last love

Wen Ke couldn't sleep that whole night.

After he got a big belly, it was hard to lie flat, so he usually lay on his side in Han Jiangque's arms. When his legs cramped in the middle of the night, he bit Han Jiangque's ear in a daze, muttering about the pain. .And Alpha, even with his eyes half-closed in a sleepy state, could accurately touch his calf under the quilt, and then rub it patiently.

So many nights they were like two little animals snuggled together in winter, fur on fur and toe to toe.One night, Wen Ke remembered that when she woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep, she couldn't help kissing Han Jiangque's eyebrows and eyes a dozen times.

Later he guessed that Han Jiangque had woken up, but none of them told the truth, one was secretly kissing, and the other was pretending to sleep with trembling eyelashes.

Wen Ke has always believed that their love is beyond anyone's imagination.

That feeling of being entangled with souls, that silent, but longing that spanned ten years of life.

He and him have only been reunited for a month, and they are already so passionately in love that they want to spend a lifetime together;

But he didn't expect that after falling in love for half a year, when he asked "Do you hate me?", Han Jiangque looked at him in pain, those dark eyes had already told him the answer clearly, but he couldn't bear to say that word.

It turned out that Han Jiangque really hated him.

He didn't know whether the heartache and throbbing pain in his chest was because he finally realized slowly that he was actually hated, or because of that Han Jiangque who loved so hard.

When you love him, you will also hate him, so it is like loving a knife, which will bleed when you hug it.

Do you hate him when you kiss him, when you make love, when you leave marks in his genital cavity?

Will you see Zhuo Yuan through his face?Do you think he is a traitor?

Will it hurt?

It turns out that the most painful answers in the world are not those you don't know.

The ones you once thought you could get away with.

Wen Ke put his hands on his head and stared out of the window blankly. He didn't draw the curtains, so he could keep staring at the night of City B, from the darkness to the sky slowly turning white.

It was gray and gloomy, like a gloomy bad mood, thrown into the world through the gap in the sky.

The memory hit him like a tide, Wen Ke closed his eyes, and his whole body kept falling into the bottomless trench.

Those sweet moments with Han Jiangque, those whispered whispers when they caressed each other, seemed to be a long steam whistle from a distant port——

It seemed as if a ship had left early in the morning.

……

At [-]:[-], Wen Ke finally got up from the bed with difficulty.

Today is a day full of schedules. In the morning is the routine check-up, in the afternoon is the meeting of the last love in LITE, and in the evening I will communicate with Wang Jinglin about the progress of the first version of the app.

He was already 15 minutes late, which is rare.

These days, even though he is pregnant, he still tries his best to get up on time every day, take a regular nap at noon, and take time to do some yoga suitable for pregnancy at night. It can be said that he has always maintained a very rare and energetic state.

But today, when Wen Ke saw his own face in the bathroom mirror, he couldn't help but froze for a moment. He looked pale and haggard, listlessly holding a toothbrush in his mouth.

Rather than saying that it was physical exhaustion, it was better to say that he seemed to have lost his former vitality overnight.

He stood blankly in front of the mirror, and a thought suddenly flashed through his mind——

Without Han Jiangque, he doesn't seem to know what's the point of continuing to work hard.

But the maternity check cannot be delayed anyway, Wen Ke managed to support his tired body, changed into a thick down jacket and went downstairs.

He asked Xu Jiale to help take him to the hospital in advance, but it was a bit sudden, so Xu Jiale just drove over in his own Tesla, and parked outside without entering the underground parking lot.

When he saw Wen Ke, he got out of the car and strode over.

Wen Ke's waist was a little sore, and he just took two steps forward with his hands, when he suddenly saw a familiar figure curled up slightly on the stone steps by the flowerbed under the gray sky.

"Han Jiangque..."

Wen Ke froze for a moment, but then called out.

The tall Alpha turned his head and stood up immediately when he saw it was Wen Ke.

He was obviously in a bit of a panic, his shiny black wool coat was covered with grass clippings and snow, his face was pale from the cold, but his eyes were bloodshot.

"Han Jiangque, you, are you sitting here all night?"

Wen Ke became a little anxious when he saw it: "Are you frozen? Are you sick? Let me touch—"

"I……"

Han Jiangque originally wanted to speak, but when he saw Xu Jiale approaching from the other side, his expression suddenly turned cold.

He took a step back, refusing to let Wen Ke touch him.

"The obstetric examination is in Room 13, Building B. The doctor's surname is Xiao. The appointment is made, so there is no need to line up."

Han Jiangque didn't look at Wen Ke, but said coldly to Xu Jiale.

"Don't worry." Xu Jiale nodded awkwardly.

Wen Ke suddenly wondered if Han Jiangque had been sitting here all night because he still firmly remembered to accompany him to the prenatal checkup.

Han Jiangque tugged at the collar of his coat, his expression could not conceal his depression, but he still held on to his stubbornness: "I thought about it all night last night, or Wen Ke... we all Let's calm down and separate for a while, maybe it will be better."

His voice was very hoarse, and halfway through the speech, the sentences that should have become stronger and stronger, but his voice became smaller and smaller.

He couldn't restrain himself from looking at Wen Ke's face——

Omega's haggard look, gentle light brown eyes, and eyelashes seemed to be covered with fluffy frost in the cold morning wind.

As long as he takes one more look, the reluctance in his heart will increase.

How could he speak so loudly, he sat here all night, in fact, all the thoughts in his head were spineless.

He didn't want to give in, but he didn't want to break up with Wen Ke even more.

Because he was afraid that Wen Ke would say those two words first, he threw out this sentence fiercely——

We just calm down, not breaking up, definitely not breaking up.

"……it is good."

Wen Ke lowered her head, revealing her long, thin neck: "Then let's... all think about it."

He didn't wear a scarf, would it be cold?

Han Jiangque thought.

"Call me for the next checkup."

Han Jiangque couldn't help but said again: "Call me anytime you feel uncomfortable, and call me if you can't sleep."

"it is good."

Omega replied again, his eyes were a little sore.

This is the first time that Han Jiangque asked him to separate from him.

Wen Ke understood what Han Jiangque meant. Alpha made up his mind to stick to his own way this time, even at the cost of a cold war with him.

"Han Jiangque," Wen Ke raised his eyes, "Don't drive back."

Hearing these words, Han Jiangque's stubborn and calm expression couldn't hold back immediately, he stuttered, and then asked a little sadly: "Wen Ke, you, you won't let me drive that Land Rover?"

"You see your eyes are full of bloodshot eyes. Don't drive, I'll be worried." Wen Ke sniffed her nose and said softly, "You need to take your temperature when you go back. Let me know if you have a fever. It's such a cold day , you will get sick even if you are an Alpha, you know?"

It was only then that Han Jiangque realized that what he had just thought was ridiculous, and he turned his head away from Wen Ke in embarrassment, and stopped talking.

"Han Xiaoque."

Before Wen Ke got into the car, she couldn't help but look back at Han Jiangque.

He felt sad for no reason, and whispered, "I'm sorry, I... I don't know how to get those ten years back."

……

When Xu Jiale was driving, Wen Ke stared blankly at the window.

Xu Jiale sighed, and said in a low voice, "Wen Ke, you know, you can tell me."

"I'm really confused, Xu Jiale."

Wen Ke breathed a sigh of relief at the car window, watched the frost condense little by little, and covered the car window with fog, and murmured: "After leaving Zhuoyuan, I just wanted to make an app. But being able to be with Han Jiangque is a surprise that I never thought of. So for our future, I thought, I have to work harder to be worthy of being with him, and to be worthy of this Love, work, pregnancy, and even marriage, I thought I would remove denominators, remove parentheses, shift terms, and then combine similar terms—then I solved it like I solved equations when I was a child. At that time, I felt that every A question is very simple, but now it is very difficult.

"Sometimes, I feel that I can see that happiness is at the end of the road, a straight road, and I want to hold Han Jiangque's hand and run like this... But he is getting more and more unhappy, and the more I The more we want to hold on to him, the more we feel that our hearts are separating. Han Jiangque hates Zhuo Yuan so much that he grits his teeth and wants to destroy the entire Zhuo family. But hate is too painful and tortuous. I don't want to hate, I just want to tear my Use your strength to run forward."

"I just watched him add numbers to one side of the equation, which can't be solved. Xu Jiale, I'm really scared. I'm afraid that I can't solve the problem of life."

"Wen Ke, in fact, rationally speaking, I can understand you."

Xu Jiale said calmly: "From the moment I know you, you have been a good student. I am not a good student, but I know very well the thinking of a good student—there is a way to solve the problem, and there is also a way to be a person. Two points If the straight line is the closest, then go straight. It’s not right to waste time hating someone who is not worth it, so don’t hate it. You are always sober and right—is that right or wrong?”

"I don't know, Xu Jiale, I really don't know."

Wen Ke closed her eyes in pain: "I wasted ten years, and I was unlucky for ten years. I am very afraid, afraid that I will waste time on a side road, and happiness will slip through my fingers like this."

"I know, Wen Ke, I know you want to move closer to the light."

Xu Jiale opened the car window a little, took a breath of the cold air, and after a long silence, he said in a deep voice: "You think that people can only live by light, but no, people actually need shadows to live." survive.

"The scars of those ten years are the shadows of the two of you, not just Han Jiangque. Wen Ke, if you can't see the shadow, it may actually just mean that you chose to stand in the dark."

"So when you pulled Han Jiangque to run towards the sun, did you ever think about turning around and taking a good look at your shadows?"