Empress Dowager

In the cold night sky, the waning moon hides behind the dense clouds, peeking at the Shaohua Temple covered with a layer of darkness.It seems that something is destined to happen here.

Gao Lixin stared at the dejected person opposite with a stern gaze, his two frozen hands were clasped together stiffly, Chu Yingxuan didn't feel any warmth from her body.

She tried to tighten her grip a little more, but the rising panic in her heart remained undiminished.Chu Yingxuan raised her eyelashes slightly, and stared tearfully at Gao Lixin, whose eyes were covered with ice. The other party stared back at her motionlessly. Although she didn't say a word, her hostile eyes shocked Chu Yingxuan. Yingxuan leaned on the table trembling and softening her heart.

Her eyes were dull, she was clearly still immersed in the joy of the wedding night, in the blink of an eye, she seemed to have fallen into an ice cave, and the words hidden in her heart poured out, but was suffocated when she approached her throat I can't go up or down, I can't go up or down, it's stuck in my chest, it's almost suffocating.

"In the past life, I have been waiting for your confession. If you said that you didn't have feelings for me at first, you kept it from me, I can understand. But what about later? Since you are willing to have children for me, why are you still unwilling? Confess?" Gao Lixin looked at her quietly, his cold fingers broke free from Chu Yingxuan's shackles, pinched her chin upwards, pinched her cheeks tightly with his fingertips, and the blue veins on his hands proved that Her anger at this time.

Her chest was still heaving and falling violently, and all the things she had encountered in the past swarmed in, impacting her brain, which was painful, as if it was about to explode.

In the past, she deliberately pretended not to care, because she felt that love needs to be tolerated, and she liked her with a shy face. Didn't she only hope to treat her well at the beginning, without asking for anything in return?So even if she is not the complete one in the end, at least she can always be by her side, and she should be content.However, the grudge hidden in her heart would still come up to sting her from time to time, reminding her of the pain.

But she never showed it in front of Chu Yingxuan.

Now that she was reborn from Nirvana, sitting in the wedding room covered with red silk with her beloved one again, Gao Lixin suddenly realized that in this life, her heart has become smaller, she would care, care about, and even get angry.

Gao Lixin frowned, her complexion was sallow, she thought that she would burst out and shout angrily, it was better than holding it in her heart.

But she didn't, she tried hard to stabilize her mind, her pale hands and arms were trembling uncontrollably.

Gao Lixin took a deep breath, blinked his eyes, but still didn't shed a single tear, the pain was so desperate!

"I loved you so much in the previous life, but I still couldn't get you to treat me sincerely?" Gao Lixin finally asked, a question that had been in her heart for a lifetime.

Her lips convulsed violently, and she stared at the other party with a pair of bloodshot eyes.

Chu Yingxuan's chin was restrained by her, she just shook her head with difficulty, the tears in her eyes flowed down to Gao Lixin's tiger's mouth.

"I..." Chu Yingxuan only uttered one word, and the rest choked in her throat. She couldn't bear Gao Lixin's hostile eyes, and closed her eyes with a gray heart, "I have thought about it. I confess to you, but this is the crime of deceiving the emperor after all, and I am afraid that it will implicate the Chu family."

Chu Yingxuan spoke more and more quietly, and when she raised her head again, she was facing Gao Lixin's contemptuous smile, her heart collapsed with a bang, and a sense of shame that she had never felt before leaped into her heart.

Gao Lixin didn't answer her, because this was not a reason, and with the affection she had for her, she should know that she couldn't bear to hurt her family.

Gao Lixin's dark eyes rolled in his eye sockets, still steaming with anger, "What about this life? See you in this life, why haven't you confessed yet?"

Chu Yingxuan lowered her head and bit her lip, and said in a low voice, "I've been looking for opportunities. I was afraid that telling you about your attitude before would push you further away, so it took me until today." She suddenly raised her head to meet her. The other party smiled contemptuously, as if mocking himself, "It turns out that you already knew everything."

She felt like a clown, playing a one-man show in front of Gao Lixin that had already been exposed.

Gao Lixin rubbed Chu Yingxuan's chin with his thumb, "It's unexpected that the dignified daughter of the Xiangfu would do such a despicable thing."

Chu Yingxuan's heart tightened when she heard that, being humiliated so nakedly by her beloved made her heart ruthlessly pinched, like a sharp knife raging on her chest. go.

She endured the pain and held Gao Lixin's wrist, "It's not what you think."

She doesn't want to be such a filthy woman in the eyes of the other party. If she looks at her every day, there will always be only ridicule and contempt in her eyes. She doesn't know how she will go on the next road. Except that revenge can bind them together, but there seems to be an indelible barrier between them forever.

Chu Yingxuan suppressed her voice, "I was forced, she made an appointment with me in private through Yan'er, since it was impossible, I also wanted to make a break with her, but I didn't expect... ·" Chu Yingxuan was stunned, in her previous life, Yan'er was her calamity.

Her lower lip was almost bleeding from her bite, "I didn't expect that she would force me to do such a thing. I was powerless to resist. It was a wilderness again, and there was no one to turn to for help."

Chu Yingxuan took a deep breath, "She treats me like this because she doesn't want to give you my first time."

Gao Lixin's heart was shocked again, every resentment towards her turned into absurd misunderstanding in the end, and the person she resented was also suffering the pain of being hurt.

Her heart seemed to be entangled with thousands of knots, intertwined into an inextricable net.Her hand softened, and she let go of the hand that was tightly locked on Chu Yingxuan's chin, and it fell powerlessly to her knee.

She was powerless to refute, she was right, she was forced, but what if the other party was someone she didn't like?If he had no marriage contract with her, and he was the one who forced her, would she obey?

Gao Lixin glanced at her with drooping eyelids, and stood up with both hands on the table. She didn't know what she was doing with these things?Torturing himself over and over again is also torturing her.

After such a toss just now, the tired heart calmed down, Gao Lixin dragged his weak body and moved two steps aside, the two of them were still wrapped in red knots, Chu Yingxuan followed her pull, and suddenly limp and fell Sitting on the ground, he snorted muffledly, as if he was in pain from a fall.

Chu Yingxuan didn't care about the pain in her body, she raised her head and stared at the condescending Gao Lixin for a moment, waiting for her response, even if it was just a few words.

Gao Lixin leaned over and untied the tight red knots on the two of them, and stretched out his hand to hug Chu Yingxuan, who was sitting on the ground, to the stool, "After you have eaten, rest yourself first!"

Gao Lixin's voice came faintly, without the excitement just now, it became much calmer.

Gao Lixin kept her head down from the beginning to the end, and her eyes had never met the other person. When she turned around, Chu Yingxuan grabbed her arm, "You know everything, and you think I am an unforgivable person. Why did you treat me like this before?" I'm good, let me mistakenly think that you really accepted me again."

Gao Lixin turned around lightly, then raised her head and swept towards the fiery red in the room, shaking her eyes, she let out a long sigh and took a deep breath, "Because I have feelings for you, and I really want to be with you "Gao Lixin said in a low voice, unable to raise his strength, "But this situation and this scene brought back the unwillingness that I had worked so hard to suppress in my heart."

She paused, and the room fell silent for a moment. Gao Lixin lowered his head and looked at her, "Since I found out about your rebirth that day, I have been waiting for your confession."

"Fortunately, you finally confessed."

She slowly raised her head back, closed her eyes lightly, and took a deep breath into the cold air. This breath seemed to drain all the strength she had accumulated in her body.When she opened her eyes again, the big red wedding silk that fell into her eyes from the roof was spinning rapidly above her head, and Gao Lixin shook her body, feeling dizzy for a while.

"Are you alright?" Seeing her losing strength and shaking her body, Chu Yingxuan subconsciously stretched out her hand to support her.After waiting for so long, Chu Yingxuan finally woke up from the panic just now.

Some things must be faced after all.

Gao Lixin turned his arms into his arms, broke away from Chu Yingxuan's hand, waved his hand lightly, and smiled helplessly, "I can't fall down yet, there are still many things waiting for me to do."

Chu Yingxuan knew what many of the things she said were referring to. Aren't they all thanks to Gao Jin for what happened to them today?

Chu Yingxuan pursed her lips, pulled the corner of her mouth upwards, but then fell back bitterly, her heart was throbbing with pain, but she felt a little relieved, no matter whether the other party knew it or not, she finally took the whole He confessed his heart to her, even if she might push him further away.

She lowered her head to look at the red satin inlaid with gold patterns on her body, but fortunately, she is clean in this life.

"It's still the same sentence, I can wait, and I am willing to accept your punishment for my past." She stroked Gao Lixin's arm again with trembling fingertips, "I just ask you not to push me away, even if you don't want to It doesn't matter if you talk to me, as long as I can stay by your side quietly."

Chu Yingxuan pleaded cautiously, raised her fingers lightly, trying to smooth the frown on Gao Lixin's brows, but she was afraid of shocking her, so she shrank back tremblingly, "Please don't torture yourself anymore. Don’t force yourself to do what you don’t want to do.”

Chu Yingxuan lowered her head enduring the piercing pain, including not wanting to get close to her anymore, and not to force her against her heart.She didn't want to see her in pain.

Gao Lixin was stunned, judging from the previous situation, she didn't expect them to be able to speak calmly in the end, the room fell into silence again, and after a while, she replied, "Okay!"

Gao Lixin moved away, didn't look at her again, and walked towards the door solemnly.Chu Yingxuan just stood in front of the table blankly, watching her drift away from him, and didn't try to persuade her to stay.

When walking to the door, Gao Lixin suddenly stopped, and listened carefully, there was another clear knocking of bamboo poles not far from the door, but it was a little more urgent than before.

Gao Lixin was stunned for a moment, looked back at Chu Yingxuan who was looking at her in surprise, opened the door and stepped out.

Standing at the door, Gao Lixin was greeted by a gust of biting cold wind, which came from nowhere, wrapped in the icy coldness of the red bricks and rubble, and ravaged her scorching cheeks. It gave her a jolt, and she became sober a lot.

She opened her eyes, and not far away, under the clear moonlight, three huddled black figures were approaching her.

When the three of them approached, with the help of the halo of the Changxin Palace Lantern, the sight in front of them was finally clearer.

"Your Highness!" Even though the wind and chill outside the hall continued, Ji Rou raised her head to look at Gao Lixin's small face, which was still blushing.

Seeing the shy look on her face, Gao Lixin frowned and turned to look at the two people who were following Ji Rou. After seeing the embarrassing smiles on their faces, Gao Lixin was shocked and staggered two steps back.

Gao Lixin understands that these two are the two nuns sent by the queen to listen to the room.

Listening to the room is a long-standing marriage custom, and no one in the wedding room will listen to the room and there will be no offspring.

Although they are all women, this marriage custom cannot be broken, not to mention that the royal family has a thin population, and the empress must have ordered the emperor to do so, so don't let her break this marriage custom, lest the roots be cut off from her.

Thinking about it carefully, she didn't remember that the queen in the previous life really sent a nanny to come to listen to the room in person, but she just sent Ji Rou, who was waiting outside the door, to ask some questions.

She didn't expect that in this life, the empress would specially send her over from her side.

Gao Lixin coughed softly, glanced at the two nanny who were approaching menacingly, and his face seemed to tell her that they came with a mission, and it would be difficult to complete the mission if they did not complete the mission.

As a result, even she, the princess, couldn't say any more, so she had to retreat into the room obediently.

Chu Yingxuan was still staring blankly at the spot, seeing Gao Lixin turn around and come back, she was a little unbelievable.

Gao Lixin closed the door tightly and bolted it, hesitating for a while before returning to Chu Yingxuan.

The wedding candle in the wedding room had to be allowed to burn out, Gao Lixin hesitantly paced back and forth in front of the bed, wringing his hands and thinking of countermeasures.

"What's the matter?" Chu Yingxuan looked at the anxious expression on her face, wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, and asked softly.

Gao Lixin put his index finger on his lips and hissed, his eyes moved towards the door, and the shape of his lips hinted at the word "Tingfang".

Chu Yingxuan squinted her eyes and got closer to realize the two words she described. She choked, and the tears still in the corners of her eyes flashed.

She lowered her head with a blushing face, with mixed feelings in her heart.

"Cough cough..."

There was a urging sound outside the door, which made the two people in the room tremble subconsciously.

Gao Lixin sighed softly, sat on the edge of the bed, and said in a cold voice, "Come here!"

She softly shouted at Chu Yingxuan who was at a loss, and when Chu Yingxuan moved to her in small steps, Gao Lixin raised his eyes to look at her, and his eyes lingered on the red gold button on her chest with rubies inlaid.

"Sit down!"

Seeing the other party sitting beside her awkwardly, why didn't Gao Lixin feel awkward?Just now they were still glaring at each other, but now they are being forced to share the same bed.

She put her finger on Chu Yingxuan's neckline, turned her face, and happened to see the finger marks on her cheek that she had pinched just now, Gao Lixin's hands trembled, and she unbuttoned a button for a while.

Chu Yingxuan's eyes fluttered in embarrassment, her chin lifted slightly, and she could touch the back of Gao Lixin's hand with just a slight drop, her cheeks were burning red, she turned her head and looked away.

After a while of rustling under the collar, the collar finally lost its restraint and became loose.Chu Yingxuan panicked and lowered her head to look at her eyes, but her shoulders were suddenly covered with two hands and she slowly lay down on the bed, Gao Lixin's face was facing Chu Yingxuan.

The scarf on Chu Yingxuan's chest was open, revealing the inner skirt, which was thinly pressed against her chest, rising and falling with her rapid panting.

Gao Lixin put his arms on both sides of Chu Yingxuan's body, his warm breath hit her face, and his thick eyelashes trembled under her breath.

"You, can you call out? It's just for them to listen to, and it will be over after they leave." Gao Lixin's heart was beating like a drum, and he leaned into Chu Yingxuan's ear while holding his breath. The man's neckline was pierced, and the breathing of the two became even more unsteady.

"En!" Chu Yingxuan turned her head, bit her lip and answered in an inaudible voice.

Gao Lixin bent her legs and pushed her under her body, touched Chu Yingxuan's waist with her hands, and kneaded it softly with strength.

Stimulated in many places on her body, Chu Yingxuan cried out suddenly. She wanted to raise her hand to cover her mouth, but when she thought of the person outside the door listening to the room, she still put her hand down on top of her head. Looking up at the person on top, she saw her eyes closed tightly, her brows biting her lips, her face was tangled together, and she seemed a little distressed.

Gao Lixin was still touching her legs, waist and other sensitive parts, trying to stimulate her to cry out.

"En..." Chu Ying groaned, this situation was more like torture to them.Just as she was thinking about it, the grievance and sadness in her heart rolled upwards, and the voice overflowing from her mouth became more and more fragmented, accompanied by slight sobs, and finally turned into intermittent weeping.

The tears in the corners of Chu Yingxuan's eyes turned into beads with broken threads, and rolled down onto the embroidered pillow. Even though she covered her mouth with her hands, the cry still came out from between her fingers.

The back of her twitching hand was also wet from tears dripping from above at some point.

Feeling the wetness on her hands, Chu Yingxuan opened her blurred eyes, but the person facing her was already covered with pear blossoms and rain.

Gao Lixin's head fell on Chu Yingxuan's shoulder, and she leaned out of the bed, the tears on her face soaked her clothes, and her heart throbbed bitterly.

When the long-awaited sound of bamboo poles sounded, Gao Lixin rolled over and lay down under the bed, kneeling on the bone-chilling floor.

Suddenly losing the warm wrap around her, Chu Yingxuan tugged at the clothes on her body, turned around and leaned against the wall, curled up into a ball, and buried her head in her arms.

The sobbing sound of Wu Yingying echoed for a long time in the fiery red wedding room.

On a quiet night, by the pool in the back garden, a cat ran out of nowhere, hid in the bushes and cried all night.

The author has something to say: I am just a little transparent who wants to write a good novel. I know that there are flaws and shortcomings, but I am still working hard!Why can't the words be kinder when commenting?I welcome any friends who make suggestions, as long as they are sincere comments, I will accept them seriously.However, some extreme words are really hurtful. I didn't expect it to be like this.I'm so tired. I've been writing since six o'clock. I'm slow in typing and thinking. I can only write slowly. I want to update it every day, and I'm working hard.However, I will still be denied all my efforts as worthless in a few words, which is really sad.Heart is more tired!I know that I am too fragile, I should adapt!

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