Tang riddles

The encounters in life are beyond the expectations of ordinary people.No matter how hard you work, no matter how high-spirited you are, you cannot avoid the unexpected disasters assigned to you by fate.The disaster came unexpectedly, and her mother left like a thunderbolt. Li Jinyue was completely unprepared. She had been fighting alone in the frontier for so many years. For a moment, she was as desperate as when she was standing under the imperial city.

She left Chang'an ten years ago, and vowed to clean up the filth when she came back; but she came back ten years later, but fell headlong into the abyss.

The snow in Chang'an that year was particularly heavy.Flying all over the sky, covering the earth with silvery white.She sat with cold hands and feet on the stone steps in the courtyard of the huge princess mansion that her father built for her, her shoulders and hair were covered with snow, and the big sword leaned on her knee, moaning like weeping.This mansion located in Changlefang used to be the site of Princess Taiping's mansion. After Li Jinyue left Chang'an, it began to be renovated, and the ruined land kept getting a new look.Why is this the Princess Palace of Jin?None of the other princes and princesses who left the court were given this mansion, but Li Jinyue, upon her return, was imprisoned in this terrifying place by her father in the name of bestowing the mansion.

It suddenly occurred to me that when she was hunting with her father in the countryside when she was eight years old, she shot through a pair of hares with precise arrows. At that time, her father said to her: "You are really like your great-aunt." At that time, Li Jinyue was still young and had never Understand the viciousness in this sentence.It was such a vicious sentence, and now she still shudders when she thinks about it.

The feeling of being born at the wrong time made Li Jinyue depressed.If she was born in the era of Emperor Wu, how high-spirited she would be.However, she happened to be born after Emperor Wu. In this precarious era when the female ruler's regime collapsed and shattered, as a royal daughter, she had no ambitions and abilities, so what should she do.

If you are imprisoned, you will be imprisoned. There is no point in being free or not, and there is no difference between living and dead.Since she was a child, the driving force behind her efforts is for her mother, who is everything to her, and everything else has to take a backseat.She studied literature and martial arts, pushed herself to the limit, and endured the pain and hardship that other women could not bear, just to seek a value, a heavy and worth weighing, so that her father could weigh her, so that she would not bully her anymore Mother.For more than ten years, her mother has lived her life with trepidation and care, she is totally different from a queen who is the mother of the world.

However, she was unfilial, she was too far away from her mother, and failed to protect her mother.After all, his mother was murdered by an adulterer, and before he had time to liberate his mother's melancholy heart, he was separated from her by Yin and Yang.

Is it time for revenge?But she couldn't bring up a strong desire for revenge for a while, she was just tired and bored, and didn't want to do anything.Perhaps, it is the most direct way of revenge to enter the palace with a sword in hand and kill Concubine Wu Hui.It's not that she can't do it, anyway, life has long since lost its meaning, so what else does she care about.Flies and dogs are all vain, and lose the necessity of existence in the face of real swords and swords.She didn't want to fight, so she just solved the problem in the fastest way.It's just that she is really tired, and when the day comes, she will cheer up and enter the palace with a sword.At this moment, she just wants to sleep well, and it is best not to wake up for a long, long time.

Mother, don't worry, the child is too tired, you let me rest, when I wake up, the child will avenge you, and then the child will reunite with you.When I was born, my baby failed to protect you well, under the nine springs, I will never let you suffer any bullying.

The night was long, and she was probably exhausted to the extreme, but she couldn't sleep.She suddenly wanted to drink, so she ordered the servants of the mansion to buy wine for her, and the quantity had to fill the warehouse.She just sat alone in her dormitory and drank wine, one jar after another, until she was drunk into a pool of mud, and her consciousness finally drifted away.

Somehow, she seemed to have returned to her childhood.Once again, I saw Chishi and Lotus Maid, they were laughing and running in front, turned around to look at her, and called her to follow.But she stood still, unable to move.

"Mamao! What's the matter, can't you run?" Akashi called to her with a smile.

"Mamao! Let's go eat delicious food, we won't wait for you." The maidservant laughed.

"Wait" stuck in her throat, but she couldn't yell out.She could only freeze in place, watching the two of them go away speechless.

Hehe, even in a dream, can't you be quiet?

Akashi, you have been on the other side for so many years, how are you doing?If you're still here, you should come see me now.It's okay, you can't come, I'll find you soon.

Lotus Maid, how have you been all these years?Forgive me for not having the courage to see you again.I'm afraid that I can't hide the darkness in my heart from you. You are like a bright mirror to me.I still don't understand whether my feelings for you are friendship or whether they have already surpassed.But that is not important anymore, I have already seen clearly your love for Akashi, her heat has warmed your heart that was always cold, but I can't do it.I may be the cold moon that day, even the light is like water, which is very different from Chishi's blazing.My roots are also cold.Everything on the ground, I can only wait and see from afar.But no matter what, I was always extremely fortunate that you could come to my side back then.It is a great fortune in my life to know you.Your wisdom, calmness, thoughtfulness and strength are all nostalgic.

But I'm sorry Lianmai, I'm afraid I'll never see you again.You, you have to live a good life, Chishi and I are not qualified friends, if we leave before you, you will definitely be extremely hurt.All the pain is borne by you, and I will always be a deserter.I am going to run away again this time, to a place where there will be no more disputes.That must be wonderful, and I can't wait.

Forgive me for betraying our vow back then, the ambition of Qingyun may really be unattainable.Just let it dissipate with the wind.

She embraced the wine jar, closed her eyes and fell asleep, tears overflowed from the corners of her eyes, and slowly wet her cheeks.

That was the most heart-wrenching dream she had ever had since she was a child.Happiness, anger, sorrow, joy, love, evil, desire, birth, old age, sickness, death, resentment and hatred, separation from love, not being able to get what one wants, has tasted all the seven emotions and seven sufferings in the world.When she woke up from the dream, all her confusion was turned into fly ashes, and she suddenly understood.In this world, she is not here to suffer. If so, no matter how much pain there is, it doesn't matter.Resentment and hatred can't be escaped; love and separation can't be avoided; what one can't ask for can't be let go.So be it, what's wrong with that?Where does the consummation come from, where does the happiness come from, it's just the evil of the heart, it's just the boundless greed.

Maybe she shouldn't look at the future, the hope for the future is the source of her pain.She only needs to live in this moment, as long as there is a little comfort, she can draw the nourishment of life from it.Looking at Zhang Ruohan who was sleeping peacefully by her bed, Li Jinyue thought so.

Ah... she came, after all, she was by his side.How could this woman be so beautiful? Perhaps she is the guidance given to her by the heavens, guiding her in the direction of her journey.She put her hand on her cheek, feeling the tenderness in the palm, and the comfort and meaning she felt in that moment made her unforgettable forever.It's just that she understands that what she's after is nothing more than a mirror image.Just like the thing in the cup, drinking it can allow you to escape from reality for a short time, but it is not something that belongs to her for a long time and eternity.The more intoxicated the period, the more difficult it is to grasp.But so what, she has nothing, even if she is only pursuing some illusory things, at least she is pursuing something.

Otherwise, what was she coming to this world for?

Li Jinyue has never been entangled with someone like that time at any time, her cheekiness and courage made her feel that she almost didn't know herself.Looking back at what she has done, it is really unimaginable.She used to respect the lotus maid so much that she didn't dare to touch her easily, but during that time, she tried to hug her and even kiss her, doing everything to get close to her, using her own misery to arouse her compassion Purpose.

Is she such a despicable and shameless person?

The lotus maid pushed her away, and she didn't understand what she said to her. She already knew that it was impossible for her to pursue the lotus maid, but she just wanted to pursue her. Purpose.It is best not to have any results in this pursuit, so that she can feel at ease.

So whether she loves the lotus maidservant or not, she has been thinking about this since she was demoted to the Anbei Protectorate.But never got a negative answer, she must love her, love her unusually.But that love, if it is to be compared with Akashi, is too much impurity and not pure enough.Even so, it is love, and unrequited love is always painful.She is used to pain, and pain is the meaning of her life.

The days in the Anbei Protectorate's Mansion, compared to Anxi, were somewhat cold and peaceful.Without the vigorous study and training, she is no longer young.She began to form her own pro-army, which was also the only female army in Datang.There have been more than [-] battles with the Turks, large and small.The Gongyue Army was trained in such a bitterly cold place in the vast north.

Every day, apart from deploying defenses, training troops, and formulating strategies, she practiced her sword against the wind alone, tempering her temperament inch by inch.The despair she once had gradually faded, and the impact of her mother's death also gradually dissipated.

She began to realize that her thoughts at that time were really dangerous.She began to understand that her mother never wanted to die for her revenge, she only hoped that she could live well.She began to understand what she was supposed to do, and she also became interested in the supreme throne.

Since she was born, for more than 20 years, she has always been at the mercy of others.Will the future life continue to be like this?Could it be that her mother will always bear the stigma and infamy for thousands of years?It seemed clear to her what to do.

She changed, became more cruel, and no longer cowardly.Just like the cold wind in Hanbei, biting like a sword.She never completely discarded the ambition of Qingyun back then.It's just that thinking about it now, the original intention of realizing the ambition seems to have changed.It doesn't matter, after all, she will fulfill her promise and give an account of everything.

At the end of the 16th year of Kaiyuan, she was recalled to Chang'an again. This time, it was because of the new Long March military service system implemented by the sage.Another policy aimed at frontier generals and warlords, aimed at weakening the generals' prestige in the army.Under the banner of the princess of the state of Jin who has fought in the frontier for many years, she will hold a water and land ceremony in the Temple of Ci'en to pray for blessings and wash away evil spirits.

As a result, what she didn't expect was that she met an old man whom she had been dreaming about, an old man who she couldn't believe was still alive.It's just that she was so stupid at the time, she didn't recognize it at all.It wasn't until the imperial court went to Luoyang for dinner that she recognized her on the Tianjin Bridge on that pouring rain day.

At that time, she was about to raise her sword to kill her, because she felt that this man took away the only meaning of her existence.Unexpectedly, she found a new meaning in life after a turnaround.

Akashi, oh Akashi, Xiao He is really successful, Xiao He is defeated, I am suffering because of you, and I am also ecstatic because of you, but in the end we all grow up, looking back on the past, the pain is still there, but I feel that the years are not worth it.She swung the sword to cut off the thread of love. Although the root of the root is broken, it has not been completely severed, but she no longer feels hopeless, but full of hope.Probably, this is exactly the principle of "poor and strong".

I have lived in a hurry for more than 28 years, and the bright moon has been waxing and waning several times.But she hangs rebelliously in the sky all the time, wanting the sky to bow her head to her, she is lonely and cold, and ignores the vicissitudes and vicissitudes of the world.

The author has something to say: the next chapter will enter a new volume, the second part of the Longxi Ghost Dao Desert Chapter.The time span may be somewhat large.