I raised the whole heaven

The old man's home was farther than imagined. Dr. Ban was ready to leave early in the morning, but he arrived at the gate of the village three hours later.The old woman had been waiting at the gate of the village for a long time, and finally waited for him to come, and hurriedly greeted him tremblingly with joy: "Doctor Ban! Here!"

Her family background is not bad. Although it is a one-story house, it looks like it was newly built for a few years, and the house is clean and tidy.Ban Ming sat down at the table, saw the old man was going to get up to pour tea for him, and hurriedly stopped him.

"I'll do it myself," he said.

The teapot was placed in the kitchen, and he glanced at it casually, and found that there were many leftovers from the morning on the table, such as fried pork with mushrooms, stir-fried beans, and a small dish of soy beans, all of which were simple and unadorned dishes.

For some reason, the old woman was a little restless, but she followed into the kitchen and murmured, "Is this the place where guests like you should come? Hurry up, let me do it."

Ban Ming was not good at arguing with others, so he had to hand over the teapot to her, and she pushed him out of the kitchen door.Standing under the low eaves, he listened to the intermittent sounds of cooking, spatulas clashing, and conversations coming from the houses on both sides. These sounds gradually converged in one place, forming a unique symphony in the countryside.

At this moment, there was a sudden sound of glass shattering in the kitchen.

"What's the sound?" Ban Ming's scalp went numb, and he quickly turned his head to look into the kitchen, only to find the old woman standing there helplessly, staring at the broken glass on the ground.She was stunned, and then slowly squatted down, but instead of picking up the pieces, she carefully touched the empty air beside her twice, and then she breathed a sigh of relief.

Watching this movement, Ban Ming was at a loss, thinking about the old lady's condition, he just realized it.He pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose, and asked coldly, "Are you hallucinating again?"

The old woman squatted on the ground and froze for a long time, looking quite lost, and only responded in a low voice after a long while.

"Hey."

"Did you take the medicine?"

"have eaten."

Dr. Ban frowned, he pulled the old woman up from the ground, and said solemnly: "The hallucination is not a trivial matter, it is likely to be a brain problem. As a doctor, I still suggest that you go to the hospital first. Do a full body check."

"Body check......"

The old woman smiled wryly, and after a long time, she patted the dust off her clothes, and said nonchalantly, "Doctor Ban, what kind of tea do you want to drink?"

Her resistance to the hospital was too obvious, and Ban Ming couldn't persuade him no matter how hard he tried, so he could only frown and put it aside in advance.He drank two cups of tea, and then suddenly saw a big red-crested rooster in the yard, flapping its wings vigorously, huffing and leaping out of the gate through a gap.

"..."

He turned his head and found that the old woman who watched the rooster escape did not respond to the incident at all, but just stared at the gate in a daze.

"Grandma Li? Grandma Li?" Ban Ming called her twice.

Only then did the old woman come to her senses, and quickly asked, "Doctor, do you want some biscuits?"

"..." Ban Ming pointed at the door speechlessly, "The rooster ran away."

The old woman looked at him for a while, then suddenly reached out and slapped her thigh: "Did you really run away?"

"......if not?"

"Not a hallucination?"

It was only then that Ban Ming realized what she was stunned for just now, thinking that this person could no longer distinguish between reality and illusion, he only felt his scalp tingling.He simply pushed the old lady on the chair and said, "I'll go."

The old woman rubbed her hands uneasily, she looked very upset, and said seriously: "Catch it back, I, I will stew it for you to eat."

Ban Ming's head hurt even more in an instant.

This is the first time he has caught a chicken in his 30 years of life.The chicken seemed to have given birth to a spiritual orifice. It thumped left and right, twisted its body and escaped from his hand again and again, and it was extremely flexible.Not only that, but it would slap dust on his face with its wings and yell desperately, making a large area full of dust, as if it were the scene of a demolition team.

To make matters worse, its miserable barking attracted several dogs from the village. The dogs seemed to regard the handsome Dr. Ban as a dirty chicken thief, and rushed up to bark and bite the hem of his clothes. Before Ban Ming could react, he was completely besieged by this group of furry animals.

The big rooster raised its neck, cocked its toes high and high, and took the lead in flapping its wings towards the enemy.

Come on guys, fuck him!

So the dogs rushed up together aggressively, the scene was very tragic for a while, chicken feathers were the same color as dog feathers, dust and sand were flying around.

Really. Jifeigouju.GIF.

When the villagers heard the sound and rescued Dr. Ban from the pile of chicken feathers, his always meticulous and neat big back head was scratched by sharp claws, and countless flying chicken feathers were stained on his clean white shirt. Dragging his heavy steps after being ravaged, he picked up the rooster whose wings had been puffed up by the villagers, and showed an extremely kind smile at the culprit.

"Don't worry," a cold light flashed across his glasses, "I'll eat you when I get back."

The cock trembled even more instantly.

At noon on this day, they really ate chicken stewed with mushrooms.The old lady went out to buy soy sauce, Ban Ming looked after the pot, and saw the leftovers covered by the plate for a while, he thought about it, worried that these leftovers would completely deteriorate in the evening, so he simply put the leftovers in small quantities The mushroom ragout was also poured in.

After lunch, he helped the old woman wash the dishes, fed the leftover chickens, and cleaned the house again.Seeing his unskilled movements, the old woman chuckled aside: "Look at it, it's like he hasn't done any work before."

Ban Ming pursed his thin lips, and the movement of sweeping the floor with his hands became more vigorous.Obviously he has always been a clean freak, but for some reason, staying in this place, he felt an unprecedented sense of peace of mind, as if he had rested with his heart smelling the simple and rustic flavor, and lived here properly.

It was hard to find a car out of the village at night, so he just rested in the main room. The houses in the country are connected to each other, and the old woman is lying next to him, chatting with him every now and then, chatting and chatting, it is inevitable talked about the parents.

At that moment, Ban Ming's body stiffened suddenly.He hesitated for a long time before whispering: "I... haven't seen my parents for three or four years."

"You baby..." the old woman sighed, "Why?"

"because--"

"Because, I hate them."

He was born in a highly educated family.Both father and mother are senior scientific researchers. They are fighting in the front line of scientific research, and the time spent by his side is not even a fraction of the time spent in the laboratory.

Almost from childhood, Ban Ming got used to going to school across two blocks alone, lying on the bed alone, quietly counting sheep to coax him to sleep, and the nanny would only come to cook three meals a day on time, Besides, he couldn't even feel the popularity of this family.

He turned himself into a robot from the living.

But just like this, there will be no hatred.All the hatred happened a few years later, when his parents gave birth to their second child, his younger brother, Ban Liang.

The birth of Ban Liang seemed to give his parents a shot in the arm, reminding them that they still had children—they suddenly pulled out of their working hours and devoted themselves to taking care of this weak baby who was born weak. Ban Ming, who was already ten years old, stood alone and watched. Seeing that everything he had never enjoyed before was being poured into this child, he understood something in an instant.

Father.Mother.Ban Liang.

They are family.

And he's just one person.

When he became an adult, he chose to block his parents, did not leave any contact information, and moved away from the city where they lived; the only person who could contact him was Ban Liang, who was careful every time he called him Four years ago, Ban Ming saw his parents downstairs in his house, and the next day, he blocked even Ban Liang.

"I don't want to hate," he stared at the eaves calmly, and paused every word, "I just—I just can't forgive—"

This is the pain that he has been carefully buried in his heart, but for some reason, lying in the room next to this patient, smelling the bedding with the scent of sunlight, he can't help pouring out all of them, as if pouring out memories Into the trickling river.

why?

Perhaps, it is because the other party is also a parent and a child—so, always expect to get understanding from the other party.

After listening to the story, the old woman was silent for a while, then suddenly said, "I have a daughter."

"She was smart and beautiful when she was a child, and her academic performance has always been top in the county. All the teachers praised her, saying that she will definitely be admitted to a good university in the future."

"But my family was poor at that time, and my wife died early, so I supported her to go to school by myself...it was difficult."

Ban Ming didn't speak, but listened quietly.

The old woman's eyes were suddenly moist, she trembled her lips, and continued: "One day when she came home, she suddenly told me that she wanted a pencil case—the kind with beautiful prints on it. Flowery ones, the kind of pencil case that all children have."

"But it was really difficult at that time. I worked every day and couldn't afford much spare money, so I beat her with a stick and told her she couldn't afford it."

"One year later, she dropped out of school. She started working with the villagers at a young age. Because she was too young, she could only stay in the back kitchen and wash dishes for others. She sent me money every month, a lot of money. , I was reluctant to spend them, and kept them for her. But she didn't have time to go home, and on that day, she suddenly said, I'll go home and stay with you, okay?"

"I said yes."

"And then on the way back, she was gone."

Ban Ming heard the trembling, uncontrollable cries in the old man's voice.

"I found out later that my baby didn't have the new clothes other people's babies wore, nor did they have those strange gadgets that other people's babies were holding in their hands. People laughed at her—she didn't have anything else she wanted, and she held back so much. God, just tell me that she wants the cheapest pencil case."

Her voice was light and ethereal, as if she was asking about her back then.

"At that time, why didn't I buy her a pencil case like that?"

"Such a stationery box with flowers printed on it, which is the same as other children - obviously, obviously, it is the money that can be saved if you work hard..."

Ban Ming heard a long sigh.

What is contained in this old sigh is not only the pain of the separation of yin and yang, but also the regret that has passed away before it is too late to make up.

"So baby..." she said.

"Before it's too late, go back and have a look."

"Your parents weren't born parents, it was their first time, they were inexperienced, and they would make mistakes."

"However, you have to give them a chance to make up for it."

That night, Ban Ming didn't fall asleep.He tossed and turned in that bed for a long time before finally leaving the village in the first car of the morning.

As he was leaving, the old woman held onto the door frame and patted his back heavily.

Ban Ming got into the car under such loving eyes, but he didn't return to his home, instead he was sent to the hospital halfway.

Because he saw a fire-breathing dragon in the car.

"It's really a fire-breathing dragon!" He tried to sit upright on the hospital bed, and said to his colleague with wide eyes, "It's as high as the carriage, and it's breathing fire at the railing in front of me! The flames are so hot! Why don't you believe it? !"

"I believe it." The colleague sighed, "Arrange gastric lavage."

Ban Ming was stunned, as if he had been hit hard on the head: "Wash...stomach?"

A colleague patted him on the shoulder: "Doctor Ban, where did you get your head and hands? That mushroom is poisonous and can cause hallucinations. Let alone a fire-breathing dragon, you will see the United States in the next second." It’s normal for the captain to fall from the sky, so let’s deal with it quickly.”

...... see blue hands?

Ban Ming suddenly recalled the lunch he had at the old man's house yesterday. In order to prevent the food from spoiling, he poured some unidentifiable mushroom leftovers into the pot.

His eyes widened for a moment.

He thought he knew why the old woman was hallucinating all the time.

After washing his stomach and hanging the water, Ban Ming immediately returned to the village, and forcibly brought the uncooperative old lady here for a physical examination. Sure enough, he also found penicillin in her body. After hanging the water, Ban Ming Seriously told the old lady that that kind of mushroom must never be touched again.

"It's very bad for your health," he said with his hands in the pockets of his white coat. He recalled the scene when he saw the fire-breathing dragon in the car, and he still felt sympathetic. Things away."

The old woman was stunned for a while, then slowly nodded.

"Hey, I see."

But her hallucinations didn't stop there.

Ban Ming often went to visit her in the village, and he could still see her cautiously groping for something to see if it was real, or being startled by the empty air the next second, or staring at something in a daze Trance——At that time, Dr. Ban knew that she might be hallucinating again.

The old woman still refused to go to the hospital. After going there once, she seemed to be more and more afraid of going there. Whenever she heard Ban Ming mention it, she would shake her head like a rattle.

"My old bones..."

Dr. Ban had no choice but to run to the village more often.

It was the first day after the rain.The heavy rain a few days ago had made the ground muddy. Dr. Ban was sitting on a small bench in the main room, helping to choose beans and chatting with the old woman.When he lowered his head to pinch for a while, he suddenly felt the person beside him stand up abruptly, the movement of standing up was so urgent that he even knocked down the small bench she was sitting on.

Ban Ming was taken aback.

He raised his head and saw an indescribable excitement suddenly appearing on the old woman's face, as if someone had injected her soul from the top of her head in an instant.She stood tremblingly, even her lips were trembling, and she said in a hoarse voice to the empty air, "You...you are back."

"you're back."

"Mom has something for you."

She staggered and rushed into the room, but her eyes were fixed on the air, as if she was looking at a living person standing in front of her.She took out a full red cloth bag from the bedside table, and then handed the bag to the non-existent person.

"Take it, you take it!"

Ban Ming frowned.He stood up from where he was, and was about to speak when he saw the old woman's expression froze suddenly, and her eyes widened.

"Where are you going?" she murmured to the non-existent person, "Where are you going?"

"No! Don't—don't go!"

Before Ban Ming could stop him in the future, the old lady had already chased the air and ran out of the door. She chased desperately, staring at the front without blinking, until she shed sour tears because she hadn't closed it for too long. .

But the figure she was chasing slowly disappeared in front of her.

"Don't go!"

"baby!!!"

She slipped and fell so hard on the muddy ground that Ben Ming could almost hear the crackling sound of bones colliding with each other.He gasped, and rushed forward to help the old woman up, but she shook her hand vigorously away.

The red cloth bag fell to the ground, and a lot of things slipped out of it. Ban Ming looked at it for a long time before realizing that they were all pencil cases.

Scattered all over the floor, each one is a stationery box with all kinds of fresh patterns printed on it, which the little girl yearned for so much and mustered up the courage to put forward timidly.

His body trembled violently, and he vaguely realized something, but the next second, the old lady shook off his hand, staggered and ran towards the field dragging the mud all over her body—her Shouting despair and mourning, to Ban Ming's ears, it was like a burst of spring thunder suddenly exploding.

"Please! Xiaofang, don't go!!!"

"Mom... Mom please..."

"Mom bought you the pencil case you wanted before. Every time a new one comes into the store, Mom will buy you one back—have you seen it? Mom made a mistake back then, so I shouldn't refuse it. My baby's request...my baby is so good, she has made such a request to me all her life..."

"Mom has eaten mushrooms for so long, just thinking, just wanting to see you again before she dies... Mom is waiting every day, but you are not the one I see every day. Mom finally took you Wait, how could you just leave like this?"

She finally had no more strength, and fell down on the field ridge in embarrassment, crying heartbreakingly, that kind of crying sounded like a knife piercing into the soul.They echoed, surrounding the guilty and painful mother alone, deeply trapped in this cage that could never be released.

Ban Ming stood there in a daze, and all of a sudden, those questions that he felt surprised and couldn't solve were all answered in this instant.

Why do hallucinations occur?

Why are you afraid of going to the hospital?

Why did her symptoms persist after I told her that the mushrooms were poisonous?

——Because from the beginning to the end, this is a self-directed and self-acted mother who lost her daughter.

She desperately wanted to hide it from everyone, even the doctor who often came to see her. She knew that this would definitely be stopped, but she still picked and took mushrooms that she knew were poisonous every day, and endured bitterly. The days of being tortured by messy hallucinations are just for today.

——Just for today, a hasty meeting between the yin and yang worlds.

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The filming site was silent, and several female staff members covered their mouths with their hands tightly. Seeing the scene of Li Xiujuan kneeling on the ground and crying bitterly, tears were already streaming down her face, even Qin Lu, who almost never shed tears, had tears in his eyes. some moist light.

However, when he turned his head, the emotion just now disappeared in an instant.

Tang Yuan didn't know when he stood beside him, holding a handkerchief and crying almost fainting, with a lot of snot and tears, making his whole face dirty.He woke up his nose vigorously, and then sighed with red eyes: "Teacher Li Xiujuan's acting skills are really like this."

He gave a thumbs up.

The tension shown by this kind of old drama bones when performing in the play is really far from comparable to that of young people-that kind of shocking power, even without any post-editing, is enough to make people cry.He can already imagine how it would be a scene of crying in the movie theater after the post-production eye editing and tear-jerking BGM.

With reddened eyes, he said quietly: "We should discuss it with the theaters and tell them that each movie ticket will give a pack of tissues, or sell the movie tickets and tissues bundled together, it will definitely be very popular. "

Qin Lu glanced at him, then silently took a step to the side.

Tang Yuan: "???"

"Crying is so ugly." Qin Lu did not hide his dislike for the crying appearance of this subordinate, "You just wiped your nose with your hand, stay away from me now."

Tang Yuan: "..."

How could there be such a spoiled and unreasonable boss!

He was about to protest, but saw Chu Ci crying miserably at the end of the filming, jumping over like a rabbit and opening his arms - and the boss who was still disgusted with him just now didn't say a word , Immediately hugged him to his full arms, and let Chu Ci smear his tears and snot on his expensive brand-name shirt.

Tang Yuan: ...

I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

After watching such a scene just now, you gave me another wave of loving crit.

Is this determined to torture us single dogs?

He quietly glanced at Xu Fan, who was still looking behind the camera, hesitating whether to take this opportunity of crying to rush up and brazenly hug the goddess' thigh, but after thinking about it, the cowardly Tang Yuan still gave up.

Will you be beaten?