gentle and affectionate

Chapter 48.

thirsty.

Dark clouds overwhelm the city.The sky and the earth are turbid yellow, fumigated the scorching heat like hell, and the people who come and go are in a hurry, and their expressions cannot be seen clearly, because the whole world is gloomy.

It was hot and I was shivering.

Why are the walls hot?I was so cold that I had almost nowhere to go, so I braced myself tightly, and on the street where people were coming and going, I couldn't hear a single human voice.

Why am I here?

The familiar smell was like the most alluring aroma in the world, but I had to resist my instinct and run out the door, because it was the blood of the person I love the most.

——Yes, because I want to protect him.

The thirst for blood made me lose my mind, and it took almost all my strength to push him away and run out the door. I was weak and leaned on the wall and panted heavily, as if a fire was rising in my throat.

So thirsty.

I can't see clearly... I just know that this is on the street. The black shadows coming and going exude a strong human smell, which stimulates the beast nerves in my body that are ready to move.

But all I long for is his breath.

But I want to protect him,

Can't hurt him.

Stretching out my hand to grab something, I turned all the pain into a grip, and all the strength in my body was used to restrain this instinctive blood-sucking desire, and I even forgot where I was.

Something was moving around, and approached, the pitifully little light was blocked by a black shadow, and in a whirl, the object in his hand suddenly disappeared, and his arm was grabbed vigorously instead, with strength that could not be resisted, and then The body is also restrained.

...awakened the memory of the once dark back alley.

The experience of being almost bullied made me struggle desperately.At this moment when I was suddenly enveloped by human breath, I thought of the red-eyed battlefield of the Night Demon Kingdom, the silence of dying underwater in Tokyo, the silent and depressing streets of Infinity City and the icy cold snow in Thrace... Each one is hell, but they have one thing in common, that is, they all have the same breath.

have him.

Every painful experience, without exception, he was by my side.

"what--"

So I have to protect him too.

So I'm going to live.

I want to spend my whole life with him.

Screaming and pushing away the restraint, I wanted to push away this familiar yet unfamiliar breath, I felt my body was on the verge of losing control——

"Faye!"

I flung my eyes open.

"... Fay."

What caught my eye was his magnified face several times. He leaned on me, blocking the cold moonlight.The crimson eyes are close at hand, and the picture reflected in them is completely occupied by me alone.

"Don't be afraid, it's me."

His right hand pressed my hands vigorously, preventing me from hurting myself, and at the same time conveying a steady stream of warmth.The moonlight illuminated half of his handsome face, outlining his tough features, but his appearance was much thinner than in the candlelight of the Night Demon Kingdom.

Nostrils filled with his breath,

—is the breath I long for.

The lower jaw trembled more violently, and the eyes widened uncontrollably. He looked at me so tenderly, but I saw myself terrified in his eyes——

Long fangs, red eyes, and fingers and claws are also growing crazily.

——Why should a monster like me be treated so well by him.

I want to protect him.

That's why you have to stay away from him.

I broke free from his hand violently, trying to push him away with the last bit of reason, because he didn't know how tempting he was to me at this moment.I raised my head with difficulty not to look at him, but the breath that was close at hand still penetrated my nose and nose crazily, my body became more sensitive, my breathing became more rapid, and the breath became more intense.

No, Heigan, I will eat you.

I was so anxious that I was sweating profusely, but I couldn't speak anyway. The pain all over my body caused by the resistance instinct was eating away at me bit by bit.

Consciousness is getting more and more blurred, I seem to have returned to that icy city, the sky and the earth are filled with dark yellow sand, people are used as chess, cold words hurt each other, day and night, seeing him or not seeing him is like using a knife Cut out the heart severely.

I……

"Hey!"

He held my face in his big hands, forcing me to look at him.

"It's okay, Fay," he called my name.

"This is Japan and we are safe."

"Don't be afraid..."

"You don't have to work so hard..."

"..."

At the end of the collapse, I couldn't count how many times he called my name again. I only know that when the fangs pierced the skin and blood vessels in his neck, it seemed as if a line of blood was drawn hard on my own heart. mouth.

The blood flowing down the wound and through the throat feels like taking drugs, with a kind of addictive pleasure, he gently holds my hand, the familiar breath makes me feel safe, and the scene in front of me gradually changes from oppressive dark yellow to Soft spring evenings.The night wind blew the wind chime, lightly relaxing the tightly gripped heart, but tears flowed down my face at some point.

"I am full?"

I gently licked the wound on the side of his neck, the vampire's saliva healed the wound quickly.The person on my body had completely relaxed at some point, and at this moment, he turned his head slightly and gently kissed away my tears.

"Have another nightmare?"

"Hmm... I dreamed of a country where chess is played."

One of the promises of psychotherapy is to obediently explain the illness. I once protested against it, but unfortunately all of them were dismissed, but now it seems that it is better to speak out.

Although he is used to listening to me talk about dreams, but this time when he heard that place, he couldn't help but flash his eyes.

"You guy..."

There was a sudden silence.He maintained the posture of embracing me with one hand, with his head resting on my ear, so we didn't have to worry about facing awkward questions, after all, it was the last experience between me and him that I didn't want to talk about.

Fighting, blood-sucking, blindness, almost being bullied, and even the matter of Sakura... Some things are not only unwilling to mention, but can't be mentioned; It's Heigang, who never forced me to ask anything.

And he didn't ask, I didn't tell, but he knew my sadness.

"Sorry……"

"Apologize again."

"During that time...Master Hei must have worked hard."

The princess who was dedicated to protecting suddenly became concealed, the boy who was traveling with him left coldly, the other boy couldn't be completely trusted for the time being, and I was so stubborn that I lost my mind, it was not easy to protect a person who was looking for death Things, let alone in such an environment.

Thinking about it, he must have been worried about my safety all the time, that's why he couldn't even sleep well.

At this moment, he suddenly raised his upper body and glanced at me, and the action of making me raise my hand to cover my eyes was instantly futile.

He shook his head.

"It's not you who have worked the hardest. Don't say anything else, if you endure to that extent, most people would probably go crazy long ago." He sighed, "It was the same just now. You are so hungry, why don't you just tell me."

"Master Hei's injury is just right..."

"it does not matter."

Speaking of just now, I couldn't help being afraid again.

"And just now...it's very dangerous."

I haven't sucked blood for a long time, if I didn't control myself just now, then he...

"It's all said and done."

He still answered the same.

"It doesn't matter why, Master Hei always said to cherish life?"

The warm breath blows in my ears, like a feather blows my heart.

"It's you, so it's okay." He kissed my face, "Besides, you shouldn't plan to murder your husband, right?"

I don't know if the heat surged up all over my body because of the blood I just sucked, or just because of the person in front of me, I think it's probably both.Hei Gang raised his upper body slightly to look at me, and I suddenly felt that the moonlight was too bright, and it must have reflected my flushed face.

I don't know whether to be angry or moved.

But he smiled, and then kissed me, the tip of his tongue quickly slipped into my mouth, tender and lingering.This posture made the kiss gradually get out of control. The big hand wandered restlessly on my body, and suddenly slipped into the skirt of my shirt, which made me feel the blood in my whole body rushing to the top of my head, but he didn't seem to intend to let me go, no The lightness of the force made me feel ashamed and itchy, and my heart skipped a beat for an instant.

After such a short time, as the lower abdomen tightened, a strange tactile sensation came from between the legs.

Realizing what was against the heels of my legs, I trembled in shock, and pushed him away in shame, but was hugged firmly by the latter again. The messy breathing made the scene even more ambiguous, but it was always a precipice.I turned my face away, and he buried his head in the crook of my neck, and the two of them were silent for a long time before returning to normal.

"Master Hei is really cool." I lashed out at him mercilessly.

"Ah."

The latter was not ashamed but proud, and bit my earlobe even harder, successfully making my whole body tremble, and even laughed wickedly.

"You're full, I haven't eaten yet."

Looking at me who was completely frozen, his tone became a little more smiley,

"I really want to get well soon."

I was too ashamed to say a word.

The blood-sucking incident caused by the loss of control has two effects, naturally it is for me and him.As a direct beneficiary, I showed a huge change the next day. My whole face was radiant, and my movements became flexible and light in an instant. The overnight change shocked people who didn't know it.

As the provider of blood, Heigan was originally a wounded person, so his condition was naturally worse.The imperial physician who was in charge of taking care of him probably heard about my situation with him from Princess Zhishi, so he didn't say much. He only ordered the wounded blood to rest and prescribed a prescription to nourish the blood before he left.In this way, the recovery period will not have to be extended for several days. The ninja who has been restrained is naturally very upset, but he can't say anything else. The mouthful of tofu is a relief.

They are all men, I know what he thinks in my heart... I can only say that although I am ashamed, we are together after all, so I have overcome some psychological shadows, and after getting used to it, I found that I don't hate his touch, so One of us was willing to fight and the other was willing to suffer, so we let him take advantage of it.

Another seven or eight days passed.Recently, during the rainy season, the ground has been going on endlessly, and it has been a little bit of a stop for the past two days. The road is wet and slippery, and walking is inconvenient, so I came out with an umbrella to see the imperial doctor.

After sucking blood, my body improved a lot. Although I didn't have much magic left, it was enough to support me through the most difficult time, and my recovery was much faster because of this.

"Sir, there is no need to send it."

"No, it's also my honor to send you off to Mr.

Another change is that I have become more polite in my speech recently, which may be caused by the influence of the environment.Hei Gang usually doesn't talk about it, but he is actually a well-educated person, and he is a bit exemplary when he really says it. Not to mention the imperial doctor, he is even a well-read man of classics and history.

Seeing that I persisted, the imperial doctor smiled and did not refuse.

"Then why don't you go to see your master with Zai next time, the old man often said that he would make a divination for Your Excellency."

The imperial doctor was referring to his master.Earlier, I heard that his master is still alive, and it is said that he is still in good health, but he no longer visits the doctor, and he is not willing to walk around the inner palace every day.

Of course, I also want to go to see such a god-man.So he instantly abandoned Heigan who was sitting in the room waiting for me to go back, and immediately agreed to go and see him.

It will probably look like a fairy!

Speaking of the imperial doctor next to me, he is really talented and beautiful. Even if he has become a middle-aged uncle now, he is definitely one of the best middle-aged handsome uncles, and his demeanor is even more extraordinary.

Such a person's master... I'm so excited just thinking about it!

Uncle Mei smiled at me and said nothing.

And when I followed the graceful footsteps of Uncle Mei and stepped into the plainly decorated Japanese room full of expectations, I finally understood what is the real "Where do we not meet in life"——

"W-what—? Could it be that... this is...?"

"It's the tutor."

The thin old man in front of him had a face of only six or seventy years old, but his hair and beard were completely white.At this time, I was sitting cross-legged on a soft cushion, staring at me with kind eyes and smiling happily.

Why is that kimono as simple as a farmer in the field?

Why doesn't that face look handsome or elegant?

the most important is,

Who will tell me why the old man with the white beard from the Nightmare Kingdom appears here——

"Don't be surprised, sir. Although the teacher is old, he still has good ears and eyes, and it doesn't hinder communication."

The imperial doctor patiently explained that it sounded like a second explosion to my ears. Who will tell me that this is just a dream? !And just when I was almost going crazy because I "ran into" an acquaintance, the white-bearded old man looked me up and down, and then opened his mouth with a smile. The tone was almost the same as in memory, almost the original version.

"How old is the little girl?"

……

"Cough, cough, cough..."

Sir, are you sure, are you sure your teacher is really sharp?Um?

Even if you can't tell, you should be able to hear you say "sir" instead of "miss" right?

My breath was blocked in my throat, and I coughed for a long time.Uncle Mei patted my back to help me feel better, smiling gracefully, while talking to his teacher Bai back and forth:

"Master, you are joking again."

"Well, I don't see him marrying well, I'm also happy to see him."

"Be careful to frighten people."

"Hey, how can young people be so unintimidated."

The conversation between the master and apprentice became more and more nonsensical. I was coughing and weeping, and the uncle helped me calm down, but the old man was not worried at all, and the creases on his face smiled deeper than before.

"When you get married, you can ask the old man to have a wedding wine with me."

……

Thanks to this cup of "wedding wine", I coughed for a while longer and swallowed several sips of tea before I finished.

And what is marriage—? ? !

I am used to traveling through dimensions, and meeting acquaintances is not once or twice, the old man with white beard... Of course, the old doctor himself is not surprising, but if he is the handsome and elegant middle-aged imperial doctor Master—this matter has to be discussed separately!

But facing the elders (although the actual age may not necessarily be older than me), these complaints are still not easy to express.The master and the apprentice eagerly welcomed me to sit down, and I couldn't refuse, so I had to take the fragrant tea from Uncle Mei's hand, and sat down awkwardly beside him.

The old man with the white beard blushed with a smile, looked at me seriously, and muttered something.

"Well, yes, yes, that boy Heigang is also blessed."

I was uncomfortable being looked at, and I was still not used to being looked at by strangers.Seeing that I was cramped, Uncle Mei hurried over to smooth things over.

"Don't blame me, sir. Although the teacher is old, he still has a pure heart. Please don't take it to heart when he joked just now."

Uncle Mei has already said so, what else can I say?And in front of the old man, he couldn't save his face, so he said he didn't care, and after chatting a few words, he talked about Heigang's past and recent situation.

That's how I found out that Heigang's excellent trauma treatment technique turned out to be from an imperial physician.The reason, according to the imperial doctor, was that when Heigang first arrived in Bailu City, he practiced sword every day, and injuries became a common occurrence, and he didn’t want to be taken care of by others when he was young. Let him at least be able to take care of himself; and thinking of the stubborn boy who used to be, sitting alone in an empty room dressing up his wounds, and thinking of his scars all over his body, I can't help but feel sad.

Moreover, it is only now that I know why Hei Gang trusted the old man so much in the Night Demon Kingdom, and he had known him for a long time (at any rate, he had the same soul), so he treated me like a monkey.

Thinking about it this way, I feel that these two people are becoming more and more suspicious, and many things that happened in the Night Demon Kingdom are also inexplicably weird, but because of the language barrier at that time, I can't think of what is tricky in it, but I just vaguely feel: [-]% These two people also colluded in that world.

When we first arrived, the conditions were difficult and no one cared about it, but why did we almost never have a few more servants in our room even after we made military exploits later?

Why do I, a general-level figure, have to personally apply medicine and bandages to Heigan of the same level, and even wipe his body for him when he can't take a bath?

Thinking of this, it suddenly occurred to me that it seemed to be the same for the past few days here.

That's how it was.

Over.

of.

……

This... recent things are all ordered by the imperial doctor...

I silently turned my face to Uncle Imperial Doctor, and just as I was hesitating, my face turned red and green, and I was thinking about whether to go back and give Heigang an interrogation meeting, Uncle Mei saw that the rain outside the window was getting heavier, so he asked Whether I want to go back earlier, and insisted on sending me off, I was so scared that I put down what I was thinking in an instant.

"Thank you, thank you sir..."

I was overwhelmed and thanked you quickly. I probably remembered that I seemed to have thought about an important question just now, but I couldn't remember it. I could only look at my eyes first, and to pay for a polite smile, I even forgot my actual age. , So I said goodbye to my teacher and father.The old man with the white beard still looked at me with a smile. I was very glad that he didn't mention any more things like "marriage" and "wedding wine".

The residence of the imperial doctor and teacher's father is simple, but the area is not small, and there is a large pit of lotus in the center, which has not yet bloomed at this time in April, but the lotus leaves have already covered a pool of emeralds.

I walked along the long corridor with the imperial doctor, staring at the pond full of lotus leaves in a daze, at this moment, I heard him suddenly speak unintentionally:

"I may have offended you today, I will make up for my teacher here."

"No no, it's okay."

Although I was shocked to be misidentified as my gender when we first met, but after we had a good conversation, I didn't care about the previous ones. I thought it was the imperial doctor making a big fuss, but he continued:

"My teacher doesn't often look at people's faces, so joking is also true. Since my teacher said so, sir must be a person with profound blessings in the future."

I froze.To be honest, I didn't take the old doctor's words to heart at first, but now that he mentions it, the meaning can't help but become much deeper.

"from now on……"

The imperial doctor nodded lightly.

"Mister is really smart."

I was shocked and stopped in my tracks.

"Teacher, father... can he see anything?"

When I was in Thrace as a teenager, I had a magician look at me, but at that time, I was still young and my fate was not yet revealed. In addition to all these things that happened later, I am afraid that my fate will not be the same as before.

The imperial doctor seemed to see my uneasiness, gently pressed my shoulder, and then said in a deep voice.

"I was lonely when I was young, and I went through great hardships when I was young, and even separated my flesh and blood from my close relatives. Although I could meet noble people in the first half of my life, it is hard to change my luck and mood. When you can't get it, don't force it."

Subconsciously, he grasped the imperial doctor's long sleeves tightly, his fingers trembling a little.

"Everything that Mr. said is true. Those are my own destiny. I have never blamed anyone, but I have to ask Mr. for advice. My life has been able to continue to this day because of the grace of others. Is this a change of fate?" ...It doesn't matter if I don't die well, I'm just afraid that I will implicate them again."

If...if I shouldn't have survived...

The imperial doctor patted my hand and gave me a reassuring smile:

"Sir, you are overthinking. Those are not actions against the sky. Those doomsdays are inevitable in Mr. Heigang's life. Now this is also your own blessing, sir." I heard about it from Princess Zhishi, although I don’t know the details, but imagine that although the journey has been rough and dangerous, and the previous life and death have been experienced, most of the catastrophe is over, as long as you stay for a while, it must be full of blessings.”

Unexpectedly, I heard these words, my heart was greatly moved, and I blurted out and asked:

"There will be a decisive battle soon, sir, do you know the good or bad of this battle?"

In the continuous rain, under the lotus pond and water pavilion, the imperial doctor smiled very gracefully, as if he had seen all the joys and sorrows in the world, leaving only a clear pool.

"The hurdle of life and death has passed, for the two of you, there is nothing you can't pass."

……

Later, I hardly remember how I got back, only that the clogs splashed water droplets, and they jumped up to the hem of the kimono playfully, spotting plum blossoms on the moon-white fabric.

I want to see him soon.

But how could there be such a coincidence, when I trotted back to the gate of the courtyard, I saw him coming out to pick me up with an umbrella, so I ran towards him, and his reckless behavior was almost disgusted by him , but still can see the gentle smile on the corner of his mouth.

I pecked lightly in his ear and said that the greatest blessing in my life is that I met you.