May there be no time to turn back

"Crazy you!" Guan Xiao scolded in shock.

After frantically treating Bai Zijian's wound, Guan Xiao slumped down at the end of the bed, feeling terrified, feeling like he had been on a roller coaster for no less than ten laps, dizzy and nauseous.

The blood splattered on the ground was messy, but Guan Xiao really didn't have the heart to clean it up.

"Here, I got hurt at your house." Bai Zijian sat on the head of the bed, showed Guan Xiao his wrist bound with thick gauze, and threatened with his head raised, "You have to take responsibility to the end."

"Are you crazy?!" Obvious nonsense, Guan Xiao pressed his temples, feeling his head was big, "What do you want? Ah? What is it for?!"

"Why?" Bai Zijian curled up his knees and rested his chin on them, slightly sad, "I also want to know. Sometimes I hate myself. Why do I have to like you so much? You don't even meet each other." They are all unwilling. I have been acting as I please for so many years, and I have never had any real feelings for anyone. Why are you in such a mess for you?!"

Guan Xiao stared blankly at the tears streaming down Bai Zijian's face. He suppressed his crying, his shoulders trembling uncontrollably.

Inexplicably sad.Guan Xiao hesitated for a moment, and finally leaned forward, hugged his shoulder pitifully, and patted his thin back to comfort him.

Bai Zijian leaned against Guan Xiao's chest softly like a cat, and Guan Xiao slowly embraced him, trying to dispel his helplessness and sadness.

But it seemed there was only so much he could give him.Guan Xiao felt sad when he thought of Bai Zijian's child, and secretly reminded himself to stay rational.

But why, so unwilling?

Bai Zijian's mood finally calmed down, Guan Xiao let go, pulled the quilt over his body.

"At least get some sleep, and maybe you'll figure it out when you wake up." She pretended to be indifferent, trying to enlighten her.

Can't help but smile wryly, this kind of rhetoric clearly doesn't even convince myself.

"Brother Xiao," Bai Zijian did not lie down, but sat up straight, and said seriously, "I know you are doing it for my own good, and you think they are sincerely thinking of me, so you don't want me to let them down , runs counter to the enviable life. But in fact, a lot of things happened during the period, you have no knowledge at all, how can you judge my life? Even if you really want to drive me away, you should always listen Let me explain a thing or two, and it will not be too late to make a decision."

Guan Xiao is not in the mood to comment on other people's trivial family affairs, but Bai Zijian has already talked on his own.

The "unpleasant things" mentioned by Feng Yalan lightly at the beginning were solemnly lifted from the curtain, and the blood-stained dilapidated interior was laid out in front of Guan Xiao, which was shocking.

"You've always cared about your son's existence, but do you really know how he got here?" Bai Zijian asked, unable to hear his emotions.

"How else did it come about?" Guan Xiao felt a little unhappy when the topic came to this point, "That is between you and your wife, ask me what to do."

Bai Zijian pursed his lips in pain, and continued after a long while: "Not every mother loves her children selflessly. Most of them are just making so-called investments, waiting for the expected return in the future. If this Delayed in return or simply doomed to lose, they get anxious, lose their minds, and resort to insanely despicable means to achieve their goals."

He paused for a moment, as if he wanted to swallow the huge pain stuck in his throat: "I have been out of the closet, and my family has been restless all day because of it, but sexual orientation is innate and has nothing to do with chronic addiction. There is no room for giving up. After a long time, my mother finally reluctantly accepted this reality. I thought that the long dark night was about to usher in the dawn, but I didn't expect that the real darkness had just begun.

"At first I didn't know that the first meeting with Qin Shuyu was arranged by my mother. She is indeed a reasonable and good girl, and she also understands my difficult situation. It would be great if she could be a lifelong friend. But my mother made trouble, always I hope that things will go smoothly so that we can get together. Qin Shuyu is considerate of her, so she asked me if I need a physical marriage, so as to save my mother from losing face because of my delay in not getting married. It’s just a piece of paper, she doesn’t care, so I don’t care. Sign a The insignificant agreement did not affect my life. At that time, I was young and full of energy and lacked consideration. Formal marriage was a mutual benefit, but I didn't ask in advance what she wanted to get from it.

"I realized that she was on the same front as my mother. After my mother refused to break up, she partnered with Qin Shuyu to plot against me, put medicine in the water cup to restrict my movements, forced me to have a physiological reaction, and was tied to the bed forcibly. Relationships. That’s where children come from.”

"Oh," Bai Zijian smiled dejectedly, "So I think the purpose of her marriage is probably to get a child from me."

Guan Xiao was shocked and didn't make a sound for a long time.He looked at Bai Zijian, who was immersed in black memories, as if he saw himself in the past.But Bai Zijian suffered far more injuries than what he suffered back then.

"After what happened, I was going to commit suicide. It would be better to die if I was imprisoned in such a family." Bai Zijian said lightly, with a sense of regret, "I took a large dose of sleeping pills, but unfortunately found In time, this life was left. My mother finally compromised and promised me that she would not interfere with anything about me as soon as the child was born. I have already hated them so much that I have endured a long wait , so I set off to go overseas without any regrets. After three years, life was very comfortable, my career began to develop, and the wounds gradually healed. Just when I thought I would spend the rest of my life here safely, my mother used She ordered me to go back to China with a lame pretext. She clearly promised not to interfere, but you see, she broke her promise after all." Bai Zijian's words were deeply sad, and the feeling of being betrayed has never been good.And this betrayal will happen sooner or later, Bai Zijian realized it, so he didn't vent his emotions with hysteria.

Guan Xiao didn't know how to comfort him, he clenched his fists forbearance, and finally let go helplessly.

Confiding the pent-up past completely relieved Bai Zijian of too many burdens, and he felt a long-lost relief.It was almost dawn, and the darkness that could not see five fingers quietly faded away.The still-unclear twilight impatiently announces the arrival of dawn, and the eastern sky turns pink and white, gradually clarifying the outline of the land.

Bai Zijian kicked off his shoes and stood up, with a bitter smile: "I'll go now, I'll cause you trouble." He didn't expect that a few words would be enough to shake Guan Xiao's determination, instead of breaking up unhappy, Better to leave decently.

"What are you going for?" Guan Xiao stood up and asked hastily.

"Didn't you say that you don't care about life or death? Now you're asking me why I'm leaving, huh." Bai Zijian twisted his neck and didn't look at him.

"Hey, let's be reasonable. You were injured in my house, so I have to be responsible, right?" Do you think you're the only one who can bring up old scores and choke others?Guan Xiao followed suit not to be outdone, "Besides, you vowed to help me get rid of the pain before, so you just let it go?"

Bai Zijian rolled his eyes, smiled at the corner of his mouth, and turned his head to look at Guan Xiao: "Then, if I persist until the day I succeed, will you really fulfill my wish?"

"What do you say?"