Don't you say I'm a substitute

36.

After school that day, Zheng Zaochun finished grading the children's Chinese and math homework in the teacher's office, sorted out the lesson plans and teaching aids for tomorrow's class, locked the door of the office, and walked slowly towards his hut.

Zheng Zaochun was planning dinner while climbing the slope.There is still left in the pot the radish stewed rice that was not eaten at noon, and the pickles that Aunt Zhang in the village gave me last time have not been eaten, um, almost dinner is enough...

"Ms. Zheng, Mr. Zheng..." Zheng Zaochun lowered his head in thought all the way, unknowingly ignoring the calling behind him, and he didn't notice until people were almost chasing him.

"Ah, it's Caixia, I'm sorry I didn't hear you call me just now." Zheng Zaochun stopped, turned around and saw the panting girl running down all the way.Caixia's surname is Zhang, and she is the daughter of Uncle Zhang in the village. Because the Zhang family's aunt is in poor health, Caixia dropped out of school after finishing junior high school and returned home to take care of her mother and help farm.

"It's okay, I just yelled twice..." Caixia put her hips on her hips to catch her breath, "My mother asked me to bring this to you, it's just fresh, it's fresh!"

Zheng Zaochun looked at the small basket of eggs in Caixia's hand. The conditions in the mountains were not good. If this basket of eggs were sold in the town, it would be enough for Caixia's family for three or four days. Thinking of this, Zheng Zaochun Say nothing and refuse to accept the eggs.

"Caixia, you can keep these eggs for yourself. Auntie is not in good health. I usually cook a few more for her, so I don't need it." Zheng Zaochun insisted on declining.

"It's okay, Mr. Zheng, I still have some at home. You see, there are not many of them. You can take them, Mr. Caixia."

"Caixia, I really can't accept it! I haven't finished eating the pickles that my aunt asked you to bring last time, so I'm really embarrassed to accept your things again!"

"Oh, Mr. Zheng, you are too outrageous for saying that! You came to our Zhangwan to teach the children to read and write. Everyone is very grateful to you! I still have pickles at home, and I will get them for you next time. Just accept it!" Seeing that Zheng Zaochun didn't accept it, Caixia became anxious.

"Caixia, I really can't accept this..." Zheng Zaochun wouldn't say too much, the two stood under the sun and pushed back and forth.

After tossing until the end, both of them were sweating profusely. Seeing that Caixia was still determined, Zheng Zaochun had no choice but to accept with a sigh.

"Don't go, I harvested a lot of potatoes last week, and I can't keep them in the hot weather. I'll pick some for you so you can take them back." Zheng Zaochun stopped Caixia and said.Although a basket of potatoes is not worth as much as eggs, Zheng Zaochun really can't afford to take other people's things for nothing.

"Okay." Caixia wiped the sweat off her brow after hearing this, and happily followed Zheng Zaochun to his house.

When they arrived, Caixia saw that the lettuce in Zheng Zaochun's small field had been scorched to wilt by the sun, so she volunteered to help him water the vegetable field.

"Mr. Zheng, do you know that when I passed by the village committee today, I saw three strange people coming to the village, dressed like the big boss who came to invest in our village last time. Hey, that tall guy, looking I was panicked. I don't know what they are here for..." While watering the ground, Caixia chatted with Zheng Zaochun.

Zheng Zaochun was pouring potatoes out of the sacks and laying them on the ground to pick them out. Hearing Caixia's words, he hummed, "I guess they are here to invest. This is a good thing. If they come to invest, the villagers can earn more money. The conditions for children to go to school can also be improved."

"Yes, I really hope that they will invest more in our village, and it would be better if they can also repair the road for us!" Caixia was so happy that she held up the water ladle high, and the sprinkled water glistened in the sun.

"Haha, that's right. As the saying goes, if you want to get rich, you must first build roads. That's the truth." Zheng Zaochun was infected by Caixia's joyful mood, and smiled knowingly.

When Caixia turned her head, she happened to see Zheng Zaochun's smiling face, like a gust of cool breeze suddenly blowing under the scorching hot sun, Caixia was instantly dazzled.

"Mr. Zheng, you look so pretty when you smile..." Blush crawled all the way from the girl's face to the base of her neck.

"Ah? Is there? Don't everyone have the same smile? I think Caixia looks good when you smile." Zheng Zaochun didn't mind rubbing his nose with the back of his hand.

"Really? Teacher Zheng, do you really think I...look good when I smile?" Caixia asked coyly while standing in the vegetable field with her head lowered.

But as soon as she finished speaking, she didn't wait for Zheng Zaochun's answer. Out of the corner of her eye, she caught sight of someone standing over the fence. When she looked closely, it turned out that the person who came was the tallest of the three people she saw at the village committee at noon. !

"Teacher Zheng..." Caixia called out and threw the water ladle on the ground, turned around and ran to Zheng Zaochun's hut.

Because of the cover of the melon and vine shelf, Zheng Zaochun couldn't see what happened on the other side of the vegetable field from Zheng Zaochun's perspective. At this moment, he was looking at Caixia who suddenly hid behind him with a puzzled expression.

"Huh? What's the matter..." Zheng Zaochun stood up.His monk Zhang Er was puzzled by Caixia's reaction.

"Early spring..." Before Caixia had time to speak, a miserable call made her goose bumps all over her body.

Zheng Zaochun reflexively looked at the source of the sound, his eyes widened in the next second, and the blood in his body froze.

Lu Haoze took the map drawn by the village head to find Hope Primary School, walked around the classroom and walked to the hut.On the other side of the vegetable field, his ideal person is squatting on the ground picking up a pile of potatoes. He can only vaguely see that thin body because of his posture, Zheng Zaochun's spine and shoulder blades are clearly visible through his clothes. , and in the vegetable field, a curvy young girl with a bright face, raised her hand to sprinkle water high, and her clear laughter like silver bells rang far away with the wind.Suddenly, I don't know what was said over there, the girl's face suddenly turned into a ripe apple, and the little girl's shy expression appeared in every move.

Later, when the girl saw him, she dropped what was in her hand and ran back as if she had seen something terrifying. The sound of the water scoop hitting the ground woke up Lu Haoze, and he followed closely along the path left by the vegetable field. Then circled to the front of the hut.The girl who had fled just now was hiding behind Zheng Zaochun's back, her eyes full of vigilance were peeking out from beside his arm, staring straight at him.

Seeing Zheng Zaochun's face, Lu Haoze's first reaction was that he had lost weight, too much, his chin became an acute angle, and his cheeks were sunken, probably because of the weight loss, that pair of eyes had been worn countless times. The eyes that appeared in his dream were bigger than before. At this moment, these eyes are looking directly at him. Lu Haoze seems to see his own reflection in the dark brown pupils. He is bathed in this long-lost gaze. Extricate yourself.For a while, no one spoke, and the rustling of the wind blowing leaves could be heard in the small courtyard.

In the end it was Caixia who broke the silence, and Zheng Zaochun felt the corner of his clothes being pulled gently behind him.He turned slightly stiffly and said to Caixia, "Don't be afraid, it's okay."

"Teacher Zheng, he is the big-boss-boss I met at the village committee today!" Zheng Zaochun's words emboldened Caixia, and she whispered behind him.

Lu Haoze watched helplessly as the girl behind Zheng Zaochun bit his ear. Even though Lu Haoze had imagined a thousand scenarios where he and Zheng Zaochun would meet, he never expected to encounter this situation.

In this situation, Lu Haoze heard the sound of his heart shattering in his ears, and he found himself unable to speak a word as if his throat was pinched, but the violent emotions in his chest were already driving him crazy.

Zheng Zaochun looked at Lu Haoze who suddenly started crying in surprise, this was the first time he saw Lu Haoze cry in his memory.He found that he was crying like a child, his lips were trembling, tears were falling uncontrollably, and a small piece of his chest was wet in a short while.Looking into those wet eyes, Zheng Zaochun's heart suddenly tightened, and he didn't know where the change in his heart came from. The eyes that seemed to hide a thousand words made him flustered inexplicably.

When Zheng Zaochun was in a daze, Caixia behind him was already bristling with tears from Lu Haoze's crying. She quickly decided to sneak out to the village to call for someone to rescue Teacher Zheng while no one was looking. But the bear-like man on the opposite side...

Lu Haoze wanted to speak a few times but was interrupted by his own tears, he opened his mouth like a drowning fish.Early spring, please say something, Lu Haoze begged in his heart.It's a pity that at this moment, it once again proved that the brain circuits of the two have never been connected.

After the initial surprise, the expression on Zheng Zaochun's face gradually softened, he lowered his gaze, and then squatted down to pick up potatoes again!

Lu Haoze who witnessed this scene cried even harder.

"Caixia, you take these potatoes. I still have something to do, so I won't keep you any longer." After packing the bag, Zheng Zaochun turned around and handed the basket to Caixia.

"Hey, okay...Mr. Zheng, do you need me to call two people to help you?" Caixia said and winked at Lu Haoze clearly.

"No, it's getting late, you should go back quickly, Uncle Zhang and the others should be worried." Zheng Zaochun walked to the water tank, wanting to get some water to wash his hands, his hands and body were covered with dirt when he picked up the potatoes.Seeing this, Caixia hurriedly followed to scoop up a ladle of water for Zheng Zaochun to wash her hands.

"Teacher, do you really need me to ask someone for help? Brother Wang at the entrance of the village should be at home right now..." Caixia still felt uneasy and muttered, she always felt that the man looked hostile.

"No really, thank you for your kindness, let's go home." Zheng Zaochun tried his best to raise a corner of his mouth, he didn't want Caixia to worry about him.

"Okay..." Caixia walked away with her basket in her arms.Zheng Zaochun shook the water off his hands, and picked up a small handful of firewood from the eaves to prepare for cooking.

Lu Haoze, who was left on the sidelines, clearly felt Zheng Zaochun's avoidance of him. His eyes were fixed on him and he went to the water tank. After washing his hands, he went to pick up branches, and then he was about to enter the house with them. Didn't care about him at all.

"Zaochun, I, hiccup..." Lu Haoze called him anxiously, but the result of crying for a long time was that he started hiccupping as soon as he opened his mouth.

Hearing his voice, Zheng Zaochun stopped, and looked at him quietly with eyes that had returned to the calmness of an ancient well.

"I, hiccup...I, hiccup..." The hiccups became more and more intense, and Lu Haoze felt so anxious that he almost went crazy.

"You should go over there and drink some water," Zheng Zaochun pointed at the water tank helplessly.In the next second, Lu Haoze rushed to the water tank, quickly scooped up a full scoop and poured it into his mouth, almost choking because of hiccups.

When Lu Haoze finally stopped hiccupping, he turned around and saw that Zheng Zaochun was no longer in the courtyard, and a puff of cooking smoke rose from the small wooden house.

"Zaochun, cough, cough, why is there so much smoke! Zaochun!" As soon as he entered the room, Lu Haoze was choked by the smoke in the room, and he shouted Zheng Zaochun's name in a panic, maybe he caught fire, right? !

"Here, what are you shouting for?" Zheng Zaochun was so startled that his head ached, and when he put the food on the table, he looked at the person standing by the door with red eyes like a rabbit, "Eat Have you passed? If you haven’t eaten, let’s eat together.”

"Okay, okay..." Lu Haoze accepted the invitation and sat down on the stool beside the table without saying a word. After he sat down, he realized that there was only one stool in the whole room. He had occupied Zheng Zaochun and there was no place to sit, so he again Stand up in a panic.

"Sit down, I'll sit on the bed." Zheng Zaochun filled two bowls of rice and put them on the table, walked around behind Lu Haoze and sat down beside the bed.

"Let's eat, the conditions are not good, so let's make do with it." Zheng Zaochun said unhurriedly, then picked up his rice bowl and ate sullenly.

Lu Haoze looked around the room that could literally explain the words "house with four walls", and then his eyes fell on a small plate of fried radishes and a large plate of pickled vegetables on the table, thinking that Zheng Zaochun lived in such a place and ate these things every day As he lived, his heart ached so badly that he couldn't breathe.

Seeing Lu Haoze holding the bowl and starting to cry again, as if he wanted to eat his tears, Zheng Zaochun was speechless.For him, this condition is quite harsh, but it is not enough to cry like this, right?If you don't like it, don't eat it...

Zheng Zaochun bit the bullet and cried with Lu Haoze after finishing the meal. After packing up the bowls and chopsticks, he placed a stool on the flat ground in front of the house, took a small horse from the wall, opened it and propped it on the opposite side of the stool, and waved to Lu Haoze. let him pass.

"Sit down." Zheng Zaochun felt that Lu Haoze must have something to say when he came here to find him.

Lu Haoze looked at the mat and the stool. This time he sat on the mat very consciously. When his butt fell down, the mat made a creaking sound of being overwhelmed, which made him blush.

"Zaochun, I came this time to apologize to you." Seeing Zheng Zaochun sitting down, Lu Haoze took a few deep breaths and said.

"I have a story, I beg you to let me tell it to you." Finally, he stopped hiccupping and crying, and Lu Haoze's tone gradually became serious.

"Once upon a time there was a man who suffered enough from having no money when he was young. His girlfriend broke up with him because he disliked him being poor, and his relatives cut off contact with his family because they disliked him for having a gambling father. The only thing in his mind was to earn money, and it seemed to him that if he had money, he would have everything. Later, he did make a lot of money, but his heart was poisoned, and he began to feel that he would have everything if he had money. He is superior to others because he values ​​money too much, he feels that everyone is coveting his wealth, and at the same time he puts a certain price on everything and weighs it in his heart."

"One day, he accidentally met a boy who looked very similar to his ex-girlfriend. He went straight to the boy by accident and found an excuse to talk to him. The boy's reaction made him feel very uncomfortable. Cute, he went back and found that he missed the boy not long after, and then he went to see the boy a few times, and had sex with the boy after a drunken accident."

"I didn't expect that boy to be pregnant. He was surprised when he heard the news that he was pregnant. The unexpected child disrupted his work and life, and he was at a loss. He thought that the boy and his other The bed partner is also greedy for his money, he hates him, he wants to use some money to send him away. But the boy insists on having a child regardless of his coercion and lure. Things are getting more and more out of control, which makes him feel like never before He panicked, so he swears at the boy at every turn, deliberately ignores him and embarrasses him, and self-righteously forces him to sign a ridiculous agreement. But the boy has been silently tolerating his excessive behavior, and even gave him a child Three kids..."

"During the days when he was with boys, he fell in love with him unknowingly. He loved his shy and cute expression when talking to him, he loved the plate of hometown taste he made with his own hands, and he loved his love for Mumbling to himself with his swollen belly, he loves that no matter how late he comes home, there will be a lamp to keep him warm... It's a pity that when he realized his own intentions, the boy was already because of the previous ones. Behavior is a little fearful of him. Realizing this, he is very anxious inside, like a snail, the more he wants to reach out to touch his tentacles, the more he shrinks back into the shell, he hates boys being polite and alienated to him Feeling, but he doesn't know what to do to get it back."

"He realized that what he did was wrong before, and he tried his best to make up for it. Unfortunately, he used the wrong method, and the boy got farther and farther away from him, and finally left him quietly."

"At that moment, he finally realized how wrong he must be. He liked him, but he didn't tell him openly that love had to be spoken. He didn't understand this truth before. He spent four months looking for the boy's identity. Finally, he found the boy, came to him, knelt on the ground, begged his forgiveness, and begged him to go home with him..."

"Zaochun, the story is over, do you understand..." Lu Haoze looked at Zheng Zaochun expectantly.

Zheng Zaochun slightly looked down at Lu Haoze who was kneeling in front of him, the expression on his face remained unchanged.

"Understood, he is you, and the boy is me."

"exactly……"

"You said you liked me and wanted to take me back."

"Mmmmmmm..."

"Oh, but what does all this have to do with me?"

Zheng Zaochun calmly asked this question, and directly confused Lu Haoze.

The author has something to say:

The more I write, the more I collapse, and the more I write, the less confident I am.

I want to slap my face crazily, but I am afraid that the later stage will collapse into a mess... Now that I am deeply aware of my own shortcomings, I am a little ashamed of you who have seen this all the way.

Well, come on, try to finish the full text between New Year's Day.

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