territory.

As soon as Zhou Fang opened his mouth, he poked at people's sore spots: "You are in Beicheng." Looking down, he saw Cheng Shen wearing casual clothes, and then laughed: "Come out from home? Why are you at home, and Xiaoyan still wants to be far away?" Ask me for help?"

About why Yu Yan asked him for help in the middle of the night, Zhou Xin knew it well, but he was very knowledgeable and didn't mention a word.He was not fair for Yu, not worth it for him, and he was extremely disgusted with Cheng Shenxing's face as if he was asking for a crime.

Zhou Fang didn't question aggressively. He smiled, suppressed the gushing anger, and put away his heartache. The nonchalant question, which seemed to be chatting, was enough to make Cheng Shen unable to refute.

Cheng Shen choked suddenly.

He was in Beicheng, and he was lying on the bed at home half an hour ago, when Yu Yan was sleeping next to him.That man broke his hand yesterday, and his body was bruised and purple. When he went to bed, Yu Yan still frowned slightly and couldn't sleep well, probably because of pain.

Cheng Shen remembered that he took Yu Yan into his arms before going to bed, and then how he pushed him away cruelly, ignored his pleas, and let him run helplessly in the heavy rain?

Well, even if it was his fault.Taking a taxi, hailing a taxi, there are so many friends in the whole North City, Yu Yanming knows how much he hates Zhou Fang, why no one asks him but asks him?Is there no one willing to help except Zhou Fang?

What's more, he didn't leave Yu Yan alone, it was only half an hour, he was only half an hour late, if he didn't come today, would Yu Yan and Zhou Fang be connected quietly?Or, half a month or even earlier before his business trip, the two had secretly communicated about the song?

Cheng Shen laughed back angrily: "Where I am and what I'm doing are our family's business after all. Since when has Tuesday been so free and meddling in other people's family affairs?"

"Family?" Zhou Fang asked back: "Yu Yan's name is in your household registration book, or does your relationship have legal effect? ​​Is it a family living under the same roof? Then Xiaoyan and I were a family ten years ago." Already!"

"Zhou Fang!"

"You treat him as a family member? Would you let your family members drag their injuries and wait for the car over and over again in the heavy rain, and finally turn to me, an outsider, for help?!" Zhou Fang, who has always been well-educated, swears at this time : "The most fucking ridiculous thing is, are you at home? You are at home and you don't help him, and now you still have the face to blame him here? You really have a fucking face."

"boom--"

Cheng Shen punched Zhou Fang's mouth.

Yu Yan was startled, seeing Zhou Fang hit back without showing any weakness, he rushed up to pull the two of them apart.

"Stop! This is a hospital!" Yu Yan squeezed into the middle, and the two beat fiercely, but they were both worried about hurting Yu Yan, so he just took advantage of him: "Cheng Shen! Stop hitting!"

Yu Yan hugged Cheng Shen's waist with one hand, stopping his movement: "Wenwen is still in the operating room, can you please stop making trouble!"

Their movements attracted a lot of attention, and the family members passing by all looked sideways. The nurse on duty rushed to help pull the two away, and said fiercely: "I want to fight, what place is the hospital for! I will call the security if I do it again." ah!"

Cheng Shen and Zhou Fang glared at each other and let go of their hands at the same time.

Yu Yan smiled apologetically at the nurse and said "I'm sorry".

The nurse saw that his delicate features and tenderness had not flared up again, and before leaving, she said: "Your plaster is wet, go to the orthopedics department and get another one."

Sending the nurse away, Yu Yan rubbed his face wearily, and said to Zhou Fang: "I'm sorry, I didn't think carefully about what happened today, and I caused you trouble. It's getting late, I'll just wait here, you go back first Bar."

What else did Zhou Fang say: "Xiaoyan..."

Yu Yan only shook his head: "Let's go."

It doesn't matter if you say Yu Yan is ungrateful, or you say he crossed the river and demolished the bridge, he doesn't want others to see his embarrassment again.

His lover's indifference, suspicion, indiscriminate blame, those crumbling things in the seemingly beautiful life, he just wanted to close his eyes and hide them.

After Zhou Fang left, Yu Yan sat back on the chair, supported his knee with one hand, and said in a low voice, "You can go too."

Cheng Shen's cheekbones were red from being punched, and now they started to turn purple. Hearing this, he sat down beside Yu Yan.Probably due to the dry mouth of the quarrel, he picked up the hot cocoa that Yu Yan had drunk half of, and drank the rest in one gulp, before saying dissatisfiedly: "Zhou Fang can accompany you, but I can't?"

Yu Yan felt tired, his bones were sore.He straightened his back and felt comfortable leaning against the cold chair: "Cheng Shen, I don't want to quarrel with you."

Cheng Shen pinched the plastic bottle, and the bottle collapsed as soon as the force was applied, and the aroma of chocolate came out from the straw, but no one tasted the sweetness: "I just came to quarrel with you?"

Yu Yan looked at him through the slits in his eyes, the meaning in those dark eyes couldn't be more obvious——

Is not it?

But he didn't want to argue anymore: "I'm very grateful that you can come to the hospital. It's getting late, and Wenwen doesn't know how long it will take to come out. You should go back to work first. If you have anything to say, let's talk about it later."

Cheng Shen knew he was in the wrong, and had already asked for leave before leaving the house, and now he is even more unwilling to leave.He looked at Yu Yan's ugly face, and sent a bit of late distress: "Just now the nurse told you to change the cast, let's go, I will accompany you."

Yu Yan refused: "Wait until Wenwen comes out."

"Then you go by yourself, I will guard for you."

Cheng Shen touched Yu Yan's face, feeling cold from the air-conditioning.Yu Yan turned to the beginning and put on a bit of force: "I won't go."

"Don't be angry with me." Cheng Shen said patiently, "Your body is yours. If you don't cherish it, who do you expect to love you?"

Yu Yan wanted to laugh, how many times when he was young, Cheng Shen wrapped himself in his arms, pointed at the tip of his nose and said, "You are mine, inside and out."

Cheng Shen also said something like this: "Yu Yan, as long as I love you, I will love you as long as I love you."

So now, his heart aches so much, is it because he is used to it, or is it because he is deeply in love?

Before Yu Yan could reply, Cheng Shen frowned.He doesn't like Yu Yan always holding back everything, with a preoccupied look.They used to talk about everything, but since when did Yu Yan seldom open his heart to him.He thought of Yu Yan's smile when he and Zhou Fang were together just now, it was unguarded and also the most seductive.

"Yu Yan, talk." Cheng Shen grabbed Yu Yan's wrist and shook it.

"What are you talking about?" Yu Yan sighed, and said frankly: "I'm very tired, if you want to stay here, you can be quiet for a while, or go back first, okay?"

The sourness that had been brewing in his chest since seeing Zhou Fang was a complete explosion. Cheng Shen couldn't bear it and didn't want to bear it. After such a long cold war, he accompanied him with a smile and seriously coaxed him. But it still looks like a dead man.

Cheng Shen pulled Yu Yan over, and pinched his chin regardless of the occasion: "Zhou Fang can talk and laugh with you, but I can't? It's been so long, and he still remembers your preferences, in the middle of the night, risking The heavy rain came to pick you up, is it still thinking about you? So what about you? I found out that he is better than me and loves people more than me, regretting not being with him?" The more he said, the more he said: "It's better if you don't give me now Face, are you blaming me for being broken and you continuing your relationship? If I hadn’t come, you wouldn’t have found a ward and rolled into bed right now!”

Yu Yan was still struggling at first, but gradually froze.

He looked into Cheng Chengshen's eyes, and only saw a burning flame, but he didn't see himself.

Yu Yan saw that he was so strange, as if he had never seen him before, such hurtful words came out of his mouth, but there were also romantic words there before.When he kissed himself, he was affectionate. He never thought that he could be so heartless.

"Cheng Shen..." The corners of Yu Yan's mouth couldn't stop trembling, looking at Cheng Shen's eyes were bloodshot.He felt pain, his arms, waist, ankles, where he could read the name, it hurt like bone-piercing pain, so that he could hardly utter his voice: "Is what you said human?"

This day is destined to be chaotic, starting from that crazy rainstorm, shattering Yu Yan's dream weaved with his youth little by little.

The high-heeled shoes stepped on the white floor tiles, "thumping".

The well-dressed couple rushed over, and immediately saw their son sitting in front of the operating room, and his gay man who wanted to be together to the death.

From this angle, Yu's father and Yu's mother can only see the entanglement of the two people, hugging and leaning, it is ambiguous and dirty.

Yu Yan turned his face towards the way he had come, and across the corridor, he and his parents, whom he hadn't seen for several years, suddenly looked at each other.

He was surprised, unexpectedly, and pushed Cheng Shen away with all his might.

"What are you doing!" Cheng Shen growled.

Yu Yan had already stood up, embarrassed, his lips were pursed and then released, as if he had been caught in a scandal by his parents.What is his scandal? It is about showing to his parents that his happiness can only be given by the man around him, and now, how fragile this layer of happiness is broken by them.

Yu Yan hardly dared to look directly into his mother's eyes: "Mom..."

"Snapped--"

Just after he said a word, he slapped Yu Yan hard, deflecting Yu Yan.

Lin Qiuhua had bright red nails and an emerald ring on his index finger.She pointed at Yu Yan who was hugged by Cheng Shen. It was the first time that such a decent person got angry in public, and cursed: "Shameless thing! Your sister is having surgery inside, and you are fooling around with men outside!"

Yu Yan has been beaten twice since he was a child.

The first time I came out with my parents when I graduated from university, I made phone calls at home, even Cheng Shen didn't know about it.

The second time was today, in the hospital where people were coming and going, the beating made his ears ringing, and his head was dizzy and heavy.

Cheng Shen held Yu Yan in his arms, met Yu's father and mother's gaze without avoiding it, and said in a deep voice, "Uncle and aunt, this is a hospital."

"Do you still know that this is a hospital?" Lin Qiuhua let go of her hands angrily. The exquisite makeup made her look much younger than her actual age: "Two men are huddling together in the public. Do you still know that it's ugly? Want face?"

Yu Yan was shocked, and slowly moved away from Cheng Shen's arms.

Cheng Shen said: "Auntie, I know you are angry that I have spoiled Yu Yan, please come to me if you have any anger. Yu Yan did nothing wrong. You know better than me how he has treated his family all these years."

Lin Qiuhua took a step forward: "Do you think I dare not hit you?"

Yu Yan stretched out his hand to stop him: "Mom!"

Lin Qiuhua avoided him as if he had encountered something dirty, gritted his teeth to restrain his emotions, and maintained his last dignity: "Get out, don't let me see you again."

The redness in Yu Yan's eyes completely faded away.

Yu Cheng walked past them with Lin Qiuhua in his arms, except for the first glance, he never gave a single glance.

Yu Yan closed his eyes, the surging emotions didn't reach his throat, and when he swallowed, he was full of blood.

His parents turned a blind eye to the hanging plaster. They wanted to be clean and decent all their lives, and they were their biggest stain.

You deserve it, you deserve it.

Yu Yan walked forward in a nonchalant manner.

The bright lights swirled in front of his eyes, and Cheng Shen's voice calling him behind him seemed to be separated by thousands of waters.

In a daze, he caught a glimpse of Cheng Shen's anxious and flustered eyebrows, which he saw when he was a teenager, and wished he could put them all in a glass bottle.In this way, you will never be afraid of losing it again.

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