I really don't love you anymore [Entertainment]

【Volume III Skylight】

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In the middle of the night after the heavy snow, the sky finally dawned.

For a while, Qu Yiling frantically searched for Song Limo across the country.

But it was of no use.

Song Limo disappeared without leaving a trace, and his whole person seemed to have evaporated from the world.If it weren't for the movies she made that are still in Qu's home, neatly placed on the bookshelf next to the TV cabinet, Qu Yiling would have suspected that she had been dreaming for so many years, another protagonist in the past six years The character is completely imagined by her. There is no such person as Song Limo in the world.

After using her own abilities to search for almost half a year, Qu Yiling finally gave up.

Song Limo may have been a catastrophe in her life, and now that the catastrophe is over, it's as if she had never appeared before.

Maybe she really is dead.

It took her half a year to accept this reality. After all, people still need to live their own lives.

That night, no one in the Qu family knew that Qu Yiling was almost killed by Rong Ziyang.Qu Yiling hid this news to death, and Zhou Xiucheng also entrusted it to her. At that time, the commotion was not big, and the news was blocked in a timely manner, so no secret was leaked.

The fewer people who know about these things, the better.

After Rong Ziyang was taken away by Zhou Xiucheng, he confessed to all the crimes he had committed before, including trafficking in human organs, participating in human trafficking/selling, etc., and was finally sentenced to death by shooting. Rong Qianqian sighed when he heard the news, but After all, he didn't say anything.

The right and wrong of the past, when people have left, it is meaningless to talk about it.

It's better to let the past stay in the bottom of my heart forever.

Rong Qianqian's condition gradually improved, and after half a year, she moved back home from the hospital, and the family hired an authoritative doctor to help take care of her. Although Rong Qianqian's health is still not very good, there will be no major problems now.

Liu Qiao and Xiao Yao got married, and distributed wedding candy on Linglong Film and Television, because Liu Qiao's younger sister Liu Yue has been in poor health for the past few years and needs to be taken care of in the intensive care unit, so there was no wedding, the two just talked about each other As a proof, I am really sorry for the current identities of the two of them.Everyone booed and asked how they met, Liu Qiao said that it was thanks to President Qu and Sister Li Mo, if it weren't for the two of them, she and Xiao Yao wouldn't be where they are today.

When everyone talked about Song Limo, they were silent for a while.

Song Limo has been missing for a long time.

After Song Limo won the third Golden Deer Award two years ago, they never saw Song Limo again.

No one has seen her, and no one knows where she went.

Song Limo is as if the world has evaporated. Her personnel information has no father or mother, and she has no fixed address. She has never signed a contract with Linglong Film and Television. From a legal perspective, Song Limo and Linglong Film and Television have no relationship. any relationship.

I have never seen her get in close contact with anyone, no matter if it is a man or the opposite sex, and it can even be said that no one in Linglong Film and Television has really understood Song Limo—even the one who seems to be a little closer to Song Limo Liu Qiao didn't understand her either.

She is like a god who suddenly descended into the world and fell into the mortal world. She just came to experience the warmth and coldness of the world, the right and wrong of love and hatred. to where she should go.

Song Limo's fans tried to find her when Song Limo just disappeared, and even launched a vigorous activity on Weibo, but nothing happened in the end.

Her Weibo is also almost blank. Song Limo basically doesn't speak, and doesn't participate in variety shows and talk shows. Most of her Weibo is the promotional photos of the movie that Linglong Film and Television's propaganda department helps to forward, and there is very little private information.

After nearly a year passed, even the hardcore fans were a little shaken.

So during these nearly two years... where did she go?

Why can't even find a trace...

A person they liked so much, worried about her, supported her, loved her... Did that person really exist?

The calendar adds new years, and spring fills the old mountains and rivers.

In a blink of an eye, it is a new year.

During the few days of Chinese New Year, Qu took the longest annual leave in history, and went to work for 30 days from the previous year to the new year. The whole company was moved and cried bitterly. They all said that after graduation for so many years, they could still experience the experience of being a primary school student. The joy of the winter vacation, all of them packed their things in the first fifteen days, went home, went on dates, and ran without even a shadow.

Qu's group's headquarters received such good treatment for the first time, but the friends of Linglong Film and Television did not have such a good life. Let's do the Chinese New Year program for the Chinese New Year. Although they are all recorded programs, it is a Chinese New Year album after all. Don't be sloppy, after working overtime and rushing to make a pass, I finally got the holiday ten days before the first ten days, which is five days less than the friends in the headquarters, but everyone has a little more year-end bonus, which is not too bad. .

It was the first time for Qu Yiling to take her annual leave so early, and she was not used to it.

Because of Rong Ziyang's arrest, during the Chinese New Year this year, relatives are not very active, especially the Rong family. Although Rong Ziyang is only a distant branch of the Rong family, it is not a glorious thing after all. Somewhat lifeless.The Qu family simply didn't go to see relatives at the Rong's. Everyone in the family knew that Rong Ziyang was their family's personal doctor, and they really didn't want to be asked too much, so they just found an excuse to say nothing. to go to work.

As for the relatives of the Qu family, there are not many at all, most of them go after the festival.Linglong Film and Television is on vacation and doesn't need to work. Qu Yan and Lin Zixu went abroad to travel. Now people don't know where to go. Concerned about Rong Qianqian's body, Qu Lin took Rong Qianqian to a place in the south. Xiao Dao took care of his body for a few days, so during the annual leave of the past few days, Qu Yiling was the only one left in the Qu family.

When a person is at home, it is easy to be emotional.

In the huge study room there are all kinds of books left by Song Limo when she was in school. She has read many very unpopular books, basically not written in Chinese, mostly in English, some in Italian, There are also some that even she herself can't figure out what language it is written in.

In the past, she didn't take this seriously, she only thought that the child had a high level of language skills, maybe he was born in this kind of family since he was a child, but now think about it, which family's children watch this kind of stuff at the age of 16 ? A 16-year-old girl should not still be wearing a bulky school uniform, discussing which boy in the next class is more handsome, complaining that the homework assigned by the teacher is difficult, that she did not pass the exam this time, and which child is 16 years old? Didn't go anywhere during the winter vacation, didn't hang out with classmates, just bored at home reading every day?

It's all about reading romance novels, so what are you reading?

On the bookshelf next to the TV cabinet are all Blu-ray high-definition discs of all the movies Song Limo has starred in. Wang Ma is also on vacation. When she was cleaning the house at home, she once dug out these things and wanted to throw them away. I couldn't get rid of it, so I just kept it there.

Thinking about it from the current point of view, Song Limo's first role as a goddess in "Lonely Moon" has such an indifferent and cold temperament, which is not what a 16-year-old girl should have?

She also ridiculously thought that Song Limo was born with good acting skills, but where did so many talented people come from?She may have lived in a place where she needed to hide her true emotions since she was a child, so she was too used to living with a mask.Isn’t acting just about performing another personality?How proficient she is to be able to act so wonderfully without any training.

In fact, there were too many things that were wrong. At that time, she liked Song Limo so much that she couldn't see anything clearly.

In the past six months, she sometimes couldn't sleep at night, so she would sit on the small balcony on the third floor with a piece of clothing on, light a cigarette, and just watch the sky.

If you want to say that the first time Song Limo took the initiative to reveal something wrong, it was here.

But if Qu Yiling was asked to recall more details, Qu Yiling really couldn't tell.She could vaguely recall the heart-piercing pain and injury at that time, but she couldn't recall what Song Limo said and did at that time to make herself feel such extreme pain.

Not only that, she lived with Song Limo for six years, and then separated and reunited for three years. During the six years of living together, she often recalled it in the next three years, but the last year , but she found that she couldn't remember more and more.

There was even a day when she couldn't even remember how the two of them got together.

Why on earth did she agree to her then?

If she hadn't promised her back then, what would happen now?

Sometimes she would imagine what life would be like if Song Limo had never appeared before. She met Song Limo at the age of 21 and is now 30 years old. If she had never met Song Limo, it would be very Maybe she is married now, even has children, has a marriage that cannot be called love, lives under the same roof with another man, and respects each other as a guest.

If Qu Yiling went to see a doctor, the doctor would tell her that she could not remember some things subconsciously because of a protective mechanism of the cerebral cortex for her consciousness. Her brain may have been stimulated too severely. The most common situation is that she has been injected with some drugs, such as drugs, which damage the structure of the brain, while the other situation is that she has seen or heard something that has severely traumatized her spirit. The first reaction is to slowly and automatically block the relevant memories to protect yourself.

The scientific name of this mental illness is PTSD syndrome, also known as post-traumatic stress disorder.

She can remember this person, and she also remembers being with her for a long, long time. There are happy memories and sad ones. She can vaguely remember some outlines, but can't remember the details, but all the memories In her eyes, it was as if there was a layer of fog covering it, she couldn't see it clearly, and it didn't even look like she had experienced it herself.

Song Limo has gradually become a scar in her memory, a wound that hurts when touched, and it may not be possible to heal in this life, so she can only choose not to touch it, or - forget the existence of this scar .

But she acted too normally, except herself, no one knew that she gradually couldn't remember some things, and Qu Yiling felt that it was a good thing that she couldn't remember.

She thought that she was slowly getting out of this cage, and maybe there might be a new life in the future, and some new memories to make up for the past nine years.

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In the following few years, because Rong Qianqian was not in good health and slept less, when she came out to breathe at night, she could often see that Qu Yiling was not asleep, and the lights on the third floor were still on, and when she walked up, she saw Qu Yiling Yi Ling sat on the small balcony on the third floor, smoking a cigarette, and watching the night.

She could tell at a glance that Qu Yiling wasn't thinking about anything, she was concentrating her thoughts, or—

She was mourning something.

Her eyes were ashen and lifeless, Rong Qianqian even suspected that she might fall asleep in the wicker chair the next moment, and never open her eyes again.

This made her feel extremely panicked.

There must be a reason for this.

Rong Qianqian suddenly realized at this time that perhaps her daughter was deeply in love with someone, and her love was so heavy that even Qu Yiling herself didn't know it, and this love may not develop smoothly, and even Has fallen into a deadlock, so that her most beloved daughter showed such an expression.

For a while, Rong Qianqian really wanted to ask who this person was, but then the answer was self-evident.

She can accept that her daughter is gay, and that Qu Yan came out in the closet before. She has gradually become more accepting of this group. She can also accept that Qu Yiling is 30 years old and still not married, and she doesn't even have another one to accompany her. The people around her, marriage and love should be a matter of two people, and their family doesn't need to look at other people's eyes.

Only she didn't want to see her daughter sink so deeply in a deadlock.

But where is love that others can talk about?

In the end she said nothing.

One day after the new year, when the annual vacation was still on, Qu Lin brought Rong Qianqian back, Qu Yan and Lin Zixu also moved back to the Qu's house for a few days to celebrate the New Year, these days they were still visiting various relatives.A family of five is eating at the dinner table.

No one mentioned Song Limo's matter.

Qu Yiling was sipping the porridge, the small silver spoons were clinking in the bowl, Qu Yan and Qu Lin were arguing at the dinner table because of some small differences of opinion in the Qu's headquarters—it wasn't even a quarrel. Forget it, it should be said that it was the father's unilateral criticism and beating of his son. Lin Zixu was cutting side dishes in the kitchen and was preparing to serve them to the family. Qu Yiling was drinking porridge while swiping her phone, Qu Lin, who was in high spirits, said a few words to the trainee, so he could only put down his phone in a dispirited manner, and drank the porridge with a very empty expression.

Rong Qianqian picked up a chopstick dish for her, speaking very carefully, for fear that Qu Yiling would recall something sad.

"Yiling, I have a friend. His son is one year older than you. He is young and handsome. He has a good family background and a high degree of education. He seems to be starting his own business without relying on his family. I think he is pretty good... Would you like See you, get to know each other?"

Qu Yiling stopped drinking the porridge, holding the spoon without speaking.

Seeing that something was wrong, Rong Qianqian hurriedly said: "It's okay not to see you, Mom just said casually, if you don't want to see me, I will refuse now."

Qu Yiling drank the rest of the porridge in one gulp, with a calm expression, neither happy nor unhappy.

Rong Qianqian wished she could go back to 5 minutes ago, she would never bring up this matter.

But she was really worried about Qu Yiling and wanted her to have someone to accompany her, but she knew very well what kind of temperament her daughter was, she was too much like herself, she was able to chase Qu Lin for two years, Fei It took a lot of effort to get married. Her daughter is no less dedicated to feelings than her, and there is still someone hidden in her heart, and she, a mother, actually wants her daughter to go on a blind date.

Qu Yiling put down the bowl, went to the kitchen to wash, came back with wet hands, Rong Qianqian looked at her with trepidation, Qu Yiling laughed when she saw Rong Qianqian's expression.

"Mom, what are you doing looking at me with this expression? What did you just say to me? Blind date, right? All right, when and what time is the appointment?"

Rong Qianqian was stunned, she couldn't recover, she never thought that Qu Yiling would really agree, she subconsciously replied: "... seven o'clock in the evening."

Qu Yiling asked again: "Where is it?"

Rong Qianqian still didn't come to her senses: "...No. 99 South Road."

No. 99, South Road, is famous for its style and ostentation. To put it bluntly, it is a very expensive western restaurant.

Qu Yiling wiped her hands: "Okay, I see."

Rong Qianqian finally came back to his senses: "You agreed?!"

Qu Yiling smiled again: "Why didn't I agree? I'm old too, so I should get in touch with more people."

What she said made sense, and Rong Qianqian couldn't refute it at all.

Rong Qianqian watched as Qu Yiling went up to the third floor, and came down again after 3 minutes, changing into a solemn black dress, with a black flower pinned to the upper part of her arm, and carrying a small black bag.

Qu Yiling said: "Mom, I have something to do, I need to go out for a while."

Rong Qianqian subconsciously agreed, and watched Qu Yiling go out to change shoes before realizing it, and asked, "Where are you going?"

Qu Yiling said flatly, "Go to attend a friend's funeral."

Today is Liu Yue's funeral.