why do you like me

027 late night

An unowned fire in his chest exploded like a firework in an instant.Jiang Chuan supported the pedal with one leg, and knelt on the edge of the passenger seat with the other leg, holding Cheng Jing in his arms.

"Cheng Jing, I'm sorry."

Cheng Jing also put her arms around his waist and said nothing for a while.Jiang Chuan looked down, only to realize that Cheng Jing's eye sockets were wet, holding back tears.

He was suddenly a little emotional, and couldn't help but kiss Cheng Jing's eyelids, where heat meets cold, volcanoes and cold springs.Jiang Chuan had many words in his mind, but at this moment he didn't know which sentence to start with.But Cheng Jing held back her tears and said, "You stink."

Jiang Chuan rolled off the car with a smile, the dimples on his cheeks were about to burst.After laughing, he stepped up again, stopped touching Cheng Jing, and said, "I'm sorry, I thought I came to N City today, and I'm going to find you. I've been hanging around in the logistics park all day, so I'm sure I won't sweat today." There is something wrong. If you want to dislike it, just spray some perfume on me."

He reached out to flip through Cheng Jing's backpack, but Cheng Jing hugged his waist.The chests of the two were very close, and Cheng Jing sipped lightly on Jiang Chuan's lips.Jiang Chuan held the back of his head and kissed him deeply.

There was no one around, and the slightly smoky night breeze blew by, and the two kissed tenderly.After a while, they let go, panting slightly, Cheng Jing's ears turned red, and he looked at Jiang Chuan brightly.Jiang Chuan felt a tightness in his throat and lower abdomen, and jumped out of the car.

There was a clear sound of insects in his ears, and he said, "Do you want to eat, there is a small restaurant over there."

Cheng Jing got out of the car with wontons and a backpack. Jiang Chuan turned off the lights inside the car, turned on the headlights, locked the door, and led Cheng Jing to the small restaurant.

The owner of the small restaurant woke up to urinate in the middle of the night, and Jiang Chuan happened to pass by and asked if he wanted to have supper.The boss said that there were not many ingredients, so Jiang Chuan went to the kitchen to take a look, and first made some wontons for Cheng Jing.Now he dragged Cheng Jing over, the boss yawned and took out some frozen meat to defrost.

Jiang Chuan was going to get beer from the freezer when Cheng Jing called his name, Jiang Chuan obediently changed it to two boxes of coconut juice.After paying the bill, Jiang Chuan didn't want the boss to guard him anymore. He went to the kitchen to fiddle for a while, and made two stir-fried vegetables and one soup as quickly as possible, and served them on the table with egg fried rice.

Cheng Jing had finished eating the wontons and said, "I'm almost done."

Jiang Chuan dragged a stool and sat down next to him, and said, "Eat more."

Cheng Jing: "I don't want to eat."

Jiang Chuan stretched out his hand and pinched Cheng Jing's cheek, "Have you been on a hunger strike at home these days? You've lost so much weight, and the feel of your hand has changed."

With a coaxing tone: "Take a few bites, if you don't eat, I will forcefully stuff it for you."

Cheng Jing: "It's raising pigs."

Jiang Chuan filled half a bowl of soup and put it in front of Cheng Jing, looked up at the place where the boss disappeared, and whispered in Cheng Jing's ear, "Your daughter-in-law."

Cheng Jing still didn't want to eat.He didn't eat much at first, but today he was angry. First, he took a car all the way from city N to city Z, and then stayed in the heavy truck until now. His whole body was very depressed.But it was because he looked very tired that Jiang Chuan asked him to eat more, even though it was already midnight when it was not suitable to eat.

Jiang Chuan picked up the bowl and wanted to feed it himself, but Cheng Jing had no choice but to compromise, picked up the spoon and started drinking the soup.Farm dishes are mostly oily, but Jiang Chuan cooks them very lightly.It turned out that Cheng Jing just refused instinctively, drank two mouthfuls of soup, and his appetite was whetted, and then he ate some stir-fried vegetables and settled down a small bowl of fried rice with eggs.

He has always seldom talked when eating, so it is rare for him to ask at this moment: "Have you learned how to cook, it doesn't look like a home-cooked skill."

Jiang Chuan was really hungry, so he instigated food very quickly, nodded and said: "Well, I learned from Chizi's father a long time ago."

After Cheng Jing finished eating, he got up and looked around for water.Jiang Chuan pointed to the freezer and said, "Just take what's inside, I'll give you enough money."

Cheng Jing took a bottle of mineral water and dug out the medicine box from his backpack.Jiang Chuan watched him take the medicine, then reached out and snatched the medicine box.

Cheng Jing looked at him.

Jiang Chuan took the fist-sized pill box in his hand and turned it around. He seemed to have thought about it for a long time, opened it, and started asking questions from the first box on the first floor.

"What kind of medicine is this?"

"Cold medicine."

"what about this?"

"It's also cold medicine."

"what about this?"

"multi-vitamins."

"what about this?"

"Melatonin."

"What is it for?"

"Aids sleep."

"Did it help you?"

"Occasionally it works a little bit, not as good as sleeping pills."

"You have such severe insomnia, why don't you take sleeping pills?"

"Doctors don't recommend it."

Cheng Jing was a little uneasy. He looked at Jiang Chuan, wanting to get the medicine box back.Jiang Chuan didn't know what he was thinking at all, and continued to ask while finishing the last bit of fried rice with eggs.Painkillers, Jianweixiaoshi tablets... Cheng Jing carried many kinds of medicines, and most of them were common.

Jiang Chuan pointed to the remaining large grid and asked, "What is this?"

"Citalopram Hydrobromide Tablets."

"What is it for?"

"...antidepressant."

Cheng Jing pursed her lips and looked at Jiang Chuan.Regarding his depression, Cheng Yumin has always kept his mouth shut, not even telling the woman clearly.Most public figures with sensitive identities do not have the habit of disclosing their illnesses or the illnesses of their relatives and friends, let alone mental illnesses.Before Cheng Jing came to Xitangkou, only Feng Yu, who was close, knew a little about the situation.

He thought Jiang Chuan would be shocked or puzzled, but Jiang Chuan just gently closed the medicine box and held it in his hand.

After Jiang Chuan finished eating, he took the plates and dishes on the table to the kitchen, took out a few paper towels and wiped the table, then sat down again, leaning on the table with his elbows, and put the medicine box back in front of Cheng Jing. But did not take it away.

He looked at the silent boy and said, "Why do you keep hiding it from me?"

Depression is well-known, and there seem to be more and more patients, but few people understand it.Cheng Jing was extremely disturbed and couldn't guess what Jiang Chuan was thinking at the moment.It's just that under such circumstances, he can always keep a calm face, so calm that people think how cold and heartless he is.Jiang Chuan, who had already experienced this, was not deceived again, but leaned closer, stroking the boy's thinner cheeks, and said, "Cheng Jing, I never figured out why you were worried about me suffering from social problems. fear."

Fear and anxiety about the outside world, if not handled properly, can lead to depression.At first, Cheng Jing cared so much about the mental state of Jiang Chuan who was released from prison, not because he was too free, but because he didn't want another patient like himself.

Cheng Jing didn't expect that the heartless Jiang Chuan would bring up the incident when they first met, and after realizing it, he asked, "How did you know?"

"I have a mouth not only for eating, but of course I will ask someone if I can't figure it out." Jiang Chuan said, "If you are terminally ill, it is impossible. Whose parents are so indifferent and throw terminally ill patients alone in Xitangkou? It’s a poor place, at least I’ll hire you a nanny, right? I’ve got something in my mind, and I just want to hear you tell me.”

Jiang Chuan was full of food and drink, so he couldn't hide his foolish appearance.He didn't care if someone from the hotel owner's family would appear suddenly, and suddenly reached out and dragged the stool Cheng Jing was sitting on, and dragged it to him with a bang.

He crossed his legs, hugged Cheng Jing into his arms, stroked the boy's cheek and said, "Cheng Jing, I've been wondering whether you really like me these days. I can't think of a reason why you would like me—" —Really, I used to think that I was very handsome, and I would waste my face when I fell in love with anyone. However, I thought you were very good-looking when I first saw you, and I will never do it again in this life There is another good-looking person who is as good-looking as you. Don’t laugh, I’m not talking about tongue twisters, it’s just that my vocabulary is a little poor. All right, please laugh, it’s not easy to see you laugh once.

"I don't know if you like me, but I know, I like you. Cheng Jing, I like you very much. Several times, I wanted to hug you. You don't know that I couldn't hold back and kissed you secretly Chizi told me that when you and that friend of yours were bent, I was fucking crazy, and I felt that sooner or later it would be my turn to hold back. It was the first time I went to the bar that day. When I saw you, I didn’t know Why, although you and your friend seem to be kissing, I feel that you have been waiting for me. Cheng Jing, were you waiting for me that day? Just tell me that you were waiting for me at that time, and I will not I will think about why you like me again, and I will like you well."

Jiang Chuan kept looking into Cheng Jing's eyes, the black pupils that were so close at hand, he could see every ripple thoroughly.

Cheng Jing said, "What if I said yes but lied to you?"

Jiang Chuan said: "What you said is the truth if it cannot be exposed."

Cheng Jing straightened her waist, raised her head and kissed the scar on Jiang Chuan's eyelids, then looked back into Jiang Chuan's eyes, and said, "I'm waiting for you, Jiang Chuan. I left Xitangkou with Feng Yu that day, and I saw it in the car. You, since then, I have been waiting for you."

Jiang Chuan will continue to think about things that he can't understand in another way, and he won't be entangled for long.When I didn't confess, I wanted to fight for a special treatment in Cheng Jing's heart.After confessing, I want to know why Cheng Jing likes her.After Jiang Chuan struggled with these fruitless matters for a while, he would not dig them out and continue to struggle.Like a person, not because he likes you.Jiang Chuan is willing to give Cheng Jing special treatment in his heart, and is willing to find countless reasons for himself to like Cheng Jing.

Cheng Jing's kiss was like the touch of a dragonfly on water, leaving a slight itching on the skin and seeping into the heart.Jiang Chuan kissed the boy's forehead and said, "Okay, Cheng Jing, I will never doubt you again, never will. I like you, I am willing, no matter what you do to me in the future, it will not change."

When the two returned to Xitangkou, it was already past four o'clock in the morning, when the sky was at its darkest.Jiang Chuan gritted his teeth and carried Cheng Jing's trolley case all the way, opened the door carefully, turned around and pulled Cheng Jing in.

The bedroom door of Jin Min and Jiang Xing was a bit light leaking, Jiang Chuan didn't dare to turn on the light in the living room, touched the light at the stairway, and asked softly in Cheng Jing's ear, "Do you want to take a bath, or do you do it tomorrow morning?"

"Wash now."

"Go wash first, I'll help you find clothes, quick fix."

Cheng Jing went into the washroom, Jiang Chuan lifted the trolley case to the stairs, opened it and saw half a case of books, he was about to cry, his hands almost broke just now.He took out his underwear and sent it to Cheng Jing. Through a frosted aluminum door, Cheng Jing showed half of his head and said, "I thought the clothes you were talking about were pajamas."

Jiang Chuan mouthed: "Don't be afraid, baby, I'll close my eyes later."

When Cheng Jing came out wearing underwear, Jiang Chuan not only did not close his eyes, but also took a good look at Cheng Jing's figure under the warm yellow light in the bathroom.Cheng Jing put the towel on his head expressionlessly.

Jiang Chuan took the hair dryer and went upstairs with Cheng Jing.He entered his room, closed the door, and spoke a little louder.

"Go take a shower." Cheng Jing took the hair dryer to find the plug, plugged it in, saw Jiang Chuan was still standing there, walked over and said, "Do you want to take it off for you to see?"

The hooligan deity couldn't help laughing, and said, "Cheng Jing, you are really too thin, I have to make a plan to raise pigs."

Cheng Jing: "Big pig farmer, do you want to take a bath?"

Jiang Chuan washed faster, and the soap came out after one rub.His hair was always short, and it was half-dried after a few wipes with a dry towel.When he returned to the bedroom, Cheng Jing had just dried his hair, and Jiang Chuan wanted to blow it when he saw it.After blowing a few times, Jiang Chuan couldn't help running away: "Okay, okay, my ears will burn if I keep blowing."

He took out his pajamas and threw it to Cheng Jing, saying, "You make it up first."

When he went to take a shower just now, Jiang Chuan didn't continue playing hooligans, and put on a pair of shorts over his underwear. Now he found a T-shirt and put it on, urging Cheng Jing to go to bed quickly.

Cheng Jing's backpack was placed next to the desktop computer, Jiang Chuan took out the medicine box and the unfinished mineral water before, and said, "Cheng Jing, you just slept in the middle of the night, so you shouldn't be able to sleep right now, take some melatonin first , Continue to sleep well. I will lie down on the sofa for a while."

Cheng Jing frowned, "We slept together."

"That's different." Jiang Chuan watched as Cheng Jing swallowed melatonin, and then lay down.He reached out to turn off the light, gently stroked the boy's hair in the dark, and said, "Good night."

He got up, closed the door and left the bedroom.

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