why do you like me

080 Mercy

After Cheng Jing left, Jiang Chuan didn't go to school for a long time.

Cheng Jing didn't take anything away, the phone was placed on the table, and the water in the cup was still warm, which made Jiang Chuan not notice anything strange at first.

He ran all the way back, in the mood of the rest of his life, sitting on the carpet where the two of them often lay next to each other, panting.He was no longer sweating, but his chest was still beating wildly, and he couldn't calm down. After half an hour, he couldn't sit still anymore, so Jiang Chuan got up and went downstairs.

The yellow hair whose hair color has been changed to white is playing with the golden retriever at the door. One person and one dog play with their eyes bright and tireless.He told Jiang Chuan that Cheng Jing went out for a walk. He followed the previous road, turned right at the barber shop, crossed Miguo Street, and walked to the shopping district.There was a Xinhua Bookstore on the first floor there, and Cheng Jing often walked around in it twice before turning back when she had nothing else to do.

Jiang Chuan walked there, with familiar scenery all the way, but without Cheng Jing.He went back and forth in the shopping mall countless times, looking for all the places Cheng Jing had visited, wishing he could look through all the books and find Cheng Jing who was playing hide-and-seek with him from any page.

But he couldn't find Cheng Jing.

At ten o'clock in the evening, the mall closes.Jiang Chuan walked all the way back to Miguo Street and returned to the empty room, knowing that Cheng Jing had left with Yan Qingshu.

He called the police like an idiot.

Not only did it have no effect, but it got a strange look from the police.Cheng Yumin's son didn't go abroad, didn't go to school, but lived in a dilapidated rented house in a place like S City, and was threatened by a rich second generation, who would believe it.Why the threat, how to explain the relationship between the two people, all these are far more difficult to clarify than the disappearance case itself, and more secrets will be exposed if you are not careful.

Jiang Chuan felt that he was an idiot.

When I was young, I was upset that Xi Yun bullied Jiang Guodong, so Jiang Chuan jumped on the table and beat him up.Later, Jiang Guodong became very bad, Jiang Chuan didn't want Jin Min to continue to be implicated, so he let them divorce regardless of everyone's opposition.Jiang Xing has always been ill, and Jiang Chuan dared not take out the money he brought back from the casino, fearing that there would be bad luck on the money, which would harm Jiang Xing.At that time, I was young and didn't know much. I was just simple and enthusiastic and hoped that the people I loved would live well and be happy.

But now, he couldn't make Cheng Jing live well and happily.

When the leaves of the ginkgo tree fell, Jiang Xing was finally discharged from the hospital.At that time, Jiang Chuan had already been in N City for half a month, and he didn't even ask for leave. He went directly to Song Yang, hoping that Song Yang could hear from Cheng Jing.When Jiang Xing saw him, he asked earnestly, "Where's Brother Cheng Jing?"

It was only then that I noticed Jiang Chuan's expressionless eyes, and was stunned: "Are you quarreling again?"

There was no quarrel, it was just a lie... At that moment, Jiang Chuan suddenly wondered if Cheng Jing would go with Yan Qingshu because he lied on the phone.As Cheng Jing said, don't lie to him, and don't be exposed if you lie, otherwise he will retaliate.

Is this Cheng Jing's revenge?

Countless details of the past are revealed at this moment, Jiang Chuan is like a lost beast, unable to believe anything, and feels that everything is a clue.The whole person was terrified, as if he had lost his soul.

Song Yang didn't know about this at all, so he used his connections to find Yan Qingshu, but he couldn't meet anyone, but he saw the photo Yan Qingshu uploaded on his ins to meet Cheng Tong, with the words "brother".Anyone who sees such a photo and knows the current relationship of several people will think that Cheng Jing and Yan Qingshu are together.

"No, we didn't break up." Jiang Chuan emphasized firmly.

At that time, he never doubted his feelings for Cheng Jing, nor did he question why Cheng Jing liked him.It's just that such things spread, and many people thought that between Jiang Chuan and Yan Qingshu, Cheng Jing must choose the richer one, which is human nature.

Fuck his uncle's human nature!

Jiang Chuan didn't know about Cheng Tong, nor did he know that Cheng Jing helped Song Yang tide over the difficulties, but he knew that Cheng Jing paid for Jiang Xing's treatment.

He hated others using such "human nature" to judge Cheng Jing, and hated others describing Cheng Jing so badly.He learned to be silent overnight, and what he thought in his heart was that Cheng Jing would go with Yan Qingshu because Yan Qingshu used him to blackmail Cheng Jing.It was too easy for Yan Qingshu to crush the two of them to death.

So that winter vacation, Jiang Chuan started speculating in Bitcoin.

After Cheng Jing left, he hardly had the time to attend class.Originally, the professor wanted him to continue his postgraduate studies with him, but Jiang Chuan's negative attitude made the professor think that Jiang Chuan became a big hit because of the research project, and he became a little bit overwhelmed.

He just passed the first one in the final exam, the lowest score ever.The professor didn't care about these things at first, so he directly took him to the office and scolded him, asking him if he still wanted to graduate and if he wanted to have a future.There are only two words in Jiang Chuan's mind, don't want to.

Before he could say anything, the professor suddenly said, "How could Cheng Yumin's son fall in love with a dog like you!"

Jiang Chuan was taken aback.

The relationship between him and Cheng Jing can be seen by discerning people, but after all, it has not been officially disclosed, and most people don't know about it.But the reason for his daze was not this, but the fact that the professor knew Cheng Jing's identity.

The professor sighed: "At first I didn't intend to ask you, but Cheng Jing asked his former private teacher to recommend you to me. At first I thought you were just coming here to earn credits, but I didn't take it seriously, it was you who made up your mind. "

When they met for the first time in the lecture, the professor really felt that Jiang Chuan and Cheng Jing had a wider range of knowledge than the average freshman.But he had seen too many outstanding people and didn't take it seriously.When Jiang Chuan recommended himself, he just said it casually, and he didn't think about whether he could succeed at all.

The small program sent by Jiang Chuan can be produced by just teaching someone who has never learned programming for two days.He finally took Jiang Chuan because of the entrustment of an acquaintance.There are so many moths in each project team, and mixed credits are no longer a big deal.It was only later that he found out that Jiang Chuan was really working hard on this area and kept making progress, that he changed his view of Jiang Chuan.Later, when I was on a business trip to hold a seminar, I met the person I had entrusted with, and only then did I realize that there was something hidden behind my back.

The man didn't seem to remember this incident, so he thought for a while before he said, "It's Cheng Jing, the son of Cheng Yumin's family, please send me an email to ask me to mention it to you. Cheng Yumin is gone, but after all There is a little bit of humanity, and besides, Cheng Jing is too sensible, and I have always liked him."

The professor knew about Cheng Yumin, but he didn't continue to inquire, and the matter passed.

No matter how low-key a child is in love, he can't hide it, let alone a professor like this.He saw it, but just kept silent. Later, he also got to know Cheng Jing, and after chatting, he understood why the acquaintance had such an evaluation, and felt a little pity.But now that Jiang Chuan is like this, he somewhat feels that he hates iron and steel: "It's just a broken love and a separation. Are you living for others all your life? If Cheng Jing dies, can you still be buried with him?"

"It's not...it's not a breakup..."

Jiang Chuan didn't know what to explain.But he suddenly understood that no matter how big he thought it was, it was not worth mentioning in the eyes of others.Even if he was pushed on a cliff, going forward and back would be a dead end.Even though Cheng Jing has always been gentle with everyone, other people's evaluation of him still cannot avoid the harsh labels of rich man, money worshiper, and son of corrupt officials.

That day, in the face of the professor's swearing, he didn't care about or try to justify as before, but listened silently.After leaving the office, he first went to apply for a postponement exam, then applied for a venture capital fund, and registered a company.The company doesn't have any serious business, it just helps those speculators who don't understand anything other than money get bitcoins, and he earns commissions from it.

The way to earn commissions is the result of his research over the past few years. It does not break the law, but it is easy to cause accidents if it is discovered, but he can't control it.The plan to earn commissions was the one that Cheng Jing came up with when he was thinking about game leveling.

Life itself is a butterfly effect.You don't know at what moment what you said and what you did, when you saw a butterfly flapping its wings, what year and what day caused a tsunami.

Not so much a tsunami, just a separation without farewell that doesn't eat you up but changes you.

When playing the game back then, no one thought that Yan Qingshu would find Cheng Jing through the game IP, and Cheng Jing would become an e-sports player because of this, and no one thought that Jiang Chuan would take the plan that had long been forgotten by others to go. Fry Bitcoin.

Throughout the winter vacation, Jiang Chuan did not leave the rented house, helping others speculate in Bitcoin day and night.After earning a sum of money, he rented a warehouse, or rented or bought or designed mining machines by himself to further expand his business.Not only help others to speculate, but also speculate yourself, starting from various channels.

The barriers to entry in this industry are high, and there are not many competitors encountered. What's more, Jiang Chuan's mind is empty, and he has no worries except to fight to the death.As if destined, he was born to be a gambler, whether it was an underground casino, an invisible data network, or this life.

At the postgraduate level, Jiang Chuan’s research direction is still virtual currency, and at the same time involves some legal research on mutual funds.The more he understands these, the more he can use the rules freely, not only walking in the gray area himself, but also helping other corporate projects avoid touching the warning line of the law.The professor knew he was taking a risk, but said nothing, and even offered to help a few times.

Jiang Chuan made more and more money, some of it was used to open restaurants for Nan Xiangjun, and some of it was invested in other things.Naturally, it was necessary for Jin Min and Jiang Xing, but Jin Min had never done business, so Jiang Chuan helped her with a financial management and bought a few properties.

He didn't buy anything for himself, and even still lived on Miguo Street.Jiang Xing was already in high school at that time, and his desire to become an art student became stronger and stronger.Jin Min's understanding of this matter is unavoidably narrow, and he feels that Jiang Xing's culture class is okay, and taking the path of art is not doing his job properly.Jin Min called Jiang Chuan and asked him to persuade Jiang Xing, seemingly unintentionally, and mentioned: "It would be great if Cheng Jing was here, Xingzi listens to him the most."

Jiang Chuan covered his mouth in sadness.

He felt that if he became rich and got Xie Jiayu's company, Yan Qingshu would not be able to control Cheng Jing, and others would not judge Cheng Jing like that.

A year after Cheng Jing left, the equity of Xie Jiayu's company had some changes, and 1% of the shares went to Cheng Jing's name.Jiang Chuan has countless ways to use the other 99% of the shares without directly violating the law, and then make this company his own.But he didn't know where Cheng Jing was, or what the 1% of the shares represented.He paid attention to every move of that company, trying to find traces of Cheng Jing, but there was nothing.

He went back to Xitangkou and chatted with Jiang Xing.

Jiang Chuan didn't persuade Jiang Xing immediately, but asked, "What did Cheng Jing say about you learning to paint?"

Jiang Xing looked at him: "Brother Cheng Jing's opinion is your opinion?"

"Ah."

Jiang Xing suddenly pushed him, obviously angry: "I knew you would be like this!"

Jiang Chuan was puzzled: "What's wrong with me?"

In the past, Jiang Chuan could still go home once a month. Since Cheng Jing left, he basically never went home, and he only went home for one day during the holidays.He didn't dare to let himself be free, and he was even more afraid that others would find him strange.It's just that there is one less person around, so what's the big deal——Jiang Chuan knew what others would say.

And this sentence is so terrible.

In the past, Jiang Chuan didn't care what others said about him, anyway, just don't let him hear bad things about Jin Min or Jiang Xing.But he was very concerned about Cheng Jing.

At that moment, at least until the moment when Jiang Xing mentioned the past, Jiang Chuan never doubted his relationship with Cheng Jing.Because even if Cheng Jing wasn't around, he couldn't allow anyone to judge Cheng Jing.He can't make others shut up, but he can keep silent and keep the best of Cheng Jing in his heart.

But Jiang Xing told him like this: "Brother, Brother Cheng Jing has already talked about your problems! You have no self, and you can't live with the crowd. Sooner or later, you will lose your own life!"

Jiang Chuan froze for a moment: "Is this Cheng Jing's original words? When did he tell you?"

It was the day they went to the art gallery together.Standing in front of Xie Jiayu's work, Cheng Jing suddenly said to Jiang Xing: "Xingzi, you can see it, I'm with your brother."

The boy's voice was always calm and gentle, "I don't know if you can accept it, but Jiang Chuan cares about you and your mother very much. If you object, Jiang Chuan will be very difficult to deal with."

Jiang Xing asked: "If mom objects, will you separate?"

There was a slight ripple in Cheng Jing's eyes: "You have no objection."

"That...Brother Cheng Jing...what do you like about my brother?" Jiang Xing curled his lips, "He has been fighting since he was a child, he is ignorant, a little clever but completely illiterate, what do you like about him?"

Cheng Jing laughed: "Don't you think your brother is very nice?"

"That's good, at least I didn't bring any trouble home." Jiang Xing said, "But... my brother is a jerk, he doesn't have any thoughts of his own, and he doesn't have any charisma!"

"That's it." Cheng Jing understood, no wonder Jiang Xing's attitude towards Jiang Chuan was always awkward, he said: "Not everyone can have their own personality."

When a child is growing up, there will always be an adult who is regarded as a hero.Jiang Guodong can't be such a hero, and there is no such person in Xitangkou.All Jiang Xing could see was Jiang Chuan.But Jiang Chuan didn't want to be someone's hero. He pierced the mask of a hero at an earlier age, and he was never deceived by that kind of halo.

"Xingzi, treat Jiang Chuan better in the future, okay? Not as a hero, but as a family member." Cheng Jing said, "Jiang Chuan regards you as his life, but you have your own life. His mother also has another family, and Jiang Chuan is alone. At that time, he will be very sad."

It wasn't until he left the art gallery that Jiang Xing realized the meaning of Cheng Jing's words: "Why is my brother alone, aren't you together?"

Jiang Xing told Jiang Chuan all these details.

At that time, she was still too young, she felt that Cheng Jing was much better than Jiang Chuan, and she didn't understand why Cheng Jing liked Jiang Chuan.It's just that in her later life, she understood the reason why the two were together from the details of Jiang Chuan's treatment of Cheng Jing.But the more she understood, the more sad she became, because no matter how much two people love each other, Cheng Jing always believes that life is lonely.

He was so lonely in his heart, but what he said was: "It's too selfish to let others wait for me."

At that time, Cheng Jing’s plan was to go abroad.

Jiang Xing said to Jiang Chuan: "Brother Cheng Jing has long planned to break up with you after going abroad."

"Jiang Xing, what nonsense are you talking about!" The veins on Jiang Chuan's forehead twitched, and he couldn't believe Cheng Jing's original words.

"Pull it down, brother!"

Jiang Xing also roared.She understood why Cheng Jing planned to break up, but she didn't want to say it now.All she knew was that she saw the Jiang Chuan that Cheng Jing was talking about—after the people around him left him, he was so sad that he seemed to have lost everything.

Cheng Jing has left now, and there will still be her and her mother in the future... Jiang Xing held back tears in his heart and said loudly: "You are not in the world alone at all! Brother Cheng Jing likes you, but you are destined to break up Can you give Brother Cheng Jing what he wants!"

"Why can't I give it to him!"

Jiang Chuan is now fully able to get Xie Jiayu's company, but Jiang Xing is mocking: "Don't think I don't know where your money comes from. What can you give Brother Cheng Jing, what do you think of Brother Cheng Jing?" So what if you get what you want, you will go in with half your life! You are very good, I thank you! But brother, are you dying yourself? Have you ever thought about yourself! Brother Cheng Jing already knew that you would It looks like this, but he just left you!"

The girl's expression was still sarcastic, but her eyes were already full of tears.In this tense atmosphere, she could no longer pretend, and cried, "Brother, can you only think about yourself in the future, and leave me alone."

Jiang Chuan looked at the girl, at the girl he only wanted to protect all this time... It turned out that the little girl who was going to die at any time back then really didn't need him anymore.

At that moment his consciousness withdrew from his body, reviewing everything in the past 20 years.Everything that was once determined has been torn apart and beyond recognition.And his soul woke up from the chaos.The Bible says, it is not good for the man to live alone, I will make him a spouse to help him.

God loves the world, we should have mercy on ourselves.

Jiang Chuan looked at Cheng Jing, his voice hoarse: "You really don't want me... Is it true what you told Xingzi back then... You really didn't want to be with me forever..."

In the small space inside the car, the golden retriever was arched back and forth in Cheng Jing's arms, and a strong flashlight shone head-on.Unwillingly, Jiang Chuan let go of Cheng Jing, drove the car away from Miguo Street, stopped at a secluded side road, and then tightly grasped the boy's hand again.

He stretched out his right hand, and the ring on his ring finger was clearly visible.Cheng Jing glanced at it, his eyes moved slightly, but his expression was calm, and he patted the golden retriever's head with the other hand, and ordered: "Yoyo, sit in the back."

The golden retriever jumped onto the back seat, and Cheng Jing wanted to pull his hand away, but Jiang Chuan grabbed him even tighter.It hurt a little, he pursed his lips and said nothing, and heard Jiang Chuan say: "I have never felt sad about losing anything before. I feel that I am very lucky if I can have it, so I only see what I have in my eyes. Cheng Jing , you make me sad."

Cheng Jing looked at him.

"In the past three years, I have always felt sorry for you... If I had Feng Yu's background and Song Yang's ability, Yan Qingshu would not use me to blackmail you... So I think, I can be as capable as Yan Qingshu Money will do."

Jiang Chuan's tears fell, "But why are you with Yan Qingshu...why is Yan Qingshu..."

The pictures in the PUB swept through his mind again, and Cheng Jing's initiative made him unable to find an excuse like "Yan Qingshu forced everything".

There was silence all around, no lights, and Cheng Jing's emotions were hidden in the darkness.He looked at the front where there was nothing, his heart ached, but his voice was cold and flat: "Why can't it be Yan Qingshu? My father cooperates with Nie Yizhi, and I cooperate with him. Everything is destined."

"Are you just cooperating?" Jiang Chuan felt a dull pain in his heart, "What your father did with Nie Yizhi was a shady affair, and your father put his life in it. What about you...do you want to put your life in it too? "

Cheng Jing suddenly smiled, the smile of the white flower was blown away by the warm wind, it seemed to be an illusion in the night.He leaned in front of Jiang Chuan, put his hand into Jiang Chuan's waist, and covered the black tattoo that had never been seen by others.

Gods above, how should I have mercy?

I have seen the person in front of me as myself.

His eyes were burning with sparkling fire, and he leaned over to kiss Jiang Chuan's lips in astonishment.