Rimbaud's girl

"In this way, my mission as a 'creator' has been completed, and I can easily let go and pursue some more mundane things, such as money. If I simply summarize it, I have reached a stage in my life Sexual goals, and now I'm entering a new phase in my life."

He smiled gracefully but somewhat self-deprecatingly, "I have become more—cheesy, maybe this is the price of growing up. I can't change the society, I can only change myself. It's a bit sad, isn't it? But I I also understand that everything has a price. For example, you have to get married, although you can live a good life without getting married, but if you don’t want to be a 'weird' in the eyes of others, you have to find a man to marry— —Don't worry, Gabriel, this just means that she loves you, otherwise she would never wrong herself, you know that."

Gabriel glanced at Vitaly, smiled, and nodded.

"The price is that you are no longer alone, you have to think about your husband in everything you do, you have your own family, and in the future- oh! How did this topic become so heavy? Well, don't worry about me, I know what I'm doing." He took Vitaly's hand and kissed the back of her hand, "Life is like this, live your own life as much as possible, live well, pursue your dreams, realize your dreams Ideally, in this way, at the end of our lives, when we look back on our lives, we can be relieved to say that I have not spent these decades in vain.”

"I don't know if he has become 'better' like this." Vitaly said sullenly: "He used to be a heartless and reckless young man, always thinking that he was the best, the smartest, and the most amazing. But—after being beaten by life, and painfully recognized the cruelty of the real world, he can only change himself. Look at what he said is serious, but I'm really afraid he won't be willing at all. "

"Maybe it's just that you think too much." Gabriel said softly: "He has grown up and matured, isn't that bad? You are the same, you are no longer a child."

"I know. I can accept my own changes, but Arthur...it's hard to tell. On the one hand, I hope he will retain that kind of innocence, but on the other hand, I hope he can mature enough to be my reliance. I am very practical, I tried my best to get everything I got today, I can't bear mediocrity, and I can't bear poverty, but it seems that I agree with other people's general outlook on life, and I am already a mediocre person."

"I don't understand what you're talking about."

"I know that being a maverick will be very eye-catching and hard. It's not that I can't, but I don't want to. Maybe Arthur thinks the same way. We conform to the general requirements of this society and become the common people. A very ordinary member."

Gabriel hurriedly said, "Wait! Do you have any misunderstandings about the talents of your brothers and sisters?"

"I'm talking about behavior patterns and life choices."

"But it is impossible for you to discuss one of these items separately. You are a complete 'person', and your character, behavior, career choice, and family composition are all components of you. Every choice you make What made you who you are now, the unique you, I accept who you are, just as you accept me, there is nothing wrong with that. Arthur is the same, everything he has experienced, every step he chooses, makes the present him.

Do you think Arthur should keep his teenage heart?But people are supposed to change with age, and those who don't know how to change are either too stupid or too sharp.In my opinion, there is nothing wrong with Arthur's change. He has become a reliable brother, and he is still so proud. "

She laughed, "He is indeed still so proud, but his pride is so-cute."

"Look at you! You really dote on your good brother."

"I used to think that Arthur was the kind of person who 'didn't think about the future', but in fact he was far from it, probably because he still had no money. People without money couldn't live the absurdity of 'not thinking about the future' Life."

"The kind of people you mentioned are usually born well and rich, so they can talk about 'not thinking about the future'. They don't have any ideals in life, because they have everything to fight for: money, status, sex, the favor of others, They don't know what they can do, what they want to do. It's kind of pathetic."

"What about you? You already have everything you want, don't you?"

"Actually, no. Don't forget, the most important thing is money. My parents are still very young. If they have been in good health, they may not be alive until our sons are married. I don't want to rely on Live on an annuity of £1500 a year, besides, who would think that money is too little? So I have to find a way to make money so that you can spend it happily."

Therefore, thousands of words, finally fall on "money".

Arthur's reality is also because he no longer has to worry about eating this meal and whether he will have another meal, and he can still have money to go to college, have enough food and clothing, and maintain a continuous desire to create.He has proved his talent with two collections of poetry, and his name will definitely be included in the history of world poetry in the future. This is his pride and clear understanding.

Then he can make a little compromise with reality and switch to more "money-worthy" creations.

This is the most perfect state.

Who said that compromising with reality cannot achieve the ideal of life at the same time?

The ship bound for the New World was floating in the Atlantic Ocean.

The tonnage of ocean-going ships is huge. After all, a voyage needs to carry enough fuel, and because it costs a lot, it needs to carry as many passengers as possible, usually thousands of passengers.

First-class fares are expensive, but of course they are also very comfortable, no different from villas on land.

The first-class cabin has a gorgeous, comfortable and spacious bedroom, a larger living room, and a covered terrace outside the living room near the side of the ship. All three meals are delivered to the cabin by waiters. You can eat on the terrace or choose to eat on the terrace. Meals in restaurants exclusive to first-class passengers.

The steam engine is very fast, much faster than the age of sail.They set off from Athens, went to Marseilles to change to a ship bound for the United States, and now they have left the European continent far away.

The journey was calm, with no wind or rain.

Vitaly was lazily lying on the deck chair on the terrace, basking in the sun-->>

sun. In the Atlantic Ocean at the end of July, the latitude of the route is higher, and the sun's rays are not so hot.

Layla brought her a thin blanket to cover her, and she pushed a fruit plate and juice drink on a small cart.

"Where's Gabriel?" she asked.

"The two young masters went to the chess and card room to play."

The chess and card room is also exclusive to first-class passengers. Men, it’s impossible to be bored in the cabin all the time. It’s okay to go out to play cards and chess.

"Who follows them?"

"Jacob." Jacob was one of the four footmen.

"It's too warm here, I want to sleep for a while. If Gabriel comes back, tell him not to wake me."

"Then I'll close these windows. There's wind. Leave the two windows on the side open."

"Okay." Vitaly put on the blindfold and pulled up the blanket. "Bring another blanket."

Layla closed the window and took another thin blanket over her.

After more than two hours, Gabriel and Arthur came back.The two happily talked about how they won the money just now, and agreed that that guy was too stupid!

Leila hurriedly said, "Master, Madam is asleep."

"How long have you been sleeping?" Gabriel asked softly.

"Two hours."

"She always sleeps these days, maybe life on the ship is too boring." Arthur said.

Gabriel gestured for Leila to pour her wine. "It's really boring on the boat, and she doesn't like to chat with those ladies, she thinks they are too boring. Or we can invite others to play cards, so that we can take her to play."

"You have to ask her first if she wants to."

Gabriel then asked Layla, "Where is Madam?"

"On the terrace."

He hurried over and saw that she was still asleep, and carefully pulled up the blanket for her to cover her exposed arms and shoulders.

He went back to the living room.

Arthur asked: "Are you still sleeping? Wake her up, I have slept too much now, and I can't sleep well at night."

Gabriel frowned, "She didn't sleep well at night when she got on the boat."

"You can take more walks with her on the deck during the day, more walks. If she stays in the cabin all the time, she will get more and more bored." Arthur felt that she was too idle.She couldn't lift her spirits up, and she didn't draw very much. "The Queen of the Severed Head" was half written, and it just left there, and she couldn't write a single piece of paper in a day.

"Still slept too much during the day." Gabriel went to the terrace again to wake her up.

Vitaly scolded him, "When you come back from playing enough, wake me up! You're so annoying!"

"Don't go to sleep," he said kindly, "or you won't sleep well at night. Look, your eyes are swollen from sleep. Layla, bring a cold towel."

Take her to the living room, lay her down on the couch, and put a cold towel on her.

"Where are you going to have dinner later? To a restaurant?"

"alright."

"What to eat?"

"Anything but fish."

"Don't you like fish very much?"

"I don't like to eat it recently. Their fish may not be fresh, and it smells fishy and stinky." She said with disgust.

Arthur was surprised, "Why? The fish is very good. I heard that the chef is a French chef. It should suit your taste."

"It's impossible for them to catch fish directly from the sea every day. If the fish is not well stored, it will easily deteriorate. In short, I don't like to eat fish now."

"Eat more fruits and desserts. There is always nothing wrong with fruit and desserts. The meat may not be too good, and the weather is too hot now. There is no way, this is the bad thing about long-distance sea travel. If there is no such problem in winter It is," said Gabriel.

On the coffee table in front of the sofa was a plate of sliced ​​fruit, and he picked up a piece of pineapple with a silver fruit fork and put it into her mouth, then kissed her with a smile.Kissed for a while, "The pineapple is too sour."

"Sour? It's okay."

"Eat some apples, and here are figs, which are your favorite."

"Pineapples are good." She took off the towel and sat up, "Did you have a good afternoon?"

"Very happy, I won 200 pounds." Arthur said proudly.

"Wow! Who is so unlucky?"

"An American."

"you--"

Arthur said: "It's because he can't play bridge, it's not that we've partnered to trick him."

Vitaly chuckled.During their stay in Oxford, they occasionally partnered to cheat and deceive people, all of which were aimed at guys they didn't like.Once they successfully cheated Oscar Wilde 50 pounds, but then Wilde reacted and never played cards with them again.

The author has something to say: *Wilde recorded his spending with Posy after 1892 in "From the Deep", saying that he spent more than 5000 pounds in cash, not counting Posy's expenses and asking him to pay bills.The two spent £12 to £20 a day in London, £80 to £130 a week, and £1340 for three months including rent.Felt like Posey thought he was an ATM.

对比一下梵高的90英镑年薪，奥斯汀牧师一年200-300镑的年收入，《杰克绅士》里女主的女朋友一年收入2000镑就是四乡八邻的香饽饽，3个月花1000多镑算得上极为奢侈了。

Of course, it can't be compared with Princess Sissi's 2 pound horse race. It is a luxury consumption, not a daily consumption.