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When Zhang Yi woke up in the morning, he felt that his whole body had been dismantled. He threw Chen Zhe's arm on his stomach aside and tried to get up by himself, but he failed. The soreness all over his body reminded him of about last night.

"Little Yi..." Chen Zhe got up and took Zhang Yi into his arms, "I've planned for a long time, I like you...for a long time"

Zhang Yi buried his head in Chen Zhe's neck. He seemed to be solving a complex math problem. The answer had already been developed and he hadn't figured it out yet. As a result, Chen Zhe waved his hand and changed the short-answer question into a fill-in-the-blank question. Zhang Yi was inexplicable. Got a perfect score.

Chen Zhe tightened his arms, "It's my fault, I promise this will be the worst day of your life, and it will get better day by day, trust me, okay?"

"How much do you know..." Zhang Yi's voice was buzzing,

"I don't know anything until you are willing to say it." Chen Zhe put a little distance between himself and Zhang Yi, and said, looking directly into his eyes.

"Then let's do it now." Zhang Yi shrank back into Chen Zhe's arms. He had longed for such warm contact for a day or two. "I don't like that picture of Zashiki Boy." After answering the question, wait for him to continue, "I've been waiting for them to get divorced. After waiting for more than ten years, I accidentally waited for my mother to be widowed..."

Chen Zhe pinched Zhang Yi's wrist and patted him on the shoulder, "Don't be sad..." Zhang Yi shook his head, "I'm not sad, I just think it's amazing. Where does a person like my dad have the courage to jump from the [-]th floor? Go on. You must know that when I asked him if he wanted to divorce my mother, he almost choked to death... I know it may be difficult for you to understand. I don’t know how to describe my mother to you, just The one you met, what kind of man is he?"

Chen Zhe felt Zhang Yi trembling slightly in his arms, and he hugged Zhang Yi vigorously, "Don't be afraid..."

Zhang Yi shook his head and struggled outside. He once thought that his resistance was effective. He naively thought that some so-called drastic means could get him and his father out of this situation. Like the head of the father who jumped down, it was smashed into pieces.It can't be changed, unless he dies. He thinks of the wine bottle that his father dropped on the ground after getting drunk once in a while. The last eruption of a man who is cautious and cautious in his life is probably the last time he yelled at his son on the rooftop.

He never thought that his mother would still cry. Zhang Yi thought that the two strangers at home had no feelings for him. He was used to hearing his mother's abuse of his father, and even wondered if it was these insults after his father left. You have to fall on your own head.People are really scary. From that day on, Zhang Yi’s fear was day after day. He was afraid that his genes would make him become like his parents. All this was like the sword of Damocles hanging above his head, which made him panic. all day long.

Zhang Yi suddenly stood up and looked directly into Chen Zhe's eyes, "What will become of us, Chen Zhe? What about us?"

Chen Zhe didn't know how to face Zhang Yi's sudden question, "What nonsense are you talking about?"

"I'm scared, I'm bleeding like them, it's my life, you know? It's my life... I might kill you, the things that drive me crazy they're hiding in my In the blood, these are impossible to escape, you forget about me, we... just forget it"

"What are you crazy about?" Chen Zhe grabbed Zhang Yi's hand, he had something to say but his throat was blocked, "You are different..." In the end, he could only choke out this sentence .

It's different, I believe that the you I've seen must be different, and you will see the sun eventually.

I can accompany you when the clouds are finally cleared.

Sometimes we have to admit that there are some things that we may not be able to accept with all our strength, and we cannot accept and allow our memory to falsify it into an acceptable form.Two such things happened in Zhang Yi's life in the first 22 years. The number is not many, but it is enough to burn the rest of his good memories.

"Did Bai Xi blame me?" Zhang Yi asked after thinking about it

"I don't know, but I guess it's hard for anyone to accept that my best friend for three years in high school suddenly disappeared after graduation." Chen Zhe decided to answer this question truthfully.

"I just don't know what to do, continue to get along with everyone..." Zhang Yi rubbed the sideline of Zhe's pants with his fingers, "I'm so weird, I hope I don't have to remember, these stages will pass..."

"Have you turned the page?" Chen Zhe pondered what Zhang Yi said,

"Yes, the page has been turned." Zhang Yi nodded to confirm the statement, "I should be a goldfish, the kind that forgets everything in a flash."

"I think you're a whale, one of those big ones in the sea that look like an island when you spread your dorsal fin."

"Why?" Zhang Yi raised his head and asked, Chen Zhe tilted his head and blinked his eyes, "Yeah, it seems that no one cares, but he stubbornly sends out signals."

"It's also an amazing ability that you can say everything so beautifully."

"It's not all, it's just the ones related to you." Chen Zhe rested his chin on Zhang Yi's shoulder, "It took me a long time to accept that you didn't notice that I was showing favor in front of you."

"I'm sorry." Zhang Yi patted the back of Chen Zhe's head, "But the result is good."

"Well... I suddenly figured it out, let's turn the page. Now you are in front of me." Chen Zhe closed his eyes and hugged the person in front of him tightly, "There is nothing more important than your happiness."