four o'clock moonlight

But it was more of a silence. If this continued, Andersa even had an illusion, as if Abela liked him sometimes, and he still had a chance.

Is it too greedy to be a lover who can't see the light, but still wants to have an aboveboard identity?

Andersa didn't know, he only wanted Abra to have only him in his eyes, and he only wanted him alone.

But the fact is that Abra has never been short of lovers, but none of them last as long as Andersa.

This must have caused Andersa to have the illusion that Abra liked him, as if it was true.

So, just when Andesa thought that he could really be together with his hard work, something unexpected happened.

Abra is going to Dirk.

He is not qualified to go to Deke, only those nobles or those who are called like Abra can. Of course, Abra is not opposed to taking him there, no matter what his identity is.

Therefore, he begged Abra to take him, but he was refused.

"Why...don't let me go..."

"When you go there, you will only become a toy for entertainment, which is useless. Moreover, you have no ability to rely on yourself. For more than three years, you have relied on me to survive, right? ?” Abra said softly.

"But I..." There is still a use for being entertained by you.

Andersa's first reaction when he heard this was like this, even though he was just a toy for entertainment in the eyes of Abra, but he still desperately wanted to get close, no matter how much he made himself a bitch.

But no matter what, they were all rejected. Once rejected, Abra went to Dirk, and there was really no day to see each other again.

As long as he thinks of not being able to see each other, Andersa can't help but think of the countless insomnia and decadent nights more than three years ago. He is afraid of this. Without Abra's daily life, the world is probably gray .

So, Andersa made a bet with Abra that within three years, he would be able to support himself and make some achievements.

Abra agreed, delaying the trip to Dirk for three years.

During this period, they still maintain the relationship of lovers, but Abela will no longer give money to Andesa, and Andersa will earn it himself.

Abra thought that Andersa had been used to living a life of extravagance for three years, and he would definitely quit soon.

But no, Andersa is still working hard.

It is true that he has a bad reputation in Grenville, and sometimes he even has no food to eat, but God always gives him another way out. No matter how difficult it is, he has gone on, even if he has to endure other people's eyes, sarcasm and abuse.

Yeah, none of that can be erased from him.

Andersa recalled everything from his encounter with Abra up to the present, and his eyes were moist.

How could his efforts for so long be easily denied?

"You can continue to be my toy, right?" Abela smiled sarcastically.

Andersa didn't speak, just lowered his head.

"But after playing for a long time, you will get bored, won't you?" Abela continued.

"Then we won't see each other again in the future, I think you've thought it through." Abela turned and left after saying this.

"No..." Andersa subconsciously prevented Abra from leaving.

Abra stopped in his tracks, as if to hear what he had to say.

"Three days later, the old place, I'll wait for you, you... will definitely come, right... let's leave together..." Andersa seemed to accept the reality and casually said those impossible words, but also seemed unwilling to continue Make a last ditch.

Three days later, it was the day when Abra was about to leave for Dirk.

Abra left after listening to the words.

Andersa watched Abra's back getting further and further away until he disappeared around the corner, and shed tears.

In the past three days, Andersa didn't pack up his things, instead of sleeping, he just sat on the bed and looked out the window quietly.

Why not pack your things?Because he wants to welcome a new life with a new look, he doesn't want everything here, as long as there is... Birla.

The three days passed quickly, and in the evening, Andersa sat on a bench in the park and waited. He believed that Bora would definitely come, just based on the seven years of... friendship, so be it.Andersa thought so.

But I waited and waited, but I didn't see a single figure, because today was the day for Bella to leave, and everyone went to see him off, so the park seemed a little quiet, even desolate.

It was almost four o'clock, and Andersa looked at the time on his pocket watch.

He faintly heard the singing and music played by Bora in the city. He looked in that direction, but there was still a glimmer of hope in his heart, unwilling to accept the reality.

He suddenly remembered why he and Bella always meet at four o'clock.

Bora is a musician, he has to get up early for training, and he can't stay out overnight. Every time, he makes an appointment to meet him in this park at four o'clock, and then do other things. The place is Abel Pulling, occasionally, will let Andersa do it twice, let him choose a place.It was almost six o'clock, and Abra left again. It has been like this for seven years.

Andersa looked at the place filled with memories of him and Abra, and began to think about many things.

Abra once said that a person like him who can make fun of others on the street at will must not be dedicated, and can accept a stranger's kiss, touch, and even deeper movements.

But Abra didn't know, it was because of him that Andersa would do that, and if it were anyone, Andersa would have refused.

It's four o'clock.

No one was seen yet, only the sound of singing came from afar, and Andersa was a little lost.

In fact, he was really sad to live without Abra. Maybe if there was no Abra, he would have died on the night of the trial. It would be both physically and psychologically.

The evening wind blows, blowing the ends of my hair and eyelashes. I use this description to cover up my red eye sockets.

Waiting further down, there is only endless despair, it is better to be relieved.

But I really can't bear it, the seven years of relationship disappeared in this instant, but I also don't want the seven years of relationship to become a constant entanglement torment every day, and I can't get rid of it.

Among them, you were my unchangeable belief and my unattainable dream.

It is inevitable to feel lost and discouraged in my heart, but it is not as good as it is now. Maybe I can no longer see hope, let alone the sun of tomorrow.

Will that be warm?I don't know, all I know is that I'm a little cold right now, I tried to hug myself, but my whole body was so cold that it seemed like there was no way to warm me up.

In fact, I am most afraid of the cold, no matter what time it is, so in the endless night, I will hug him tightly, that feeling is peace of mind, very warm.

There will be no more, and there will be no more. I quietly watched the lake surface being blown by the wind, and the microwave was sparkling. When I reached out and touched it, I found it was very warm.

I seem to be crying, why do I look so sad in my reflection, don't be sad, I won't be sad if I hug you.

To you, I am like a whale to the sea, like a bird to the forest, it is inevitable, there is no way to retreat.

One day, I give the moon

wrote a long letter

Although not as bright as yours

But I still lit a small candle

In the park shrouded in mist

singing nameless bird

Where are you

oh you

why cry

it's just me and you

Meaning you

oh you

As the dark night falls

your singing

Two steps

Come with a fiery morning

across the early hours of the morning

if the moon is asleep

The Blu-ray that once walked with me

Also disappeared

Today I want to get by

As the pace becomes more sophisticated

The sun also stops breathing

the world leaves me naked

I have nothing to do

Pick up the broken me under the moonlight

Icallyoumoonchild

we are the children of the moon

exhale cold breath in the morning

Yes we're livinanddyin

at the same time

But open your eyes now

like a certain movie like a certain line

Because everything in the world is blue under the moonlight

In the park shrouded in mist

singing nameless bird

Where are you

oh you

why cry

it's just me and you

Meaning you

oh you

As the dark night falls

your singing

Two steps

Come with a fiery morning

across the early hours of the morning

if the moon is asleep

The Blu-ray that once walked with me

Also disappeared

As the dark night falls

your singing

Two steps

Come with a fiery morning

across the early hours of the morning

if the moon is asleep

The Blu-ray that once walked with me

Also disappeared

across the early hours of the morning

if the moon is asleep

The Blu-ray that once walked with me

(Lyrics from 4'oclock)

postscript

In fact, it was probably in the second half of last year when I wrote this article, and it has been more than a year now. When I read it again, I will find that the inner description is very detailed. Compared with other aspects, this part has already accounted for almost half of it. The content of other descriptions is somewhat lacking, including the bright and dark lines that I originally wanted to write, which ended in a hurry and felt a little insufficient... The bright lines are based on the love development of Abra and Andersa, and the dark lines are the class. Undercurrents are surging, the battle between the poor and the rich, the nobles and the revolutionaries, including the battles in between, are all prepared to shape the social environment, but it is obviously not well written.

In this article, there is also a question about character setting. I originally had many plans, but I have written thousands of character settings and have not settled down, including what story I want to tell. I only know that it is Oufeng’s. , until the appearance of Abra, I really determined the image of a scumbag, but it is just a different kind of scum, because I wanted to write about Abra's hypocrisy and the kind of person who does anything for money, but I found it impossible to write. I changed it again. In order to fit the environment of the article, I finally wrote the correct character design, which is such a rich class. Similarly, Andersa’s character design is also well thought out. Because it is a subjective perspective, his psychology has always been All are changing, including the subsequent degeneration, and various oppressions are on him, which has long created such a tragic image of the bottom class.

In addition, friends who have opinions on the article can also post your comments for me to see, I will read it carefully.

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