miss a useless name

51.

Cheng Shen stood stiffly at the door, feeling chills all over his body, and his arms and thighs were sore due to excessive force. He had never been so depressed, his face was ashen.

Chest tightness, dull pain, he was like a wooden man, watching Yu Yan lying on the bed unconsciously being manipulated by others, watching him being inserted with a nasal tube, such a long tube stretched directly from the nasal cavity to the stomach.Cheng Shen felt that he was dying too.

The nurse pushed him out, closed the door, cut off his sight, and Cheng Shen leaned against the wall behind him.

The red light on the top of the emergency room was on, and Cheng Shen looked at it motionlessly, the light burned into his eyes, staining it incompletely red.Invading the lungs again, the blood ignited a fire, burning the inside to ashes.

Cheng Shen couldn't help thinking about what kind of mood Yu Yan had swallowed so much medicine.He must be very tired, unable to support himself in pain, and he feels desperate for himself. The name "Cheng Shen" is no longer worthy of his nostalgia, but will make him suffer a lot.

Shi Tiesheng said that a person who really wants to die doesn't care what other people say.A person who talks about death does not really want to die, but is still longing for love.

But Yu Yan did not reveal the slightest thought of wanting to die from the beginning to the end.

Cheng Shen said he was sick, he was very resistant, but after seeing the doctor, he began to cooperate with the treatment.He took the medicine obediently, and endured the side effects of the medicine. He talked more, laughed a lot, made requests, and occasionally played tricks on people.He was working very hard to get better, but at this moment, he gave up his life without warning, and the people who hit him were caught off guard, because...he no longer longed for love.

He doesn't want to love anymore, does he feel that no one loves him?

Cheng Shen couldn't stand still, he slid down against the white wall of the hospital in spite of himself. He knelt down, clenched his right hand to his lips, saw the ring on his ring finger, and wanted to cry in grief.

Others come to the hospital, parents, relatives and friends.But Yu Yan is the only one, alone, and now that Yu Yan is leaving, he doesn't even want him.He thought that Yu Yan would leave, run to a place without him, and hide.But he never thought that Yu Yan would leave in this way.

This time, Yu Yan didn't give him another chance, and sentenced him to death without even explaining.

Because of Yu Yan, I don't want him anymore.

·

The physical signs on the life meter were fairly stable, Cheng Shen leaned forward to tuck up the quilt for Yu Yan, his eyes fell on those bloodless lips.

He felt that Yu Yan was withering, the petals that symbolized life withered one by one, the stem was bent, and he was about to rot.

Cheng Shen dipped a cotton swab in water and applied it on Yu Yan's lips, soaking him little by little, nourishing him, hoping that this weather-beaten rose would come back to life.

Yu Yan's situation is dangerous. Originally, the psychiatrist prescribed Valium that was not enough to kill, but he swallowed two bottles and drank half a bottle of red wine. If he was 2 minutes later, he might not be able to recover.The doctor also blamed Cheng Shen, how can a patient with a serious mental illness stay at home alone.

Cheng Shen admitted that it was indeed his negligence.

He has seen the most beautiful appearance of Yu Yan, a 17-year-old boy who reads quietly under the bright sunshine.

He couldn't imagine how Yu Yan was wandering in the gate of hell, and he couldn't empathize with Yu Yan's bad mood. He knew that Yu Yan was sick, but told him, you are fine, just need a little help.

Maybe what Yu Yan needs is not help, since the first day they were together, Cheng Shen is the only person Yu Yan needs.

Cheng Shen wrung out a hot towel and wiped Yu Yan's body. He was not impatient when he did these things, and his movements were very skillful. Yu Yan often sweated after he was sick, and he always wiped him like this, and he also helped him change into clean clothes .

——In the afternoon, Yu Yan's condition stabilized a bit, Cheng Shen asked the nurse to take care of him, and went home to get a few changes of clothes.

He wasn't sure whether Yu Yan should continue to take the medicine, and he also took the anti-anxiety medicine.Yu Yan didn't worry about taking the medicine recently, he was very proactive. Cheng Shen realized that there was something wrong, so he accidentally opened the medicine bottle, smelled the sweet and sour smell when he got closer, and the medicine was replaced with VC.

Cheng Shen threw away the medicine, and propped his head on the edge of the table dejectedly as if his spine had been shattered.If he can be more careful, if he is more patient, if he feels Yu Yan more, everything will not happen now.

Or that day, when Yu Yan asked him if he had anything to hide, he let go of his worries and worries, and told the whole plan, is Yu Yan still joking with him now?

He once promised Yu Yan that he would not lie to him again in this life, and now he once again destroyed this unbearable trust with his own hands.Cheng Shen didn't dare to think about it anymore, the regret he had developed could drive him crazy.

He packed his clothes, and when he was about to leave, he caught a glimpse of a black notebook on the table.He had never seen this notebook before, but he sensed something at this moment, and his heart beat faster for no reason.

He stopped and turned a page.

A line of words came straight to the bottom of my eyes——

"It took me eight years to realize how much of a failure I was."

So Cheng Shen brought the notebook to the hospital.

Cheng Shen scrubbed Yu Yan clean and straightened his hair.Yu Yan's hair grew long, and he refused to go downstairs to cut it even after being urged several times.He said that he had lost a lot of hair, and it would look more if he grew it longer.Cheng Shen knew that Yu Yan was afraid of seeing people, so why did he go out alone that day, why he could feel so relieved, why didn't he ask a few more questions, where he went, and who he met.

Cheng Shen scratched his hair anxiously, wondering what Yu Yan would write in the notebook, whether there were many unspeakable grievances and anger that could not be vented.Will he put the pain he suffered into writing, and will he express his disappointment with him between the lines.

He turned on the night light on the bedside, leaned the chair against the wall, Yu Yan was sleeping on his right hand, the light separated them from the middle, and each got a half shadow.

Most of the notebook is used, and each page is only a few words, sometimes a sentence, sometimes a paragraph, written in the middle, without the date marked, it looks like a notepad instead.

Cheng Shen turned to the second page and looked back slowly.

"Cheng Shen suddenly came to Chongqing to look for me today, and he caught him smoking a cigarette, but he didn't get angry, he just hugged me and fucked me hard. What should I do, I still love him very much."

"Cheng Shen came to my signing event for the first time. I was very happy, but when a reader asked him if he had a girlfriend, I became jealous again. I went crazy when I was eating hot pot. I was so angry that I wanted to throw up. I snatched his phone, hit him, he thought I was going to jump off a building, how could I want to die, I love him so much."

"Chengshen helped me clarify things online, but I was still afraid. I felt that everyone looked at me with thorns. Did they think I was disgusting?"

"Cheng Shen took me to work together and found something for me to do. I know he was afraid that I would think wildly by myself, but I was so useless, I couldn't even make meeting minutes. He also asked me to do a feasibility analysis. Why did he treat me like this? rest assured……"

"When I have insomnia, I like to watch Cheng Shen. I secretly pinch his nose, and he bites me with his eyes closed, so he doesn't wake up. I can sleep well. I'm a little envious."

"I know I've lost weight, but I can't eat anything, and it's so hard to concentrate. I stared at a line of text for 5 minutes in a daze in the morning, and even forgot what to write in the next sentence."

"I feel broken, bad, weird."

"I was discovered by Cheng Shen who didn't sleep. He said he would take me to see a doctor. I couldn't tell if it was real or a dream. I'm not sick, so why did I need to see a doctor?"

"The doctor said that I had anxiety disorder, and I didn't want to talk to him, but what he said made sense, and I was all right. I might really be sick."

"I listened to the doctor and asked Cheng Shen a lot. He was not impatient and said that it could be a little more."

"I started to react to the medicine."

"I feel very unreasonable, how can Cheng Shen bear me."

"Hey, I didn't have myopia after working so hard in the third year of high school. Now I can't see clearly."

"I had a dream at night. I dreamed that I was exiled to a deserted island with Cheng Shen. There was a hurricane, a tsunami, like the end of the world, but he never let go of my hand, so I don't think it's a nightmare."

"It's so cold, I don't want to move, so I asked Cheng Shen to cook. He made pork ribs and yam soup for me. I only eat yam. If I want to gain weight, I can get fat on him. Hehe, it's actually because I feel a little nauseous."

"It rained at night, we were watching horror movies on the sofa, Cheng Shen really had enough, he kept drilling on me."

"Cheng Shen gave me a ring."

"I changed the new medicine today, and Dr. Fang said that I am much better than when I came last time. I want to get well soon and stand beside Cheng Shen in a healthy way. Is this a bit aggressive? Then I hope that when I go to Venice, Let’s improve a little bit more than now.”

"Cheng Shen has a cold, he said he was cold, I think he is tired."

The recording stopped here, and the interruption was so abrupt, Cheng Shen guessed that Yu Yan met Cheng Peishuang the next day.

He leaned back, pressing the back of his head against the cold wall.Dazed, with blank eyes facing the void, Cheng Shen thought that he would see pain and venting in the book, but no, Yu Yan never yelled pain, never said a word of hate, even if he felt that he would feel pain again. If he was deceived, he would rather not say a word than to say that he was not good.

Cheng Shen pinched his brows hard, his fingertips dug into the flesh, but he still couldn't stop the soreness welling up in his eyes.

Yu Yan really wanted to get well soon.

He used to come out so actively, but he was ruthlessly torn open the wound, sprinkled with salt, branded with iron, and spread the distorted facts on his bloody flesh |, finally destroying him.

If Cheng Peishuang was the executioner, Cheng Shen would be the executioner who put up the sign.Together, they completely cut off Yu Yan's way of life.

He remembered Yu Yan's sentence: "Why would I want to die, I love him so much."

So Yu Yan is resolutely ending his life now because he doesn't want to love him anymore.

A tear fell on the open notebook, and Cheng Shen cried silently, feeling heartbroken.

Tears blurred the paper, printing black writing on the back.

Cheng Shen wiped his face and couldn't wait to turn to the next page.

With just one glance, he is like falling into an ice cellar, as if he is in the wilderness, his body is pierced by wind and frost.

All kinds of pain suddenly magnified at this moment, and the restrained tears burst out like a bank.His shoulder blades twitched violently, and he desperately covered his mouth.

He was afraid that he would uncontrollably cry in the ward.

The notebook fell to the floor, and Cheng Shen didn't dare to look at it again.

It turned out that Yu Yan chose to leave him in this way, not the cruelest punishment.The last sentence in the book is the most decisive revenge.

In the middle of that page, Yu Yan, who thought he would never wake up again, left Cheng Shen with the last sentence.

He wrote: "If I die, a ghost will love you. If I live, I will never love you again."

——The New Year's sun shines through the window and fills the table. Yu Yan writes this sentence calmly, and his whole body will be rubbed into the light.His hair was plated with gold, his eyes turned the color of glass, and he looked warm and gentle.

But at that moment, he told himself in his heart:

"I will love him even when I die, I will love him even when I enter the underworld, and I will love him even when I go down to the [-]th floor of hell. If loving him is the biggest mistake I have made in my life, I will love him even if I am alive. But if I am alive, I will love him again. Don't love him either."

Cheng Shen buried his face in his palms, hot tears dripped down and wet his cuffs.He trembled, suffocated, his heart was pierced severely, and his soul was shattered.

He understood that Yu Yan loved him till death.

A gust of cold wind swayed the tree shadows, and white fluff fell from the dark sky.

Cheng Shen stared out of the window in a daze, and murmured: "...Yu Yan, it's snowing, let's get up and have a snowball fight."

·

It has been three days since Yu Yan woke up.

It snowed heavily in Beicheng for two days, and the cleaners swept a clean road overnight. No one dared to drive fast at this time for fear of freezing and slippery, and a long queue was blocked on the road.

When Cheng Shen was buying breakfast at the entrance of the hospital, he witnessed a rear-end collision.He was touched by the shattered buttocks of the car, and always felt that he would see blood in the next moment, so he left with a pale face.

On the way, Zhao Fei received a call. He didn't go to sign the contract three days ago, and the announcement to refute the rumors at [-] o'clock caused turmoil in the entire financial street.Hearing that Cheng Shen did not intend to marry Qin Yun, the shareholders of Mars made phone calls one after another to bombard Cheng Shen, accusing him of committing fraud.Cheng Shen devoted himself to Yu Yan's place and had no intention of dealing with them, promising to return the corresponding shares.

He lost the battle with Cheng Peishuang after all.But Cheng Shen didn't feel that he was at a loss, what he got back was Yu Yan's life, and it was worth it.In ancient times, he was a fool who wanted beauties but not country.

He could give up everything for Yu Yan.

Zhao Fei said on the phone: "Mr. Cheng, all 27% of Mars shares you hold have been refunded. In addition, the current market value of Shengyan Technology is still short of 100 million to repay your liquidated damages from the old Mr. Cheng. This Did the money go from your personal account?"

Cheng Shen took a bite of the steamed stuffed bun: "No, I have that apartment on the outskirts of the city, please sell it for me."

After hanging up the phone, Cheng Shen had just finished his soy milk.

Although he had expressed his attitude, Cheng Peishuang did not ask for compensation, because Cheng Shen felt tired and didn't want to get entangled in this matter in the future.What is owed must be repaid after all, he doesn't think about anything now, he just hopes that Yu Yan can wake up.

As for whether he wants to leave or stay after waking up, Cheng Shen will respect it.

Cheng Shen sorted out his mood and bought a bouquet of perfume lilies.

When he pushed open the door of the ward, he was almost dazzled by the snow light outside the window.When he saw it clearly, he almost dropped the flower in his hand in shock.

In the ward, Yu Yan, who had been in a coma for three days, was leaning on the pillow, staring intently at the little snowman piled up on the windowsill.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, Yu Yan didn't look back, as if he wasn't surprised by the visitor.

"Yanyan!" Joy suddenly appeared on his face, Cheng Shen walked in quickly, put the flowers aside, and touched Yu Yan's shoulder to his wrist with his hand: "You're awake, is there any discomfort?"

He rang the bell beside the bed, and the nurse quickly came over to check on Yu Yan, and he was relieved only when he got a definite answer.

A few minutes later, the door closed, and the single ward was empty and quiet.

Cheng Shen sat by the bed and asked with concern: "Are you hungry? I'll buy you breakfast. What would you like to eat?"

Yu Yan looked at the flowers beside the bed from his face, spread his hands, and signaled Cheng Shen to bring them to him.

Cheng Shen said: "When I went to the flower shop, the delivery person just arrived. This one is very fresh."

Yu Yan took it, lowered his head and smelled it, slightly raised the corners of his lips, and smiled: "It smells so good."

He slept for three days, and passed through the gate of hell once, his complexion was ugly, and his voice was hoarse and ugly.But now, with a bouquet of flowers in her frail arms, and a smile on her pale face, Yu Yan looks like a newborn.

Cheng Shen looked at him nervously: "If you like it, I will buy it for you every day."

Yu Yan raised his hand to fiddle with the flower branches, fresh water was sprinkled on it, and his hands were stained crystal clear.He didn't respond to Cheng Shen's words, but asked, "Did you build the snowman on the windowsill?"

"Ah," Cheng Shen replied, "Yes, I don't know when you will wake up, I think you will be happy to see it when you wake up..."

"Thank you, I'm very happy."

"Words..."

Yu Yan gently twirled the petals under his hand, and said: "I had a long dream, as if I lived all these years again, but this time I dreamed about happy things. Maybe...God doesn't want to I walk with pain."

Cheng Shen looked at his hands, they were pale and thin, lingering among the flowers.He almost died, and it was so peaceful to mention the pain at this point.Cheng Shen felt pain in his heart: "Yu Yan, don't go."

Yu Yan just woke up lacking in energy, and was tired after playing around for a while.He returned the flowers to Cheng Shen and leaned back on the pillow: "Did you see that notebook?

Cheng Shen didn't want to recall everything about the notebook, so he nodded silently.

Yu Yan folded his hands, and unconsciously rubbed the base of the ring finger of his left hand. He took off the ring. He didn't wear it for a long time, but he left a habit.

"Cheng Shen." Yu Yan lowered his eyes and said softly, "I want to move forward."

The ice pick hanging above his head finally fell, and Cheng Shen had been waiting for a verdict since he saw that sentence.He was looking forward to Yu Yan waking up, but also afraid that he would wake up, now that he heard it, he felt astringent and painful.

Cheng Shen turned his face away, clenched his palms tightly, and said in a deep voice, "I signed the agreement five years ago. I didn't want to trade our relationship. At that time, I just didn't want you to suffer with me. If I say this now, you will still believe it." ?"

Yu Yan looked at him, this silhouette was much more resolute than five years ago, it was polished by experience and accidents, but Yu Yan never doubted the relationship at that time: "Trust."

Cheng Shen seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, paused for a moment and continued: "My father did what you were bullied by the Internet. I knew it when I saw the article. He hurt you, and I protected him. I am sorry for you." .”

Yu Yan shook his head: "He is your father, I understand."

"But I didn't have any arrangements for being on the hot search. I called him the night before and told him that if we messed up again, I would make our relationship public. My exposure was accidental, and I didn't have any excuses. This idea of ​​profit. Do you... believe it?"

Yu Yan obviously hesitated, but still said: "...let me know."

Only then did Cheng Shen laugh: "I'm not planning to get married, nor do I want to get engaged. The news was released on purpose. I want to acquire shares in Mars and become the largest shareholder of Mars. If I do, I will have capital and My dad resists, destroying the agreement back then, or paying him money, I am not afraid anymore. I think I can be with you without any restraints in the future. But I still lied to you, sorry."

Yu Yan was silent.

Cheng Shen waited for a long time, his whole body tensed up, he couldn't help gritting his teeth and asked, "Do you still believe it?"

Yu Yan nodded: "I believe it."

Cheng Shen turned his head abruptly and grabbed Yu Yan's wrist.Then he was stunned, Yu Yan's reaction was very flat and calm, and there was no disturbance in his eyes.He finally turned into tasteless water and bland soup. He believed every word Cheng Shen said, accepted his reasons and difficulties, but he would not be shaken by it anymore.

Cheng Shen could feel that the haze that had been lingering over Yu Yan was gradually dissipating.

He panicked, his fear was no less than seeing Yu Yan hovering before the gate of hell.

"Yu Yan..." He couldn't help but increase the strength in his hands, as if he was afraid that someone would run away.He waited for three days and finally arrived at this moment.Cheng Shen understood that Yu Yan no longer needed to explain and apologize, if he wanted to leave, he would never stay.

Yu Yan looked at him quietly, feeling that the ring Cheng Shen was wearing was pinching his bones.He could see Cheng Shen's panic and anxiety, but he couldn't care about Cheng Shen's emotions anymore, as he wrote——

If I'm still alive, never love you again.

After going through life and death, he finally chose not to love anymore.

Yu Yan smiled slowly: "In the past, I wanted to catch you, but I ran so slowly that I couldn't catch up. Then you were willing to stop and wait for me, but I held on tight again, afraid of losing track. But it’s so tiring, you’re tired, and I’m tired too. In fact, when I think about it carefully, I can’t blame others for my illness. My parents, my family, and my lover are all right. It’s because I don’t want to let go. over yourself."

"I don't want to worry about gains and losses anymore, and I don't want to live like a lunatic every day, constantly thinking and distinguishing, which sentence you say is true and which sentence is false. I believe what you say, but no matter the truth No matter what, I don't want to have anything to do with myself anymore. I'm too tired to run after you anymore. "

Yu Yan held Cheng Shen with his backhand, and they grabbed each other hard and held each other tightly.

But this time, without obsession, they no longer entangled.

Yu Yan squeezed Cheng Shen's palm, and said frankly, "Cheng Shen, if I let you go, I also let go of myself."

The single ward fell into a long silence after he finished speaking.

They looked at each other, imprinting each other in their eyes and hearts.

The sun comes out and the snow melts.

The snowman on the windowsill melted.

Pain, love and hatred are also integrated into the unfinished life.

After a long time, his shoulder blades shrugged, Cheng Shen smiled, and suddenly burst into tears.

·

Half a month later

At Beicheng International Airport, Yu Yan walked in front, while Cheng Shen pushed the suitcase behind.

After queuing up to pick up the tickets and check in the luggage, Cheng Shen looked at the flight information constantly beating on the big screen, and finally had a real feeling——Yu Yan was really going to leave him.

Yu Yan shook the ticket to Venice in front of Cheng Shen: "Hey, come back to your senses."

His hair was cut short. Although he was still very thin, he looked more sunny, but he was still wearing a hat. Desensitization is a long process. Yu Yan is confident that he will not give up again.

Cheng Shen looked at him, and couldn't believe that the person who was still on the verge of death half a month ago could recover so quickly, and he couldn't tell at all that the person standing in front of him was still a patient with severe anxiety disorder.

Cheng Shen paused, and said, "Take good care of yourself when you get there. I wrote a copy of the landlord's address and phone number and put it in your bag. If you can't find a place to call him, put away all the medicines you take. In the small pocket, I put the umbrella on the outside of the suitcase for you. It’s easy to carry. It’s the rainy season in Venice, and the weather is cold. Be careful of catching a cold. Take your ID and other things with you. I’m afraid you will lose the cash I’ve divided up several times. place."

Yu Yan listened to him quietly without interrupting.

After Cheng Shen chattered, he realized that he had given all the instructions he needed, and finally said: "Call me if you have any questions, don't worry about the time difference."

Yu Yan patted his arm: "Got it."

Cheng Shen suppressed his reluctance and pretended to be relaxed.He took a step back, opened his double-breasted coat, and said to Yu Yan, "Hug me again."

Yu Yan greeted him generously.

This hug is different from any previous ones. Both parties have three points of restraint, three points of blessing, and the remaining four points are the unbreakable friendship that has been together for many years.But that is no longer the love between lovers, they are like old friends, like relatives.

Yu Yan hugged Cheng Shen, put his chin on his shoulder, and patted him on the back: "I will take care of myself, and you should take care of yourself too. Help me live in the apartment in Zuixinting."

"Yes." Cheng Shen replied, "Yu Yan, promise me one last thing."

"what?"

"Even apart, we should never say goodbye."

——Don't say goodbye, because you are in my heart, and I will never leave.

Yu Yan understood what Cheng Shen meant, and agreed with a smile: "Okay."

They let go of their hands at the same time, each gaining bright smiles.

"Then I'm leaving!" Yu Yan stepped back slowly, and the moment he waved his hand, his eyes were red: "Drive carefully, pay attention to safety!"

Cheng Shen waved him away, "Safe trip."

Yu Yan turned around, and Cheng Shen no longer looked at him.

They ran back to back to their respective paths, shedding a line of tears at the same time.

Ten minutes later, Yu Yan came out of the security checkpoint and walked to the counter: "Hi, I want to change my itinerary. What time is the nearest flight to Rio?"

·

When the sky was getting dark, Yu Yan boarded the flight to Rio de Janeiro.

Sitting beside him was an English man with a white beard who greeted him friendly and asked him what he was doing in Rio.

Yu Yan showed his big white teeth in a smile, and his eyes were so bright that he could see the stars: "The winter in Beicheng is too cold, I want to go to Rio to bask in the sun."

All his life, he was oppressed, restrained, and sick. He was labeled "rebellious" by Lin Qiuhua at the age of 22. Apart from coming out and giving up his life, he had never done anything out of the ordinary.

He is always a person without "I", but starting today, he wants to put himself first.He also wants to pursue another kind of life—an unbridled, fearless, pleasant and exciting life!

After the flight was stable, Yu Yan began to sleep. When he woke up, his head was dazed. Looking out the window, the night had turned into day.He got up to go to the bathroom, was hungry and waited for breakfast, feeling a bit bored, took out a book from the schoolbag he carried with him to read.

The bag was packed for him by Cheng Shen. It was funny to say that the man threw away his own things and was keen to pack the bag for Yu Yan.

Yu Yan couldn't help laughing when he thought about it, he opened the book, and an envelope fell out unexpectedly.

He sat up slightly, weighed the envelope in his hand for a long time, and still opened it.

Inside the envelope was a folded letter and an old MP3 player.

Yu Yan recognized this, it was often held by Cheng Shen in high school, and it was still well preserved after many years.

He pressed the power button, hung the earphones on his ears, and clicked play.

While the music was playing, he unfolded the letter paper.

It's not a parting message, nor is it a word of love. A Cantonese song is playing in the earphones, and the lyrics are copied on the paper.

"On a certain day in a certain year, in a certain place, time was like still air, your unruly surprise surprised me

I once said that I would travel to heaven and earth with you, I once said that I have no regrets waiting for you in this life

Don't worry about being separated by thousands of miles, how much joy is always aftertaste

The sky is full of hope, pray to meet again

Don't give up and don't escape, only when you feel lost today will you understand the silent truth

The more I miss you, the more afraid I can't be together

Whoever has been willing to let go, who has been wonderful is willing to stay

As the years pass by, the more I feel that I love you deeply

If you miss the appointment in this life, there is no need to meet in a certain year

I am willing to be completely drunk for the rest of my life"

After listening to the whole song, Yu Yan felt someone punch his shoulder.

"Hey!" the foreigner asked, "Why are you crying?"

Yu Yan looked over in a daze, wiped his face with his hand, and felt the wetness of his palm.But he smiled, a genuine, relieved smile: "Sorry, I'm so happy."

Yu Yan folded the letter and put it in his bag, but the song kept playing in his earphones.

He touched his chest, and there was a ring-shaped hard object.

When leaving Beicheng, Yu Yan only took three things from Cheng Shen. One was the bookmark that Cheng Shen made and presented to him back then, the other was the peace talisman that Cheng Shen personally went to the temple to ask for him, and this, inside A ring engraved with Cheng Shen's initials.

The stewardess came over with the breakfast trolley, and Yu Yan ordered a piece of bread and a glass of Coke.

He clinked glasses with foreigners, chatting all the way.

Arriving in Rio a day later, Yu Yan walked out of the airport to feel the tropical sunshine. He felt that this time, he could really move forward.

·

At the same time, Cheng Shen officially signed the transfer of Shengyan Technology to Cheng Peishuang. After that, he was alone and had no worries.

He didn't tell Yu Yan about the company, since he was leaving, he didn't want to leave any burden on Yu Yan.

Zhao Fei followed Cheng Shen before graduation, shed tears of a strong woman, insisted on sending her old boss out of the company, and asked, "Brother Cheng, do you have any plans for the future?"

For the first time, Cheng Shen didn't wear formal clothes, but ran over in a down jacket.Now the sun is shining, and she is as tender as a college student in her early twenties.

Cheng Shen said: "I haven't decided what to do for now, I have to go on a trip first."

"The company is gone and you still have the mood to travel. Rich people are different." Zhao Fei curled her lips: "Where are you going to play?"

Cheng Shen stepped down the steps briskly, leaving Financial Street behind.He walked forward without looking back, leaving Zhao Fei with a handsome and proud back.

Walking a little further away, Cheng Shen waved his hands back to say goodbye, and with the sun on his face, he said loudly——

"Go to Venice to chase my boyfriend!"

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The author has something to say:

It's over. At the end, one went to Rio to start a new life, and the other went to Venice. As for whether we can meet again in the end, the world is so big, I don't know.But I believe that as long as there is love in my heart, no matter where I am, I will be happy.The ending is open, so I won't write any extra episodes for the time being.

I am so tired of writing abuse articles, and I will never do it again. You can call me bloody, but it is not for the sake of abuse. The three views of the characters in the article do not represent the three views of the author, thank you.

To celebrate the end, a red envelope will be randomly dropped in the comment area today.Finally, thank you for your company for a month and a half!Remember to take care of your body and go on bravely no matter what difficulties you encounter!Love you guys!

The song "Who Will Let Go" BY: Kelly Chen

"Boundless Sea of ​​Suffering, It's Me Who Turns Back" has been completely reworked.

The new article "Super Unpopular CP" is in advance, let me put a copy——

Fang Zhixing debuted in Korea, and was once popular as the lead dancer of a certain boy group.

Show off your figure, show off your dancing posture every day, and stir up CP with your teammates by the way, and there are also a few diehard fans.

Seeing that the group was about to explode, on the eve of the concert, he announced without warning that he would terminate his contract and leave the group.

Faced with his teammates' incomprehension and the agency's accusations, Fang Zhixing disappeared without a trace, hiding for five years.

The times are changing rapidly, and the traffic is constantly changing. Fang Zhixing's name has long been forgotten in a corner.

Five years later, a web drama came to the door. Fang Zhixing, who had been out of work for a long time, wondered: "Can't you think about it? Why are you looking for me..."

Agent: "Gay theme, niche, sensitive, the most important thing is that you are cheap."

People who are not popular and cheap are not eligible to refuse.

Auditions, signing contracts, script readings before the filming started, Fang Zhixing was dumbfounded when he arrived on the scene, why did the person playing his boyfriend look so familiar?

The former lead dancer of the Times group stretched out his hand awkwardly: "Hi, I'm Fang Zhixing."

The former lead singer of the Times group looked at him from head to toe coldly, and said indifferently: "I don't have amnesia."