Snow scene

I quickly forgot about Li Lulu. Sister He arrived home on the night of the Lantern Festival, and she came back with a bunch of small gifts—gifts from lantern riddles.She said the holidays were over, and the children would come to class tomorrow, and this was a present for them.She gave me another bag of Lantern Festival wrapped by her at home, and told me to cook it right away.

I was cooking the Lantern Festival in the pot. If Sister He hadn't come back, I wouldn't even know that today is the Lantern Festival.Sister He didn't like eating glutinous rice balls.I am used to eating glutinous rice balls during the Lantern Festival, because every year during the Lantern Festival, I would make glutinous rice balls stuffed with sesame seeds with my mother, and Liu Feng liked to eat them at that time.I remember that on this day we used to go out to play, visit temple fairs, and guess riddles together. At the end of each time, we would take the lanterns we made, find an empty corner by the river, put the lanterns in the river, and let the It's far away.From the first year of high school to the third year of high school, it has always been like this. Now that I think about it, maybe if I didn’t pay attention at that time, the relationship between us also drifted away with the lanterns.

Time flies so slowly.At this time a year ago, we were still together all the time. How could we have known that things would end in an ending we all hated when the lanterns were set off.

"What's wrong with you?" Sister He turned off the gas and handed me a tissue.

I just realized I was crying.I wanted to stop the tears, but I couldn't help it, and I cried more and more.Sister He patted my shoulder, she comforted my emotions, "Cry louder if you want to cry, it's easy to cry."

A few minutes later, Sister He served me a bowl of Lantern Festival, "Are you in a better mood?"

I nodded, I don't understand why I cry so much, maybe it's because it's a holiday, which makes people hypocritical.

"Why are you crying?" Sister He said warmly, "If you don't mind, can you talk to me?"

"It's nothing, I just remembered my ex-girlfriend." I didn't want to use the pronoun ex-girlfriend to address her at all. I looked up at Sister He, and the steaming Lantern Festival in the bowl blurred the expression of Sister He in front of me. Taking a deep breath, he said, "We are classmates in high school. We were in the same class in the first year of high school. I noticed her the first time I entered the class. She has long hair reaching to her waist, and she wears the unique Ji hairstyle in comics. At that time, I thought she was very cute." Beautiful. Later we accidentally discovered that the other party likes animation, so we exchanged contact information. Since then, we have often chatted, and I found that she is not as ladylike and dignified as she is on the surface. Friends also often say that we talk about cross talk every day, and our relationship is getting better and better..."

Speaking of this, I can't help but laugh, because many things are very funny.I remember one day at the end of the day, there was no one on the school road, she stopped suddenly on the road, put on a defensive posture, and said to me: "Captain Bai! A giant slime suddenly appeared ahead! It's an emergency!" I I also happily cooperated with her in picking up the branches, and said solemnly: "Comrade Liufeng, this time is a bit tricky! You retreat first and call for help!" I ran in front of her and started to swing the branches randomly. She picked up the stones on the ground, ran Come to my side, "No, Captain, we must die together!" The two of us started to fight the monster, she threw the stone in her hand, I threw the branch, and we died together with the monster... Originally, I wanted to continue acting like this Yes, but at that time, who knew that the head teacher just passed by there, and our branches and stones just happened to be thrown into the head teacher's bag.The scene was very embarrassing for a while, Liu Feng wanted to drag me to run, but just as I turned around, I fell on the ground.

Later, we were severely criticized by the head teacher, because she was a good student, so we had nothing to do, and the head teacher didn't say anything, just told her not to delay her studies.

Speaking of study, I remember that there was a mid-term exam, and she came to my house to help me with tuition, but we were all playing.I went to a nearby famous park with her, and we walked into an uninhabited small bamboo forest, which was cool and comfortable with the wind blowing.I looked at her and my heart beat suddenly faster.I want to hold her hand, want to get closer to her.That's when I realized that I really liked her.

From then on, I carefully concealed my feelings and cherished the time with her.I always remember that day, in the first year of high school, during the Lantern Festival during the winter vacation, we made an appointment to go to the temple fair, and the lantern was made at noon. At that time, I secretly wrote on the petals of the lantern with an invisible pen. desire to be together.When visiting the temple fair at night, it was she who suggested to put lanterns by the riverside where there was no one, and the fireworks would bloom at that time.We sat on the grass and watched together. She held my hand. I was so nervous that I didn’t dare to look at her directly. I sneaked a glance at her and found that she had been looking at me. At that time, her face was flushed and she was very cute.The fireworks were bang bang, she leaned close to my face and seemed to want to say something to me, the world seemed to be quiet, only me and her.My ears felt her heat, and I could clearly hear the rapid beating of my heart, the accelerated flow of blood, and the clamor of countless cells in my body.

After the fireworks were set off, she still leaned against my face and said nothing.I called her name, she answered, hugged me, I couldn't see her face, "Ayu, do you want to be my best friend forever?" She asked, I could hear a little sadness .I understood her feelings, I hugged her and said with a smile, "I don't want to, but... I want to be with you all the time..."

"What do you mean?" She left my arms in surprise and looked at me.

"What do you mean..."

She suddenly laughed out loud, burst into tears, held my hands, met my eyes and said to me: "I like you, I have always liked you, shall we be lovers?"

With the orange light of the temple fair, I could clearly see the sincere eyes of the girl in front of me, my heart beat faster and faster, joy welled up in my heart, and my face was hot, I was a little embarrassed, "Yes..."

She hugged me again.

We've been together ever since.

Unknowingly, I said so much to Sister He.The Lantern Festival is also warm. This is the first time I eat Yuanxiao. I didn't expect that there was meat in the first bite, but it was also delicious.

"So that's how it is." The Lantern Festival in Sister He's bowl had already been eaten, and she filled another bowl, "It can be seen that you still like her now."

"Yeah, but maybe it's too unmotivated. I'm not suitable to be with her now." Who knew that the best memories back then would turn into needles in my heart.

"Why do you think this is the reason?" Sister He asked me.

"Because she has a clear goal, and she is moving towards her own goal now, and I..." I remembered my painting skills that hadn't improved much, "I seem to be dawdling, most of the time I stagnate ..."

I remembered what she said when we broke up that day, and my mood sank again, "The last quarrel that day was on the phone. She was an English major and was very busy with her studies. We had a gap at that time, and she kept talking about her major. The things I said were things I couldn’t understand. I could only respond to what she said a few times, and she became irritable, and I also became irritable. She then asked about painting, At that time, I worked overtime and had a quarrel with my family because of enrolling in the comic class, so I was even more annoyed when I talked about these things. Later, I didn’t know this, so I quarreled... I remember she said..."

"Why are you losing your temper! With your half-baked paintings, what grades can you get in the end! In the third year of high school, you clearly said that you would work hard to get a better grade in the exam, but what happened? You didn't study hard at all! Don't study if you don't want to Waste of time and money, make up your mind and work hard! Now you work part-time outside and don’t even go to college, you can’t enroll in manga classes, and you’re not very good at drawing, so what right do you have to kill me?”

"What do you know? What do you know about painting? Do you know how hard I practice every day? Do you know how tired I am to save money for comic training classes? Do you know how many times I have quarreled with my family? You don't even know, you are so busy every day, you even ignore me once a week, I will be in the third year of high school because of you, I want to accompany you, can't you? You know what I am and you are arrogant to me here hold head high?"

"Heh! Since you think so, let me just say it straight. I don't think you can become a cartoonist now..."

We quarreled afterwards and I can't remember clearly, I just remember the tiredness in Liu Feng's words.

"Bai Yu, I'm tired."

"..."

"I think... we should... break up..."

"..."

It was like being pulled into the cold water in an instant, unable to breathe or make any sound during the desperate struggle.

"..." The Lantern Festival in the bowl was already cold, "That's it... Then I found that my mother had been eavesdropping on my phone calls at the door, and she quickly realized that the other party was a good friend who had been coming to my house to play, and we had a quarrel After a long time, when the situation calmed down, when I called her again, she had already blocked me, tried all kinds of contact methods, and she blocked me all of them."

I don't want to eat Yuanxiao anymore.

"That's it." Sister He picked up my Lantern Festival, put it back into the pot and heated it up again.I sat at the table and didn't want to move or do anything.

"Since you don't want to break up, why don't you go to her?" She brought the hot glutinous rice balls to me again.

"I don't want to cause trouble for her. Going to the university to find her will probably make her dislike it." I stirred the Lantern Festival in the bowl. If I said that I didn't want to eat it, I might be whipped to death by Sister He.

"You are running away."

I can't even eat a bite of Yuanxiao.

"Actually, you also want to break up." She continued, "You don't want to break up but you just want to be content with the status quo. You understand it yourself, but you just don't want to admit it..."

To the point, I find it ridiculous, "You are right, but I want to be content with the status quo because I like her. I also understand what she means, and I know her anxiety about the future, but she will say that breaking up is really true. I didn't expect it. I didn't expect her to break this status quo. Once she breaks this status quo, it means that the relationship between me and her is over."

"Why? You obviously still have a chance to save her."

"I don't want to." I lowered my head, not daring to look at her, and said what was in my heart, "I'm too bad, I'm really too bad. I knew a long time ago that I was useless, I always give up halfway when I do things, and my interests change quickly. Painting is the only thing I insist on, but I don’t put in much effort. She is completely different. Maturity, she's great. The longer I hang out with her, the more I think she's great, and the more fights we have, the more I think I'm a really bad person and she shouldn't spend so much on me Time. I know she didn’t have a good rest because of my affairs. Sometimes I hope she doesn’t like me. But I really like her and don’t want to break up with her. It’s very contradictory, right? I hope she doesn’t like me anymore but I don’t Dare to break up with her, I have always been selfish. Fortunately, she proposed to break up, so that she will meet someone who is as good as her, instead of someone as bad as me, and she can live a better life and start every day Happy, instead of always quarreling like when I was with you..."

Sister He slapped her hands on the table, smacked her lips, and said to me with a look of disgust: "You are really a selfish person."

"Yes." Although it was very painful for me to break up with Liu Feng, it was exactly what I expected. I thought she had a good reason and started to escape, but in fact it was all for myself.

"Are you shaking M? Is it fun to abuse yourself like this?"

"I don't know..." I took out a tissue and wiped my tears. I cried for so long today, my eyes will be swollen tomorrow morning.

"Alas—" Sister He propped her chin in a rather bored look, "Young people nowadays are full of thoughts..."

"What about Sister He, is there anyone I like?" I thought about it for a while, and decided to make insinuations first, otherwise I would take advantage of Sister He's thunder.

"Why do you have the same virtue as Li Lulu? Your thoughts are all written on your face. Li Lulu told you about Ye Li." Sister He ordered my Lantern Festival and motioned me to eat it quickly. There is no one more suitable for me than Ye Li."

Sister He closed her eyes, as if she had thought of something beautiful. She didn't know who she was telling: "I only love her, and I will only love her in my life."

Sister He smiled. It was the first time I saw her smile like this. It was different from the gentle smile on a child. Looking at her smile would make people feel an inexplicable sadness.I suddenly felt sorry for Sister He, and sorry for Ye Li.

"You..." I hesitated to speak, wanted her to put it down but felt it was a cruel thing, wanted to tell her not to be sad but it was unnecessary, opened and closed my mouth, but couldn't say anything.

"Don't say anything, just think about it, Ye Li's whole life has been planted on me, what's wrong with me giving Ye Li my whole life?"

"Ye Li, she doesn't want you to do this." No one would want this.

"I understand." The corners of her mouth curled down, she kissed the hand on her chin slightly, and repeated in a low voice, "I understand." It seemed like she was swearing to someone.

"Are you shaking M? Is it fun to abuse yourself like this?" I reread what Sister He said to me.

"Pfft." Sister He suddenly laughed. I didn't know what was so funny about it.

Before the Lantern Festival was cold again, I finished eating it, and my chat with Sister He was over, and my mood relaxed a lot.After washing and returning to the room, the mobile phone received five missed calls.Thinking about it with my toes, I knew that the five calls must have been made by Li Lulu. I checked the records, and only four calls were made by Li Lulu, and one call was from an unknown number. The province on the caller ID was my home province.

Probably not.

I called back the unfamiliar number, and it was connected quickly. The person on the other side did not speak, only intermittent wind noises.

I guessed who it was.

It's Liu Feng.