arrogant and coquettish

"For the company's parents, you filled in none, right?" Su Qinghe saw that he finally had a reaction to his words, so he said it slowly.

Song Shi didn't know what he wanted to say, so he didn't make a sound right now, but Su Qinghe caught the flash of dissatisfaction in his eyes, and he sighed slightly, "I'm sorry, I checked your profile without authorization. .”

"But you may not know that the column of my parents is blank." Su Qinghe's expression was extraordinarily calm, as if he was not telling his own story.

A slight surprise flashed in Song Shi's eyes, but he quickly covered it up.

When Su Qinghe debuted at that time, the company set up the image of a returnee for him, saying that his parents were both abroad, and they also sold a persona of a noble son to match Su Qinghe's noble and glamorous style.But he was an orphan, and he didn't have the so-called parents who hadn't been in touch with him for a long time, nor the so-called parents who wanted to sever ties with him because he got into the entertainment circle.He would rather these lies be true, if possible.

But a story is a story, and it can only be a story.

"Children like us seem to easily take a little warmth from others as salvation, and keep falling for it." Su Qinghe seemed to have thought of something, and his eyes became far-reaching, "We have set ourselves the principles of life , all the regulations are added by ourselves, and each stroke is a summary of life experience. Unlike those children accompanied by their parents, we can contribute life secrets to them so that they can avoid detours. We do not have such a guide people."

Even though the beginning of life was not clear, he still lived no worse than others. Song Shi could not see any emotion of self-pity on his face, not even emotion.He suddenly couldn't understand him. What kind of person did he hate all this time?

"We have our own views of right and wrong. As long as we believe in something, we will go towards that goal." Su Qinghe's eyes did not fall on him at this time, but seemed to be looking through him, looking far away very far away.

Song Shi laughed suddenly, and pulled the wound on the corner of his mouth, he still felt a little pain, "You said so much, do you want to tell me that everything I do is wrong?"

He has no parents, and he has received too many strange eyes since he was a child. No matter where he goes, he seems to be a strange person in the crowd.This is the reason why he chose to be a star. He knows that the company will at least fabricate a glamorous family background for him, and he can comfort himself.It seems that he is exposed to the eyes of others all the time, but in fact this is the best way for him to protect himself.

He puts on a mask to face everyone, because it is not himself, so he will not have emotions.

But when the teenager cried and said to him, "I didn't want to accept that setting when I was young." At that time, the defense line he had carefully drawn was easily breached.

Lu Zichen was an orphan just like him. He happened to hear that a trainee who was about to debut got a script designed by the company. When he remembered it seriously, Lu Zichen suddenly became emotional.

In his world, it's black and white, so he can't accept lies.But Song Shi couldn't tell him that life itself was a huge lie. If they wanted to survive, they had to learn to weave lies besides accepting lies.

But looking at the young man's clean eyes, he suddenly couldn't say a word.In fact, he is not such a firm person. He has a timid and inferior self in his heart, which makes him feel panic.

But Lu Zichen was different. He was sunny, cheerful, and confident. If he hadn't said it out loud, Song Shi wouldn't have been able to tell that he would have grown up in an environment where he didn't receive love.

Lu Zichen pulled him out of the shadow of self-abandonment, he said, "When I was young, we should be grateful for our own lives, we live in this world, everything is shared with others, we are no different from them .We are not lost children, but temporarily forgotten."

He remembered every word he said, so he gradually opened his heart and embraced the world again.

Everything was so good at that time, the company said they were preparing to debut as a duo, and their future was bright.

But by accident, he was selected to film, and his original debut plan was completely overturned.Lu Zichen comforted him and said, "It's okay, we can shine differently in different fields."

But he did not emit light, his light was only fleeting, and soon fell, like a shooting star.The two-week filming was suddenly stopped due to the withdrawal of the investor's capital. Lu Zichen's debut plan had already been announced, and he could no longer join. He could only stay in the showbiz and continue on an unknown journey.

If it wasn't for Su Qinghe's appearance, maybe everything would still go on as usual, but everything has changed.Lu Zichen couldn't make his debut anymore, and he just continued to play an unknown supporting role, trying his best to shine dimly.

That person said it's okay, people who work hard will be found.

At that time, they still had infinite longings for life, unswervingly believed in the silly saying of "no pain, no gain", until that hellish meeting completely drove them into hell.

Song Shi was tied up by Han Su, and he watched the boy with a bright smile being torn apart by others in front of his eyes. He was in more pain than him.But Han Su didn't let him close his eyes and forced him to read the whole story.

His star fell.Lu Zichen's face was ruined, as was his voice.Even with plastic surgery, he can no longer sing.That was all his dream, a dream that he poured out with all his youth and passion, and it was just a little sprouted, and it was stifled by eternal destruction.

He also ruined their lives, until here, completely shattered.

"I hate." He never thought that one day he would hear these two words from that person's mouth, but he still nodded firmly. He always supported every decision he made.

"I'll help you."

He made a deal with Han Su, selling his body and soul in exchange for conditions sufficient for revenge.

He has always been cautious, never daring to show his feet.But he didn't know that everything he had planned with all his heart had been seen through by that man long ago, he just didn't expose him, or rather, he took this as his way of pleasing him - a well-planned murder .

Will he like it?Song Shi thought about this question later.The answer is yes.

He lost so badly that he made himself a joke.But he didn't regret it, he just hesitated once.But after seeing the news that the man committed suicide, he finally became firm.He knew that from now on, there would be no one who would treat him wholeheartedly, and he had to live for him, for his unfinished revenge.

But now that Su Qinghe was sitting opposite him, the words that were thrown out in a bland manner suddenly seemed to wake him up.But he didn't want to admit it, so he was still trying his best to hold on.

Su Qinghe just shook his head, "I didn't say whether what you did was right or not, as long as you think it's right, it must be right. I've been living like this for so many years."

He also has a warmth that is hard to let go no matter what, so he understands Song Shi's dedication, so he won't complain, because he understands, he understands everything.He understands the feeling of trying to live a good life for one person better than anyone else, so he knows his pain and his entanglement.

"In the past few days, I have been thinking about what kind of role we have played in other people's lives." Su Qinghe's face was blank, but there seemed to be a faint firmness, "Later, I finally let go. Everyone is someone else's passer-by, and only you are your own protagonist. The psychology of living for someone is actually our self-suggestion. We did something that we couldn't understand, and then made an excuse It's selfish to pay for your own stupidity."

He once felt resentful because of Duan's sudden disappearance, but the child's psychology is actually nothing.What really hurt him was those hurtful eyes and words during the growth process. When he couldn't heal himself, he would think of the warmth that person gave him when he was a child, which was a gentle salvation.After a long time, that person is no longer just a memory, but has become a pillar in his heart, supporting him through every day.

This is just an excuse he made to comfort himself. We always have feelings that have no place to rest, and there will be someone who should be pinned on. Everyone has such a person, just like Jin An is to Su Qinghe, Lu Zichen is to Song Sometimes, they are all rooted in their hearts for a certain reason that must exist. After a long time, they can't tell whether they care about that person or that excuse.

However, Song Shi already understood, or in other words, he already understood when Su Qinghe mentioned right and wrong to him.He just doesn't want to admit it.

The seed of hatred that had been buried in his heart for a long time had taken root and sprouted, but meeting Lu Zichen gradually brought sunshine into his heart, and the subsequent disappointment made him feel at a loss, more fragile and sensitive.So after Lu Zichen was destroyed, the little sapling named hatred in his heart gradually grew, until it grew into a towering tree.

There was always hatred in his heart, but there was no reason to vent it, and no object to vent it on.When everything was pulled out, the hatred in his heart also began to be released.

Use one excuse, murder another.This is why he lives.

Looking at Su Qinghe's calm face, Song Shi was suddenly relieved, "All people are conditional factors, and we are the main contradiction individual."

He suddenly has no hatred.