i'm not sick

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"It's nothing." Ye Sicun reflexively covered his scar.

Seeing that Ye Sicun was so nervous, Li Yuesong was a little lost, hesitated for a while, and still couldn't help asking: "Did you play for fun?" There was suppressed dissatisfaction in his tone.

If he didn't tell Li Yuesong the truth, Li Yuesong would only think in a worse way, and the little theater in his head might turn Ye Sicun into a ruthless and heartless man.So Ye Sicun had better say it directly.

"Let me tell you something." Ye Sicun said.

"Usually, such a beginning will not lead to anything good." Li Yuesong sat by the bed.

Ye Sicun hugged Li Yuesong from behind, put his chin on Li Yuesong's shoulder, and said seriously: "It's really not a good thing, but I don't want to affect our relationship. Let me talk slowly, please?"

"If it's about your former lover and love in bed, don't tell me, and I don't want to hear it." Li Yuesong avoided Ye Sicun and went to put on underwear.

This matter is indeed related to Ye Sicun's former lover and love in bed, Li Yuesong said this, but Ye Sicun didn't know whether he should say it or not.If Li Yuesong talked about him and his ex-wife in bed, Ye Sicun didn't want to hear it either.

Li Yuesong went to take a shower, and then lay on the bed with his back to Ye Sicun.When Li Yuesong was unhappy, he was seriously unhappy. He didn't say a word and let Ye Sicun guess.Ye Sicun crawled to Li Yuesong's side, wrapped Li Yuesong with the quilt and himself.Jokingly said: "I will ignore me when I sleep? What a ruthless master."

Li Yuesong didn't speak, Ye Sicun's breath was cold and hot on the back of Li Yuesong's neck.Ye Sicun knew that Li Yuesong was not asleep, and knew that if he didn't make it clear, Li Yuesong would definitely not be able to sleep for several nights, so he calmly said: "When I first came to Beijing, I was very lonely and helpless. Me, come and go, we'll be good. At first he was very kind to me, and took me to meet his parents. At that time, I never enjoyed the feeling of being famous, and I fell into it all at once. Lovers will naturally□□ when……"

Li Yuesong wanted to leave, but Ye Sicun hugged him tightly and said, "I didn't know he had a habit of sexual abuse. He handcuffed me, beat me, fucked me hard, and burned me. There is a piece of my collarbone here. , There is a lump on the inner thigh. He left after having sex. I was still tied up. I could only barely call an ambulance. When the emergency personnel arrived, my leg was open and handcuffed to the leg of the table. By the time I got dressed and put me on the stretcher, I wanted to die."

That unbearable memory flooded up again, Ye Sicun said, his voice choked up.

"Okay." Li Yuesong stopped Ye Sicun from continuing.

"But I thought, I haven't repaid my parents, I haven't watched my sister grow up, I haven't confessed to you, there are so many things I haven't done. And I really want revenge, and the desire for revenge makes me want to live Go on. I was alone in the hospital, even if it was difficult to move, even if it was difficult to eat, I held on because it was too humiliating to tell anyone. In order not to leave marks on my body, I did it on the wound here on the collarbone. Skin grafting. But because I was too poor, I had to secretly use a knife to goug out the piece on my leg.”

"Stop talking." Li Yuesong held Ye Sicun's face and kissed him distressedly.

Ye Sicun kissed Li Yuesong back, and continued: "After leaving the hospital, I have always had a shadow about sex. The desire for revenge and the humiliation on my body put me under a lot of psychological pressure. When I finally couldn't bear it, I went to see a psychiatrist. It's Rong Xuan, he gradually overcomes my psychological barrier. This time with you is the first time I have been the receiving party in the past few years. But fortunately I waited for you, otherwise I might not be able to accept it in my life square."

Li Yuesong took Ye Sicun into his arms, hugged him tightly, put his lips against his earlobe and said, "I'm sorry. I'm sorry."

"What are you sorry for?"

"I was too timid at the time. I was afraid that my parents would disagree, I was afraid that others would laugh at me, I was afraid that if I told you that you couldn't go on with me, I was afraid of too many things, so I had to run away. I thought it would be good for us ..."

"Although we went around in circles, we are still together, that's enough." Ye Sicun interrupted Li Yuesong.

"Thank you." Li Yuesong said, "You still like me after all these years."

"What about you?" Ye Sicun asked, "I've never heard you say that."

"I..." Li Yuesong hesitated and said, "I love you."

Ye Sicun pressed heavily on Li Yuesong, and in Li Yuesong's ear, his voice was hoarse: "Let's do it again."

The next day, Liu Manhui actually brought a gift to thank Ye Sicun.Ye Sicun happened to be free during the day, Li Yuesong didn't go to work until nine o'clock, and it was too late at night, so when Liu Manhui arrived, neither of them had woken up.

Hearing the doorbell, Ye Sicun turned over and did not want to open the door.Li Yuesong got dressed and went to open the door.Liu Manhui didn't care when she saw a man she didn't know, and asked, "Is this Ye Sicun's home?"

"Yes, are you?"

"Oh, I'm Ye Sicun's friend." Liu Manhui smiled meaningfully, obviously feeling that the relationship between the two was unusual, but fortunately Li Yuesong didn't wake up and didn't notice it in a daze.Liu Manhui asked: "Are you his roommate?"

Li Yuesong nodded, let Liu Manhui in, and went to wake Ye Sicun up.When Ye Sicun heard that Liu Manhui was coming, he glanced at the time, it was seven o'clock.Putting down the alarm clock impatiently, he got under the quilt and said dissatisfiedly, "It's only time."

"The guests are here, so stop acting like a baby. Get up quickly." Li Yuesong patted Ye Sicun through the quilt.

Ye Sicun was wearing pajamas, with hair as messy as a bird's nest, rubbing his eyes while walking outside.Seeing the cake brought by Liu Manhui, she opened it without brushing her teeth and said, "Thank you."

Li Yuesong washed up and came out, threw a wet towel to Ye Sicun, Ye Sicun wiped his face, pushed another piece of cake brought by Liu Manhui to Li Yuesong and said, "You eat, I'll get some for Tianba."

Liu Manhui was instantly unhappy, because she brought a total of two cakes, one for Ye Sicun and one for herself.Now Ye Sicun decided to send Li Yuesong to him, but she was still hungry.More importantly, the natural intimacy between Li Yuesong and Ye Sicun makes it impossible not to care.

Liu Manhui noticed that Li Yuesong went to Ye Sicun's room to change clothes.He asked, "You two sleep in the same room?"

Li Yuesong wanted to explain, but Ye Sicun opened his mouth first: "Is there something wrong with you coming so early?"

"No, my mother asked me to thank you for helping me rent a house, and take a look at your daily life by the way." Liu Manhui smiled slightly.

"What's so interesting about my daily life as a rough guy?"

"You can be considered a star, and my mother said that your life will be different. Besides, it's not a bad thing to know more."

"When is your interview?" Ye Sicun finished feeding Tianba, went to wash up, and chatted with Liu Manhui.

Li Yuesong went to the kitchen to make breakfast, a small cake was not enough.After Ye Sicun washed up, he came to see what Li Yuesong was doing, and Li Yuesong quietly said to Ye Sicun, "Ask that girl if she had breakfast, do you want to make it for her?"

"Make an extra serving, I'm sure I didn't eat it when I came here so early." Ye Sicun turned to ask Liu Manhui what he would like to have for breakfast. It was just a polite question, but Liu Manhui said he wanted cheesecake.It was the cake that Ye Sicun pushed to Li Yuesong.

Ye Sicun was a little uncomfortable with such provocations around the corner. Ye Sicun had a big heart and could bear no matter how he was treated, especially girls, who would greet him with a smile, but he couldn't treat Li Yuesong.No one can show any dissatisfaction with Li Yuesong, especially in front of Ye Sicun.

Ye Sicun asked Li Yuesong to cook for only two of them, and then ordered takeaway for Liu Manhui.Li Yuesong went to work after eating, and told Ye Sicun: "There is bone soup in the refrigerator, eat it when it is hot at noon. The vegetable balls in the lunch box can be stewed in bone soup. Be sure to eat fruit."

"Got it." Ye Sicun said goodbye to Li Yuesong while drinking warm millet porridge.

"You two are so close." Liu Manhui said.

Ye Sicun was surprised, because Li Yuesong didn't want to show their intimacy in front of others, and Ye Sicun paid special attention to it. From Liu Manhui's entry to Li Yuesong's departure, Ye Sicun didn't even touch Li Yuesong's hand. How did Liu Manhui see that the two were close?

"Is there? Maybe it's because they lived together for too long." Ye Sicun laughed.

"You're a man, you live with a man, and you're still so close, it's not good to hear about it." Liu Manhui said.

"Then how would you like to spread the word?" Ye Sicun was a little angry.

"At least there must be a girl in the family, right?"

"Wouldn't it be more ugly if two men and one woman lived in the same room?" Ye Sicun said.

"Then if one of you has a girlfriend, it would be inconvenient." Liu Manhui sneered.

"He has already been divorced, and I have no plans to have a girlfriend." Ye Sicun said clearly.

Liu Manhui got angry, and said angrily: "Then you still meet with me and pay me the rent."

"Don't get me wrong, my mother said that you came to Beijing alone and didn't know the place well, so let me take care of it. As for the rent, if you have the ability to pay it back to me, I hope you will pay it back to me." Ye Sicun said.

"My mother also said that you are a very gentleman boy, gentle and considerate to girls, that's all."

"Am I getting old, or are college students like this?" Ye Sicun held back his anger, "Should the whole world revolve around you?"

Liu Manhui was wronged, her big eyes were full of tears.Ye Sicun's heart softened, no matter how angry he was, he couldn't see the girl cry, so he immediately took out a tissue for Liu Manhui, and said in a more relaxed tone: "Don't cry, the person who came is a guest, I shouldn't be so fierce to you. But he is indeed mine. Good friend, I feel uncomfortable when I hear other people have opinions about him."

Liu Manhui wiped her tears and said, "He's just talking, and he won't do anything to him."

"Exit hurts people." Ye Sicun said earnestly, "I'm older than you, so I really shouldn't be so fussy with you. You are beautiful, talented, and know how to make boys subdue. You are a very good girl. Even without my help, you can make a living here. Why should you wrong yourself, listen to your parents' arrangement, and stay with a rascal like me?"

Ye Sicun's blunt words made Liu Manhui speechless, so she made up an excuse and left.

Ten minutes after Liu Manhui left, Ye Sicun's mother called.Mom was a little angry: "What did you do to Manman? I kept crying after calling."

"I didn't do anything, just said that she should rely on herself and not others."

"Are you still a man?" Mom said, "Is that what you told me about a girl who ran all the way to ask you for help?"

"No, I helped her well, but she detested me."

"If you hadn't said something nasty, she would definitely not be crying all the time. How do you ask me to explain to her parents when she looks like this?" Mom is not an unreasonable person either.

"Just explain what you want, I won't be with her anyway." Ye Sicun directly stated his thoughts.

Hearing what he said, my mother started nagging: "Tell me how old you are, and you are still so self-willed like a child. Such a good girl is made to cry by you, who wants to live with you in the future?"

"Mom, don't worry about my affairs."

"Okay, then bring me a daughter-in-law back."

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