Don't you say I'm a substitute

30.

The next day Lu Haoze woke up on Zheng Zaochun's bed. When he woke up, he was the only one left on the bed. He lifted the quilt, looked at the red and white traces on the bed sheet and the tape still hanging on the bed, and his mind was overwhelmed. Blank, he realized with difficulty that he used force on Zheng Zaochun last night.

"Damn it!" Lu Haoze jumped off the bed, wondering how Zheng Zaochun was injured last night, he felt that he bled a lot at the end, he must have been severely injured...

Unexpectedly, when he opened the door of the room, Lu Haoze was suddenly fascinated by the warm scene in front of him.

In the sunny living room, the twins were hugged by Aunt Zhou and the nanny Xiao Li on the sofa. Qiuqiu sat in the middle, and Zheng Zaochun on the side of the TV cabinet was concentrating on drawing on the drawing board. His solemn expression infected the opposite. Adults and children, the living room was very quiet for a while, only the sound of pencils scratching on paper was heard.

"Ahem, what about Huahua?" Lu Haoze coughed twice to attract everyone's attention, but Aunt Zhou and the others probably heard what happened last night, so she and Xiao Li didn't even raise their heads.

Lu Haoze touched his nose in embarrassment, and wandered around Zheng Zaochun twice. He wanted to find an opportunity to apologize to him, and the sooner the better, but Zheng Zaochun's engrossed expression made him unable to speak. Everyone ignored him, so he quietly ran to stand behind the sofa, and checked carefully to see if he was among them.

About half an hour later, when my younger brother tried to get out of Aunt Zhou's arms several times but was stopped and became more and more impatient, and was about to turn into a tantrum and howl, Zheng Zaochun said calmly.

After finishing speaking, Aunt Zhou and the others relaxed, shaking their shoulders and neck, while my younger brother couldn't wait to run down the ground, and stood in front of Zheng Zaochun, looking at Zheng Zaochun with watery eyes.

Just as if he didn't feel the eager gaze on the lower right, Zheng Zaochun swiftly packed up his brushes and erasers for drawing, closed his notebook, took down the easel, and prepared to go to the attic.

The younger brother blinked, since he was born, he has never encountered a situation where he was ignored by adults.Aunt Zhou and Xiao Li couldn't help sighing when they saw the scene. After the twins were born, they found that he became more and more indifferent to the three children. They used to play with Qiuqiu sometimes. It turned out that they didn't even want to take a second look. No matter how much effort they put in in the middle, there was really little effect. As time passed, everyone began to get used to his daily neglect of the children.

They heard all the movement last night, and she even got up and knocked on the door once, but she didn't hear it at all.They also didn't understand why Lu Haoze was so angry with Zheng Zaochun when he came back after going out to play for a few days.Aunt Zhou was thinking about Zheng Zaochun, so she got up early this morning and went to the guest room to listen to the movement. As soon as she walked to the living room, she saw Zheng Zaochun standing on the balcony, staring into the distance.

"Xiao Zheng..." Aunt Zhou was afraid that Zheng Zaochun would feel bad and do something dangerous.

"Ah, good morning, Aunt Zhou," Zheng Zaochun turned around when he heard the shout, and smiled slightly.

From Aunt Zhou's point of view, Zheng Zaochun's whole body was shrouded in the golden light of the rising sun, his figure was so pale that he almost disappeared.

"Are the children awake? I want to draw a picture for you today, do you think it's okay?" Zheng Zaochun asked.

"Okay! Okay! Of course! Why not! You wait!" Aunt Zhou took several seconds to react and draw pictures for the children. Except for the one for Qiuqiu last time, this is his For the first time, I said that I would draw pictures for the two brothers.

"Hey, you haven't shown us your paintings yet!" Lu Haoze shouted to make Zheng Zaochun stop.

Zheng Zaochun walked forward sullenly as if he couldn't hear his words, but was stopped by Lu Haoze who came trotting at the door of the attic.

Zheng Zaochun stopped and looked at Lu Haoze silently, his eyes were calm.

"How is your body? There...do you want to apply some medicine?" Lu Haoze raised his hand to touch Zheng Zaochun's forehead, but he dodged it like an electric shock.

"Don't be afraid, I just want to check if you have a fever..." Lu Haoze regretted seeing Zheng Zaochun hugging his painting tools to his chest as if he couldn't understand the words blue.

"Uh, yesterday, I, I didn't mean to, I drank too much... I apologize to you. But you also... After all, you are a person with a family and a child. I mean, you should pay attention to yourself outside Identity... Interpersonal relationships must be handled properly, and friends who cannot be made must not be with each other, especially that Tian Cong... Anyway, I mean you should stay away from him in the future, if it is not possible, I can help you deal with it!" God, What are you talking about!Lu Haoze wailed in his heart, he wouldn't be able to tell that he was jealous, right?

"Don't worry about it," Zheng Zaochun was taken aback, then raised his face and smiled, coupled with the brilliance of the sunlight, Lu Haoze's eyes were dazzled and his heart pierced, "I will drop out after the first half semester of my freshman year is over. , I really entered the campus and found that the university is actually like this, and I think it's quite boring."

"No, I'm not, you, no, if you think college is interesting, I don't mind if you go on. I just said that there are everyone in college, and you need to be cautious when making friends..." Lu Haoze was instantly connected by the sudden turn of the topic. Forgot to apologize.

"Well, it's really boring." Zheng Zaochun didn't say a word, and calmly walked around Lu Haoze and entered the attic.

Lu Haoze looked at Zheng Zaochun's slightly stiff walking posture and trembling legs from behind, and his heart ached.After he sobered up, he recalled it a little bit. No matter what happened to Zheng Zaochun outside in those two days, the intention of the person who sent him the email must be to cause conflicts between him and Zheng Zaochun. The person who sent the email was who?Why do you know what happened between him and Zheng Zaochun?Why did he do this?What good would a conflict between him and Zheng Zaochun do to that person?Lu Haoze didn't have a clue about all of this, he didn't even know if someone was blackmailing him behind his back, so he was burned by anger first, and did something unforgivable, Lu Haoze leaned against the wall and wanted to slap himself twice.

Not long after this incident, Zheng Zaochun went on winter vacation. When Lu Haoze found out that Tian Cong never came to see Zheng Zaochun, he was secretly happy, but at the same time he felt sadly that since that night, Zheng Zaochun began to Avoid him, although Zheng Zaochun didn't go out much after the holiday, but now he can spend the whole day in the attic without taking a step out of the room, and even the three meals are delivered to his door by Aunt Zhou Sheng Hao.Under the same roof, it is difficult for Lu Haoze to see him.

Once by chance, he saw Zheng Zaochun who came out to fetch water in the restaurant. The thermos bottle was full, and his arms trembled a little when he lifted it up. Zheng Zaochun's hand, Zheng Zaochun was so frightened that he let go!

Fortunately, Lu Haoze reacted quickly and stabilized the thermos bottle, otherwise the whole bottle of boiled water fell on the ground, and the two of them would have to be scalded and sent to the hospital!

"How could you let go suddenly! How dangerous it is!" Lu Haoze said with lingering fear after pouring the water and corking the bottle.

Zheng Zaochun grabbed the hand touched by Lu Haoze on his chest, lowered his gaze and shook his head slightly, not even wanting his water glass, turned around and fled back to the attic.

Lu Haoze felt so depressed!When will the problem of hiding when I see him get better? !

Just when he thought that Zheng Zaochun had forgotten what he said about quitting school, one day Zheng Zaochun suddenly found him and proposed that in order to experience the campus life in the last half of the semester, he wanted to move to live in the school.Lu Haoze heard that Ming Laiyi had mixed feelings in his heart, and it was not his purpose to force him to drop out of school in a disguised form, but if he made up his mind, it seemed a little unreasonable for him to obstruct him again.So he thought over and over again and agreed, and repeatedly told him that if he wanted to continue studying, he could continue studying, and there was no need to drop out of school. Zheng Zaochun didn't say yes or no, and he didn't show how happy he was when he heard Lu Haoze's agreement. , went straight back to the attic.

The Chinese New Year is very early this year, and the twelfth lunar month enters not long after New Year's Day.In order to spend the new year with Zheng Zaochun and the children at home with peace of mind, Lu Haoze arranged the schedule for the few days of the new year, and finished all the work at hand before the arrival of the new year, so the two years ago He often works overtime and goes on business trips every week. Every time he returns from a business trip, he will bring a large gift of special products to Zheng Zaochun. However, what is disappointing is that no matter what he brings back, he basically just throws it on the coffee table after looking at it lightly. Don't ask any more questions, just this Lu Haoze is still enthusiastically bringing it back in different ways.

After finally finishing all his work on the 27th of the twelfth lunar month, Lu Haoze sent him a bonus to the secretary who worked overtime with him and sent him home for the New Year, and walked happily back home.

"Early spring, do you have anything else to buy for the Chinese New Year? The store will be closed in two days. If you have anything left to buy, I'll go with you." Lu Haoze would go to the attic and knock on the door every day when he came back. When Zheng Zaochun said a few words, most of the time there was no response from the door, but Lu Haoze would still stand at the door and talk for a long time without getting tired.

I put my ear on the door and listened for a long time, I guess I won't talk to myself again today.

"Then I'll go out and buy some for you later! Is there anything you want to eat? I remember you like the roasted sweet potatoes next to the supermarket. Can I buy two for you? Do you want to drink for the New Year's Eve dinner?" What to order? Juice or soda..."

New Year's Eve is coming soon, Zheng Zaochun showed up at the restaurant with a meal time, today Aunt Zhou refused to bring him a meal, and it took him a long time to invite him out of the room.Seeing Zheng Zaochun, Lu Haoze happily helped him open the chair, and noticed that he was still wearing the old and dirty home clothes, while everyone else had put on new clothes. He felt very uncomfortable, and prepared for him. Aunt Zhou had asked Aunt Zhou to hand over the new clothes to Zheng Zaochun a week or two ago, but maybe he didn't even open them?Lu Haoze bitterly mouthed, how long, how long will it take before he is willing to forgive him?Why does the more he chases, the more he feels that he is farther away from him?

After dinner, Zheng Zaochun was dragged by Aunt Zhou to watch the Spring Festival Gala together. Although he didn't refuse, watching the Spring Festival Gala was just watching the Spring Festival Gala, and he didn't say a word, quietly occupying a corner of the sofa.The three children cuddled up to him for a long time, Zheng Zaochun didn't even lift his eyelids, the three little ones had to leave angrily.

After a while, Qiuqiu clamored to go downstairs to watch the fireworks, the two brothers were also attracted by the sound outside the window, and their little fingers kept pointing to the door. Lu Haoze saw that it was still early, so he dressed the three children well and led them to the door. They go downstairs.

"In early spring, we went downstairs to set off firecrackers, are you going?" Lu Haoze asked.

"..." Zheng Zaochun shook his head.

"...Then you stay at home, it's warm at home." Lu Haoze took the children out regretfully.

After everyone went out, the house became quiet. Zheng Zaochun got up silently and walked to the balcony. He didn't respond to the cold wind that made his face painful. He just stood there for a long, long time...

Fifteen years later, Zheng Zaochun has almost started packing up his school stuff.

Lu Haoze took it upon himself to buy three big boxes of daily necessities that he thought Zheng Zaochun might use in the dormitory, and excitedly showed them to Zheng Zaochun. Zheng Zaochun gave him a strange look, and said "no" before returning. Room.

Lu Haoze's fiery heart was so overwhelmed by this pot of cold water that even Aunt Zhou couldn't stand it anymore, and comforted him, "Boss, maybe Xiao Zheng thinks he doesn't need so many things, besides You also... General schools have allotted quilts. You can’t fit the air conditioner in such a big bed, right? Just two or three sets of pajamas are enough, and you can expect to prepare as many as at home... Also Who would take a stereo to the dormitory with this... What a waste!"

"Is there any? I think it's okay..." Lu Haoze didn't think it was a waste at all. On the contrary, he felt that there were a lot of them that he didn't have time to buy.

Zheng Zaochun didn't accept his love until the end. On the first day of school, he only dragged a small box of about [-] inches. Lu Haoze refused to even give him a hand to carry it.

The family sent him to the door, Zheng Zaochun stopped hesitantly, turned around and looked back and forth at the three children.

"Can I hug them?" After a long while, he finally opened his mouth timidly.

These words made everyone, including Lu Haoze, slightly taken aback.Everyone in the family knew that Zheng Zaochun didn't love children and didn't want to get close to them.

"Yes! They've been waiting for this day for a long time!" Xiao Li, the nanny who was holding his brother, was the first to react, and hurriedly handed the child up.

Hearing the nanny's words, Zheng Zaochun swayed violently, but still caught his son firmly.Zheng Zaochun, who was fully focused on the little thing in his arms, naturally did not see Lu Haoze standing next to him with a slightly flushed face.

The nanny's words touched his heart, yes, not only the children, he also waited for a long time.It is said that children are the bridge of communication between parents. Now that Zheng Zaochun finally took the initiative to reach out to the bridge, wouldn't it be just around the corner to reach him?

When Lu Haoze was overjoyed about the upcoming blueprint for the happiness of a family of five, he inevitably overlooked Zheng Zaochun's blank face and eyes mixed with reluctance, struggle and sadness.

"You really don't want me to give it?" Lu Haoze asked.

"No, no, no, it was agreed yesterday, I will take the car. Ah, the car is coming, you go in quickly, it's very cold outside." Zheng Zaochun waved his hands vigorously.

"That's okay, be careful on the road." Lu Haoze said while helping Zheng Zaochun put the suitcase into the trunk of the taxi.

"Have you brought enough things? Why is the box so light?"

"Enough, enough..."

"That's right, if there is something missing, just come back and get it." Lu Haoze realized that he was being stupid, touched the back of his head and smiled nonchalantly.

Until he got into the car, Zheng Zaochun seemed to still have the warm warmth of the three children in his palms. He circled his fingers vigorously, and when he could no longer see the neighborhood, he only listened to what he said.

"Master, don't go to Meida, let's go to the train station."

"They have been waiting for this day for a long time." Zheng Zaochun remembered what the nanny said again.

"Yeah, it's been almost a year..."

Zheng Zaochun had something in his mind, it was difficult to understand the original intention of the person who said this, he just thought that the whole family was expecting him to pack up and leave.

Poor Lu Haoze is still sketching out a beautiful future life in his mind, this Zheng Zaochun has already made his final resolution.

The difference between the brains of the two is more than one hundred and eight thousand miles.

Lu Haoze waited at home for a week, but Zheng Zaochun didn't call back, and when he called him, the call was always forwarded.Gradually he realized something was wrong.

When he found the school, Zheng Zaochun's class teacher looked at him in a daze, "Didn't Zheng Zaochun drop out at the end of last semester because he was going to move to another place?"

When Lu Haoze heard it, it was like a thunderbolt, "You said he dropped out of school last semester?"

"Yeah, our teachers thought it was a pity at the time. Although he had no formal art education, he had a good comprehension. The teachers in the class of his works spoke highly of him."

"He didn't come to school this semester?" Lu Haoze still couldn't believe that Zheng Zaochun had lied to him so much.

"Yeah, he dropped out of school." The teacher was a little dumbfounded by Lu Haoze's repeated questions. He stood up and went to the file cabinet, found a folder and showed Lu Haoze a page.

"Look, here is the withdrawal application submitted by himself, and here is his own signature."

When Lu Haoze saw Zheng Zaochun's name in the signature column, the last little hope in his heart was extinguished.What is there that I still don't understand?Zheng Zaochun lied to him, he had quietly planned to leave himself and this family since last year.

"At that time, the class committee of our class even did some work for him, thinking that if he would come back in a year or two, he would go through the formalities of suspending school and keep his student status, but he refused, saying that he would not I came back again. So there is nothing the school can do..." The head teacher explained further.

"By the way, is there someone named Tian Cong in his class?" Lu Haoze suddenly remembered this person.

"Yes, he is the sports committee member of our class."

"Teacher, can you please contact this classmate, I have an urgent matter with him!"

The author has something to say:

Finally gone!I really want to write "the end of the whole play"...

I guess I'll be beaten like this, hahahaha...

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