i'm not sick

Ye Sicun didn't want to listen anymore, he came out of the room, took the materials he had printed out, and called Li Yuesong's sister in from the corridor, saying, "The family members need to be accompanied for treatment."

My sister and Ye Sicun entered the consultation room together, and Li Yuesong's face immediately changed when he saw Ye Sicun.But seeing my sister here, it's not easy to have a seizure.Ye Sicun went into the back room again, peeking at his sister flipping through the documents, his face darkened little by little.Ye Sicun called Rong Xuan and said, "Doctor, come in, the instrument can't be used anymore."

When Rong Xuan walked into the room, Ye Sicun closed the glass door, hugged Rong Xuan, and the two kissed passionately against the glass.

My sister couldn't bear to read the information, and when she looked up and saw such a scene again, her heart almost couldn't bear it.He threw the materials on the ground and said, "Go, go home. What a broken hospital."

Li Yuesong glanced at the data that his sister had lost. It was the third edition of "Classification and Diagnostic Criteria of Mental Disorders in China".When Li Yuesong first came to this psychiatric clinic, the doctor gave him this set of information, which clearly deleted "homosexuality" from the list of mental illnesses.

Seeing the two people going out, Ye Sicun immediately took off his white coat, took off his mask and chased them out, for fear that Li Yuesong would get angry.Li Yuesong saw that Ye Sicun was chasing him, so he asked his sister to go back first.

Ye Sicun ran up to Li Yuesong at a sprint speed of [-] meters, but stood firm one meter away from Li Yuesong, and said in a panic: "You must not be angry, I was also impulsive. I was sent for treatment even though it was not a disease. , It's hard for me to accept. I didn't ask the doctor to ask you those questions on purpose just now, because I like you. I have liked you since high school. At that time, I didn't know whether you liked boys or girls, so I never said Exit. Then it was graduation, parting ways, and then you got married. I don’t dare to say anything anymore. I know everything from other people. I dare not approach you for fear that you won’t be able to accept it. I know your family traditions, tutoring Strict. If you really mind, we can do as before and never contact again."

When Ye Sicun was in a hurry, he spoke very fast, coupled with nervousness and excitement, he couldn't figure out where his logic was, and he didn't know what he said. It was only when he finished talking at the end and looked up at Li Yuesong that he realized Now, he actually confessed.Ye Si has always been so weak in reason in front of Li Yuesong.

Ye Sicun waited for Li Yuesong's next words.Li Yuesong said with a cold face: "Who was that person who kissed you just now?"

The panic on Ye Sicun's face disappeared, and a smile filled his face.Ye Sicun laughed, happy from the inside out.Li Yuesong is still the same, although he doesn't say it, but the whole world knows that he likes Ye Sicun's Li Yuesong.

"That's just acting." Ye Sicun smiled and dragged Li Yuesong to the boiling water room, held Li Yuesong's face, and kissed him deeply.Li Yuesong pushed Ye Sicun away, looked at no one around, and said angrily, "What are you doing?"

Ye Sicun smiled and said: "Do you remember the last time you sent me home in high school? I wanted to do that at that time. It's just that I was a kid at that time, and I didn't know if you liked boys, so I didn't dare. Now Dare."

"Did I say I liked you?" Li Yuesong wiped the drool from the corner of his mouth, "You don't want to know something ambiguous and act recklessly."

Ye Sicun licked his lips, and said with disdain: "Anyway, I kissed him before. Don't forget the night you had sex after drinking."

Li Yuesong was poked into a soft spot, turned around and walked out of the boiling water room, saying, "I still have something to do, I'm leaving first."

Ye Sicun understood Li Yuesong, always wanted to give him a step down, grabbed Li Yuesong, said with a smile on his face, "I was wrong, I was wrong. I didn't say anything just now, let's stay and have a meal together."

Li Yuesong did not refuse.Li Yuesong felt relaxed when Ye Sicun found out about his liking for the same sex.Before that, his feelings for Ye Sicun were also part of his repression.The things in his heart are always under pressure, everything is under pressure, and he bears it alone.Ye Sicun gave him a release, making him feel that maybe life is not that bad.

The two of them randomly found a place to eat nearby.Ye Sicun couldn't help asking Li Yuesong about his relationship with Guan Yinyin: "Since you don't like girls, but you are still married, what about your married life?"

"You should be better at coaxing girls than me, right?"

"What is coaxing?" Ye Sicun was unhappy, "I have always been gentle and considerate to girls. Women are very great creatures in the human world."

"If I have to say it, I'm sorry for her." Li Yuesong said helplessly.

It was rare for Li Yuesong to be honest, telling Ye Sicun about his relationship with Guan Yinyin.Maybe it was because Ye Sicun knew his secret and didn't take it as a problem, so Li Yuesong was able to speak so frankly.

At the age of marriage, Li Yuesong's parents have been trying every means to arrange a blind date for him.After seeing all kinds of girls, Li Yuesong gave up his resistance, thinking that if he didn't find another girl to associate with, the family would suspect him.Being with Guan Yinyin was a coincidence.

Guan Yinyin was two years older than him, and she hated blind dates, and firmly believed that her lover needed to find out by herself.So when he saw Li Yuesong, he intentionally magnified his shortcomings.Li Yuesong's first impression of Guan Yinyin was that she was extremely selfish, very playful, and worshiped money even if she was not loyal to her relationship.

It happened that all the conditions met Li Yuesong's requirements.Li Yuesong doesn't need Guan Yinyin's feelings for him, he just needs Guan Yinyin to have something he likes.Guan Yinyin likes to buy bags, but fortunately, Li Yuesong's family is well-off, so it is easy to satisfy her hobby of buying bags.

Li Yuesong began to pursue Guan Yinyin respectfully.Guan Yinyin started dating Li Yuesong with a playful attitude at first, but later found that Li Yuesong was a particularly suitable marriage partner, rich, down-to-earth, and loyal.So he agreed to marry Li Yuesong.

As for married life.At the beginning, Li Yuesong said that he could not accept premarital sex, so the two dragged it off until they got married.On the day of the wedding, Li Yuesong got drunk and fooled around.But life can't always be drunk.The two tried many times, with some successes and some failures. In short, it was very disharmonious.

Guan Yinyin began to pay attention to the folk prescriptions of old Chinese medicine.I don't know where to get some strange traditional Chinese medicine, let Li Yuesong take it.Li Yuesong was young and had no physical problems. He took some yang-strengthening and nourishing medicine all day long, and he had nowhere to vent. He almost got sick, so he had no choice but to work overtime.Fortunately, it is common for programmers to work overtime, so Guan Yinyin didn't suspect it.

But within a few months of marriage, Li Yuesong found out that Guan Yinyin was cheating.Li Yuesong found a pair of male underwear that did not belong to him at home.At first Li Yuesong chose to remain silent.But later, Guan Yinyin intensified and went on a trip with her cheating partner directly, and even posted photos on the Internet.

After all, they are a family, Li Yuesong didn't care about his own face, but also the face of his parents, so he had a good talk with Guan Yinyin, the content of the talk was very simple.He knew that Guan Yinyin had someone outside, but Guan Yinyin was still Li Yuesong's wife, so even if she wanted to go out to find someone, don't be blatant.

Seeing Li Yuesong acquiescing to her going out to find someone, Guan Yinyin almost broke down, saying that she did this these days just to make Li Yuesong look at her more.Li Yuesong had no choice but to coax Guan Yinyin by buying bags.Guan Yinyin was completely angry, saying that she is not a little girl who can be coaxed with just one or two bags.Let Li Yuesong have to give her an explanation.

Li Yuesong could only remain silent.

Guan Yinyin broke up with her cheating partner suddenly, and then secretly investigated Li Yuesong.Often when Li Yuesong was asleep, he checked Li Yuesong's cell phone to check his clothes and body.

Li Yuesong knew everything Guan Yinyin did, but Guan Yinyin couldn't find anything no matter how hard she checked, because Li Yuesong had always restrained herself, even if she liked men, she never showed it, let alone dated any men.

As time passed, the two became more and more irritable.Li Yuesong felt that procrastinating would delay Guan Yinyin, and would soon make him inhuman.So I created a chat history on my phone.The content is nothing more than his ambiguity with a man.

Guan Yinyin couldn't accept it.File for divorce immediately.Apart from sex and love, Li Yuesong could give Guan Yinyin everything, but Guan Yinyin only wanted these two.

Li Yuesong thought that his parents would not force him to marry after witnessing his unhappiness in marriage, but he didn't expect that it would just stop for a while after the divorce, and soon they changed their ways to arrange a blind date for Li Yuesong.

After listening to Li Yuesong finish all this, Ye Sicun felt very sad. He couldn't figure out why Li Yuesong suppressed himself so much.In fact, there are still many paths that can be taken. You can’t live without being gay, right?

Li Yuesong shook his head and said, "I thought Guan Yinyin would leave silently, but I didn't expect her to tell my parents about it. You've seen what happened later. That's why I didn't dare to say anything for so many years."

"Why don't you go to Beijing with me? Stay away from your parents." Ye Sicun said, "Anyway, you code, so you can easily find a job in Beijing."

"You think things are too simple." Li Yuesong said, "You made such a fuss in the hospital today, you are sincerely embarrassing me. When you go home, you don't know what to say."

"You can't even identify with yourself, how can you ask others to identify with you?"

"It's not that I can't identify with myself, it's that the surrounding environment can't make me identify with myself." Li Yuesong said.

"Come with me." Ye Sicun begged.

"You go back. It's time for me to go back too." Li Yuesong said, "Actually, my parents just want me to be like an ordinary person. I'll try my best."

"I will try my best" four words, I don't know how much grievance and bitterness I have to swallow, how much pain and struggle I have to endure.

"If you figure it out one day, come to Beijing to find me." Ye Sicun said, "My phone number will never change, and I will be switched on 24 hours a day. You can contact me at any time."