On how to understand love

Hitsugaya Toshirō stood beside him, seeing Yuya sitting on the ground staring blankly at the already cold puppy corpse, after thinking about it, he walked over bravely and squatted in front of her: "Yuiya, first Let's go back."

He stretched out his hand to hold her, and Yumi was pulled up by the captain. She once again felt the captain's big hand was a little rough, especially the place where the knife was held had thick calluses. Although most gods of death have such calluses, the captain's is particularly obvious. .She looked at her hands, which were white and tender, and suddenly her nose felt sore.

I haven't worked hard enough, I can't do it, I can't protect anyone.

I really want to protect my companions, I really want to protect many people.She thought of the people she had lost: she hoped to protect Abai, her relatives, her companions, and most of all, the captain.

After the captain took her hand, he had difficulty walking. He thought for a while, and then said to Yuya: "Because of my own weakness, I can only watch my companions get hurt many times, and even hurt important people." The captain's voice was steady.

Yuya didn't speak, but just looked at the white snow in front of him expressionlessly.

She felt that a big stone was suddenly pressed on her shoulders, which was so heavy that it almost made her suffocate. She thought about the captain's words expressionlessly, and her pale face and snow-white hair almost melted into the milky white snow beside her. As one, she closed her eyes and felt the boulder on her shoulders for a while, then slowly opened her eyes.

She seemed to understand.

A little bit.

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Back at the Urahara store, Yuya saw Xiaoyu who was waiting by the door to build a snowman with Jinta, Xiaoyu smiled and turned to greet Yumi: "Welcome back! Miss Yuya, lunch is ready...ah Well, didn’t you go for a walk with the dog? Where’s Xiao Dengzhang?”

Yuya's steps that she was about to take stopped in place, she stopped in place, and stepped on a deep footprint in the snow.Seeing that her and the team leader's expressions were not right, Xiaoyu lost her former liveliness. She quietly asked, "What's wrong...? Did something happen?"

Hitsugaya Toshiro looked at her, and then took a step forward: "That dog was attacked by the enemy on the road and died." He frowned, then put his hands in his pockets, and carried Yuya behind his back, intending to go one step ahead of her. Room.Yumi put her eyes on the captain's back, and seeing his silent and steady back moving away from her, she suddenly remembered what the captain said in the snow just now.

At this time, Yumi stood in place, glanced back at the astonished Xiaoyu, lowered her head slightly, and said unambiguously: "I'm sorry." She couldn't tell the difference.

Yumi stood where she was, tilted her head slightly to look at the dog house next to her, and just watched quietly without saying a word.Kou was right next to him, Jinta heard what Yuya and Captain Hitsugaya said, and knew something was wrong, the two frowned, and the emotions that surged up all of a sudden made the three standing there unable to speak.

Shita was the first to react, he swallowed his saliva, walked forward, frowned and looked at Yumi, "Don't be too sad, no one will blame you, that dog is too..."

Jinta talked for a while, feeling that no matter what she said was wrong, it was not appropriate, Yumi didn't seem to be moved, she still looked at the dog house, paused for about five seconds, and then turned around slowly , she said softly: "...I didn't protect the puppy well."

Jinta was stunned, and stood where he was, knowing that no matter what, Yuya would not be able to relax.And Captain Hitsugaya, who seemed to love her the most on weekdays, seemed to be planning to let Yuya face it alone.

Jinta opened his mouth and shook his head again.Turning around, he picked up the light rain a little roughly, and then hurried into the house.Xiao Yu knew Jinta's intentions, but she didn't forget to turn her head and say to Yuya: "Miss Yuya, don't stay outside alone for too long."

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After everyone left, Yuya approached the kennel alone, and knelt down in front of the kennel.How to do it?She asked herself, her heart was empty, no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't think of what she should do next.

She just knelt and sat there quietly.

She didn't look up until she felt something cold and cold suddenly touch her face.

It was snow, white flowers like cotton wool, the snow in the past few days was falling at night, so she couldn't see it.The snow as soft as a feather fell around, and when she stretched out her hand, she could catch a snowflake, and the snowflake quickly melted in her palm, turning into a drop of crystal cold water, sliding down her arm, like Tears flowed down lightly.

When the cold water slid against the skin of the arm to the elbow, the accompanying coolness penetrated the skin directly into her heart, her limbs trembled, and the blood in her body seemed to be congealing, Yumi felt The air around here suddenly dropped, and she knelt and sat alone, reaching out to touch her unconscious face.

Just pinching my nose and face like this doesn't seem to feel any pain.

She stared deeply at the empty dog ​​house, as if for a moment, she could see the little black dog sticking its head out of it and barking energetically at her.

Yumi closed her eyes, opened them again, and there was nothing in front of her eyes.

...It's almost time to get up.

She finally raised her spirits, stretched out her hand to carefully photograph the accumulated white snow on the roof of the dog house, and after noticing the snow particles sticking to her body, she did not forget to photograph them carefully.He lowered his head, stood up, took one last look at the dog house, and walked back to the Urahara store.

Let's go back.

You shouldn't be in a daze like this.

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She opened the door of the store, and the warm current inside rushed to her face, bringing instant comfort to her unconscious skin.Her stiff body softened, she exhaled lightly, barely audible breath, slowly took off her shoes and placed them in the hallway, and went straight into the room by herself.

She felt strangely calm.

It's not that there is no sadness, it's not that there is no pain, she is very sad and painful, but her heart is as quiet as a lake without waves, even the sound of fallen leaves, she can hear it clearly.

I'm sorry.

I am sorry.

She reached out and grabbed the fabric of her chest, and closed her eyes.

The heart hurts, it hurts, and the nose is sore.

She looked at her hands with thin calluses, which were white. In the morning, she was still stroking the little guy full of spirit. Then at noon, holding a knife in her hand, she personally turned a monster that was transformed from that little guy Solve it by yourself.Its body gradually became as bitingly cold as snow.

She rubbed her chest, closed her eyes seriously and asked.

——Deng Zhang, am I too weak?

Deng Zhang didn't answer her.

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"Shenzu! Why did you kill Yumi's puppy!" Jing was so angry that she jumped her feet. Today, she went out with Mr. Shenzu. After seeing Yumi, she was so excited for a long time. Later, Mr. Shenzu didn't say a word Just attacking Yuya, she didn't say a word at that time, but seeing Yuya crying because of losing the puppy, she felt a little inexplicably aggrieved when she returned home.

She followed behind Shenzu, who yawned casually, glanced at her, and asked in a somewhat magnetic voice, "Are you going to help Death?"

She was stunned for a few seconds, paused on the spot, and quickly frowned and shouted: "No! But didn't you see? Yumi was very sad!" At that moment, she was also frightened, just like that, within 10 minutes, then The first puppy fell silent from the blur, dying, and Yumi knelt in front of the puppy, instantly exuding a strong sadness that even she felt.

"So what about being sad? Otherwise, can Death understand my pain?"

Sitting deep enough on the slightly dilapidated leather sofa, he put his feet on the coffee table, casually picked up the thick leather book next to him, raised the corners of his lips with a smile and said, "I'm just retaliating with an eye. I passed by today. There, seeing that girl is so leisurely and leisurely, I just attacked her for fun, my original target was not the dog, but the dog jumped down and was hit by the silver knife directly, and it was self-inflicted."

After saying that, he took out a few sharp silver knives from the front of his clothes, glanced at them quietly, and could only sigh. The silver knives were imbued with the power of 'suggestion' and 'hypnosis' specially researched by Lu Ci. In addition to having special attack functions, After hitting the target, it will disturb the opponent's Reiatsu, which is more deadly than ordinary knives.

If the spirit body still has this small knife stuck in its body after death, it will instantly accelerate the speed of blurring, and get the 'hint' and 'hypnosis' of strengthened power, plus the ability possessed by Master Shenzu himself is beyond the reach of death. Basically, Master Shen Zuo's strength plus the knife, as well as various inventions of Brigade, is enough to perfectly lead an army.

She was a little uneasy, and pressed her chest. Under the protection of Shenzu, she had never personally killed a single person. In fact, she had never seen the turmoil they caused in this world. However, she always had a feeling of heart palpitations and a sudden sense of guilt, as if she had betrayed something.

She was always puzzled why, as a subordinate of Shamen, she would feel so guilty for hurting the world of souls.I was silent for a while, thought about it, pain... what is Master Shenzu's pain?After suddenly remembering this, Jing yelled: "Speaking of which, Master Shenzu, you never told me why you attacked Soul Soul Realm..."

Shenzu looked up at the expression on her face, then lowered his head leisurely.

"I don't want to tell you." Shenzu buried his head and looked at the thick book, he paused for a few seconds: "What's wrong? If I don't tell you, will you go to the god of death? Don't be stupid, I am Pomian, and you are my subordinate, as far as the ancient rules of the Soul Realm are concerned, you will only die by their principles."

Unexpectedly, Master Shenzu would suddenly throw words at her, Jing just looked at him stupidly, and she quickly became furious:

"Master Shenzu! You are too much, to be like this..." So... I don't believe my loyalty to you, so quiet tears swirled in my eyes, and then I looked up for half a minute, and the tears had disappeared: "I won't Betrayal! And Master Shenzu suspects me, it is too much!"

She turned her back, then rushed into her room, closing the door firmly.

The next time I was in the next room, I twirled my messy hair, and sighed helplessly: That guy is really full of little girl temper... But fortunately, he didn't rush into my room this time, otherwise the research will be postponed for an unknown amount of time .

He continued to type the program on the keyboard, and occasionally raised the instrument beside him to fiddle with it... But after a few minutes of working, his hand froze in the air again. He frowned and put the instrument down, and the dead fish looked at To the wall—as if he could look straight through the wall and see her in the next room.

The sound of her sobbing could be heard in small fragments, and Luci, who has always had a particularly sensitive ear, could not ignore the girl's cry anyway. He closed the laptop, feeling very upset, so he stood up and stretched his waist, circling around spine.

...Well, let's stop and go take a bath and make some instant noodles.

If the girl hadn't interrupted his thoughts, he wouldn't have remembered that he was hungry.

Where is the ramen that I stole from her last time...?