May there be no time to turn back

"You...you mentioned it...I can't remember...the fire is still on, I have to go back to the kitchen." Qin Shuyu knew she had slipped her tongue, and Bai Zijian was keenly aware of it.She tried to change the subject, but she obviously lacked confidence.

Naturally, Bai Zijian refused to let her go, his sharp eyes were like arrows ready to go, and the sharp arrowheads were aimed at Qin Shuyu without exception.

"Did you look for him? Who told you to do this?" Bai Zijian asked forcefully.

"It's not me..." Qin Shuyu finally couldn't hide it, and confessed frankly, "Mom talked to him once..."

Qin Shuyu kept her mouth shut and didn't say any more, and Bai Zijian didn't continue to ask.What Feng Yalan will express to Guan Xiao is self-evident.

No wonder... Bai Zijian let go of the restraint in a slump, his blood felt as if frozen and his whole body was icy cold.

Guan Xiao's unreasonable alienation and indifference turned out to have a reason.

It was clearly because of me that he was put under enormous pressure for no reason, and his words were beyond his control.But I failed to find out the truth in time, and I blamed it all on him.

Oh, it turns out that the most messed up one has always been me.

"Why...you keep hindering me..." Bai Zijian staggered against the wall, clutching his heart in pain.

"Zijian, I..." Qin Shuyu wanted to comfort her, but Bai Zijian mercilessly waved her outstretched hand away.

"I've made such a big compromise, getting married and having children, why am I still not satisfied?! Is your request a bottomless pit?!" Bai Zijian complained angrily, hissing at the top of his lungs, "I have sacrificed enough Too much! What else can I do to let you go!"

The loud slamming sound of the door frightened Xinxin, who put her arms around Qin Shuyu's neck and burst into tears again.Qin Shuyu stood there in a daze, with a sad expression.

"Don't go..." Qin Shuyu pressed the back of her hand tightly to her mouth, not daring to cry out.She sobbed uncontrollably, tears pooled in her eyes, then condensed into huge drops and rolled down.

"Mom...Mom..." Xinxin called her, with a crying voice, and helped her wipe her tears clumsily, then stretched her hand towards the door, grabbing the air in vain, and jerky recited the address Qin Shuyu had taught her , "Dad...Dad..."

Qin Shuyu couldn't restrain herself anymore, she slid down the corner of the wall and sat on the ground, her whole body trembling and tears streaming down her face, she murmured: "Please, don't go..."

excellent weather.The bright sky is blue and clear like jade, and a few white clouds lie lazily above the head, covering the sun from time to time, casting a shade of coolness.

The small alley is quiet and winding, quiet and deep, the breeze goes around in a circle without rushing, and a row of grass blades protruding from the cracks in the corner flutters regularly.The whole area is like a square vessel, filled with warm sunlight.

An empty wine bottle suddenly fell from the sky, and exploded into thousands of glass shards in an unoccupied corner. The sound was harsh, but it soon fell silent again.

Two legs drooped from the low roof, straight and slender, swaying slightly according to inertia.

Abandoned old house, the inside is dilapidated.Relying on his height advantage, Bai Zijian easily climbed up, lying on his back, staring at the high sky in a daze.

It is so sunny, it is difficult to relieve the restless mood.

He couldn't figure out why in this world, there were always obstacles, large or small, that tried their best to prevent him from seeking what his heart wanted.The life I want is as far away as the sky, as if I have exhausted my whole life, and it is finally hard to get what I want.

He stretched out his palm to the dazzling sunlight, watching it shuttle back and forth between his fingers, shining brightly like wearing a dazzling ring.

Bai Zijian couldn't help feeling emotional when he touched the scene.He couldn't forget Guan Xiaofeng's most precious wedding ring, and fantasized about putting another one on his finger.

If you met me first, what kind of story would it be?

Wouldn't the grief of losing a spouse have invaded your life, and I wouldn't have fallen into such an embarrassing situation?

Who knows.

The past is a foregone conclusion, unfortunately.

When a text message came from the phone, Bai Zijian lifted it up and took a look, frowning.

He got up and jumped down, the wine bottle that had slipped accidentally just now was still reflecting mottled light spots.He walked towards the entrance of the alley, where there was a repair shop, and a young man was welding with a mask on.

Bai Zijian squinted his eyes to reduce the damage caused by the strong light, stepped on the flying sparks and leaned over, patting the young man on the back of the head.

The young man put down the welding torch and turned his head. Seeing that it was Bai Zijian, he stood up in surprise.

"Brother Zijian!" He greeted familiarly.

Bai Zijian nodded and asked, "Where's Brother Li?"

"It's resting in the house." The young man replied.

Bai Zijian opened the door and walked in. The two rows of shelves on the left and right were stacked with various equipment and tools in a mess, making the room look very narrow, and the whole space was filled with a faint smell of engine oil.He walked all the way to the end, opened the curtain, and there was an old wooden table against the wall inside the curtain. There was a teapot on the table, and thin heat was rising from the teacup beside it.

"Brother Li, how's your nose?" Bai Zijian called out to the person at the table with a smile, and sat down directly across from him.

Li Ge raised his eyes to look at Bai Zijian, who was the young man with flowery arms who was almost broken by Guan Xiao that day: "What do you think? You little bastard, you are so ruthless." Full, but nothing murderous.

Bai Zijian was a little thirsty, so he poured himself a cup of tea and drank it: "It's been so many days, how is Brother Li thinking, do you want to agree?"

"Agreed to what?" Li Ge was at a loss.

"Hey, that's what I said that night." Bai Zijian held his forehead, a little speechless, "Brother Li really didn't take my words to heart, so sad." He pretended to be hurt.

Brother Li clumsily raised his hand and patted Bai Zijian's head as comfort, while showing embarrassment.

"The news came from the United States just now, saying that the other brothers have already signed up, and only you are left, Brother Li." Bai Zijian said, "This opportunity is rare, after all, it is really rare to find folk masters. Brother Li is not Have you always dreamed of standing on a higher platform and going further? This time it is finally possible, why are you still hesitating? What are you worrying about?" He looked at Brother Li with his chin resting, his eyes full of confusion .

Li Ge seemed to be in a complicated mood. He stood up, raised his hand and lowered the curtain covering the wall behind him, and Bai Zijian saw hundreds of densely packed photos that spread across the entire wall.

"I'm very, very, thankful Brother Bai for thinking about me, and I'm really looking forward to this opportunity." Li Ge said sincerely, with a hint of bitterness in his smile, "But I'm afraid, I can't compete with those folk photographers. Like a teacher, I went to the United States to compete."

"Why?" Bai Zijian was puzzled, "When I was in school, the film was released, and Li Ge's photography skills were high and he was regarded as a god. At that time, we all thought that Li Ge would become a hit after graduation. Shuiqi, but I didn’t expect it to disappear like this! This time, the New York Photographic Association held an event and asked me to recruit talents from mainland China. If I won an award in the competition, I might be hired as a professional photographer, but Li Ge was willing You can't get ahead if you stay here for the rest of your life!"

"I can't let it go." Li Ge looked around the cramped storefront, "I can't let go of these brothers either. Besides, once I go away, who will take care of my parents? Brother Bai, I'm not young anymore, I don't have anything to spare Energy to toss, and my brother’s life may be more impoverished than you imagined, so I have to give up too many things in order to survive. Dream, huh, what kind of JB is this fucking gadget? Are you full?" He murmured dejectedly, took off the black canvas bag from the shelf, carefully took out the camera and touched it gently in front of him.This may be the most expensive luxury he has ever owned in his life. When he looked at its clean lens, his eyes were full of love and helplessness.

Bai Zijian closed his eyes sadly, feeling sorry for the untimely death of a dream.

Seeing that he was sad, Brother Li comforted him, "I don't care much about the big things. Maybe I'm not as obsessed with this thing as I thought. Compared with this, making money is more attractive to me." .I'm just an ordinary commoner, and a high-end life is not suitable for me, hahaha." A few dry laughs eased the atmosphere somewhat.

"Sure," Bai Zijian promised, "I'm also to blame for being impatient this time, for not being able to understand Brother Li's difficulties. Next time if there is a suitable opportunity, brother, you must not let go."

"Haha, okay, I'm going to trouble Brother Bai."

Before he knew it, it was getting late, Brother Li wanted to stay for Bai Zijian to eat, but Bai Zijian declined his kindness and was about to leave.

"Ah, speaking of it," Bai Zijian stopped in front of the door, seemed to have thought of something funny, and said to Brother Li who was sending him out, "Brother, do you know why you were beaten that night?"

Li Ge thought for a while inexplicably, then shook his head.

"That kid treats my brothers as hooligans." Bai Zijian couldn't help laughing, "He thought he was going to harm me. It's all because I made hasty preparations, the time for the meeting was too late, and the place I chose was a bit out of the way."

"What?!" Brother Li raised his eyebrows in astonishment, "You bastard, can't you tell that I'm fucking straight? This punch is really unfair to you!" Pointing to his nose, he complained.

Bai Zijian laughed out loud.

"Do you like that kid?" Brother Li asked.

"Well, a little bit." Bai Zijian admitted, wiping away tears from laughter.

"Then," Li Ge asked seriously, "is he treating you well?"