Don't you say I'm a substitute

43.

He didn't think he would die.

The moment Zheng Zaochun reached out his hand towards Lu Haoze but didn't even grab a piece of his clothes, he had a strong premonition in his heart, letting go this time meant that Lu Haoze would never come back.At that moment, Zheng Zaochun's whole body was limp, almost, almost, he was about to let go and rush towards the direction where he disappeared. If the rescuers who arrived in time hadn't grabbed the rope tied to him, he would have Maybe it will really go with him.

Even when he was most disappointed with him and resented his cold treatment, Zheng Zaochun never thought that Lu Haoze would die.Feelings are something that can't be forced, and if he doesn't like him, then forget it, and the two of them will be separated from each other from now on, and it's fine if they live their own lives and don't bother each other.

But in order to save him, he did not hesitate to sacrifice himself. Zheng Zaochun didn't know how to accept such a heavy sacrificial love and the fact that he was willing to sacrifice his life for him.And the so-called love and love, the so-called you like me and I like her, are so pale and powerless in front of the life that will disappear in the blink of an eye.Desperation and fear filled Zheng Zaochun's heart. He never imagined what it would be like if Lu Haoze disappeared someday. He is such a strong person, always confident and arrogant, a living person who is proud and unrestrained, how can he Maybe it's not there anymore?

Zheng Zaochun couldn't hear the cheers around him or the shouts among the rescuers. He felt in a daze that he should have landed and was saved.But his heart was dead silent.

There were figures and light flickering in front of him, he opened his mouth, he wanted to ask where Lu Haoze had gone, but he couldn't say anything except a short and hoarse "ah".

Where is Lu Haoze?Where did he go?There are three lovely children in his family waiting for him to go back. Where did he go?

Tears poured out uncontrollably, and the scorching heat of the tears became the only temperature that Zheng Zaochun's cold and stiff body could feel.Why does reality always run counter to his ideas?Lu Haoze's love can be met but not sought after, so he made the next best thing and planned to live alone quietly, but he turned around and chased after him.He shouldn't have appeared here today, it was because of him that he was washed away by the flood...

So, it's all his fault.

Zheng Zaochun's eyes gradually became empty, and his pupils continued to expand. He raised his head and smiled at the grotesque and whirling picture in front of him.

"what!"

"It's my fault! It's my fault! It's all my fault!"

He heard someone scream in the crowd, Zheng Zaochun looked around blankly, and found that the figures were all looking at him with very strange eyes, what's wrong?

"I was wrong! Lu Haoze! Come back! Come back! Don't leave!"

"Lu Haoze!"

"Lu Haoze!"

The voice sounded again, this time it was louder than last time and it was heart-piercing, Zheng Zaochun tilted his head a little confused, who and how desperate it was to make such a heart-pounding voice.The crowd of onlookers suddenly became commotion, he didn't understand what happened again, he only remembered that the scene in front of him went dark for a moment, and at the last moment of being plunged into darkness, he heard the voice say another sentence.

"Please, save him."

He didn't think he could still live.

Lu Haoze made a decision immediately when he saw the huge driftwood roll coming towards them with a thunderous impact.He couldn't let him get hurt again, he'd been hurt so badly by all the shitty things he'd done in the past.After repenting, he made an oath to guard Zheng Zaochun for the rest of his life.The opportunity came so soon, but he didn't expect the rest of his life to be so short.

After holding on to the feeling that he must die, Lu Haoze relaxed a lot.He made a will, even if he is gone, his property should be enough for the four of them to live. It may not be called rich, but it is definitely no problem to have enough food and clothing.At home, Aunt Zhou and the nanny are all towards him. When he is gone, they will definitely come to take him back to reunite with the children.With the backing of his will, it is estimated that the eldest sister would not dare to trouble him, um, it is good, so it seems that even if he is gone, he can still live a comfortable and happy life.

Then there is himself.Thinking that he would never see this fascinating face again, Lu Haoze felt as sad as a needle prick in his heart, but it didn't matter, he cherished all the pictures about him in his mind, and he remembered all his looks.My regret is that I didn't say "I love you" and "I like you" to him a few more times. I didn't fall in love before, so I always think that love is more important than saying it.It wasn't until later that he gradually understood that saying "I like you" many times to the person he likes is not enough.

"I like you,"

"I like you the most."

"Goodbye, Zheng Zaochun."

The icy flood drowned his last words, and as soon as he felt the severe pain from his head and shoulders, Lu Haoze's eyes went dark and he lost consciousness.

When Lu Haoze opened his eyes again, saw the drip ring hanging on the ceiling, and heard the unhurried ticking sound of the monitor, he had a very unreal feeling that he, just survived?Trying to move his limbs, he found that he couldn't move anywhere except his eyes and fingers.There was no one in the field of vision, Lu Haoze was thinking about what to do to call someone over to ask about the situation, when a man who looked like a nurse came in with a thermos bottle in his hand.

"Excuse me..." As soon as the words came out of Lu Haoze's mouth, he was taken aback. Did he really make this rough sound that was polished by sandpaper?

Seeing that Lu Haoze woke up, the nurse quickly called for a doctor.From the doctor's mouth, I learned that it has been almost a week since the flash flood broke out.He was swept away by the flood at the beginning, and after floating more than five kilometers downstream, his life jacket miraculously got caught on a wooden stake used to pull fishing nets in the river, and by inertia, Lu Haoze, who was in a coma, was thrown to a place near the shore. On a shoal, when the rescue team went down the river to search, they saw his orange-red life jacket at a glance.

"When you were sent to us, you had abdominal bleeding, a ruptured spleen, contusioned liver, three broken ribs, multiple fractures on your shoulder, arm, and leg. Oh yes, the most dangerous thing is that you also have a blunt bone on your skull. If it is more serious, bone fragments will protrude into the ventricle, causing brain herniation, even if you are rescued, you will hardly wake up..." The doctor analyzed Lu Haoze's condition one by one, and the nurse next to him listened. Come on, it's a miracle that Lu Haoze came back to life, but looking at him himself, he didn't have any expression on his face when he heard this, as if he was eager to interrupt the doctor's words.

"...Doctor, doctor, I will talk about it later. Now I want to know where the person who sent me here is? I also have an important relative who encountered a mountain torrent with me this time. I want to know where he is ? Are you saved?"

"The only serious patients in the disaster area admitted by our hospital this time are you and another eight-year-old girl. The others are scattered in other hospitals in this city. But when the person in charge of disaster relief comes, you can ask him."

In the afternoon, the person in charge registered Lu Haoze's name and other personal information, and promised to help him inquire about Zheng Zaochun.

"You should know after reading the news that now is the critical period for emergency rescue and disaster relief. There are turmoil everywhere. Many unregistered rescued people are scattered in surrounding cities for treatment. I can't promise to help you find them, but I will I will definitely ask you a good question. Don't think too much about it now, and take care of your illness."

"Thank you, sorry to bother you."

Before the person in charge left, he looked back at the person lying on the bed who was tied up like a zongzi, and he was puzzled. He had just returned from the ghost gate, but why did he care about what he said? It's all a man named "Zheng Zaochun"...

That night, as usual, the person in charge contacted a reporter friend who was reporting on the front line. After reporting today's situation, he thought of Lu Haoze he saw in the hospital today, and told him a story.

"Don't you think it's strange? After being injured like that, shouldn't we first consider the recovery situation, aftereffects, etc. Why are others talking..."

"It's not bad. We have a man here. It's really strange. It is said that he woke up for a short time in the morning when he was sent to the hospital. He called his home, and then he stopped eating. He didn't drink, and he didn't respond to anyone talking to him. He only suffered a slight injury on his feet. He checked the other places and there was nothing wrong. The hospital beds were tight, and a minor injury like his could be sent to a temporary refuge He is recuperating, but because he does not eat, he can only stay in the hospital for a few days and rely on injections for maintenance. I told my colleague that this person may have some kind of mental illness, which is probably called stress syndrome. I heard about it today I found a psychiatrist to see him this morning..."

"Is it likely that you hit your head? Where did this person send it?"

"As for Zhangwan Township, which was the hardest hit this time, I heard that this man is still a primary school teacher, I'm not sure..."

Hearing "Zhangwan Township" and "Teacher", the person in charge was moved, "Is this man Zheng Zaochun?!"

"Huh? Yeah, how did you know? Did I tell you about him before?"

"No! That's the name of the man I just told you about! "

"Hey, what a coincidence, didn't I just find it?!"

"I'm going to find that person now! I may need your help later..."

Lu Haoze never expected to receive Zheng Zaochun's message so soon. If he hadn't been paralyzed on the bed and couldn't move, he really wanted to bow down to the person in charge.In view of Lu Haoze's current situation, it is not suitable to move around, the person in charge and the reporter thought of a way to send Zheng Zaochun to the hospital where Lu Haoze was located two days later in a truck delivering supplies.

When the person in charge led Zheng Zaochun to his bed, Lu Haoze gathered strength with the hand beside him and pinched his thigh hard. The pain clearly told him that he was not dreaming. In a terrible disaster, he really saw Zheng Zaochun again.

Zheng Zaochun lost weight, and this time he was really only skin and bones.I don't know who found the clothes for him, but he was covered with a wide short sleeve, and his thin arms came out from the big and bright cuffs, making him even more pitifully thin.Zheng Zaochun lowered his head and slumped his shoulders, his chest was slightly sunken inward, like a paper man who would collapse in the wind.The person in charge found a chair and led Zheng Zaochun to sit down. After instructing Lu Haoze to ring the bell if he needed anything, he left with the reporter.

Before that, Lu Haoze had heard about Zheng Zaochun's situation after he was rescued. This incident may cause him to have a relapse of his old illness. No, it's not just a relapse of his old illness, it may be much more serious this time than before... Lu Haoze didn't have time to think about it , what if he doesn't even recognize himself, he is already insane now, God really treats him kindly, let him live to see Zheng Zaochun again.

"Early spring, early spring..." He called out the name softly with a feeling of apprehension.

After shouting the first time, Zheng Zaochun didn't respond, Lu Haozeqi kept shouting, and when he shouted the fourth time, Zheng Zaochun finally moved.At this moment, Lu Haoze was so nervous that he even held his breath.

Zheng Zaochun raised his heavy head with great effort, a face he was most familiar with was imprinted in his chaotic pupils, and then he stopped moving again.

!

Lu Haoze didn't speak. From his point of view, Zheng Zaochun had already seen him, and he needed to give him some time to adapt, so he couldn't disturb his mood at this time.

After staring at each other like this for about 5 minutes, with a bang, a drop of tear fell heavily on the back of Zheng Zaochun's hand. Although he was still motionless, tears began to fall violently from his eyes.

Lu Haoze couldn't bear it anymore, exerted all his strength, endured the severe pain, and held Zheng Zaochun's hand on his knee in his palm.

"You still recognize me, don't you?" Lu Haoze was sweating from the pain, his lips were bloodless, but he still forced a pale smile.

"Ah, ah..." Zheng Zaochun wanted to answer, probably because he hadn't spoken for many days, and when he suddenly wanted to speak, his throat could only make some strange sounds.

"Don't worry, don't worry, you don't need to say anything, I know it. As long as you are fine, as long as you are fine..." Lu Haoze tightened Zheng Zaochun's cold hand.

"Ah, ah..." Zheng Zaochun still tried his best to say something, his face turned red with anxiety.

"Don't, don't break your throat, you write, you write on my hand." Lu Haoze was afraid that he would break his throat too hard, so he gently shook the hands they were holding.

Zheng Zaochun nodded, stopped making futile efforts, turned over Lu Haoze's palm and stretched out his index finger to write.

"You silly!"

Lu Haoze couldn't laugh or cry, this is what Zheng Zaochun most wanted to tell him.

"Because I like you." Lu Haoze blinked his eyes, his tone extremely pampering.

Hearing "I like you", Zheng Zaochun's tears flowed even more fiercely, and Lu Haoze felt that he was holding a handful of his tears in his hand.

"No, yes, most, like, like, I, yes, I, no, yes!" Zheng Zaochun wrote stroke by stroke with tears in his eyes. How much he was crying right now.

Lu Haoze instantly understood Zheng Zaochun's meaning after writing a sentence with a slightly inconsistent preface.Finally heard him say this, looking at the ceiling, the tears that had endured for a long time still rolled down from the corners of his eyes.

"Ah... I like you the most, I like you the most in this life."

THE END

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will will will!The text is over! ! !

Aunt Zhou and the children who did not appear in the last scene will appear in the episode ~

It’s not easy, relying on everyone’s encouragement, I finally finished the whole story. From the end of October last year to the beginning of January now, the outline of the original plan was abruptly told into a 12-word medium-length novel. I feel incredible...

Thank you to everyone who has seen this, you have tolerated the many shortcomings and flaws of my story, thank you very much~

Because of my amateurishness and lack of experience, the stories presented to you may not be very satisfactory, and even the "ruthless words" I once released may not be fully realized.Although most of your comments are positive and praiseworthy, I still want to take this opportunity to say to all readers, I am sorry that due to my lack of ability, you have not experienced the joy of reading. I am really sorry.

Finally, thank you again.You may not realize the great joy and touch brought to me by a few words of comfort and encouragement. I will cherish this friendship, thank you.