A love that burns

The day before I was leaving, in the morning, I ran out for a walk after breakfast, wanting to see the scenery again.I was walking alone on the road in the country. I didn't dare to run too far. I walked around the field, walked through the woods, from the beginning of the village to the end of the village, from the west of the village to the east of the village. I saw many people gathered in front of a house, arguing I didn't know what I was doing, I was curious, so I leaned in to have a look. (He pauses for a moment, and I have to remind him that he may not have much time.)

I went in and saw an old man beating two naked men with a pole, screaming, crying, cursing unfilial children, animals, and many other unsavory words.Of the two beaten people, one curled up and the other covered him, trying their best to protect him.The old man looked more and more angry, and his strikes became more and more ruthless. In the end, the shoulder pole unexpectedly, unexpectedly broke... Can you imagine how much effort it took?There was no good place on the beaten body of the man above, and he couldn't move.Someone finally came to stop him, and the old man was still angry and wanted to hit him again, but he passed out.

I was so frightened that I lost my soul and ran home, thinking about Wang Yi, my strange feelings for him, and the two men who were beaten just now. I was really shocked and frightened. Just curled up on the bed and trembled.Grandma didn't know, so she asked me what's the matter in fright. I didn't speak, and I didn't dare to say anything. I just huddled on the bed until it got dark, and finally calmed down, and asked grandma carefully: "It's very good for two men to be together. Is it scary?"

Only then did grandma realize that I saw the incident during the day, and shook her head regretfully at me, "It's not terrible, but that's wrong."

"Why not?"

"It's against common sense. Most people don't accept it and hate this kind of behavior."

The old man belongs to most people, and so do the bystanders. They are vicious and indifferent. The contempt in their eyes is too frightening. Until now, I dare not say that I can completely ignore those eyes, let alone me back then.So at that time, I made up my mind to hate Wang Yi, turn my liking for him into loathing, or it would be better if I didn't feel anything at all, and even the revenge plan can be given up, as long as I can stay away from this "unreasonable" thing.

The next day I woke up early and was about to leave in a hurry, but no matter how anxious I was, I said goodbye to my relatives in the same village one by one, and the adults still had to wait until noon to leave.It was still unavoidable to hear the news about the two men yesterday: the most severely beaten man was found dead in the morning, and the other jumped into the river to die, and the body was salvaged in the morning.

I was in a trance, and the time slipped by without knowing it. Only when I saw my parents and Wang Yi did I come back to my senses. It turned out that they had already arrived home.I didn't dare to look at Wang Yi, I didn't even say hello to him, I just talked to my parents.I intentionally alienated him, so how could he not see it because he is so smart.He cooperated very well, and the distance between us became farther than before, and we even avoided the disguise in front of our parents.

I became timid overnight, for fear that others would see my thoughts on Wang Yi, so I closed myself up, and didn't like to talk to others except those close to me, although I was too lazy to chat.In the eyes of others, I am becoming more and more withdrawn, and I can be called the representative of dull gourd, but I am content.

I noticed and was satisfied with my changes, but it took a long time before I realized that Wang Yi had also changed.I became withdrawn, and he liked to be close to people more and more, always with a smile on his face that was described by others as warm.Once, a senior gangster asked him to trouble him, saying that he would not reach out to hit the smiling face, but that time he smiled and fooled him without stretching out a finger, and finally became friends with the gangster.

It was through this incident that I noticed that in the past, he was self-confident, and he always faced those gangsters with a cold face and sarcasm when they found fault. He would rather fight than say a word of kindness.But I don't know when he put on the mask of kindness, the disguise is so good, the arrogance in his expression and the arrogance in his behavior are no longer visible.Turned into a full-fledged gentleman.

My mother asked me privately if I knew what had happened to him, and how he and I had become so estranged.

How did I know that I couldn't answer any of my mother's questions.I am also very curious, change requires a medium, what happened to him?good or bad?

I don't want to ask directly, so I can only pay attention to him on weekdays, but in this way, it runs counter to my original wish.It seems that there is another self, thinking and thinking always go in the opposite direction, but I can't control him.

Now I know why I was fidgeting back then. At that time, I was very terrified, and no matter what I did, I felt inappropriate.

I was suffering in such a mood. After a long time, I even forgot the purpose of finding out why Wang Yi suddenly changed his personality. The only fear that others would find out that I had small thoughts about him was always with me.But being troubled by the "other me" again, I couldn't help but stare at him no matter what.

I really can't stand myself, no matter what, I have been wandering outside for 12 years, how long have I lived a comfortable life, and the previous unconvincing force is gone, because of an "unreasonable" emotion, I made myself a boudoir Journey in general.The more I thought about it, the more angry I became. There was nowhere to vent my anger, and I didn't get rid of Wang Yi. I could only turn it into one sentence: "I'm going to live in school."

Well, I decided to live on campus.That year was the third year of junior high school, and the school had to divide classes at the end of the semester. My grades were worse than Wang Yi, and I would not be assigned to the same class as him. In this way, there were not many opportunities for us to meet each other. Mind, it must be so.

That night, for the first time in a long time, Wang Yi came to me on his own initiative and asked me about going to live in school.I remember him asking: "Why do you want to live on campus?" "Why, can school be more comfortable than home?" "I recently observed that your brain may not be very good, especially in terms of memory. Complain that the school is a prison, and don't want to go again?"

Hehe, I prevaricate all the reasons for studying hard.At the end, after a while, he suddenly asked with a smile: "Is it because of me that you went to live on campus, because you want to avoid me?"

My words were blocked in my throat and I couldn't get out of my mouth. I couldn't answer why and why, but I was so embarrassed that I died.And he just kept smiling, with a bit of gloating.When I saw his smile, I remembered it, and then changed the subject and asked him: "Why do you love to laugh?"

"Is it not good?"

I answered truthfully: "Not good."

He was silent for a while and didn't smile again, but his face was very peaceful. He said: "Smiling always brings great convenience, why not do it."

He really put the mask on his face and didn't intend to take it off.I have no position to say that this is not good. At that time, my hands were always behind my back and I never dared to reach out to help him take off the mask.

That conversation temporarily eased our relationship. Although I usually seldom talk, at least I can smile and nod to him when I meet him at school.I live in the school, and my heart has settled down a little, so I bury my head in the book and try not to let the gap between myself and Wang Yi widen too much.In high school, we were admitted to the same school.

My parents were very happy, and decided to take us to travel abroad to celebrate during the holiday, and chose the romantic France.After less than a week in Paris, one day Wang Yi suddenly got drunk and brought back a black-haired and blue-eyed girl, saying that he wanted to marry her as his wife. It was so annoying and funny to see him like that.

We thought he was talking about it when he was drunk, but when we woke up the next day, we talked about it again, as if we had great determination to make it happen.Seeing that there was no way out, parents could only end their trip to Paris ahead of schedule and transfer to other cities to break Wang Yi's thoughts.Before leaving, Wang Yi asked for a final farewell to the girl.

Mom wants me to follow him to watch him, so I will follow.All the while he was chattering about the girl, how open-minded and bold she was, and how close she was to a female friend.I was so depressed that I could only hear how much he liked her, so I ignored her and never said a word, but the more he talked, the happier he was, as if what he was going to do later was not to say goodbye but to go on a date.

I don't know what he said to the girl after meeting, but I remember the parting kiss between the two, tsk tsk, with a little soft light, it can be regarded as a beautiful romance movie.My own feelings at that time were really indescribable, and I also thought that he liked the opposite sex and I liked the same sex. This huge difference is destined to run in opposite directions in the future.

My heart was like a mountain of swords and flames, and then I thought I would give up completely after I figured it out, so I smiled in relief.I was smiling, and Wang Yi had ended the lingering and unpredictable kiss at some point, and walked straight through me. Fortunately, the girl reminded me and told me to chase him quickly, and told me not to be stupid and blind.I didn't understand what she meant at the time, so I just pretended to be scolding me for no reason, so I gave her a quick look and hurried to catch up with Wang Yi.We walked back and forth for a while, and when we were about to get in the car, he suddenly turned around and asked me, "What are you laughing at?"

I was stunned for a moment, and suddenly understood before I knew it, of course I couldn't tell the truth, so I could just reply him casually: "I'm happy."

"Why are you happy? I said marrying her, you look indifferent, but you still smile happily when I kiss her?"

I remember his expression was about to be angry at that time. I was baffled, full of grievances and hadn’t vented yet. He had no reason to be angry, so he said angrily: "I am just happy, bless you, I am the best adult beauty, look at you I like her so much, I plan to help you talk to your parents when I go back."

The corners of his mouth were drawn coldly, his smile finally looked like a dark cloud instead of the sun, and he said, "I don't bother you, I'll forget it."

He looked at me, and when he turned around, he sighed and said, "Forget it."

never mind.Hey, at that time we were all pretending too well, even if there were clues leaking out of each other, it was not enough to make people sure, the only way to get the answer was to keep trying.But in the end, thinking and thinking are different. Once the method used to test is not understood by the other party, at least it will be misunderstood, and at worst it will be missed.

(Speaking of this, he was silent for a while, then asked me what time it was. I looked at my watch under the light and told him that it was past ten o'clock. "There is not much time." He said that, and I also understood that the police are coming soon .)