[Infinite Vitality] Limited Love

Because of the winter vacation, no one cares about Du Zitong at home.Su Hong thought that the relationship between her parents was much better than before, so she sent him to her parents' house, and she would go there every day after get off work to have a meal.

Today, when I got off work, I was stumbled by another patient. When Su Hong got home, they had already finished eating.

"Honghong, sit down for a while, and I'll get you hot food."

"No need, mom, just eat whatever you want." Su Hong didn't care, she was starving right now.

Du Zitong jumped out from the side: "Doctor Su, you are still a doctor, you don't know that eating cold food and cold dishes is not good for the stomach."

"Zitong is right, just turn the microwave oven on, so bear with it." Yang Xin said and went to the kitchen.

Su Hong pointed at Du Zitong and got a grimace.This little guy doesn't know who he looks like, he looks like a little housekeeper, maybe he still looks like his mother, anyway, Du Jiajie is not so careful and considerate.

Su Guanchu called her over and sat down on the sofa: "Honghong, are you busy with work in the hospital recently?"

"It's okay, that's it." Su Hong replied casually, she was exhausted this day, so she really didn't want to talk more.

"Are there any difficulties at work?"

"Ah?" Su Hong was a little confused: "No. Dad, what do you want to ask?"

Su Guanchu looked at Du Zitong and asked her: "I see that you are not in a good mood recently, so I asked. Honghong, Dad knows that you want to be strong, but we are a family, if you have any troubles, you can come with me and you Talk to mom. We may not be able to help you with work matters, but if it’s other matters, your mother and I are both experienced and can give you advice. "

Su Hong lowered her head, as if unwilling to bring up this topic: "Dad, I'm fine."

Su Guanchu knew how stubborn his daughter was, and since Du Zitong was sitting next to her, he stopped asking.

After dinner, Su Hong was about to go back, but was stopped by Yang Xin.

"Honghong, it's just us and my wife at the moment. Tell the truth, have you encountered any difficulties? Look at you, you have a sad face every day, even Zitong can see it."

Su Hong didn't have anything to say about these things, but this matter really made her a little hard to say.After thinking about it, Su Hong asked: "Mom, um, how did you get on good terms with my dad back then?"

"Ah?" Yang Xin was caught off guard by the question: "Hey, hey, it's been so many years, I almost forgot. You also know that I came out of the same school as your dad. It seems to be some kind of art performance at the school, right? I did. Then I just let nature take its course and got married as soon as I graduated. Actually speaking, your dad and I really didn’t have any grand occasions. It’s probably because of this, and later..."

Speaking of this, Yang Xin was a little hesitant. This part of the past was a mistake she had been unwilling to bring up again, let alone be known by her daughter.When Honghong and Du Jiajie were entangled back then, she tried her best to persuade her daughter to give up this fruitless relationship, but Honghong's personality was as stubborn as hers, and she used her past mistakes to refute, without any reason. She can only let her daughter decide what to do.

But now, she has let go of her entanglement, but her daughter is still entangled in the past.

"You know, your father was busy with classes and scientific research at that time. I was at school and went home to worry about housework every day, and I had to take care of you. I got tired of that kind of married life very quickly. It was completely different from what I had imagined. Not the same. And since getting married, your father is not as considerate as before. Everything seems to be not going according to my expectations. His appearance is an accident. He is a romantic and affectionate person. I just admired him at first. Talent, but when he knew that I was married and expressed his love to me, my whole body was boiling, I thought I had met true love."

This was the first time Su Hong heard her mother mention that period of the past.She once blamed her mother for this, and was even more desperate because of their 20-year deformed marriage.And when she met Du Jiajie, she thought she could understand a little bit about her mother's thoughts and behavior at that time, but now, she was a little confused again.

"Then why didn't you divorce my dad? Just because of me?"

"This is one reason, but there is another point. I couldn't figure it out at the time, but now I know, I still can't let go of your father." Yang Xin's eyes were full of tears: "Although I had a desperate heart at that time courage, but I can’t give up our family. He told me several times that he would take me away, and even treat you as his own daughter. The three of us will become a new family, but I didn’t agree. Before For a while, when your father was talking to me in the hospital, I realized that I had been waiting for a word from him for so many years. Maybe I did fall in love with that man at that time, but the love for your father , and I never let go."

"Mom..." Su Hong shed tears and hugged her mother tightly.

Yang Xin wiped away her tears with a smile, and patted her hand: "Okay, it's over now, we are not doing well. Hong Hong, since you have decided to let Du Jiajie go, don't let him affect you now Look at me and your dad. This delay is 20 years. In these 20 years, not only the two of us have been tortured, but also you. Your dad is right. If you don’t understand the relationship, you have to Ask yourself, ask your inner voice, and it will tell you what to do."

"Mom." Su Hong choked with sobs. She was indeed hesitating and afraid. After 15 years of love, she no longer knew whether she could love again, or whether she could bear another fruitless relationship. .Sometimes, she would even doubt herself whether her feelings for Du Jiajie were love, or whether her feelings for Ran Huaizhou were really just as simple as colleagues.This question has been with her for more than half a month. Since Ran Huaizhou left the emergency department, she realized that she is not just an ordinary colleague to Ran Huaizhou. Whenever the night is quiet, she asks herself again and again.But there was never an answer.

"Mom, I can't understand myself. He is different from Du Jiajie, and my feeling is also different from that of the past. He said he likes me, but I refused. I thought we were just colleagues with him. But he left me, and I I feel something is wrong again, and what he said that day has been spinning in my mind. I used to feel ashamed of him, and I usually think about him unconsciously. But now I am also confused, I don’t know if I Really just think of him as a colleague."

Yang Xin patted his daughter on the back, just like she did when she was a child, the familiar movements made Su Hong calm down slowly.

"Honghong, I'm afraid mom can't answer this question. But you have to understand that this is different from the relationship between different people. You said that there was no love between me and your father? Like this I made a mistake once, and I don’t want you to repeat the same mistakes. You can’t take your feelings for Du Jiajie back then as a standard. You loved him, but that was before, and it was for Du Jiajie. Do you think changing someone can give you Is it the feeling back then? Is love just like that? You think about the people around you, your friends, colleagues, every couple, lovers, meeting, getting to know each other, falling in love, and being together, have their own The ways are different. I think it is difficult to find an established standard and define a relationship. Whether it is love, family affection, or friendship, you can only experience it yourself."

"But, Mom, I have already rejected him." Su Hong murmured softly, she was already regretting, regretting the rejection without hesitation at that time.If she had thought about it for a while, maybe there would not be such a bunch of troubles now.She made a too straightforward decision, in such a hurry that she didn't have time to think about what was wrong, and before she could even see clearly, she completely closed the door between her and Ran Huaizhou.

Yang Xin laughed secretly, it seemed that he didn't have to worry about his daughter's emotional life anymore.She also understands now that Honghong's abnormality these days is not because she hasn't seen her feelings for that person clearly, but because she doesn't know how to start this relationship.

"He gave up?"

Su Hong remembered what Ran Huaizhou said that day, and unconsciously began to smile: "No."

"Then it's over. Next time he asks you again, you just promise to do it. Even if he doesn't ask, can't you take the initiative to tell him?"

"Why should I tell him?" Su Hong blurted out, and then suddenly woke up after speaking: "Hey, that's not right, Mom, when did I say I would agree!"

"You, just be stubborn. If someone really gives up and finds another one, I'll see where you will cry."

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