Tsundere and cowardly

A long time ago, Gu Jiujiu once read a sentence in a book: A girl, only when she realizes how big the world is, can she understand what is true beauty.

Gu Jiujiu didn't understand much in the past, but now it seems that it is more appropriate to put it on Li Hangying.

She is a girl who should go to the wider sky.

Today, after Gu Jiujiu heard the truth from Professor Gu through a wall, she suddenly forgave Li Hangying.Forgive her abandonment.

It turned out that she didn't take the initiative to ask Professor Gu for a letter of recommendation.Instead, Professor Gu gave her a dilemma.

From an outsider's perspective, this may not make much difference.In other words, if Gu Jiujiu had met Miss Cheng before she heard the so-called truth, she would not feel any difference.

Regardless of whether Li Hangying is active or passive, she has already chosen to give up on Gu Jiujiu.

Left without saying a word, that day Gu Jiujiu excitedly took the admission notice and went to her house to look for her, the silence in the air seemed to give Gu Jiujiu an embarrassing slap in the face.

Without even an explanation or a word of farewell, it took Gu Jiujiu a long time to accept this matter, and she left.

This matter was not mentioned by Professor Gu, but by Gu Jiujiu who went to the Student Records Office of No. [-] Middle School to ask.

Perhaps Professor Gu's wisdom lies in his silence.If he said, Gu Jiujiu might still be stalking and struggling, but the disappearing silence can crush people to death.

This made Gu Jiujiu still a little hard to let go of the past even if he started a new relationship.

But now after hearing the truth of the matter, she suddenly felt relieved.

Because of Miss Cheng, Gu Jiujiu began to gradually change after meeting Miss Cheng.She fell in love with a girl who was naturally excellent, so she also began to make some good changes for the sake of hard work.

If one day Gu Jiujiu finds that she has become a stumbling block to Miss Cheng's progress, Gu Jiujiu will definitely not hold Miss Cheng's hand again.Instead, he chose to set her free.

Love, first of all, should be freedom.If she becomes a fetter, she should let go.

Today, she suddenly understood Li Hangying.There is nothing wrong with her idea, everyone has the right to choose, there is nothing wrong with Li Hangying wanting to go abroad and make herself better.

She gave up on Gu Jiujiu for this reason.But with a good opportunity, she can go to a bigger world and experience a different life.

Gu Jiujiu once heard a certain actress say such a sentence in an interview, "My ex and ex are both very good. One of them taught me to be a gentle woman, and the other taught me to be a mature adult, but I I like the incumbent the most, he taught me to be a child again."

Ms. Cheng didn't need her to compromise, she didn't need her to be pitiful, she didn't even need her to do anything.Miss Cheng can arrange everything.

Gu Jiujiu imagined that the most beautiful appearance of love is probably like this now.

Two people don't need to have the same preferences, but they will respect each other's choices.Two people live together and breathe the same air.You can interfere with each other, you can ignore each other.Spend the day quietly or loudly, as long as you have the other person by your side, you can do anything.

All the good fantasies were shattered the moment Li Hangying pushed the door out and bumped into Gu Jiujiu who was standing outside the door.

"You..." Li Hangying looked at Gu Jiujiu in disbelief, she never thought that one day these truths would be heard by Gu Jiujiu.

Gu Jiujiu supported the nine books that were about to fall from her bosom. She was worried that after these books fell to the ground, what would happen if there were traces that could not be returned.

It may be that Gu Jiujiu's natural calmness made Li Hangying's originally turbulent heart suspicious. "Jiujiu...you heard it just now?"

Gu Jiujiu helped the stack of books in his arms, and then said: "I heard some, but I'm not sure I've finished listening. Also, I didn't eavesdrop on purpose. If it troubles you, I'm sorry. Maybe I can pretend I didn't hear it."

Actually, at this moment, Gu Jiujiu was thinking.If Miss Cheng were in Li Hangying's position today, she might use some tricks to force Gu Jiujiu to have contact with her.Instead of asking a few ambiguous questions like Li Hangying dryly and feebly, which was far from the past.

And if Ms. Cheng were here now, her first reaction would be that the books in her arms were messed up, and she was busy tidying them up.Miss Cheng would frown and be upset.He even speaks to stab Gu Jiujiu, which makes Gu Jiujiu unhappy.Then Ms. Cheng threatened and lured Gu Jiujiu to rush to see her even though she was clearly unhappy.

Instead of turning a blind eye to the current situation like Li Hangying is now, he only cares about whether Gu Jiujiu heard the conversation between the two, and what happened in the past.Li Hangying is now immersed in the memory building that he has conceived without touching the ground.

She never thought that what she had given up could never be taken back.Today, Gu Jiujiu no longer loves her.

In other words, from the moment she gave up on Gu Jiujiu, the so-called love between the two had died.

Gu Jiujiu's so-called pretending not to have heard of it is too cruel to imply.The expression on Li Hangying's face was a little dull, and there was even a little shock on her fair face.His lips moved, and he asked with difficulty: "Jiujiu, what did you say?"

Gu Jiujiu smiled at her.Her smile was dazzling and beautiful, "Li Hangying, I indeed heard the conversation between the two of you just now."

As he said that, Gu Jiujiu looked pointedly at Professor Gu who heard the sound and walked over. He was not far behind Li Hangying and had already looked over.

"But there is one thing I have to tell you. Now I already have someone I like. So, I'm sorry. In fact, I can't say that I never hated you in the past, but today, when I learned the truth, I suddenly Relieved. I can forgive everything in the past, including you."

As he said that, Gu Jiujiu laughed at himself. "Actually, I have no qualifications to forgive you. You helped me. If you weren't there during that time, I might not be able to hold on. So, you don't have to feel guilty for accepting the letter of recommendation." , or whatever. You deserve it."

These words seemed to be the last straw for Li Hangying, "You mean you don't blame me?"

Gu Jiujiu smiled and nodded. "Yes, I don't blame you. Even when you just went abroad, I never blamed you. Today, I find that I have no right to blame you. "

All this is because of Professor Gu.What he did made Gu Jiujiu's long-standing resentment into self-indulgence.

Who can Gu Jiujiu blame.those tears of hers.For what flow?For her father's actions, for his kindness?

"Professor Gu gave you a recommendation letter for what you did for me. It can be regarded as paying off, so we owe nothing."

"Jiujiu, don't say that. You know I never did that for anything else. I mean it sincerely." Li Hangying hurriedly explained, but she had already become a sad character.Even an explanation seems superfluous.

What's wrong with Li Hangying? Is it wrong for her to choose to go abroad?

As for Gu Jiujiu, she cried to death in those days, who can be blamed for this?

Can she blame Professor Gu? Professor Gu is doing it for her own good.He had already seen through at a glance that the two were not suitable, so for the sake of Gu Jiujiu's good, he directly intervened to stop this relationship that was destined to not last long.

Can Gu Jiujiu blame him?

The sad thing is that today, Gu Jiujiu suddenly found that what Professor Gu did was right.She no longer had the heart-piercing feelings for Li Hangying in her heart.

So, what was the relationship she lost?

Professor Gu is so right.He made Gu Jiujiu, who always liked to make mistakes, go on the so-called right path, and met a suitable Miss Cheng.Life is going well now.

She found that the pain she thought was heart-piercing, and her difficult growth journey, in the eyes of others, was nothing but painless things. Look, Professor Gu had expected this ending a long time ago.

As for Gu Jiujiu, she could only watch her love die, just like she could only watch her family fall apart.powerless.

Gu Jiujiu may be a bit childish by nature, she instinctively resists growing up.Because in the adult world, everything seems to be able to be analyzed rationally, and any harm seems to be insignificant.Any love is fragile and fragile.

Even if she is willing to give up everything in exchange for something, she is so vulnerable.

Gu Jiujiu watched Li Hangying retreat in front of Professor Gu, as if seeing herself.Those stinging loves can't escape the humiliating ending of being nailed to the wall after all.

When Professor Gu saw Gu Jiujiu, he was also slightly taken aback.But immediately, he put away his expression and calmed down again.

"You came."

It's not painful or itchy, just like an ordinary father and daughter.

Gu Jiujiu nodded, "Well, I'm here. I'm here to return the book."

Gu Jiujiu gestured to the book in his arms with his eyes, it silently showed the purpose of Gu Jiujiu's trip.Obviously, Professor Gu was a little surprised by Gu Jiujiu's answer.

No one spoke for a while.

Gu Jiujiu was afraid of embarrassing the situation.Then he further explained his purpose.

"Can you give me my money back?"

Rao, Professor Gu, who has seen many storms in his life, couldn't react for a while.What does Gu Jiujiu want to do?

After a while, he seemed to digest Gu Jiujiu's words. These books were bought by her new girlfriend.

"It seems that you didn't buy this book?"

Gu Jiujiu nodded, "En."

Professor Gu: "Then you ask her to come here in person, and I'll ask my assistant to back it up for her."

Gu Jiujiu frowned: "Isn't it the same when I retreat?"

Professor Gu shook his head. "It's not the same. It has been stated at the time of purchase that the buyer must come and return it in person."

Gu Jiujiu suddenly remembered Miss Cheng's unhurried face when he ran out with the book in his arms.No wonder, it turned out that she knew that Gu Jiujiu would not be able to retreat at all.So she wasn't in a hurry at all.

"Professor Gu, hello, I have no intention of withdrawing the book myself."

Gu Jiujiu was thinking about it when suddenly a voice came in.

Miss Cheng's arrival seemed to make Gu Jiujiu lose the last bit of strength to straighten his back.

Her mood suddenly turned bad. She hated Professor Gu, so she didn't want Miss Cheng to have too much contact with Professor Gu.Not to mention letting her witness with her own eyes, the two get along in harmony.

A sharp thorn grew in Gu Jiujiu's heart. As Miss Cheng's footsteps approached, the rare smile on her proud face, and all these special treatment made the thorn in Gu Jiujiu's heart start to grow wildly. It made her sore and itchy.painfully.

She never said she could forgive Professor Gu for what she did, she never gave Professor Gu wrong hints, she never intended to forgive this man.

Therefore, he is not eligible to receive special treatment from Miss Cheng.Miss Cheng has nothing to do with him.

These beautiful scenes in front of him made Gu Jiujiu burn with anger.

However, Miss Cheng didn't seem to notice Gu Jiujiu's ugly face. Facts have proved that it is not difficult for an arrogant person like Miss Cheng to make a good impression on others.

She even took the initiative to chat with Professor Gu, talking about some topics that Gu Jiujiu couldn't understand at all.This made Gu Jiujiu next to her extremely uncomfortable, she even felt that she was so redundant for a moment.

And Li Hangying next to her suddenly became energetic at the moment, listening patiently from the side, occasionally inserting a few words of her opinion.The picture of the three people seemed to be enjoying themselves happily.

Gu Jiujiu couldn't bear to watch it any longer.

She couldn't help but said to Li Hangying, "You go back first, if you haven't made it clear today, I can find time to explain it to you another day."

Miss Cheng seemed a little dissatisfied, Gu Jiujiu's sudden intervention brought the three people's conversation to an abrupt end.There was a tinge of sarcasm in the well-meaning smile on her lips.

"Is there anything unclear? Can't you make it clear today? I don't think you can make it clear by dragging your feet."

Gu Jiujiu's mood was really terrible, and Miss Cheng just added the biggest splash of fuel.She's already like this, and Miss Cheng is still jealous and thinking about what's there and what's not.

Didn't she tell Miss Cheng clearly enough?There is no possibility between her and Li Hangying.

Gu Jiujiu said patiently, "I may not be able to explain clearly today."

There was a slight smile on the corner of Miss Cheng's mouth. "I can't tell why."

Gu Jiujiu simply couldn't understand what Miss Cheng was thinking.The more angry she is, the more she wants to come over to make trouble.

Miss Cheng seemed to have remembered something, Gu Jiujiu was still holding the book in his hand. "By the way, there are still these books. I have no plan to return them."

Cheng Rong's attitude is simply adding fuel to the fire.

Gu Jiujiu put down the book he was holding in his arms, and was furious.She sneered and said, "Cheng Rong, do you think I like you now, so you can do whatever you want in my world? Let me tell you, I never thought I liked you, so much that I don't need myself."

Gu Jiujiu said these words word by word, and the smiling face of Miss Cheng, that amazing face was frosted little by little.Obviously, Gu Jiujiu's mind is not sober now.Cheng Rong advised himself not to be serious with her, but she could say such things, and Cheng Rong couldn't suppress the anger in his heart.

Looking at Cheng Rong's angry face, Gu Jiujiu suddenly felt a sense of pleasure.That's right, Miss Cheng also has today, and there are also times when people say she is angry but can't say it.

Even if that person was Gu Jiujiu herself, when she said it, she only cared about it for a moment, and never thought about what happened next. When it was Miss Cheng's turn to get angry, she couldn't bear it.

"Li Hangying. My words are clear enough."

Gu Jiujiu had already caused too much harm to Li Hangying, and she really couldn't bear to say those hurtful things in front of Miss Cheng and Professor Gu, these two women who were working in a mess.

Of these two people, one was the culprit who caused Li Hangying to fall into a dilemma and caused the two to break up, and the other was Miss Cheng.It was two people who no longer had any possible evidence.

No matter how hard-hearted Gu Jiujiu is, he would never tell Li Hangying in front of these two people that I don't like you at all.I have no feelings for you anymore.

It has to be said that love dies at the most beautiful time, and Li Hangying will always be the gentle and kind sister who will comfort her in Gu Jiujiu's heart.

People will always habitually beautify those things that have been lost.

"You know, if I could, I would never want to hurt you. You are such a good girl. You deserve a better life, so I will respect your choice. I don't blame you. I didn't in the past, and I don't now. No, and never will."

Gu Jiujiu probably didn't think much about Li Hangying, and just held the view that even if we broke up, we were all good friends, and he didn't want to talk bad words.

Because of Li Hangying's weakness, Gu Jiujiu couldn't speak harshly to her.But these words are not like this in Miss Cheng's ears, even though the meaning of Gu Jiujiu's words is already obvious.

But that sentence, if possible, she would never want to hurt her.It sharply hurt Miss Cheng's eardrum.

When did Gu Jiujiu treat Cheng Rong so tenderly and considerately? I am afraid that if it were Cheng Rong today, Gu Jiujiu would only remember her bad points and not half of her good things.

In fact, Cheng Rong and Li Hangying are naturally different in Gu Jiujiu's heart.Li Hangying's weakness is destined to win Gu Jiujiu's sympathy, so she understands that she forgives her and does not blame her.

As for Ms. Cheng and Professor Gu, in Gu Jiujiu's view, their lives are successful and they have everything.So Gu Jiujiu can be ruthless to hurt.

Have to say, this is not fair.

But it is human nature to sympathize with the weak.

Li Hangying has already lost Gu Jiujiu, is it necessary for Gu Jiujiu to sweep away the last bit of her face and crush her last bit of dignity in front of Professor Gu and Miss Cheng?

On the contrary, Miss Cheng already had Gu Jiujiu, and Gu Jiujiu had already given her a guarantee.Why is she still being aggressive here?

"Okay, I see."

When Li Hangying said this, her tone was so soft that she couldn't hide her tears.She raised her head and smiled at Gu Jiujiu, gentle and without regret.Then wiped away tears, turned and left.

Gu Jiujiu looked at her back, and suddenly two words appeared in his mind, farewell.She clearly realized that it was impossible to see Li Hangying again.

When Gu Jiujiu came back to her senses, her tears had already flowed down.

This was the first time that Professor Gu saw Gu Jiujiu crying. When he divorced her mother, his daughter seemed very sensible and strong.Not only did she not embarrass her parents, she was even able to comfort her mother.

Who has never been young, Professor Gu looked at Gu Jiujiu crying, and naturally knew how painful it was to break up the immature relationship when he was young.

"Jiujiu, there is still a long way to go..."

Not finished yet.

"Professor Gu, Professor Gu Da. Seeing me like this today, my life is now in this state. Thanks to you, are you satisfied? I beg you, can you stop always holding things that are good for me? What right do you have to interfere with my life in name?"

"From the day you divorced my mother, from the time you gave up your family, you no longer have the qualifications. You said why Li Hangying stood in front of you singing love, then why are you standing here plausibly To accuse others, isn't Li Hangying's choice the same as yours? You all made the same choice."

"You think Li Hangying's actions are wrong, so you take the initiative to make trouble. Let me tell you, when you divorced my mother, if she hadn't been by my side every day, I would have been unable to survive. You are only busy My own life, who cares about my life?

Today you can still stand here and keep saying, for my own good, I am really ashamed of you! "

When Gu Jiujiu said these words, her fingers hanging by her side kept trembling.Her eyes were red, and tears welled up in them.

Over the years, she has not been without resentment in her heart.She resents everyone.

This long-rooted resentment accumulated over the years erupted in an instant, and Gu Jiujiu was even a little unconscious.

Suddenly, there was a "slap".It hit Gu Jiujiu in the face.

Cheng Rong slapped Gu Jiujiu.

Gu Jiujiu covered his face and looked at Cheng Rong in disbelief.This woman who wanted to return even a push from others, a woman who didn't want her to be wronged, gave her a slap when she was most wronged.

But Miss Cheng's face was serious, and she looked at Gu Jiujiu coldly. "Gu Jiujiu, I didn't find out until today. You are not only willful, but also naive to death. It's ridiculous that I thought you could handle these problems well. Now I realize that what you said is absolutely right , you care so much about past gains and losses, you will never be able to tell clearly between you and your ex, who never had the heart to hurt you."

Gu Jiujiu was stunned by her sudden slap, she even forgot the grievance, except for the shock of this slap.There is nothing left in her mind.

Full of thoughts, Cheng Rong slapped her.Cheng Rong slapped her with his own hands.

Miss Cheng looked at Gu Jiujiu who was stunned, and smiled mockingly.

"Professor Gu, whom you keep shouting, is your father. Don't make excuses about whether you love him or not. No matter what he does, he is your father, and you have to respect him. "

Miss Cheng's slap completely woke Gu Jiujiu up from the past 18 years of entanglement.

The author has something to say: a bit stuck,

The feeling of being enlightened after being slapped by the person you love the most.I may not be able to write it.

Ah... After struggling for a second, I still choose to post directly.Change it after writing.

……Dividing line……

After a long time, I don't know how many months have passed.Go back and revise the text.

Found that there are many problems.

Then, finally, the plot remains unchanged.It was indeed poorly arranged.This essay has no outline.

I remember that when I wrote these chapters, it seemed to be the National Day holiday for a few days.There are many things.My mother took me to help her do the report every day, and the aunts in the office asked me one by one if I had a date.If you insist on giving me a blind date, you are so enthusiastic.It is said that when you are young, you are obsessed with studying and have no intention of falling in love.Still insist, seeing me is like seeing your own daughter.

In the end, I was embarrassed to refuse the elders.Think about it and deal with it.But I didn't expect to meet once, and I made it clear at that time that I was young and had no intention of falling in love.The other party is endless.

I don't know where I got my phone number, and I get bombarded with text messages every night when I write.

In the end, it was too much to bear.It's hard to say it bluntly.

Then, out of nowhere, those old aunties started saying how I was blahblah.Then my mom called me blahblah again.

I said, I just can't see him.

Then my mother caught me all day long to brainwash me, inputting views on love and marriage.

Every day is very annoying.I'm too lazy to think about an outline, and I don't know what to write.

Then tear it apart every day.

Looking back a few months later, um, embarrassing.

Go back and write this paragraph.

Probably only a bit of abuse here, and there is no abuse part behind.

Little fairies who read this article, see if you want to pursue it according to your own situation.

I think it is probably impossible for me to change the plot, the mistake has already happened.I'm not going to pretend I didn't make a mistake.