i'm not sick

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"I've imagined being a director too many times, thinking I'm ready, but I didn't expect to be so tired when these trivial things are overwhelmed." Ye Sicun said enduring stomachache.

Li Yuesong didn't know how to comfort Ye Sicun. He also had a dream, dreaming that he could buy a boat and go to sea as the captain.However, this dream is too illusory. I didn't even mention it to my parents from the beginning to the end. According to their wishes, I learned computers.After being overwhelmed by the trivial life, my dream has changed, and I thought about developing a platform that can facilitate life.

But this platform was only in the experimental APP stage, and it was sold.After thinking about it, I really don't have the qualifications to talk about my dreams, so I didn't speak.

Ye Sicun continued: "I'm finding more and more... In fact, I'm not as strong as I imagined. Maybe Ah Hai is right, it's because I haven't experienced big twists and turns..."

"Stop talking." Li Yuesong said.Ye Sicun is Li Yuesong's hope, if Ye Sicun also gives up, Li Yuesong will not know what to do.Li Yuesong said slowly, "Don't put too much pressure on yourself. In fact, I still have a small treasury, which can guarantee our future life."

Ye Sicun sighed, touched Li Yuesong's hand, and closed his eyes.Under intense work, sleep as long as you can.With Li Yuesong by my side, I feel very safe.

Regardless of Ye Sicun's state of mind, he always treated the film with the best attitude and took it seriously until the last day of filming.During this period, there was a financial problem again, and it was Luo Yuchen who lent Ye Sicun.The finalization of the film and the finalization of Luo Yuchen were on the same day.

Seemingly knowing that he was going to drink to celebrate at night, Ye Sicun's stomach suddenly stopped hurting.

At the finale banquet, Ye Sicun went to thank everyone, especially Luo Yuchen.Instead, Luo Yuchen didn't want him to thank him. He drank the wine in his glass first and said, "It was agreed that I would be the heroine in your first film as the director. You kept your promise, why are you thanking me?"

Li Yuesong also wanted to thank Luo Yuchen, but Luo Yuchen shook his head and said, "I don't want your thanks, making you two like a family."

Li Yuesong didn't know how to respond.He knew that Luo Yuchen liked Ye Sicun, and that Luo Yuchen spoke quickly, but he never thought that she would say such things on such an occasion.

Seeing that Li Yuesong's face was a little restless, Luo Yuchen pushed Ye Sicun and said, "Hurry up and coax your little lover, it's so boring to waste time with everyone."

Luo Yuchen likes Ye Sicun, no less than Ye Sicun likes Li Yuesong. Unfortunately, he is a crooked person, and he made it clear at the beginning. Now that he has made it clear, he can't be the first unreasonable person who cares about every detail.But Luo Yuchen couldn't completely ignore Li Yuesong.

She also has a petty temper, and she can't see the person she likes being intimate with others.

At the finale banquet, the director was not drunk, but the leading actor was.Luo Yuchen was drunk and was carried back to the hotel by his assistant.After the banquet was over, everyone went back to their respective homes.Ye Sicun has very strict requirements for this film, and he has done a great job in all aspects. Everyone is full of expectations for this film, so naturally they drink more.

Ye Sicun also drank a little too much, and the others were taken away by his assistant, but Ye Sicun couldn't find his assistant anyway.

Ye Sicun walked back to the hotel alone, found Li Yuesong's room, and swiped his card to enter.Li Yuesong was already washing in his pajamas.

Because there was not much need for him to exist at the banquet, Li Yuesong returned to his room early.

"Okay, director assistant, the director hasn't returned to his room yet, you're going to sleep." Ye Sicun yelled and slammed the door.

Seeing that Ye Sicun was a little drunk, Li Yuesong first poured Ye Sicun a glass of warm water.Ye Sicun took the water glass and said proudly, "This is what an assistant looks like."

"Drink quickly." Li Yuesong gently stroked Ye Sicun's back.

"Don't think you can buy me off with a glass of water." Ye Sicun finished drinking the water, pushed Li Yuesong down, rode on Li Yuesong, and asked, "Are you angry when Luo Yuchen just said that?"

Li Yuesong couldn't help laughing, it turned out that Ye Sicun was not drunk, but was sober.

"What? I'm angry, can't I?"

"No!" Ye Sicun half-closed his eyes and pulled off his tie.The condescending action made Li Yuesong's heart skip a beat.

"You are serving me. You can only be angry if I allow you to be angry."

"Hehe." Li Yuesong wanted to get up and press Ye Sicun back, but Ye Sicun pressed Li Yuesong tightly, making him unable to move.

"Disobedient?" Ye Sicun smirked, "Then I will teach you a lesson. Let you know who is the boss."

"I think you drank too much." Li Yuesong said.

"Call the boss directly 'you'? Huh?" Ye Sicun tied Li Yuesong's wrist with a tie, "Say, you!"

"You?" Li Yuesong smiled disdainfully.

"You still dare to laugh?" Ye Sicun bit Li Yuesong's collarbone.

The sharp stabbing pain made Li Yuesong tremble all over, and his lower body obviously reacted.Feeling Li Yuesong's reaction, Ye Sicun stared at Li Yuesong: "Are you an M?"

Li Yuesong was silent.

Ye Sicun thought to himself, no wonder his family abused him so much back then, and he endured it. It turned out that it was because of his tendency to be abused.

Ye Sicun was happy.Because Ye Si especially likes to bite people in bed.Because Li Yuesong was afraid of pain, he held back all the time.Now that the other party is so responsive to his teeth, Ye Sicun will naturally not give up such a good opportunity.

Ye Sicun tore off Li Yuesong's pajamas, and the hungry wolf gnawed on it as if seeing meat.The stimulation of pain made Li Yuesong a little excited. He wanted to turn over and press Ye Sicun under him, but Ye Sicun tied his wrists and had nowhere to rely.

Ye Sicun smirked, and said, "Please, I'll untie you." As he spoke, he licked and kissed Li Yuesong's skin, all the way down, his hand had already reached behind Li Yuesong.

Li Yuesong twisted and tried to stop him, but he clearly accepted Ye Sicun. Ye Sicun smiled slightly and raised his fingers.

"Slow down." Li Yuesong urged.

"You." Ye Sicun emphasized.

"Slow down." Li Yuesong was very cooperative on the bed.

Ye Sicun felt great satisfaction in his heart, and impatiently attacked the city.Before Li Yuesong got used to it, he accepted Ye Sicun's impact. The pain was accompanied by pleasure, which was extremely satisfying.

After the filming was completed, although everyone dispersed, Ye Sicun borrowed money from Luo Yuchen in order to pay everyone's salary, and also owed money to the photographer buddies, and owed the salaries of many actors. Although everyone said they were here to help, Work is work.

Ye Sicun started to edit the film, and finally got some investment and publicity.Because of Ye Sicun's stubbornness, the film was not placed with advertisements, and the cost was not paid back in the early stage. After the film was edited, it was sent to the theaters, but it couldn't be delivered.

Ye Sicun naturally understood the reason, because of the director's style.

Since the path of the theater chain is not feasible, then go to online movies.

A group of people has been busy for a year, and the film is finally released.Originally, I was waiting for the harvest, but I encountered black fans.

Black fans have a lot of opinions on Ye Sicun. Many people commented and boycotted the film, criticized the film, and even directly attacked the director.Ye Sicun was very concerned about his first novel, so he naturally read every comment.For such a promising event, Ye Sicun was in a bad mood because of cyber violence.

All the abuse on the Internet is a question of Ye Sicun's talent and an injury to Ye Sicun's self-esteem.Ye Sicun began to suffer from insomnia.Although I can sleep well, I always wake up in the middle of the night. After waking up, I don't feel any drowsiness until dawn.

After watching Ye Sicun's film, several film critics commented that as a new director, it is still very good.But the praise was soon drowned in the abuse.

Whether it is scolding or praise, it is a step to the success of a film.But when the movie became popular and the number of clicks increased, pirated links began to appear on the Internet.

The first film, shot at the most inappropriate time, was a complete failure.

Later, Ye Sicun couldn't even afford the salary.Ye Sicun didn't know how to face his friend.The more considerate his friends were, the sadder Ye Sicun became.

Ye Sicun's insomnia became more and more serious. Even with his eyes closed all night, it was difficult to fall asleep, and the night became a torment.He didn't want to tell Li Yuesong about it, for fear that he would be worried.But I can't sleep at night, I don't have energy during the day, and my appetite is getting worse.As a last resort, Ye Sicun asked Rong Xuan for help.

When Rong Xuan first received the call from Ye Sicun, he thought Ye Sicun was making some joke. After all, in Rong Xuan's view, Ye Sicun's greatest pursuit in his life was Li Yuesong. Now that Li Yuesong was by his side, there was nothing to defeat him.

But Ye Sicun's tone was clearly as if he had just experienced a disaster: "I have been suffering from insomnia recently."

"How long?"

"It's been almost half a month, and I can't fall asleep." Ye Sicun said.

Rong Xuan knew about Ye Sicun's movie, but Ye Sicun was very enthusiastic when he was filming, Rong Xuan thought nothing would happen, now it seems that Rong Xuan overestimated Ye Sicun.

Ye Sicun looks like an unbeatable Xiaoqiang, but he is also an ordinary person.He can work hard for his dream, and he is also someone who will be defeated by his dream.

Ye Sicun began to treat with the help of Rong Xuan, because he was always in a bad mood, and couldn't bear to let Li Yuesong see himself sad, so he often stayed out at night.When sleeping here with Rong Xuan, Rong Xuan will use some sleep-promoting methods to help him. Rong Xuan can see Ye Sicun from the perspective of a doctor, and Ye Sicun doesn't have to worry about his emotions affecting Rong Xuan.

But Li Yuesong couldn't accept that something happened to Ye Sicun and he avoided him.He found Rong Xuan's clinic and came to see Ye Sicun. Ye Sicun sat on the bed with a pale face, with his back to Li Yuesong.

Li Yuesong wanted to talk to Ye Sicun, but Rong Xuan saw that Li Yuesong was very excited, stopped him, and told him: "If Ye Sicun hasn't talked to you, don't talk about it."

Li Yuesong sat quietly behind Ye Sicun, and the two of them sat like this for a whole day, and finally in the evening, Ye Sicun opened his mouth.

He asked Li Yuesong: "Why do people live?" Ye Sicun has been thinking about this question these days, but he couldn't come up with an answer.

This question also caught Li Yuesong.When Li Yuesong was a child, he felt that the most important thing was to make his parents face. He had to get full marks in the exam, to get a year-end certificate, to get a good college entrance examination, to get married and start a family, and to earn more money than his peers in the town.

But Li Yuesong really couldn't tell why he was alive.

Ye Sicun said slowly: "I used to think that getting ahead was the most important thing. At that time, I thought highly of myself and wanted to make a movie. I didn't pass the exam for directing, so I learned acting and set the ultimate goal of directing. I experienced a lot of unhappy things later. , I feel that being happy is the most important thing. Be yourself without hurting others. Later... I didn't expect to be with you. I didn't even think about it. At that time, I felt that walking with you is the best Important. I want to make you happy and protect you...but it's so difficult...whether it's for dreams or emotions..."

Now that the film was a complete failure, Ye Sicun also completely doubted his ability.He suspects that he has no talent, and there is nothing that can attract Li Yuesong.In the past, he imagined the future, but he lied to himself.

Hearing what Ye Sicun said, Li Yuesong was also afraid. He never thought that a person's mood could have such a serious impact on his body.Li Yuesong didn't understand the disease, so he asked Rong Xuan for help.

As Ye Sicun's friend, Rong Xuan has always felt that there is nothing that can defeat Ye Sicun. No matter how difficult he encountered before, he can overcome it with full confidence and hope.Later, when I saw Ye Sicun and Li Yuesong together, I knew that in order to make Li Yuesong happy, Ye Sicun always kept his emotions full, and there must be some frustrations that he couldn't get rid of, but Ye Sicun still persisted.

It turns out that it is dreams that can really defeat Ye Sicun.In high school, Ye Sicun first chose his dream, and only came to Li Yuesong when he was on the road to his dream.Rong Xuan didn't know if Ye Sicun himself had done multiple-choice questions, but subconsciously, his dream was much bigger than Li Yuesong's.

Rong Xuan can only say: "Follow him more during illness, otherwise he will be tired. But try to keep him in your sight, I'm afraid he will suddenly have something to worry about."

Li Yuesong tried his best to keep staring at Ye Sicun, and slept with Ye Sicun in his arms all night.Ye Sicun's insomnia became more and more serious. His body was affected by emotions and his immunity was weakened. He had to be admitted to the hospital for treatment.

In order for Ye Sicun to recover quickly, Rong Xuan brought his old comic book and asked him to draw comics when he has time.But Ye Sicun felt tired even picking up the pen, so Li Yuesong showed Ye Sicun the drawing.Li Yuesong's clumsy brush looks like a kindergartener's drawing.

Ye Sicun was very repulsive to the outside world, and the two lived in the ward. Li Yuesong took good care of him, cooked Ye Sicun's favorite food, accompanied him every day, and kissed him before going to bed.Squeeze him watercolors and take him for a walk in the ward.Li Yuesong didn't like to talk, and the two of them talked very little, very quiet, but also very comfortable.

After a long time, Li Yuesong has also changed, not as stiff as before, he can calmly move intimately with Ye Sicun, and his words are full of love.