last love

The early morning when Han Jiangque left City B, the sky was gray and there was occasional fine snow falling from the sky.Chaoyang hides behind the thick clouds, like a gloomy face quietly looking down on the world.

He turned his phone to silent and put it in his pocket. The highway to Jincheng was empty, and the whole world was so quiet.

Quiet even a little sad.

The drive took about three hours and 15 minutes, along Line 13, passed through three gas stations, and climbed a short section of rugged mountain road before finally arriving at Jincheng——

His hometown, Jincheng, is a small northern city.

The air here seems to be filled with mist forever, and there is no profitable industry, so young people leave year after year. Because of the aging of the resident population, even parks and playgrounds are slowly closed, and the people who stay there are slowly growing with the city. Loss of vitality and attractiveness.

What few people knew was that Han Jiangque often drove back alone like this.

He never takes the high-speed rail, perhaps because of his self-driving habit in the United States, and he prefers to drive alone in silence.

The long drive seemed as natural to him as the solitary migration of wild animals.

The lack of memory makes Han Jiangque not good at careful thinking. He always instinctively returns to his frozen homeland, where the breath calls him from time to time.

……

Jincheng in winter seems to have entered a long hibernation.

There are often no people on the street, the snow on the road has been shoveled up and piled up together, and the old buildings on both sides are equipped with iron anti-theft windows, and ice picks condense under the windows.

He lives in the only Sheraton Hotel in Jincheng, where there are almost no guests, and the front desk is sleepy every day.

Han Jiangque drove slowly in the city. In those few days, time sometimes seemed to be fast, and sometimes it seemed to be very slow.

He went to many places alone——

Those places I have been to with Wen Ke.

Haoledi KTV, Donghu Amusement Park, the beef noodle shop on Lin'an Road, and the small shop where they took pictures of the photo, all of these places have changed beyond recognition.

But Beisan Middle School is still there.

Bei No. [-] Middle School is still on Luoyang Street. There has been no sign of renovation in the past ten years, and the paint on the school gate railings has peeled off.

Han Jiangque turned into the school through the back door just like countless times before, and then walked through the cold and windy corridor of the teaching building in the dark, and found the classroom where he and Wen Ke used to be——

In the empty classroom, the desks are neatly arranged.

The handwriting on the blackboard was a little fuzzy, and it vaguely read the winter homework assigned by the teacher.

First row, second row, third row...

Han Jiangque counted to the eighth row.

The seat was covered with dust, but he didn't care, but blew the dust away and sat down.

Han Jiangque cast his eyes on the playground, through the dirty window glass, it seemed as if he had traveled through time at that moment, and saw him and Wen Ke standing together on the track of the playground for punishment.

How could Wen Ke, a good student, be fined to stand? Probably because he got involved.

But Han Jiangque no longer remembers the reason, but only remembers that Wen Ke and him held the textbook high above their heads to be punished that day.

The sun was scorching hot, and their school uniform shirts were soaked.When he turned his head to look at Wen Ke, Wen Ke's forehead was covered with beads of sweat, but he still secretly stuck out his tongue at him.

Wen Ke's face seemed to be very close to him.

Han Jiangque couldn't help but gently stretched out his hand forward, wanting to touch Wen Ke's soft cheek.

However, the cold touch of the window pane woke him up, and he looked around.

In the dark classroom, he was still sitting alone, and the biting cold wind hit from all directions.

He reached into the desk drawer, and when he took it out again, there was nothing on his hand, only a thick layer of dust on his fingertips.

Han Jiangque's fingers suddenly trembled violently.

For several days, he cut off all contact with the outside world.

He was afraid of communicating with Wen Ke, and even for a moment, he thought he didn't love Wen Ke anymore.

But when he sat here again, he suddenly clarified his escape.

Because he, like Wen Ke, has a long and helpless pain in his heart.

Ten years ago, at the age of 16, he used to sit in the same position, watching the empty palms trembling——

"Where did Xiao Ke's medical report go?"

Han Jiangque jumped up and left the dilapidated classroom as if fleeing.

……

On the expressway of Line 13, a black Audi was driving hard in the snowstorm.

The cold wind seemed to be roaring against the car windows, and the wheels rolled over the thick snow blanket, making a hard creaking sound.

Jiang Chao held the steering wheel cautiously. He didn't dare to step on the gas pedal. Some sections of the road were already icy, and driving in such weather almost kept skidding, which was really a very dangerous thing.

"Mr. Wen, I don't think we can hurry this way anymore, the road condition is very bad."

Jiang Chao said in a low voice.

Wen Ke was still perseveringly calling Han Jiangque's phone number. Hearing Jiang Chao's words, his face turned pale, and he reluctantly said, "Wait a little longer, maybe the snow will be light after a while."

Jiang Chao looked at the haggard Wen Ke, sighed, and continued to drive for a while.

But after stopping at the third gas station, Jiang Chao looked at the steep mountain road in front of him, frowned, and said resolutely: "No, the snow is heavy and the fog is too heavy, and the visibility is so low at night. Shan Dao, absolutely not, you are still pregnant, if something happens, I can't explain it to Mr. Han."

Wen Ke looked at his mobile phone screen and was silent for a long time.

Outside there was the sound of "cracking" hailstones hitting the car body. He actually understood that what Jiang Chao said was right.

It can't be forced anymore.

But he was really not reconciled. Obviously, he only needed another half an hour's drive to find Han Jiangque.

"Wen Ke!"

Jiang Chao's tone suddenly became more serious: "There is a small hotel next to the gas station, we can wait here all night."

Wen Ke finally lowered his head powerlessly, and said softly, "Okay."

They got out of the car together, and as soon as they walked outside, Wen Ke realized more clearly how bad the weather was. The cold wind almost made him unable to stand still. He covered his head and face with his hands, and walked quickly to the hotel with Jiang Chao go.

In the howling wind, Wen Ke vaguely felt the vibration of his mobile phone. For a second, he thought it was his own illusion, but when he lowered his head hastily, his whole body trembled involuntarily——

Wen Ke almost rushed into the hotel, leaning against the door and answering the phone without thinking about anything else.

"Xiao Ke..."

"Han Jiang Que!"

Wen Ke grabbed the scarf in his hand: "Where are you now?"

"Xiao Ke."

The voice on the phone said, "I miss you."

Then he paused, and then repeated it softly: "I miss you."

"I miss you as well."

Wen Ke almost choked up, and whispered, "You, where are you hiding?"

Han Jiangque didn't answer Wen Ke's question right away. His voice sounded very far away, as if echoing muffled in a tunnel: "Xiao Ke, I said I hate you before. But in fact, I only hate you Very little bit; I also hate Zhuo Yuan, of course I hate him. But the person I hate the most is actually myself."

"Han Jiangque, tell me where you are first, are you in Jincheng?"

Wen Ke gripped the doorknob and said.

Han Jiangque on the phone was silent for a while before saying, "I'm sitting on the steps of your corridor."

Wen Ke's eye circles turned red all of a sudden, and he said after a long time, "Is it cold? It's snowing heavily."

"It's not cold. I'm looking at the snow." Han Jiangque said: "Xiao Ke, there is a very small window in the corridor compartment of your house, do you remember? I can only see a small corner of the sky."

"I remember." Wen Ke said, "Han Xiaoque, I'm watching the snow too. I'm at the small hotel outside Jincheng."

"...You came to find me."

Han Jiangque's voice trembled.

"Ah."

Jiang Chao had already opened the room, stood beside Wen Ke silently, and handed over a room card.

Wen Ke nodded and took it, then walked in with Jiang Chao.

This is a small hotel, the facilities in the room are very old, the lights are dim, and there is a musty smell as soon as you open the door, but there is heating anyway.

Wen Ke took off his coat, then stood by the window and looked at the heavy snow falling outside.Facing the phone, he said softly, "Han Xiaoque, we are watching the same snowfall, and I am very close to you."

"Ah."

Han Jiangque responded in a low voice.

The house Wen Ke used to live in was too old. After ten years, it was basically in a semi-abandoned state. The sensor lights in the corridor failed, dust was everywhere, and the corners of the anti-theft door were covered with spider webs. .

It was dark where he was, and the steps were as cold as ice.

He was also sitting here the summer when he lost Wen Ke, when it was pouring rain outside, so he just cried wantonly.

Han Jiangque said softly: "I've been thinking about a question for the past few days. Is a person destined to make many mistakes in his life, and there is no way to recover them forever."

"That's right." Wen Ke said, "I'm sorry, Han Xiaoque, it's me..."

"I'm talking about myself, Xiaoke—ten years ago, I left your medical checklist in the classroom."

"I forgot something so important."

Han Jiangque said in a hoarse voice: "When I came back to class on the third day, the physical examination form had been spread everywhere, and everyone knew that you were actually an Omega, or an E-level Omega. In fact, this is the time when you were born. It all started, right?"

"I know you……"

"Obviously it's my fault, I caused you to be transferred, I caused you to be talked about by other students, but I have never been humble to you, but childishly cold war with you-in fact, it was me You pushed it to Zhuo Yuan."

Wen Ke finally couldn't bear it and said eagerly: "I already know about your memory problem! I have already understood all about the encephalitis caused by pheromone stimulation. It was Fu Xiaoyu who told me. Listen to me, the matter of the medical examination form is not Your fault, and what happened after that, none of us could have predicted."

"You knew already……"

Han Jiangque's face turned pale instantly.

The pain that had been hidden for more than ten years was suddenly seen. He didn't want to say it so early, because it seemed to be shirking responsibility.

But along the way, he had been hiding for too long and was so tired that he even felt relieved when he heard these words.

His tone didn't even have the strength to surprise: "You...you know everything?"

"Yes." Wen Ke said firmly.

Han Jiangque curled up like a child, his body trembling slightly under his coat: "Actually, I always want to find a reason for all this bad luck, but every time I think about it for a long time, I feel very scared. My memory has been severely impaired since then, so I hated Omega at the time, and I hated the fact that you became an Omega; then because of poor memory, I lost your medical examination form. You see, everything is like a ball of yarn Mixed together, it seems that they are destined to go to the point of no return because of my problems."

"It's easy to push all this to Zhuo Yuan, but when I hated him, there was always a hole in my heart."

"Xiao Ke—I am, I am such an unhealthy person, I can't even remember every word you said, so I have been abandoned all my life."

Han Jiangque closed his eyes and leaned his head against the wall. He finally said everything in his heart: "Actually, what I'm really afraid of is that I don't have the ability to give you happiness."

Wen Ke's tears flowed down silently.

He heard the pain in Han Jiangque's heart.

Han Jiangque has been abandoned all his life, abandoned by Han Zhan from birth, hurt by Omega's father, and then to his departure.Even later, when Han Jiangque went to find Alpha's father for him, even Omega's father rejected him because of his "betrayal".

Such continuous abandonment throughout a lifetime is devastating to people.

Han Jiangque's pain has actually surpassed the word hate.

How could a person whose memory is a luxury not feel deeply puzzled and fearful about his fate.

Wen Ke held the phone tightly and said slowly: "Han Xiaoque, listen to me, you have given me happiness."

"You're right, I'm really cowardly. After my mother passed away, I... actually thought about committing suicide, but when I had that thought, I was terrified. That's why I lied to myself and lived like this. ——I have a desire to survive, and this desire to survive comes from you. During those ten years, I sealed up the paintings you gave me during the day and tried not to think about your name; but at night, I became a giraffe. Why? It's a giraffe, Han Xiaoque, because you are the only one who said I look like a giraffe, and you gave my soul a body that can be quietly placed."

"So I'm not only weak, but actually I'm also very cunning. I've never even been able to give Zhuo Yuan true love. I just forcibly restrain myself in the daytime with reason, so that I can be a dutiful Omega, only from the emotional point of view. Said, me and him can't even tell who is sorry for whom. I push all this to the power of the mark because I am cunning out of inertia and dare not even admit my cowardice and despicableness. Even with you At that time, I was still subconsciously protecting myself."

"I am indeed not as good as Wen Ke ten years ago. That Xiao Ke would not be willing to bully you like this. Give me some time and let me become that him again. Believe me, that Xiao Ke has always been in my heart, I Didn't kill him, when I went to the dance floor and grabbed you, all I was thinking...is that you still need me."

"Han Xiaoque, you are the only one in this world who can make the cowardly Wen Ke brave."

"Xiao Ke..."

It turns out that Wen Ke was not born tall, but because he loved him, he became the giraffe in his heart.

I need you all the time.

He suddenly wanted to hug his Omega.

At that moment, Han Jiangque remembered that when they were in the second year of high school, they secretly drank a bottle of beer together before evening self-study. When they came back, they were caught by the head teacher on the spot and asked them severely why they smelled of alcohol.

He was at a loss and stood there, but the good student Wen Ke said without changing his face: "Teacher, because we ate beer duck together at night."

Han Jiangque couldn't help but smile silly.

At the same time, he also remembered his feelings at that time——

How could Wen Ke be so likable?

It turns out that you were so cunning long ago, but when you admit that you are cunning, even the word becomes cute.

"Han Jiang Que."

Wen Ke suddenly called out his full name solemnly: "When you come back, mark me, okay?"

Han Jiangque held the phone, and after a long, long time, he whispered, "I love you, Wen Ke."

He raised his head, in the dark corridor, the only glimmer of light came from the small window in the stairwell, through which a few snowflakes floated in and landed on his face, like a soft kiss.

He thought, he really doesn't care so much now.

These ten years of trials, in fact, they are all passing through in their own way. Wen Ke survived by relying on cunning, and he waited for the giraffe because of his stubbornness.

Neither of these have anything to do with markup.

None of them are perfectly round, of course.

But fortunately, love is actually a jigsaw puzzle. It is precisely because there are gaps between two people that they can fit together seamlessly.