Flight of the Bumblebee

Xing Yan went to take a shower.

He Qi planned to finish dinner first without waiting for him.He was sitting on the roof of the building, looking at the sea of ​​lights in the distance, eating rice.There are no stars today and the sky is obscured by clouds.The cheeks on both sides were full, but he suddenly felt a little disappointed and lost his appetite. After swallowing the food in his mouth, he put down his chopsticks, and then lay down on the railing to watch the people passing by downstairs.

Niuniu was held in her mother's arms and went down the long slope illuminated by street lights, not knowing where she was going.He remembered that when he came back in the afternoon, Sister Wang and the landlord were talking in the house, the door was open, and he was not a good person to inquire, so he didn't know what they said, but they seemed to be vaguely talking about her husband.

Is the prodigal son back?

He murmured in his heart whether he should tell Xing Yan and ask him to take part.But after thinking about it, if you ask a person who doesn't even have basic common sense, he may be full.

What's more, he hasn't had enough yet!He Qi picked up the bowl and chopsticks and stuffed the rice into his mouth again. This time he chewed slowly and finally tasted a bit of the taste.Xing Yan made rapid progress, as if he had opened his mind, which was unexpected to him.Is this really Xing Yan who can only make scrambled eggs?When he was in charge of cooking at the beginning, He Qi swallowed those dark dishes sadly while taking stomach medicine.Could it be that this person also has talent in cooking, but didn't show it at the beginning?

Just when he was puzzled by Xing Yan's progress during this period, Xing Yan came out refreshed after taking a shower in the bathroom.Seeing He Qi, he said in surprise, "Have you eaten first?"

With food stuffed in his mouth, He Qi replied inarticulately, "I'm hungry, can't I?"

While wiping the water droplets on the tip of his hair with a towel, he walked over and said, "Eat first if you are hungry, and you don't have to wait for me. It's okay." But in fact, he still wanted to eat with him.

He Qi said, "You seem to have become more powerful recently."

Xing Yan didn't know, so he said, "What has changed?"

"Cook."

"Really?" Xing Yan became a little happy because of his praise.

"You have finally learned to read recipes." He Qi said while eating.

"I searched for those recipes with many pictures and tried them many times." Xing Yan's expression seemed to say: eat more, and praise me more.He was like a big dog in the park that picked up a flying saucer thrown by its owner, his eyes were shining brightly, his tail was wagging and his tongue was waiting for his praise.He Qi paused while eating, looked at his wet head, hesitated whether to pat his head and said: "You are doing well! Well done!"

But when he saw his 1.8-meter tall man, with a faint body of flesh showing under his clothes, He Qi swallowed his saliva and dismissed the idea.He touched his belly unconsciously, pinching a layer of swimming ring.No way, who told him that he was a short and fat southerner, no matter how much he endured the sun and rain, he would not grow taller like a plant.

He Qi couldn't help but sigh softly: "I really envy you."

Xing Yanzhang Er couldn't figure it out: "What are you envious of?"

"Your parents must be from the north. They lived in Germany and grew up eating beef. Their physique is different from those of us southerners who grew up eating pork."

Xing Yan moved his chopsticks and looked at He Qi puzzled: "Do you care about this?"

"Men are more or less concerned about their body shape."

He put the rice into his mouth in small sips, and muttered in a low voice: "I think your figure is pretty good."

He Qi didn't hear clearly, so he asked him to say it again.

Xing Yan put the bowl in his hand on the table, and said to him, "It's fine if you're like this, I think it's fine."

After hearing what he said, He Qi still looked distressed: "Don't you think I'm short at just over 1.7 meters? Last time I stood on tiptoe in the crowd at an open-air concert, I could only see the back of the head of the person in front of me. No wonder there was no Girls like me. You are good-looking and can play the piano. There must be many people who like you. I'm so envious..."

It turned out that he was envious of this. Xing Yan didn't know how to respond for a while, so he had to tell the truth: "I was not as popular as you said before. Chinese men are rarely attracted to foreigners abroad."

"Have you ever been in love?" He Qi suddenly raised this question, which made Xing Yan flustered.

"What... what?"

He was serious: "I'm asking you, you should have talked about it, I heard that puppy love is popular abroad."

Under He Qi's scorching gaze, Xing Yan, a man in his twenties, blushed rarely.Sitting in front of him was the person he fell in love with for the first time in his life, and he kept asking him if he had ever been in love.What should he say?I have never been in love, and I have never felt the taste of love, until I met you, so what.

Of course it's impossible to say it.

So he stammered and replied: "No... haven't talked about it."

He Qi looked quite surprised: "You are several years older than me, but you are actually a virgin like me!"

This time Xing Yan was surprised: "Have you never been in love?" The moment the words came out, Xing Yan felt a strange feeling in his heart.He felt faintly happy, and there was also a faint expectation and possessiveness hidden under the undercurrent, which even he couldn't face up to.He tried not to let himself think about it.Greed, jealousy... Negative emotions are like parasitic vines in a bottomless dark corner of his heart, day and night, nourished by the growing love for He Qi, and wanton and wild growth.

There are two sides to love, one upward, bright and fascinating;

He Qi seriously joked with him: "You know what? If a man is still a virgin after the age of 30, he will become a magician."

Xing Yan followed with a smile: "What magician?"

"I don't know, I've heard people say it casually." He continued to eat his meal, obviously not going to explain the origin of this term to Xing Yan.How Qi is always like this, halfway through the conversation, just whet the appetite of others, once the interest in the conversation is lost, he will stop talking.He said he was afraid of trouble, but he was actually lazy.

When He Qi was almost full, he suddenly thought of something, so he asked: "You have gone to work, what will Niuniu do when she is alone at home?"

"Her mother would take her to the store to take care of her, saying that I was no longer needed."

"Really?" He sighed softly: "It's good for the little girl, at least she won't be locked up in a dark room alone." He asked Xing Yan: "In the afternoon , have you seen what Sister Wang and the landlord are talking about?"

Xing Yan showed a confused expression: "Landlord? Who is the landlord?"

"It's the balding middle-aged uncle, the one who hangs around downstairs all day, you must have seen it."

He suddenly realized: "Oh, it turns out that it is the landlord who chatted with Sister Wang downstairs."

"Did you hear what they were saying?"

Xing Yan shook his head and said, "I didn't hear it. She asked me to bring Niuniu up, probably because she didn't want the conversation to be heard by others. Why? What are you curious about?"

"No, the more I think about it, the weirder it gets. I accidentally heard them mention the rent and Sister Wang's husband when I went up the stairs. The tone was wrong, so I wanted to ask you. Since you don't know, forget it."

Xing Yan lowered his head and pondered for a while, then said to him: "It's probably not a big deal, it should be a rent issue. She said that the house here can't be rented anymore, and she will choose a cheap house nearby to continue living here."

"She really told you that?"

Xing Yan nodded, showing an intriguing expression, "Did she tell you anything else?"

Xing Yan was puzzled: "What else?"

"Explicitly or implicitly, let you be Niuniu's father."

Last time he made a similar joke here, Xing Yan was so excited that he almost knocked over the table.Now hearing him say it in a non-joking tone again, Xing Yan has many emotions in his heart, but it is different from that time, this time he appears to be very calm, like molten molten underground, slowly moving in an invisible place flowing.

"No." He replied, as if he didn't want to continue the topic.

He Qi stared at Xing Yan's face, as if he wanted to find the answer he wanted on it, which seemed that he was heartless.He asked again: "Really not? Niuniu didn't either?"

Xing Yan was silent.He is not a dead person, no matter how dull he is, it is impossible not to notice the expectant and hopeful look in Niu Niu's eyes, and her mother's occasional hesitating expression when looking at him, not to mention when he is with When Niu Niu appeared at the door of her mother's shop, others looked at the three of them with strange eyes.

He sometimes wonders if he has gone too far.

As soon as he saw that little girl, Xing Yan couldn't help feeling a pity for her.

But he never wanted to be her father, let alone a woman's husband.

Have a family?He hadn't had this desire in over 20 years.

Probably he was born to like men, he used to live in such a depressed and painful life that he didn't even have the energy to notice this, until he met He Qi, another part of his body was awakened.

Falling in love with another individual with a similar body structure, the same chromosomes, the same penis, and the same deep and hoarse voice.

What's wrong?

Anger and complaints flashed in his eyes, Xing Yanduo wanted to tell He Qi: Stop saying these things!You don't understand anything at all!

Roaring—exploding—

Vent all the emotions, and then sit quietly on the side, watching He Qi stunned after knowing the truth... He can't do this.

He tried to keep his tone not so blunt: "Niu Niu only regards me as a playmate, she still misses her father very much."

He Qi seemed to think of something interesting, smiled silently, and said, "I think you look like her father." He shook his head helplessly, and said, "What do you think, let her Riding on your shoulders with ice cream, aren't you afraid to rain ice cream on you?"

The haze that was constantly churning in his chest a moment ago was swept away by He Qi's smile, like a ray of light piercing through the thick clouds after the heavy rain, the corners of Xing Yan's mouth could not help but raise an arc, He explained: "Niu Niu must ride a horse, so I have no choice but to ride as a horse for her."

"She is not afraid of such a tall 'horse'." He added: "I have seen his father, he will not lift her up, he will only scold her and her mother, it is really hateful. I don't know if you remember what he looked like."

Xing Yan said: "I don't remember clearly."

"He can't compare with you at all, do you understand the difference between clouds and mud? So I think..."

"Hey, let me tell you seriously, this is the first and last time, please listen carefully, okay?"

Both of his hands were resting on the table and crossed, which was a rather serious gesture.Usually he is stupid, so He Qi always doesn't take his attitude seriously.Now he was overwhelmed by the firmness in his eyes, silently closed his mouth and nodded.

"I don't want to be Niu Niu's father, not before, nor in the future."

After being silent for a while, he understood: "I understand, I won't mention this matter again in the future. This time, I didn't talk through my brain again, please forgive me."

Xing Yan smiled: "Why do you always apologize to me, you obviously did nothing wrong."

"I'm probably used to it. I'm afraid that what I say will hurt you."

"I'm not made of glass."

"But your heart is made of glass."

"Obviously you always yell at me."

"That's because I can't control myself. At that time, I don't want to control myself. So when I can control my emotions, please accept my sincere apology."

"What kind of time was that?"

"It's when you are an idiot, as long as you don't be an idiot, I won't scold you."

"How do you not become an idiot?"

"Well...say what pleases me, and do what pleases me."

"How can I make you happy?"

"This is a bit difficult. You have to try to find a way to make me happy. I won't tell you."

"How..."

"Ok?"

"I'm happy right now."

"what?"

"Sitting on the roof blowing the wind, chatting with you like this, I feel very happy, it is the happiest moment of the day."

"... who... who cares about you..."